The End

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OMG I FORGOT I HAD A BLOG.

Ok kidding, I've just been super lazy to post.

What's up guys, how YOU doing?

We're at the end of the year.

It feels like time just slipped through your fingers doesnt it?

For me especially because of how chaotic it was, but also damn productive???

For once, haha.

I started the year determined to put out a set of visuals for the Album that I was crafting.

I remembered how chaotic it was trying to find people to do it for me, the way I wanted to...

And how EXPENSIVE it actually was. 

Was I ready to fork out more money? Well I guess I had to. But it was definitely tough to find something of value.

Ultimately I ended up going with a friend from NS (Thank god for connections!) And we ended up making a set of videos I was really proud of, albeit the budget.

From then on it was an insane ride.

I filmed 5 videos and a webseries in a span of a month.

By then I was so so drained, but so satisfied.

It was NON-STOP.

Even after that I was hit with a series of unfortunate events at home, which I dont want to get into. (That was Aug-Oct)

The only thing keeping me sane was my partner & my cat. 

My beautiful cat!!!

DID I MENTION WE ADOPTED A CAT??!!?

Bella has been the greatest blessing this year..

I am so so thankful she came into our lives.

After videos were shot, it was planning for the release.

My NS Buddy (again, thank god for NS) helped me through with it, and we had a night worth remembering & celebrating on Oct 13. :). (Same release day as Troye's album EEEEK!)

After the release date, was our trip to Melbourne :))

Again, some series of unfortunate events, but fuck thaaaat.

We had the best time, living & breathing the coffee in Melbourne.

The cold weather was MUCH appreciated.

I truly just wanna live there for a year and see how it goes. 

Haha... Maybe one day.

14 days went by and back to reality.

When I got back I got so FAT, I decided it was time. 

To go for a blood test and see what shit I needed worry about next.

*Thankfully*, it was just high cholesterol. I guess?

Doc said to me 'Did you ummm, enjoy life a bit too much?'

Me to myself 'Fuck yeah I did.' LOL.

But anyway, it was right after that, that I told myself I needed to get my shit together, and LOSE SOME FUCKING WEIGHT.

So I've literally been counting calories, fasting during lunch and hitting the gym routinely.

I've lost close to 4kg since then.. but not checking during this holiday period cause IYKYK LMAO.

Anyway, that's about it!

All in all, 2023 has a been a chaotic, wonderful & memorable ride.

And I just wanna quiet down a bit from now.

Work on my craft..

Learn production.

Continue writing.

We shall see where it leads..

Till then, take care guys. 

🤍✨

Love, Eran.

Current Song Mood: Tom Odell - The End

I was twenty days clean yesterday

Got a key ring if I make it through to May

Can we talk? Is that okay?

If you've got time, I know a place

A rose garden in the north side of the park

They shut the gates about an hour after dark

We could walk there, we can laugh

Ain't it funny how owners look like their dogs

Oh, I'll claw back my confidence

You'll say, "Do you think we can be friends?"

Or maybe we have reached the end

Or maybe we have reached the end

Do you remember when Taylor Hawkins died?

Did you see his son playing the drums live?

It made me sad, did it make you cry?

I thought of you, I don't know why

Oh, give me back my oxygen

You'll say, "Do you think we can be friends?"

Or maybe we have reached the end

Maybe we have reached the end

In My Bag

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It's already September. 

Wow.

And I already have 2 music videos out.

SURREAAAAAAL.

I've been in my bag, working my ass off on my music for the past few years..

If only you knew.

It's so enlightening to get the feedback that I've gotten.

Thank you to the people that have been supportive. :)

This song is a perfect representation of how I've been hustling.

Can't wait for the next rollout. 

LETS GOOOOO.

Love, Eran.

Current Song Mood: Mahalia - In My Bag

Ooh, tell me how you feel about it, huh
But don't make up a deal about it
You could be makin' moves instead of talking 'bout it
You could be walking 'bout it, you could be doin' it too
You give me the wheel, I'll drive it
Give me the lemons, I'll make you a glass of lemonade, okay
Know that's how you feel about it

Just 'cause I'm in my bag, in my bag, in my bag
You shouldn't feel bad, don't feel bad, don't feel bad (Ha)
You know it's a wrap, it's a wrap, it's a wrap
When I'm in my bag, in my bag, in my bag
Yeah, I'm in my bag, in my bag, in my bag
Just because I can, yes, I can, yes, I can
Still don't understand, I'm the man, yes, I am
When I'm in my bag, in my bag, in my bag
In my bag, in my bag, in my

Only gonna watch, watchin' me from the sidelines
Only when I'm up, you tryna be by my side
This I know 'cause I've seen it before, so
Don't you go 'cause I just wanna talk, but
Please, don't interrupt, it ain't up to me, nah
I can't fill your cup, I don't think I got the liters
This I know 'cause I poured and poured
Yes, I poured and poured, but
I can't do shit for you if you can't even choose your cereal, ha-ha, ha
Really though, ha
Serious, ha
Ha-ha, ha-ha

Ooh, tell me how you feel about it, huh
But don't make up a deal about it
You could be makin' moves instead of talking 'bout it
You could be walking 'bout it, you could be doin' it too
You give me the wheel, I'll drive it
Give me the lemons, I'll make you a glass of lemonade, okay
Know that's how you feel about it

Just 'cause I'm in my bag, in my bag, in my bag
You shouldn't feel bad, don't feel bad, don't feel bad
You know it's a wrap, it's a wrap, it's a wrap (Hey)
When I'm in my bag, in my bag, in my bag
Yeah, I'm in my bag, in my bag, in my bag (In my)
Just because I can, yes, I can, yes, I can (Can)
Still don't understand, I'm the man, yes, I am
When I'm in my bag, in my bag, in my bag
In my bag, in my bag

No, I ain't the same
I came from where you came
But look at me, I did it, went and made a change
I been up, down and 'round, now I'm reachin' highs
Now that I'm in my bag, you can't take what's mine
'Cause I been at it since the baby, now it's my time
Don't know why you're fixated on my life
Tell me what you're doin' for your own grind?
Got you tongue-tied, you ain't blockin' my shine, yeah (Yeah, yeah)

Ooh, tell me how you feel about it, huh
But don't make up a deal about it
You could be makin' moves instead of talking 'bout it
You could be walking 'bout it, you could be doin' it too
You give me the wheel, I'll drive it
Give me the lemons, I'll make you a glass of lemonade, okay
Know that's how you feel about it

Just 'cause I'm in my bag, in my bag, in my bag
You shouldn't feel bad, don't feel bad, don't feel bad (Don't feel bad)
You know it's a wrap, it's a wrap, it's a wrap
When I'm in my bag, in my bag, in my bag
Yeah, I'm in my bag, in my bag, in my bag (In my bag)
Just because I can, yes, I can, yes, I can
Still don't understand, I'm the man, yes, I am
When I'm in my bag, in my bag, in my bag
In my bag, in my bag, in my

Rush

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Oh gosh.

What a time to be alive. Hahaha.

I just finished wrapping up shooting for a series, and my MVs the past month.

It's been soooo crazy.

Juggling work, music and acting.

I really dont know what I was surviving on.

The mental toll & rush of it all. Yet I persisted.

It was certainly a challenge. But I enjoyed every moment of it. Almost felt like it was... meant for me.

I feel absolutely blessed.

The creative people that have entered my life, makes me feel reinvigorated.

Like a match in me has been re-lit.

Even my partner told me I had a certain glow.

I can't wait for what's next.

I feel like.. This has always been my calling.

Here's to the next half of the year.

It's going to be insane.

Love, Eran

Current Song Mood: Troye Sivan - Rush

I feel the rush
Addicted to your touch

Big communication
Tell me what you want
Translate your vibration
Let your body talk to me, baby love
If you wanna show me what
You've been scheming up
If you wanna

Trust the simulation
Don't you let it break
Every stimulation
Promise I can take
What you wanna give
Boy, you betta show me what
You've been scheming up

You got my heartbeat racing
My body blazing

I feel the rush
Addicted to your touch
Oh, I feel the rush
It's so good, it's so good

I feel the rush
Addicted to your touch
Oh, I feel the rush
It's so good, it's so good

So good when we slow gravity, so good
It's so good, it's so good
Breathe, one, two, three, take all of me, so good
It's so good, it's so good

Pass your boy the heatwave, recreate the sun
Take me to the feeling, boy, you know the one
Kiss it when you're done
Man, this shit is so much fun
Pocket rocket gun

You got my heartbeat racing
My body blazing

I feel the rush
Addicted to your touch
Oh, I feel the rush
It's so good, it's so good

I feel the rush
Addicted to your touch
Oh, I feel the rush
It's so good, it's so good

So good when we slow gravity, so good
It's so good, it's so good
Breathe, one, two, three, take all of me, so good
It's so good, it's so good

It's so good, it's so good
It's so good, it's so good

Focus

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The time has finally come.

I start shooting my MVs today.

Imposter syndrome has been hitting me hard.

The past month to be exact.

But breathe, Eran.

You've wanted this for so long.

It's time to give it your all.

You're meant to do this.

Focus. And breathe.

It'll be over soon.

Just have fun.

:)

Love, Eran.

Current Song Mood: Kiana Lede - Focus

Focus on me, babe
Show me, show me that it's real
Focus on me, babe
Show me, show me that it's real
Focus on me, babe
Show me, show me that it's real
Show me that's it's real
Show me, show me that it's real

It's 3:00 in the morning
Late-night scrolling
Lurkin like I'm a P.I.
Peepin' bitches that you like
I went through her photos, so she a model
See, now you playing with my pride
Fuck me up, I can't lie

That what's you like, ain't it?
I mean, let's face it
You like that ass and them
Them perfect faces
Am I enough for you?
'Cause you been tappin'
Aaliyah and Keisha
When really I need ya to

Focus on me
Focus on me
I need to see, yeah
See that energy
So focus on me, yeah-yeah
Focus on me, uh
If I'm all you want, babe, then make believe, yeah

Focus on me, babe
Show me, show me that it's real
Focus on me, babe
Show me, show me that it's real
Focus on me, babe
Show me, show me that it's real
Show me that's it's real
Show me, show me that it's real

You don't even want it
I can see it on your face
See it on your page
You ain't gotta say it
It's breaking me down
How the fuck am I suppose to feel?
So, baby, speak now
If the love we got is real 'cause

That what's you like, ain't it?
I mean, let's face it
You like them curves in the
The perfect places
Am I enough for you?
'Cause you been tappin'
Alicia and Toya
When you know I want ya to

Focus on me
Focus on me
I need to see, yeah
See that energy
So focus on me, yeah-yeah
Focus on me, uh
If I'm all you want, babe, then make believe, yeah

Focus on me, babe
Show me, show me that it's real
Focus on me, babe
Show me, show me that it's real
Focus on me, babe
Show me, show me that it's real
Show me that's it's real
Show me, show me that it's real

Just focus on me
Just focus on me
Focus on
Just focus on me