Robot

Page 1017

Tired already.

With everything.

Haha.

But I have to go on.

I know I can pull through.

It's only the beginning.

Juggling school and work and your social life.. is no joke.

I feel like a jaded robot.

Just... going through the same cycle.

But I guess.. It's up to you to make the difference.

Maybe not in your life.

But to others.

:)

Love, Eran.

Current Song Mood: The Sam Willows - Robot

Can I walk any steadier
Than I do right now
If you ask if I'm ready, sure
I was told just how

Cause you gotta be like the others, don't run for cover
Don't be all soft, be strong like your brother
Why do I bother, be a good son and good daughter

We don't cry for nothin'
We were all build for something
Broken bones still you're running
I know you're breaking down

If you were a robot, I'd change your parts
If you were a movie, I'd change the plot
But you're not a robot, you've got a heart
Though it feels heavy, that's where we'll start

So I'll sit with you until you fall asleep
Because the world is way too loud
Stay close to you if that is what you need
You say the world is way too loud, I'll shut it up

Tough crowd, knocked down, and you feel the dirt
What you gonna do
It feels etched on your skin it hurts
Like a bad tattoo

Then you gotta breathe till it's over, rest till you're sober
You were far out now you're getting closer
Come rain what follows, after tonight comes tomorrow

We don't cry for nothin'
We were all build for something
Broken bones still you're running
I know you're breaking down

So I'll sit with you until you fall asleep
Because the world is way too loud
Stay close to you if that is what you need
You say the world is way too loud, I'll shut it up

If you were a robot, I'd change your parts
If you were a movie, I'd change the plot
But you're not a robot, you've got a heart
And though it feels heavy, that's where we'll start

Seasons

Page 1016

A reminder to myself.

To take life with a pinch of salt.

So many... avoidable things.

So much... drama.

I'm not into that mess man.

I'm just tryna live my own life peacefully and quietly.

Rather live it low-key from now on.

Only cause.. I've had enough of certain things.

Things happen for a reason.

And I'm glad I'm beginning to see that now.

Seasons change.

Maybe, I will too.

Love, Eran.

Current Song Mood: Mozzy, Sjava & Reason - Seasons

Seasons change
There's still time for us to run away
Seasons change
There's still time for us to run away
Seasons

[Sjava:]
San'bonan endlini
USjava kaJama Indlalifa igama ley'nsizwa mina
Ng'phuma le enzansi, kwafela ubaba
Insizwa uma ina-thirty five kthiwa indala
Laph' eng'phuma khona maw'phuma khona bathi aw'fiki la
Ngyamangala uma ngi-la
Bebathi ng'yophelel emoyeni, ba-right
Manje ngiy'nkanyezi
Njengoba ngik'tshela ngempilo yami
Ng'funa uthathe nayi imfundiso yami
Lalela la mfwethu ithemba alibulali
Ukube l'yabulala ngabe nihamba phey'kwami

Poverty
Jealousy
Negativity
Ngith' angandawo la
Go away (far away)
Poverty
Jealousy
Negativity
Ngith' angandawo la
Go away (far away)

[Mozzy:]
I cry with lil' brotha, got high and watched the sunrise
Wiggle on 'em if it's One Time they done hung all of my people
I love all of my people, I'm in the slums with all of my people
They trynna tell us that we all equal
We gettin' no justice so it ain't peaceful
Think they bluffin' they ain't gon' beat you
Paid attorney we gon' need it
Momma told me there was demons, she ain't never lied on her G
She worked her ass off just to feed us, she went to Ross to cop the new Adidas
She used to tap in with all the teachers, they wasn't teaching nothin' it wasn't no secret
Whole lotta grind, lil' niggas beefin', we gotta keep it or end up a victim
Trapped in the system, trafficking drugs, modern day slavery, African thugs
We go to war with this African blood, We go to war with this African blood
When I put niggas on it was all out of love
You was disloyal can't call it no love

[Sjava:]
Poverty
Jealousy
Negativity
Ngith' angandawo la
Go away (far away)

[Reason:]
(Season change)
You know we at the stove with it [?] my niggas know we gon' get it
(Season change)
Dodgin' cops fuck around and get locked you never commin' home with it
Look my nigga I came from the sewer, don't shit on my past you ain't come from manure
You see Reason and you see LA, but bitch I ain't come for no ruin
Just know all of my niggas we struggled for it, had to hustle for it, cried puddles for it
My pops watch my sister get locked for it
I done seen my niggas get popped for it like (pop!)
Gimme that, I carry the llama like a piggyback
I carry my city like guilt that ain't got no forgiveness
No way out, shit we locked in the system
Catch a case and they not gon' forgive ya
White skin you be out 'fore Christmas
Shit, auntie missed eight of those days
Tears from me had to pray those days, had to slave those days
Shit, we had to hit up a couple hood-give-aways those days
Thank God for every inch that he gave us
Thank God for everything 'cause he made us
Like when that car bent the block, brock, brock, brock
Hit the homie but we made it, he already saved us
Thinkin' that he could've died nigga, we as praying to the sky and his mother cried rivers
Healed up, but tough luck, he tried to get revenge, had to drop but his popped and they killed him
Worst part is that it sound so familiar

I am T'Challa
I am Killmonger
One world, one God, one family
Celebration

Cutting Ties

Page 1015

Sigh..

Wow.

What a Monday.

So many things went down.

And only now I've gotten some time to take a breather.

*inhales*

I guess I'm cutting ties.

It's for the best.

I don't need toxic people in my life.

Only keeping the real ones.

Those that are here... to stay.

Love, Eran.

Current Song Mood: 6LACK - Cutting Ties

Runnin' through my weed like, yeah
Runnin' through my weed like, yeah
Runnin' through my weed like, yeah
Well, well, well, well, well, well, well, well

One, two, been thinking long and hard this morning
Three, four, it's hard to focus when a nigga's on it
I been tryna balance all this on my plate
I ain't tryna be lying to your face
You can do better than that
Something I need to share before you rest here
I know that you gave your best here
But I can't figure out what's next here

I pray to God I don't have to pay for not knowing
This world is new to me, I do not know it
My pride never wanted you to know this
Sometimes I just wanna be alone and

Either way I gotta go, woah, oh
When it comes to cutting ties, girl, I'm like a pro, woah, woah
I tell you what you wanna know, oh, woah
You're prolly better on your own, oh, no

Girl, you know I'm moving through that thang at the speed of light
Rolling on the street like this gon' be what you want it to be like
All night, you been on my brain right, going to the pain right
Girl, we know that nothing is the same, right

Five, six, times that I shoulda had that convo, yeah
Seven, eight, could you be gone by tomorrow?
Hide your plane and I'm tryna pop my brakes
I don't wanna make it look like I ran away
You could do better than I
Something you need to know, you gotta let go
You throwing a fit and that's old
Don't be stepping on my Prestos

I pray to God I don't have to pay for not knowing
This world is new to me, I do not know it
My pride never wanted you to know this
Sometimes I wanna be alone and

Either way I gotta go, woah, oh, yeah
When it comes to cutting ties, girl, I'm like a pro, woah, woah
I tell you what you wanna know, oh, woah
You're prolly better on your own, oh, no
Either way I gotta go, woah, oh
When it comes to cutting ties, girl, I'm like a pro, woah, woah
I tell you what you wanna know, oh, woah
You're prolly better on your own, oh, no

One, two, been thinking long and hard this morning
Three, four, it's hard to focus when a nigga's on it
Five, six, times that I shoulda had that convo, yeah
Seven, eight, could you be gone by tomorrow?

Lost Without You

Page 1014 

Never understood you.

You and your actions.

Like.. why?

Why text me again?

When you don't even mean anything.

I've been.. so lost without you.

But I'm slowly regaining myself again.

I'm... more independent now.

I was crushed.

But that was the past.

I'm better now.

..

I promise myself.

Love, Eran.

Current Song Mood: Freya Ridings - Lost Without You

[Verse 1]
Standing on the platform
Watching you go
It's like no other pain
I've ever known
To love someone so much
To have no control
You said I want to see the world
And I said go

[Chorus]
I think I'm lost without you
I just feel crushed without you
I've been strong for so long
That I never thought how much I needed you
I think I'm lost without you

[Verse 2]
Strangers rushing past
Just trying to get home
But you were the only
Safehaven that I've known
Hits me at full speed
Feel like I can't breathe
And nobody knows
This pain inside me
My world is crumbling
I should never have
Let you go

[Chorus]
I think I'm lost without you
I think I'm lost, lost, lost
Ooh, ooh, ooh
I think I'm lost without you, you
I just feel crushed without you
'Cause I've been strong for so long
That I never thought how much I love you

[Outro]
Standing on the platform
Watching you go
You said I wanna see the world
And I said go

From Now On

Page 1013

A start to a new beginning.

Things are.. going to be different from now on.

New environment.

New friends.

And possibly... New love.

I had a lot of fun today.

It's been awhile...

All this energy has me drained at the end of it.

But it was worth it.

So worth it. :)

Have a good rest guys.

Hope to see ya'll around campus.

x.

Love, Eran.

Current Song Mood:  Hugh Jackman - From Now On

[Hugh Jackman:]
I saw the sun begin to dim
And felt that winter wind
Blow cold
A man learns who is there for him
When the glitter fades and the walls won't hold
Cause from then, rubble
What remains
Can only be what's true
If all was lost
There's more I gained
Cause it led me back
To you

From now on
These eyes will not be blinded by the lights
From now on
What's waited till tomorrow starts tonight
Tonight
Let this promise in me start
Like an anthem in my heart
From now on
From now on

I drank champagne with kings and queens
The politicians praised my name
But those are someone else's dreams
The pitfalls of the man I became
For years and years
I chased their cheers
The crazy speed of always needing more
But when I stop
And see you here
I remember who all this was for

And from now on
These eyes will not be blinded by the lights
From now on
What's waited till tomorrow starts tonight
It starts tonight
And let this promise in me start
Like an anthem in my heart
From now on
From now on
From now on

[Ensemble:]
And we will come back home
And we will come back home
Home, again!
...

[Hugh Jackman:]
From now on!

Yes!

[Ensemble:]
From now on
[Hugh Jackman:]
These eyes will not be blinded by the lights
[Ensemble:]
From now on
[Hugh Jackman:]
What's waited till tomorrow starts tonight
It starts tonight
Let this promise in me start
Like an anthem in my heart
[Ensemble:]
From now on
[Hugh Jackman:]
From now on
From now on

[Ensemble:]
And we will come back home
And we will come back home
Home, again!
...

From now on
From now on
Home, again!
...

How Long

Page 1012

How do you live with yourself?

How long? Are you gonna be this way?

Taking something that's not yours.

Avoiding it.

Pretending like nothing happened.

To act like you have your life sorted out.

It leaves me in awe...

Almost... Pitiful.

I've met so many... guys who are just like this.

Actions... speak louder than words.

You get what you give.

Cant help but frown whenever you appear on my feed.

I'm damn disappointed in you.

Love, Eran.

Current Song Mood: Charlie Puth - How Long

Alright

I'll admit, I was wrong
What else can I say, girl?
Can't you blame my head and not my heart?
I was drunk, I was gone, that don't make it right, but
Promise there were no feelings involved

She said "Boy, tell me honestly
Was it real or just for show?" Yeah
She said "Save your apologies
Baby, I just gotta know"

How long has this been going on?
You've been creeping 'round on me
While you're calling me baby
How long has this been going on?
You've been acting so shady
I've been feeling it lately, baby

I'll admit, it's my fault
But you gotta believe me
When I say it only happened once
I tried and I tried, but you'll never see that
You're the only one I wanna love, ooh, yeah

She said "Boy, tell me honestly
Was it real or just for show?"
She said "Save your apologies
Baby, I just gotta know"

How long has this been going on?
You've been creeping 'round on me
While you're calling me baby
How long has this been going on?
You've been acting so shady
I've been feeling it lately, baby

How long has it been going on, baby?
You gotta go tell me now

She said "Boy, tell me honestly
Was it real or just for show?" Yeah
She said "Save your apologies
Baby, I just gotta know"

How long has this been going on?

You've been creeping 'round on me
While you're calling me baby
How long has this been going on?
You've been acting so shady
I've been feeling it lately, baby
How long has this been going on?
You've been creeping 'round on me
(How long has it been going on, baby?)
How long has this been going on?
(You gotta go tell me now)
You been acting so shady
I've been feeling it lately, baby

Redemption

Page 1011

Back on track.

I've been wasting... time. For way too long.

Feels like..

I'm in a different place.

Feels like...

Redemption.

Yeah.

Love, Eran.

Current Song Mood: Zacari, Babes Wodumo - Redemption

Vete al carajo y mamame la tota

[Kendrick Lamar:]
Two wrongs don't make us right away
Tell me something's wrong
Party all of our lives away
To take you on

[Zacari:]
Oh, baby I want you
Baby I need you
I wanna see you
Baby I wanna go out yeah
Baby I wanna go out yeah
Baby I want you
Baby I need you
I wanna see you
Baby I wanna go out yeah
Baby I wanna go out yeah

All night (all night, all night)
All night
Your body's on fire
And your drinks on ice
All night (all night, all night)
All night
Your body's on fire
And your drinks on ice

[Babes Wodumo:]
Oh my word oh my gosh oh my word (Oh my gosh)
Oh my word oh my gosh oh my word (Oh my gosh)
Oh my word oh my gosh oh my word (Oh my gosh)
Oh my word oh my gosh oh my word (Oh my gosh)
Everybody say kikiritikiki (kikiritikiki)
Everybody say kikiritikiki (kikiritikiki)
Everybody say kikiritikiki (kikiritikiki)
Everybody say kikiritikiki (kikiritikiki)
Ung'bambe, ung'dedele. Ung'bhasobhe, ung'gudluke
Ung'bambe, ung'dedele. Ung'bhasobhe, ung'gudluke
Ung'bambe, ung'dedele. Ung'bhasobhe, ung'gudluke
Ung'bambe, ung'dedele. Ung'bhasobhe, ung'gudluke

[Zacari:]
Baby I want you
Baby I need you
I wanna see you
Baby I wanna go out yeah
Baby I wanna go out yeah
Baby I want you
Baby I need you
I wanna see you
Baby I wanna go out yeah
Baby I wanna go out yeah

All night (all night all night)
All night
Your body's on fire
And your drinks on ice
All night (all night all night)
All night
Your body's on fire
And your drinks on ice

[Kendrick Lamar:]
(We go)
High up (High up)
High up (High up)
High up (High up)
High up (High up)
High up (High up)
High up (High up)
High up (High up)
High up (High up)

[?]

[Zacari:]
Baby I want you
Baby I need you
I wanna see you
Baby I wanna go out yeah
Baby I wanna go out yeah
Baby I want you
Baby I need you
I wanna see you
Baby I wanna go out yeah
Baby I wanna go out yeah

All night (all night all night)
All night
Your body's on fire
And your drinks on ice
All night (all night all night)
All night
Your body's on fire
And your drinks on ice

A Different Way

Page 1010

So swarmed with everything lately.

Work. Uni. People.

I don't have time to deal with... drama.

Lol.

Dont drag me inside your mess.

Aint nobody got time for that.

I'm here to live my life to the fullest.

And I'm gonna excel in my own way.

So yeah.

I'm gonna do things in a different way.

I'm gonna stay clear of this scene for now.

Cause there's too much toxic psychos around.

Gonna lay low and work my ass off.

Cause at the end of the day, the results will show.

Love, Eran.

Current Song Mood: DJ Snake, Lauv - A Different Way

Could you believe I could be different?
I'll be the difference, I'll lift you high
And I understand your hesitation
My reputation, it's no surprise

So let me redefine you
And you can see the tide move
Just like tears in the eyes do
And when you're feeling alone
Oh, baby, I'll be right here
Between the sea and silence
So breathe easy, my dear
You can find sunshine in the rain

I will come running when you call my name
Even a broken heart can beat again
Forget about the one who caused you pain
I swear I'll love you in a different way

I know that love is so unforgiving
You've been a victim too many times
And I'll be the thread, hold you together
I'll be forever, will you be mine?

So let me redefine you
And you can see the tide move
Just like tears in the eyes do
And when you're feeling alone
Oh, baby, I'll be right here
Between the sea and silence
So breathe easy, my dear
You can find sunshine in the rain

I will come running when you call my name
Even a broken heart can beat again
Forget about the one who caused you pain
I swear I'll love you in a different way

Hey, hey, hey
I swear I'll love you in a different way
Hey, hey, hey
I swear I'll love you in a different way

In Your Eyes

Page 1009

Smooth shift today.

Contented.

Blessed.

Came back after a short break, 

Only to find out a patient I used to take care of passed on.

Damn.

And knowing his last words..

My hair stood.

I'm glad I had the opportunity to take care of you.

I hope I did you good.

In your eyes.

Rest In Peace.

Love, Eran.

Current Song Mood: BANKS - In Your Eyes (Peter Gabriel Cover)

[Hook]

Ah, ah, ah, ah, oh-oh

Ah, ah, ah, ah, oh-oh

Ah, ah, ah, ah, oh-oh

Ah, ah, ah, ah, oh-oh

[Verse 1]

Ah, ah, ah, ah, I get so lost sometimes

Days pass and this emptiness fills my heart

When I want to run away

I drive off in my car

But whichever way I go

I come back to the place where you are

[Bridge]

All my instincts, they return

And the grand façade, so soon will burn

Without a noise, without my pride

I reach out from the inside

[Chorus]

In your eyes

The light, the heat

I am complete

I see the doorway to a thousand churches

The resolution of all the fruitless searches

Oh, I see the light and the heat

I want to be that complete

I want to touch the light

The heat I see in your eyes

[Hook]

Ah, ah, ah, ah, oh-oh

Ah, ah, ah, ah, oh-oh

[Verse 2]

Love, I don't like to see so much pain

So much wasted and this moment keeps slipping away

I get so tired working so hard for my survival

I look to the time with you to keep me awake and alive

[Bridge]

All my instincts, they return

And the grand façade, so soon will burn

Without a noise, without my pride

I reach out from the inside

[Chorus]

In your eyes

In your eyes

In your eyes

In your eyes

In your eyes

The light, the heat

I am complete

I see the doorway to a thousand churches

The resolution of all the fruitless searches

Oh, I see the light and the heat

I want to be that complete

I want to touch the light

The heat I see in your eyes