Bury A Friend

Page 1178

Sometimes...

Sometimes the bad thoughts just won't leave your head.

It's an addiction.

It whispers.

It lingers.

I wanna end me.

I wanna end me.

I wanna .. end.

You can choose to let it take over you.

Or you can just... let it past.

Like the seasons.

Like the endless time ticking away.

And once it does,

you'll feel like yourself again.

I don't want to bury a friend.

I don't want to bury a lover.

I just want you by my side.

Forever.

Love, Eran.

Current Song Mood: Billie Eilish - Bury A Friend

What do you want from me? Why don't you run from me?
What are you wondering? What do you know?
Why aren't you scared of me? Why do you care for me?
When we all fall asleep, where do we go?

(Come here)
Say it, spit it out, what is it exactly
You're payin'? Is the amount cleanin' you out? Am I satisfactory?
Today, I'm thinkin' about the things that are deadly
The way I'm drinkin' you down
Like I wanna drown, like I wanna end me

Step on the glass, staple your tongue (Ahh)
Bury a friend, try to wake up (Ah-ahh)
Cannibal class, killing the son (Ahh)
Bury a friend, I wanna end me

I wanna end me
I wanna, I wanna, I wanna... end me
I wanna, I wanna, I wanna...

What do you want from me? Why don't you run from me?
What are you wondering? What do you know?
Why aren't you scared of me? Why do you care for me?
When we all fall asleep, where do we go?

(Listen)
Keep you in the dark, what had you expected?
Me to make you my art and make you a star
And get you connected?
I'll meet you in the park, I'll be calm and collected
But we knew right from the start that you'd fall apart
'Cause I'm too expensive
It's probably somethin' that shouldn't be said out loud
Honestly, I thought that I would be dead by now (Wow)
Calling security, keepin' my head held down
Bury the hatchet or bury a friend right now

For the debt I owe, gotta sell my soul
'Cause I can't say no, no, I can't say no
Then my limbs all froze and my eyes won't close
And I can't say no, I can't say no
(Careful)

Step on the glass, staple your tongue (Ahh)
Bury a friend, try to wake up (Ah-ahh)
Cannibal class, killing the son (Ahh)
Bury a friend, I wanna end me

I wanna end me
I wanna, I wanna, I wanna... end me
I wanna, I wanna, I wanna...

What do you want from me? Why don't you run from me?
What are you wondering? What do you know?
Why aren't you scared of me? Why do you care for me?
When we all fall asleep, where do we go?

Tell Me

Page 1177

Sorry if I made you worried or sad last night.

Sometimes bad dreams seems so.. real.

But being in your arms again today..

This.. was real.

And it made me feel so relieved.

I love it every time you tell me how much I mean to you.

Because I feel exactly the same way.

I just want your worries to go away.

Whenever you're with me.

Because you have nothing to worry about.

:)

I love you.

Love, Eran.

Current Song Mood: AXSHN Ft Sofia Reyes - Tell Me

[Verse 1]
I've been doing my own thing
Always, always had a way
Of having bad timing
But to my great surprise
Ever since I looked in your eyes
I had one question for you

[Chorus]
Tell me if you want me to
Give you all my time
I want to make it good for you
'Cause you blow my mind
I promise, boy, that I'll be true
You're the perfect find
So tell me if you want me to, yeah

[Post-Chorus]
Tell me if you want me to

[Verse 2]
If you thought I'd sleep on this
Oh you're wrong 'cause all I dream about is our first kiss
And you are the first one to make me feel like this
And this is one opportunity that I can't resist, no, no
Boy, you wanna know the deal
You are wondering if the words I'm saying are for real
'Cause you got more appeal
Than any man in this whole world
And baby, I gotta know how you feel, yeah

[Chorus]
Tell me if you want me to
Give you all my time
I'm gonna make it good for you
'Cause you blow my mind
I promise, boy, that I'll be true
You're the perfect find
So tell me if you want me to, ooh

[Post-Chorus]
Tell me if you want me to, yeah

[Bridge]
Tell me if you want to
I can make it good for you
Tell me, tell me, baby
Tell me if you want to
I can make it good for you
So tell me, tell me, oh
Can you tell me?

[Chorus]
Tell me if you want me to
Give you all my time
I'm gonna make it good for you
'Cause you blow my mind
I promise, boy, that I'll be true
You're the perfect find
So tell me if you want me to

We Stayed Up All Night

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So good to see you your usual self today.

I guess yesterday must've been pretty scary and draining huh.

I felt it.

I could feel it... around us.

But thats okay.

Im not afraid because I know you're by me.

 We stayed up all night last night.

Tossing and turning in bed.

Yet today we're still here.

Still together.

Stronger than ever.

I love that.

I'll see you soon.

xx

Love, Eran.

Current Song Mood: Tourist Ft Ardyn - We Stayed Up All Night 

[Verse 1]
So let's pretend that we have no weight on our shoulders
No time for future, no time for the past
You know we're young, have time for fun
We'll open the door and out we run

[Verse 2]
I remember 'cause you told me you were going away
I wanted to know you, tomorrow was too late
Standing on younger ground, we didn't know what we'd found
But the world put you in front of me and we aligned

[Chorus]
We stayed up all night (to watch the sunrise)
We stayed up all night (we never felt so alive)
We stayed up all night (to watch the sunrise)
We stayed up all night (we never felt so alive)

[Verse 3]
I remember the evening, the air was cold outside
I was wanting for nothing, somehow you arrived
Standing on younger ground, we didn't know what we'd found
The world put you in front of me and we aligned

[Chorus]
We stayed up all night (to watch the sunrise)
We stayed up all night (we never felt so alive)
We stayed up all night (to watch the sunrise)
We stayed up all night (we never felt so alive)

[Bridge]
I won't give it up tonight
I won't give it up tonight
I won't give it up tonight
I won't give it up tonight

[Chorus]
We stayed up all night (to watch the sunrise)
We stayed up all night (we never felt so alive)
We stayed up all night (to watch the sunrise)
We stayed up all night (we never felt so alive)

[Outro]
We stayed up all night
We stayed up all night
We stayed up all night
We stayed up all night

Revelation

Page 1175

Never knew how much impact I had...

Its pretty overwhelming.

After the revelation today,

I just want to hold you closer to me.

It was meant to be.

All of this.

I hope you'll never have to feel that way again.

Because you have me now.

:)

Love, Eran.

Current Song Mood: Troye Sivan & Jonsi - Revelation

You're a revelation
Won't you liberate me now
From a holy world
You're a revolution
I will liberate you now
As the walls come down

It's a rocky road to say
Maybe I won't go
Hey dear, you're a wrecking ball
And you're here crushing all I'm told

Ever I roam
Ever I roam
Further from home
Your hand I hold

It's a revelation
There's no hell in what I found
No kingdom shell
How the tides are changing
As you liberate me now
And the walls come down

'Til the end
It's a rocky road to say
Maybe I won't go
Hey dear, you're a wrecking ball
And you're here crushing all I'm told

Ever I roam
Ever I roam
Further from home
Your hand I hold
Ever I roam
Ever I roam
Ever I roam

Together From Afar

Page 1174

Dragons and paddlepops and nachos and love.

What a perfect way to spend Valentines on.

Everyday is Valentines when I'm with you.

Even if we're together from afar.

We always come back closer.

Thank you for today.

I love you.

Appreciate you.

So much.

:)

Love, Eran.

Current Song Mood: Jonsi - Together From Afar

[Verse 1]
You and I, we been through it all
Is it time to say goodbye?
Dry your eye
We have been together so long
Is it time to let go?
Apart we grow
Soon we will know

[Chorus]
You are the reason to go on livin'
I need to try things and be on my own
We'll always be friends but keep our distance
We'll be together from afar, forever
Listen, listen within, ooh

[Verse 2]
We have been, we been everywhere
To the stars and back again, yes my friend
We have seen, we've seen everything
But will I ever see you again, my old friend?
Friends 'til the end

[Chorus]
You are the reason to go on livin'
I need to try this and be on my own
We'll always be friends but keep our distance
We'll be together from afar, forever
Listen, listen within, ooh

[Bridge]
You and I, we'll say all of our goodbyes
When will I see you again?
You and I, we'll say all of our goodbyes
When will I see you again?
You and I, we'll say all of our goodbyes
When will I see you again?
You and I, we'll say all of our goodbyes
When will I see you again?

[Outro]
(When will I see you again?
When will I see you again?)

Love Someone

Page 1173

You pamper me.

And I'm so shy about it.

Thank you so much.

For always giving me so much.

For putting so much effort in me.

When no one else ever had.

And for believing in me.

I guess that's what happens when you really love someone.

And I'll never ever take that for granted.

I love you so much.

I'll see you tomorrow. :)

Love, Eran.

Current Song Mood: Lukas Graham - Love Someone 

There are days
I wake up and I pinch myself
You're with me, not someone else
And I am scared, yeah, I'm still scared
That it's all a dream

'Cause you still look perfect as days go by
Even the worst ones, you make me smile
I'd stop the world if it gave us time

'Cause when you love someone
You open up your heart
When you love someone
You make room
If you love someone
And you're not afraid to lose 'em
You probably never loved someone like I do
You probably never loved someone like I do

When you say
You love the way I make you feel
Everything becomes so real
Don't be scared, no, don't be scared
'Cause you're all I need

And you still look perfect as days go by
Even the worst ones, you make me smile
I'd stop the world if it gave us time

'Cause when you love someone
You open up your heart
When you love someone
You make room
If you love someone
And you're not afraid to lose 'em
You probably never loved someone like I do
You probably never loved someone like I do

All my life
I thought it'd be hard to find
The one 'til I found you
And I find it bittersweet
'Cause you gave me something to lose

But when you love someone
You open up your heart
When you love someone
You make room
If you love someone
And you're not afraid to lose 'em
You probably never loved someone like I do
You probably never loved someone like I do
You probably never loved someone like I do

Fake Smile

Page 1172

Today was slow.

Reaaaaaal slow.

I guess it feels that way after coming back from a long break.

But just put on a fake smile and move along.

I don't know how I can stand handling other people's issues.

Especially when they're so tiny.

Compared to real problems.

Woooord.

At least seeing you again made me feel better.

Thank you. :>

Time to rest.

A longer week ahead.

Yikes.

Love, Eran.

Current Song Mood: Ariana Grande - Fake Smile

After laughter comes tears
After laughter comes tears

Another night, another party
Sayin' "Hi" to everybody
I'm sorry
I start to leave, I gotta leave now
Got somewhere I gotta be now
I'm starving

Can somebody walk me to my car?
If I go alone, I'm not gon' make it very far
I'm happy for the love
And all of the above
If I'm being honest, I done been through way too much

I can't fake another smile
I can't fake like I'm alright
Ooh, ah (Ooh, ah)
And I won't say I'm feeling fine
After what I been through, I can't lie
Ooh, ah (Ooh, ah)

Fuck a fake smile, smile
Fuck a fake smile, fake smile

I read the things they write about me
Hear what they're sayin' on the TV
It's crazy
It's gettin' hard for them to shock me
But every now and then, it's shocking
Don't blame me

I know it's the life that I chose
But, baby, I'm grateful. I want you to know
I'm happy for the love
And all of the above
If I'm being honest, I done been through way too much

I can't fake another smile
I can't fake like I'm alright
Ooh, ah (Ooh, ah)
And I won't say I'm feeling fine
After what I been through, I can't lie
Ooh, ah (Ooh, ah)

Fuck a fake smile, smile
Fuck a fake smile, fake smile

If I'm hurt, I ain't gon' lie about it
Arms crossed with the attitude, lips pouted
If I'm mad, I ain't gon' lie about it
Neck roll with the attitude, yeah

If I'm hurt, I ain't gon' lie about it
Arms crossed with the attitude, lips pouted
If I'm mad, I ain't gon' lie about it
Neck roll with the attitude, yeah

I can't fake another smile (And I can't fake)
I can't fake like I'm alright (No smile)
Ooh, ah (Ooh, ah) (Ooh)
And I won't say I'm feeling fine (I'm feeling fine)
After what I been through, I can't lie
Ooh, ah (Ooh, ah)

Fuck a fake smile, smile
Fuck a fake smile, fake smile (Yeah)

Needy

Page 1171

Today.. felt good.

Peaceful. Relaxed. Carefree.

Reminiscing about yesterday.

My priorities.. are clearer now.

I'm fragile.

And needy.

I admit.

And that's perfectly okay.

Because I have arms to fall back to.

And shoulders to cry on.

And people who are willing to stick by me.

And that's all that matters. 

:)

Love, Eran.

Current Song Mood: Ariana Grande - Needy 

If you take too long to hit me back
I can't promise you how I'll react
But all I can say
Is at least I'll wait for you

Lately I've been on a roller coaster
Tryna get a hold of my emotions
But all that I know
Is I need you close

And I'ma scream and shout for what I love
Passionate, but I don't give no fucks
I admit that I'm a lil' messed up
But I can hide it when I'm all dressed up

I'm obsessive and I love too hard
Good at overthinking with my heart
How you even think it got this far?
This far

And I can be needy, way too damn needy
I can be needy, tell me how good it feels to be needed
I can be needy, so hard to please me
I know it feels so good to be needed

Sorry if I'm up and down a lot
Sorry that I think I'm not enough
And sorry if I say "sorry" way too much

You can go ahead and call me selfish (Selfish)
But after all this damage I can't help it (Help it)
Or what you can trust, 'cause I need your touch

I'ma scream and shout for what I love
Passionate, but I don't give no fucks
I admit that I'm a lil' messed up
But I can hide it when I'm all dressed up

I'm obsessive and I love too hard
Good at overthinking with my heart
How you even think it got this far?
This far

And I can be needy, way too damn needy
I can be needy, tell me how good it feels to be needed
I can be needy, so hard to please me
I know it feels so good to be needed

Picture Frames

Page 1170

Blessed.

Just..

Blessed.

Thank you for making this year's birthday a little more special..

I've never cried to anyone.

Ever.

But today was just..

It just felt safe.

To cry in your arms.

A little embarrassed though.

Thank you for pampering me.

Like a lil princess.

You're amazing.

And I love you so much.

I just love.. lying next to you.

Listening to amazing music.

Memories that hold like Picture Frames.

I'll keep them in my heart.

Forever.

Love, Eran.

Current Song Mood: Rei Brown - Picture Frames

Love, I don't know what makes you move

I don't know what makes you move in these photographs

Love, I stare at these polaroids

I stare at these polaroids and you're staring back

Deep sleep aviations

In conversations with constellations

Midnight trepidations

The detonations of self-deprecation

Oooh, ooh, I don't need you anymore

Oooh, ooh, I don't need you anymore

But, love, when I close my eyes

I'm lying next to you

And I don't want memories

To fade like pictures do

In these picture frames

Love, I don't know what makes you laugh

I don't know what makes you laugh in these sepia tones

Love, I can't help but make believe

I can't help but make believe that you're coming home

White noise meditation

The hesitation to change the station

Radio resuscitation

The suffocation in contemplation

Oooh, ooh, I don't need you anymore

Oooh, ooh, I don't need you anymore

But, love, when I close my eyes

I'm lying next to you

And I don't want memories

To fade like pictures do

Someone I once knew

In these picture frames

Wouldn't It Be Great

Page 1169

I love connecting with people.

Especially those that have the same burning passion that I do.

Today inspired me.

The talented people I met.

It makes me wanna... do more.

Be more.

I just wish I could do music full-time.

Have my own... studio.

Wouldn't it be great?

Love, Eran.

Current Song Mood: Rei Brown - Wouldn't It Be Great

I'm trapped beneath the ice
Memories and flashbacks pull me down
Further I decline
I hear a voice as I begin to drown

Wouldn't it be great
If no one had to leave
Wouldn't it be great
If our hearts didn't bleed
Some things stay
And some things fade
Wouldn't it be great
If things were okay

I find her silhouette
Dances in the corners of my mind
The sun begins to set
And still her shadow's there for me to find

Wouldn't it be great
If no one had to leave
Wouldn't it be great
If our hearts didn't bleed
Some things stay
And some things fade
Wouldn't it be great
If things are okay

I'm So Tired...

Page 1168

I'm so tired...

Sinus and migraines.

Long day at work.

Thinking of this week makes me nervous too.

But all my problems just go away when I'm in your arms.

Thank you.

I'm never tired of you.

Please don't ever look down on yourself.

I loveeeee you.

So much.

:)

Love, Eran.

Current Song Mood: Lauv Ft Troye Sivan - I'm So Tired...

[Lauv:]
I'm so tired of love songs, tired of love songs
Tired of love songs, tired of love
Just wanna go home, wanna go home
Wanna go home, woah
So tired of love songs, tired of love songs
Tired of love songs, tired of love
Just wanna go home, wanna go home
Wanna go home, woah

Party, trying my best to meet somebody
But everybody around me is falling in love to our song
I-I, oh I... yeah
Hate it, taking a shot 'cause I can't take it
But I don't think they make anything that strong so I hold on
I-I, oh I... yeah

I'm so tired of love songs, tired of love songs
Tired of love songs, tired of love
Just wanna go home, wanna go home
Wanna go home, woah
So tired of love songs, tired of love songs
Tired of love songs, tired of love
Just wanna go home, wanna go home
Wanna go home, woah

[Troye Sivan:]
Strangers, killing my lonely nights with strangers
And when they leave, I go back to our song, I hold on
I-I, oh I...
Hurts like heaven, lost in the sound
Buzzcut season like you're still around
Can't unmiss you and I need you now
Yeah, I-I, oh I... yeah

[Lauv & Troye Sivan:]
I'm so tired of love songs, tired of love songs
Tired of love songs, tired of love
Just wanna go home, wanna go home
Wanna go home, woah
So tired of love songs, tired of love songs
Tired of love songs, tired of love
Just wanna go home, wanna go home
Wanna go home, woah
I'm so tired of love songs
Tired of love songs, tired of love songs (someone take me home)
Tired of love songs, tired of love
Just wanna go home, wanna go home ('cause I can't be alone)
Wanna go home, woah
So tired of love songs, tired of love songs (I'm so tired)
Tired of love songs, tired of love
Just wanna go home, wanna go home
Wanna go home, woah