Waste My Time

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It was a good night out. 

:)

Although The Singapore Night Festival was pretty underwhelming and a waste of time..

But everything else made up for it.

A prata data.

Starbucks.

The beautiful art gallery of rejection.

Walking down the streets of Orchard...

Heh.

It actually brought back a lot of memories.

Nostalgic, warm ones.

:)

But now.. I get to create new ones.

New ones with you.

Love, Eran.

Current Song Mood: Grace Vanderwaal - Waste My Time

Runnin with you it's like we're in a memory
That I'll try to forget when you go up and leave
Walkin slow because the times been running far
Maybe I should grow up, leave you with a scar

You say I love you with an accent
Then I pretend like nothing happened
Tell me won't you miss Manhattan
And even though this is pointless
And even though this is hopeless

I just wanna waste my time
I just wanna waste your time
We can do anything you like
We can talk all night (ooooh)

I'm unsure of you because I know you'll leave
You say you love me but I whisper I don't believe
Stopping moments cause I can't let it be true
This is going no where but I love wasting my time with you

You say I love you with an accent
Then I pretend like nothing happened
Tell me won't you miss Manhattan
And even though this is pointless
And even though this is hopeless

I just wanna waste my time
I just wanna waste your time
We can do anything you like
We can talk all night (ooooh)

Waste my time
Waste your time

You say I love you with an accent
And then I looked away and acted like nothin happened
Tell me honestly will you miss Manhattan
And even though this is pointless
And even though this is hopeless

I just wanna waste my time
And I just wanna waste your time
We can do anything you like
We can talk all night, I'll pretend your mine just waste my time

My darling you have one life
And time will fly
So you should be wise
But for you I'd happily waste mine and
You have one life
And time will fly so
You should be wise
For you I'd happily waste mine

Ayahuasca

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'I can really sleep with you around.' he said to me, half-asleep.

Heh.

Something that I've frequently heard you say the past 8 months.

I'm so lucky.. to have you in my life.

Thank you for staying in mine.

And making me feel special. And safe.

I'm so excited for our upcoming trip.

And to many more adventures with you.

Hope you sleep soundly tonight.

Goodnight.

Love, Eran.

Current Song Mood: Vancouver Sleep Clinic - Ayahuasca

Miles and miles apart, darling look how far we've come
I wish we would be closer, but we're speaking different tongues

And like a kind mirage that's been playing the desert sun
Everything I wanted
Became nothing real at all

I don't know what I'm chasing
Maybe I'll never know
When everything else around me is fading
I don't know where to go

Let the rain come down
I just wanna feel again

I could fly to the stars
I could die in your arms

Racing in my mind, doing 100 in a 60
I been swerving in the car driving demons out the city

Running all the lights
All I see is red with the devil in the district
Running out of time
I just gotta drive til I figure how to fix this

Lover

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This year..

I never thought I would find love again.

Let alone, have my own lover.

It feels good to be in your arms again.

Even just a few days and I can't even take it.

You keep me Sane. Sorted. And Loved.

And I can't be more grateful.

You're my lover.

And I want to keep you forever.

x

Love, Eran.

Current Song Mood: Taylor Swift - Lover

We could leave the Christmas lights up 'til January
This is our place, we make the rules
And there's a dazzling haze, a mysterious way about you, dear
Have I known you twenty seconds or twenty years?

Can I go where you go?
Can we always be this close forever and ever?
And oh, take me out and take me home
You're my, my, my, my
Lover

We could let our friends crash in the living room
This is our place, we make the call
And I'm highly suspicious that everyone who sees you wants you
I've loved you three summers now, honey, but I want 'em all

Can I go where you go?
Can we always be this close forever and ever?
And oh, take me out and take me home (Forever and ever)
You're my, my, my, my
Lover

Ladies and gentlemen, will you please stand?
With every guitar string scar on my hand
I take this magnetic force of a man to be my
Lover
My heart's been borrowed and yours has been blue
All's well that ends well to end up with you
Swear to be over-dramatic and true to my
Lover

And you'll save all your dirtiest jokes for me
And at every table, I'll save you a seat
Lover

Can I go where you go?
Can we always be this close forever and ever?
And oh, take me out and take me home (Forever and ever)
You're my, my, my, my
Oh, you're my, my, my, my
Darling, you're my, my, my, my
Lover

Moondust

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Isn't it lovely.

If we could just wake up to each other everyday.

Or come back home to each other after a long day.

It would be... a lovely future.

Your time is not up.. not yet.

There's still so much left to explore.

We'll do that together.

In the meantime.

We'll bury our love.

In the moondust.

As we stare into the ceiling.

Lost in thoughts.

Love, Eran.

Current Song Mood: Jaymes Young - Moondust

I'm building this house on the moon
Like a lost astronaut
Lookin' at you like a star
From a place the world forgot
And there's nothing that I can do
Except bury my love for you

[Hook:]
The brightness of the sun will give me just enough
To bury my love in the moon dust
I long to hear your voice, but still I make the choice
To bury my love in the moon dust

Nothing can breathe in the space
Colder than the darkest sea
I have dreams about the days driving through your sunset breeze
But the first thing that I will do
Is bury my love for you

[Hook]

I'm a cast away, and men reap what they sow
And I say what I know to be true
Yeah, I'm living far away on the face of the moon
I've buried my love to give the world to you

[Hook]

I've buried my love in the moon dust

Flyin'

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It was a perfect weekend.

A simple date yesterday.

And just staying indoors today.

With food that is so much better than outdoors.

And the calming music to chill to.

It feels like I'm flyin'.

#grateful

I have so much anxiety about the next coming weeks..

It's so packed and I feel like I can't breathe.

But having you around really makes it better.

I can count on you to bury my face and hide from the world.

We're two peas in a pod and I am blessed to have you.

Thank you. 

Love, Eran.

Current Song Mood: Shura - flyin'

Scared of flying but I'll fly for you
Scared of dying but I'm dying to see you
And I don't know you yet, I'm insecure
Be my woman, babe, and I'll be yours

I read it in a Bible when I was just a kid
I didn't understand it, does anyone, anyone think
A virgin had a baby, it's crazy, d'ya hate me?

Just because I am in love
I text you too much
I guess I should stop
But I am in love with you

Scared of fighting but I'll fight for you
Sitting in a different city wishing you were sipping with me

I read it in a Bible when I was just a kid
I didn't understand it, does anyone, anyone think
A virgin had a baby, it's crazy, d'ya hate me?

Just because I am in love
I text you too much
I guess I should stop
But I am in love with you

You know I got you babe
You know, you know I got you

I'm scared of flying
I'm scared of dying
I'm scared of flying
I'm scared of dying

I'm scared of flying
I'm scared of dying
I'm scared of flying
I'm scared of dying

I'm scared of flying
I'm scared of dying

Tommy

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It feels good.

To see you like yourself again.

:)

I know the past week has been.. pretty difficult.

But please know that I'm always here for you.

We'll get through this together.

Today's date was simple and filling.

Like literally, my tummy is full. Hehe.

Meeting you at the place where we first met..

It's nostalgic to me.

And special.

No one has made me feel this way before.

Thank you for always pampering me.

This love song is for you.

It's tender and sweet.

Just like my love for you.

Love, Eran

Current Song Mood: Shura - tommy

Met an old man
Told me 'bout a past life
Told him I was leavin' tomorrow

Then he sat down
Said he had a wife once
Now he's got a new love in Texas

Does she know that I'm driving
Across America?
Dining with somebody new
Someone I met
Before I married her

I'm in heaven without you but
Just take your time
I'll be alright

I'm in heaven without you but
Just take your time
I'll be alright (nah, nah)

In this town
Tommy goes dancin'
Movin' like a young man 'til midnight

Over ice cream
Told me 'bout his dream
Said his wife came back to tell him

Yes I know that you're driving
Across America
Dining with somebody new
Someone you met
Before they married us

I'm in heaven without you but
Just take your time
I'll be alright

I'm in heaven without you but
Just take your time
I'll be alright (nah, nah)

I Get Overwhelmed

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I get overwhelmed sometimes.

By my very own thoughts.

By my own anxiety.

I'd bury it deep in me.

And try to sleep it off.

It's amazing how you can sense that.

We're really meant to be.

Thanks for talking to me about it.

I feel much better.

You mean the whole world to me.

And I'm glad to have you in my life.

I love you.

x

Love, Eran.

Current Song Mood: Dark Rooms - I Get Overwhelmed

[Verse 1]
Are you runnin late?
Did you sleep too much?
All the awful dreams
Felt real enough
Is your lover there?
Is she wakin up?
Did she die in the night?
And leave you alone?
Alone

[Verse 2]
Mirror, mirror
There's your crooked nose
Boring hair
A thousand wrinkles
No children
Just emptiness
No place like home
Just a fucking mess
Mess

[Verse 3]
20 messages
Did you hurt your thumbs?
What a stupid game
Getting nothing done
With your longest track
Your highest score
While you crush your back
And lament the war
War

[Verse 4]
All the women
That you wanna fuck
On the internet
Wouldn't give you a second look
Did you fool yourself?
That's privilege
That's power without power
That's a business
Business

[Verse 5]
But we know "you" is "I"
And I get overwhelmed
Can't sleep at night
Can't convince myself
To turn it off
To let go
Gotta make sense
Of the fucking war
War

[Verse 6]
Am I runnin late?
I get overwhelmed
All the awful dreams
All the bright screens
Is my lover there?
Are we breakin up?
Did she find someone else?
And leave me alone?
Alone...

My Mistake

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As I grow older..

I feel like I prefer to keep things simple.

My clothes.

I prefer plain colours nowadays.

Dates.

I don't need anything fancy. Even just staying at home, and cuddling with my loved one is enough.

The people in my life.

Though I feel that my circle gets smaller as the years pass by.

And that's okay. That's life.

Simplicity is the best policy.

If I falter,

Well at least it was my mistake.

Love, Eran.

Current Song Mood: Gabrielle Aplin - My Mistake

I got up late again today
And I'm scared of everything
I don't dare to dream
I got a dark imagination
These hours waste away
A debt I'll never pay
I'm talking to the walls
But the walls keep caving in
They amplify my thoughts
I really want a conversation
But I let it slip away
A debt I'll never pay

Worry, worry, oh
It's funny how it changes
When nothing really changes at all

Am I jaded?
Am I meant to feel this way?
I'm a loser, getting beat by my own game
But if I falter, well at least it was my mistake
Oh, at least it was my mistake
'Cause I choose to be this way
I'm a loser, and I self-deprecate
So when I falter, well at least it was my mistake

I saw my friend today
She tried to comfort me
But I turned her away
There's magic in this misery
So no matter what you say
I don't think I'll ever change

Worry, worry, oh
It's funny how it changes
When nothing really changes at all

Am I jaded?
Am I meant to feel this way?
I'm a loser, getting beat by my own game
But if I falter, well at least it was my mistake
Well, at least it was my mistake
'Cause I choose to be this way
I'm a loser, and I self-deprecate
So when I falter, well at least it was my mistake

And I don't really care about what anyone says
I don't give a damn about what anyone says
I don't want to think about anything
I don't want to think about anything
And I don't really care about what anyone says
I don't need opinions hanging over my head
I don't really care about anything
I don't really care
I don't really care at all

Am I jaded?
Am I meant to feel this way?
I'm a loser, getting beat by my own game
But if I falter, well at least it was my mistake
Well, at least it was my mistake
'Cause I choose to be this way
I'm a loser, and I self-deprecate
So when I falter, well at least it was my mistake

Well, at least it was my mistake
Well, at least it was my mistake

Caught Up

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It's been quite a week.

For all of us I guess.

Politics, drama and just.. life.

We're all just too caught up in it.

Sometimes you need to draw a line, take a step back and take a breather.

Life is too short.

Enjoy the weekends.

It's time to unwind. 

De-stress.

And do the things that you love.

Keep going. 

x

Love, Eran.

Current Song Mood: Majid Jordan Ft Khalid - Caught Up

Uuh-uuh, uh
Uuh-uuh, uh
Uuh-uuh
Uuh-uuh

How many wrongs can I right?
How many? (How many?)
How many wrongs in the night?
How many wrongs in the night, oh
Uh, caught up in L.A. yeah, yeah, yeah
Caught up in a race yeah, yeah, yeah

I'm tryna keep faith
Tryna stay real not fake man
Caught up in L.A. yeah, yeah
Get the Louis from the Louis store straight
Packin' it up sendin' it to your place
Callin' you up just so I can touch base
I hate how you're so far away
Nobody's perfect
I've made my mistakes
Nobody's perfect
I learned the hard way
I wish you could be here
I miss your embrace
Can't wait to hold you this time
Can't wait I told you I can't wait
You make me feel like I can't lose
Yeah, that's right I wanna get to you
You're all I believe in
I wanna show you everything
You're my strength not my weakness
Yeah, your secrets are safe
Just like your heart is
But I'm caught up in L.A. like a movie
Stuck here on replay
Want you on repeat
When you come to see me, yeah

How many wrongs can I right? (How many?)
How many songs can I write? (Too many)
How many blunts can I smoke in the night (in the night, no)
How many?
How many?

How many blunts can I smoke in the night?
Blowing O's underneath in the moonlight
Not a lot of things that I won't try
I just bought a Rolls that I don't even drive
Inside of you while outside by me
Been a hell of a year yeah, yeah
Fuck up a bag make the money disappear, yeah
Workin', worth it
Bodys hangin' from the chandelier yeah, yeah
Now I'm caught up in L.A
Takin' you around
Take an Uber to your place
Pull up just so I can show face
But I can't go to the club cuz it's too in the straight, yeah, yeah
Used to drive a Chevrolet
Now my car is so nice that I caught a Valet, ay
But my door need it straight
Ah, put on for the family, ay
From the city of the 915
Where the girls are pretty and they know how to ride it, yay
Autopilot you don't even gotta drive it, ay, ay

Caught up in L.A. yeah ay, ay (ay, ay)
Caught up in L.A. yeah, yeah
Caught up in L.A
How many wrongs can I right? Caught up in L.A., yeah
How many songs can I write? (Too many)
How many drinks can I pour in the night?

How many?
How many wrongs can I right?
How many wrongs in the night?
How many wrongs can I right?
How many?
How many?

Uuh-uuh
Uuh-uuh
Uuh-uuh
Uuh-uuh