Impaled

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I'm so fucking broken.

Impaled in the guts.

I want to die.

I've been drained the whole day.

Ran out of tears to cry.

Depressed.

Panic attacks.

Yet, everything comes back to me.

I'm the fucking problem right?

Fuck me.

I might do something stupid.

I guess it serves me right.

I dont fucking want to be here anymore.

I dont even know... if I can see you again.

Love, Eran.

Current Song Mood: Skylar Grey - Impaled

I keel over
At the sound of your name
Crimson and clover
There's no cure for this pain

I believed you
I adored you
I revered you
Like I was born to

Now there's just a hole
Right here where my heart should be
And, no, it's not your fault
Baby, this is all on me

I ran into your knife
I guess it serves me right

I fell for the bullshit
I fell for the lies
I feel so stupid
I set myself up for this, alright

I believed you
I adored you
I revered you
Like I was born to

Now there's just a hole
Right here where my heart should be
And, no, it's not your fault
Baby, this is all on me

I ran into your knife
I guess it serves me right
I ran into your knife
I guess it serves me right
I ran into your knife
I guess it serves me right

I ran into your knife
I guess it serves me right

My Dying Spirit

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Started my 2-weeks leaveeeeeee.

And its been pretty productive so far :)

Been spring cleaning, decluttering, organizing, working out, catching up on shows & taking care of myself.

It feels good... to have all this time to myself.

To rejuvenate my dying spirit.

Just want to take things slow this time, spend more time at home.

Also exciting tingzzzz happening. Like finally recording my album hahah.

Initially wanted to use my leaves for travelling this year, but since that's not happening, gotta make use of it yeah? :)

Went to F1 for the first time with my partner last Friday, and boy, it was amazing.

Saw WINGS live and they were absolute rockstars. LEGENDS!!!

We chilled the rest of the evening away, had pretty awesome drinks and food, and waited for Marshmellow, who was the main headline.

I did noooot expect it to be a rave HAHA.

But heck, I enjoyed myself, and so did my partner whom went all out.

Spent the weekends with coffeee and had a patient outing with my company on Sunday.

Took the cable car ride for the first time. Holy heck it just kept going higher and higher. Theres goes my anxiety. Hahaha. But it was definitely fun xD And what a pretty view.

Went home to my partner to catch TWD Finale. The first two episodes wereeeeee. Insaneeeee.
Cant believe this series is ending.

I started watching when I was in Secondary School. I remember how intrigued I was. And I was a big fan of zombies. Look how far we've come.  Also now I have someone to share that with, I just feel.. blessed. 😂

Time to go make use of my holidays.

Stay safe & hydrated. :)

Love, Eran.

Current Song Mood: Greyson Chance - My Dying Spirit

I'm barely on my feet, mama
I'm barely holding on by a thread
Every night I lose a different friend
Thought I had it how I wanted
And far away as I could ever dream
I don't think California's my speed

All on my own
All I know

If I'm high like those other guys you've kissed
Maybe I'll find you in my bed again
But I'm all alone, living on the edge
I'm right at the limit
Will I ever heal my dying spirit?

I'm hanging on a needless hunger
That keeps the tears out the devil's eyes
I don't eat because he tells me that it's fine
I'm barely even standing now
But goddamn, I need another round
I can hear my name out in the crowd, yeah, yeah

If I'm high like those other guys you've kissed
Maybe I'll find you in my bed again
But I'm all alone, living on the edge
I'm right at the limit
Will I ever heal my dying spirit?

If I was a hotel lobby, you'd be mighty fucking sorry
To be staying at this piece of shit right off Highway 9
I'm on the floor of my kitchen on a vaporizing mission
To find a little calm, please ease my mind
I'm so sorry Alexa, I won't make her graduation
But tell this lonely girl she's the apple of my eye
Tell her, take your time, take your time
Take your, take your, take your time
I get high

Yeah, oh baby, yeah
Every night I'm hanging by a thread
Yeah, oh baby, yeah

I'll never heal it, my dying spirit