Monday, December 12, 2022

Far

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Hey :)

It's been a while..

Have a lot going on in life, but still hanging in there.

Proud to say that I've just wrapped up the album. 

And I'm so happy I finally got to share it with my partner & best friend first.

The look on their faces made me so happy.

How proud they are..

Relieved. Grateful. Blessed.

I had no idea I would end up making an album.

The idea at the start of the year seemed so far.

And here we are.

It's certainly a big accomplishment for myself.

I.. cant wait to share it next year. 

x

Love, Eran.

Current Song Mood: SZA - Far

How do I deal with rejection?

I'm dealing with a lot of rejection right now
It makes me feel very small
Oh, that's great
If nobody wants you, you're free

Try to watch all on my silhouette
Try to watch all my emotions
Need a few brews, need a palm tree
I be drinkin' in private, don't call me to party it up
Fuck on your nigga for cardio
Took a dip and he fell in love right away
I put my feelings on layaway (Ah)

Done being used, done playing stupid
Done faking cool (I don't want none of that shit, I don't want it)
Done being screwed, done feeling clueless
That's how you do (I don't want none of that shit, got me runnin' so)

Far, far, like I don't recognize me
Far, far 'cause I let you define me
I'm far, far 'cause I can't trust nobody
Far, stay far, it's so far

Lately, I feel less cool than before
(Already under my bed about)
(Don't need you around to tell me I'm special)
Made you check your bullshit at the door
(Got it every time, need to feed my ego)
(Nobody wanted to be my hero)
Always on my mind, trust is hard to find
Everything reminds me of us
I just want my sanity back
Better than being your enemy
(Better than letting go, scared of that, oh)

Done being used, done playing stupid
Done being cool (I don't want none of that shit, I ain't goin')
Done getting screwed, done playing clueless
That's how you do (I don't want none of that shit, got me runnin' so)

Far, far, like I don't recognize me
Far, far 'cause I let you define me
I'm far, far 'cause I can't trust nobody
Far, stay far, it's so far

I remember when you had me upside down
Stressed me out and turned me out, it's all back now
I remember when I wasn't so burnt out
I'd rather that than be your enemy, ready to let it go

Draggin' me far, far, like I don't recognize me
Far, far 'cause I let you define me
I'm far, far 'cause I can't trust nobody
Far, stay far, it's so far