Never Let This Go

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August.

A whole new month.. without you.

I… I still can't accept it.

I don't want to.

I don't want to let this go.

I will never let you go.

Not now.

Not ever.

It's been another tiring day.

Tired of people. For now I guess.

I just need my space.

I wake up; I think of you.

Before I sleep: I think about you.

I think about you all the time. Everyday.

And I get this heavy feeling.. like butterflies in my stomach kind of feelings every time.

It hurts. So much.

I dreamt about you this morning...

It was so clear. You were so real.

We were in a hotel room.

Remember that staycation I've always wanted?

Remember how much I wanted it?

Yeah, I guess it only exists in my dream now.

We were watching tv.

I was giving you a shoulder massage.

Just the way you liked.

Just the way I've always done it for you.

I was happy. Legitly happy, to be there. With you.

I was so warm & felt so much love.

And then I woke up.

To the harsh reality. To this world that I don't wish to face.

I wish I never did.

Love, Eran.

Maybe if I stop breathing, it won't hurt this much.

Current Song Mood: Paramore - Never Let This Go

Maybe if my heart stops beating
It won't hurt this much
And never will I have to answer
Again to anyone

Please don't get me wrong

Because I'll never let this go
But I can't find the words to tell you
I don't want to be alone
But now I feel like I don't know you

One day you'll get sick of
saying that everything's alright
And by then I'm sure I'll be pretending
Just like I am tonight

Please don't get me wrong

Because I'll never let this go
But I can't find the words to tell you
I don't want to be alone
But now I feel like I don't know you

Let this go, let this go

But I'll never let this go
But I can't find the words to tell you
I don't want to be alone
But now I feel like I don't know you

And I'll never let this go
But I can't find the words to tell you
That now I feel like I don't know you