Falling Slowly

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Don't know what to say already haha.
Just wanna say thank you to everyone that's reached out to me today hahaha,
I'm really okay! :)
I really appreciate it.

Had a really good time today.

Even though you're a bitch at times.

Hahaha.

But the way you love, is so so different from others.

And I should probably get used to that by now.

All I know is… I wanna be the very best.

The best you've ever had.

<3

Love, Eran.

Already fallen.

Current Song Mood: Glen Hansard & Marketa Irglova - Falling Slowly

I don't know you
But I want you
All the more for that
Words fall through me
And always fool me
And I can't react
And games that never amount
To more than they're meant
Will play themselves out

Take this sinking boat and point it home
We've still got time
Raise your hopeful voice you have a choice
You'll make it now

Falling slowly, eyes that know me
And I can't go back
Moods that take me and erase me
And I'm painted black
You have suffered enough
And warred with yourself
It's time that you won

Take this sinking boat and point it home
We've still got time
Raise your hopeful voice you have a choice

You've made it now
Falling slowly sing your melody
I'll sing it loud

Illusion

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:)))))))

Life has been so boring lately. Yay to impromptu plans!

Went to catch Insidious 3 with B today.

Hehehe been waiting for this show! We watched the first 2 movies earlier this year.

It was pretty alright, lots of suspense as usual, and the demons were TERRIFYING! Omg.
I was surprised that there was some dark humour too!! It helped to lighten the mood HAHAHA.
Elise is one badass bitch. xD

And I finally made use of that free movie voucher I got from Mr B on the last day of school hehehe.

Looking forward to more exciting things this month.

<3

Love, Eran.

Is it just an illusion?

Current Song Mood: Zedd Ft Echosmith - Illusion

It feels like the fairytale is over, I really wanted these pages to begin
With "Once upon a time" like all those lullabies
I should've known better, I'll admit it, I thought when I let you in
You were my shining knight from all those stories

This love is your illusion, this love is your illusion
Take me to a place with real-life love
I need a break from this broken-down fantasy
Show me a place I can realize love, not your illusion

It feels like the fairytale is over, I really wanted these pages to begin
With "Once upon a time" like all those lullabies
I should've known better, I'll admit it, I thought when I let you in
You were my shining knight from all those stories

This love is your illusion, this love is your illusion
Take me to a place with real-life love
I need a break from this broken-down fantasy
Show me a place I can realize love, not your illusion

California King Bed

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You placed a kiss on my cheek.

'Still upset?'

'No.' I turned and blushed.

But deep down, I clearly was.

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Of course I'd feel this way.

Seems like i'm always the one there.

Always super nice only when you want something.

When you played this song the other day I realised, I related to the lyrics so much.

…

Love, Eran.

I just don't wanna seem so weak.

Current Song Mood: Rihanna - California King Bed

Chest to chest
Nose to nose
Palm to palm
We were always just that close
Wrist to wrist
Toe to toe
Lips that felt just like the inside of a rose
So, how come when I reach out my finger
It feels like more than distance between us

In this California king bed
We're ten thousand miles apart
I've been California wishing on these stars
For your heart for me
My California king

Eye to eye
Cheek to cheek
Side by side
You were sleeping next to me
Arm in arm
Dusk to dawn
With the curtains drawn
And a little last night on these sheets
So, how come when I reach out my fingers
It seems like more than distance between us

In this California king bed

We're ten thousand miles apart
I've been California wishing on these stars
For your heart for me
My California king

Just when I felt like giving up on us
You turned around and gave me one last touch
That made everything feel better
And even then my eyes got wetter
So confused wanna ask you if you love me
But I don't wanna seem so weak
Maybe I've been California dreaming

Yeah yeah yeah

In this California king bed
We're ten thousand miles apart
I've been California wishing on these stars
For your heart for me
My California king
My California king

In this California king bed
We're ten thousand miles apart
I've been California wishing on these stars
For your heart for me
My California king

Papercut

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'Mood killer'
'Turn-off!'
Fuming thoughts ran through my head as you laughed at the situation and I raised the white flag.
You saw me being upset, grabbed hold of me and we spooned for a moment, which did made me feel better.
Sometimes all that's needed is a little touch.

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I'm still annoyed.

._!!!!

Gah but it's so funny to think about too. Lol…

Can't believe I got so sexually frustrated hahahahah.

It's been happening a lot. I must be nuts.

Hahaha. Ok enough la. Will probably get over this by tomorrow.

Still waiting for THE call. Hurry up I need some moolahs.

Byeeeeeeee.

Love, Eran.

It's just a papercut.

Current Song Mood: Zedd Ft Troye Sivan - Papercut

I was staring at the ceiling
You're so pretty when you're mad
All that I can hear is breathing
Aah-aah-aah-aah-aah, aah-aah-aah-aah-aah
And we're stuck inside the silence
In a cold cold war
We're too proud to say we're sorry
Aah-aah-aah-aah-aah, aah-aah-aah-aah-aah

Right now it feels like we're bleeding
So deep that we might not get back up
Our words will tear through the surface
Like a paper, like a papercut
Right now I don't know why I love you
But by the morning when we wake up
I'll reach for you and remember
It was just a paper, just a papercut

I find refuge in a distance
Even when we're breaking down (down, down, down, down)
Can't we pause it just for one kiss
Aah-aah-aah-aah-aah, aah-aah-aah-aah-aah
Cause I never meant to hurt you
And I know you feel the same
Still the only one I run to
Aah-aah-aah-aah-aah, aah-aah-aah-aah-aah

Right now it feels like we're bleeding
So deep that we might not get back up
Our words will tear through the surface
Like a paper, like a papercut
Right now I don't know why I love you
But by the morning when we wake up
I'll reach for you and remember
It was just a paper, just a papercut

Right now it feels like we're bleeding
So deep that we might not get back up
Our words will tear through the surface
Like a paper, like a papercut
Right now I don't know why I love you
But by the morning when we wake up
I'll reach for you and remember
It was just a paper, just a papercut

Just a paper, just a papercut
Just a paper, just a papercut
Just a paper, just a papercut
Just a paper, just a papercut

Daisy

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Appreciating the moments where I can just lay by your side and spend time with you.

Watched the last episode of RuPaul today and was really glad that the winner was none other than.. VIOLET CHACHKI!!! COME THRU!!!! 

Hahaha. This gurl has been at it the whole season. Even though she's the most bitchy one but she definitely has the talent. Her look is always stunning!! Especially her small waist?? My gosh.

Never thought I'd love this show cause I've never really been a fan of drag. I just didnt get it?? But this show helped me to. They're not just 'guys who dress up like girls'. They're entertainers. :) And incredible talented and beautiful too! Cant believe that's the end of another show. Another one which I've watched the whole season with the person I love. He he he. 

Looking forward for more to come.

Love, Eran.

I would love you if you let me.

Current Song Mood: Zedd - Daisy

Daisy, always climbing up the same tree
Finding love in all the wrong scenes, Daisy, you got me
Daisy, always walking down the wrong streets
Starting fires out of dead weeds, Daisy, you got me

[Chorus:]
Let me show you how a kiss should taste
Trust me, I won't give your heart away
Why you running, running when you got it right here?
Oh, I would love you if you let me

Daisy, always dancing to the same beat
Broken records stuck on repeat, Daisy, you got me
Daisy, don't you know that you're amazing?
Broken hearts just keeps on breaking, Daisy
I would take the light out the stars to help you see
Anything to guide you straight to me

[Chorus x2]

I won't give your heart away
Why you running, running when you got it right here?

Believe Again

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It's been so long since I've felt this way again.

Nothing can express how happy I felt today. Felt like nothing changed at all.

Your touch. Your kisses. Your teasing. Patting my hair. The cuddles. Watching horror movies & laughing at how lame they are. This was the person I fell in love with. This was the person that I've really been missing. 

Our intimacy was out of the world today.

I wouldn't have it any other way.

I believe again.

Love, Eran.

I'll pretend you didnt say that.

Current Song Mood: Delta Goodrem - Believe Again

Have you ever stared into the rain
Thought the clouds would never disappear
Have you ever screamed out into the dark
Thinking no one else could hear

I was leaving footprints tainted by my past
On this winding road to you

I'd lost my faith in love
Tonight I believe again
My Heart was a broken place
Now I feel whole again
You bring me honesty
And that's worth believing in
and I believe
I believe again

Have you ever spun out of control
Like you never saw the road ahead
Have you ever just kept looking back
Ever closer to the edge

I was praying for the light I see in your eyes
I had all but given up

I'd lost my faith in love
Tonight I believe again
My Heart was a broken place
Now I feel whole again
You bring me honesty
And that's worth believing in
and I believe
I believe again

I believe the impossible is possible to overcome
I believe in miracles
Born from love in everyone

I'd lost my faith in love
Tonight I believe again
My Heart was a broken place
Now I feel whole again
You bring me honesty
And that's worth believing in
and I believe
I believe again

Stay

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:/

I couldn't stop worrying a day without you and now you're gonna be away for 2-3 days??

Sigh.

I know I sound super clingy right now but..

What can I do right?

Not really sure how to feel about it. 

I'll just hold on to your promise.

And I'll take it really seriously.

After all, I have every reason to be worried. Considering the things you've done..

This is gonna be challenging for me, but I guess it's unavoidable.

I trust you.

<3

Love, Eran.

I want you to stay..

Current Song Mood: Rihanna Ft Mikky Ekko - Stay

All along it was a fever
A cold sweat hot-headed believer
I threw my hands in the air, said, "Show me something,"
He said, "If you dare, come a little closer."

Round and around and around and around we go
Oh now, tell me now, tell me now, tell me now you know.

Not really sure how to feel about it.
Something in the way you move
Makes me feel like I can't live without you.
It takes me all the way.
I want you to stay

It's not much of a life you're living
It's not just something you take–it's given

Round and around and around and around we go
Oh now, tell me now, tell me now, tell me now you know.

Not really sure how to feel about it.
Something in the way you move
Makes me feel like I can't live without you.
It takes me all the way.
I want you to stay.

Ooh, ooh, ooh, the reason I hold on
Ooh, ooh, ooh, 'cause I need this hole gone
Funny you're the broken one but I'm the only one who needed saving
'Cause when you never see the light it's hard to know which one of us is caving.

Not really sure how to feel about it.
Something in the way you move
Makes me feel like I can't live without you.
It takes me all the way.
I want you to stay, stay.
I want you to stay, oh.