Hold Me Down

Page 471

Hahaha.

What a week it has been.

Can I please stop getting myself into more trouble?

Gosh..

Life is so funny.

But I'm just gonna take it all in.

And live in the moment.

I've been taking all my challenges positively lately.

Laughing and shrugging it off.

I'm not sorry for anything.

Nothing can hold me down.

One day when I'm old.. 

I'm gonna smile and laugh about all these memorable moments.

Love, Eran.

Current Song Mood: Halsey - Hold Me Down

My demons are begging me to open up my mouth
I need them mechanically make the words come out
They fight me, vigorous and angry, watch them pounce
Ignite me, licking at the flames they bring about

I sold my soul to a three-piece
And he told me I was holy
He's got me down on both knees
But it's the devil that's tryna

Hold me down, hold me down
Sneaking out the back door,
Make no sound
Knock me out, knock me out
Saying that I want more, this is what I live for

Hold me down, hold me down
Throw me in the deep end, watch me drown
Knock me out, knock me out
Saying that I want more, this is what I live for

Selfish, taking what I want and call it mine
I'm helpless, clinging to a little bit of spine
They rush me, telling me I'm running out of time
They shush me (shhh), walking me across a fragile line

I sold my soul to a three-piece
And he told me I was holy
He's got me down on both knees
But it's the devil that's tryna

Hold me down, hold me down
Sneaking out the back door,
Make no sound
Knock me out, knock me out
Saying that I want more, this is what I live for

Hold me down, hold me down
Throw me in the deep end, watch me drown
Knock me out, knock me out
Saying that I want more, this is what I live for

Hold me down now
Hold me down now
Hold me down

I sold my soul to a three-piece
And he told me I was holy
He's got me down on both knees
But it's the devil that's tryna

Hold me down, hold me down
Sneaking out the back door,
Make no sound
Knock me out, knock me out
Saying that I want more, this is what I live for

Hold me down, hold me down
Throw me in the deep end, watch me drown
Knock me out, knock me out
Saying that I want more, this is what I live for

Right My Wrongs

Page 470

Saw an old flame today.

Kinda flustered because.. it's been years.

I wonder if you saw me too.

And I wonder what you thought of me.

I've been thinking of all the wrongs I've done in the past.

The people that've come and go.

I'm tired of everything.

All the things I've been through.

Time hasn't been on my side.

Sometimes I wish I could just travel back in time.

...

Just to right my wrongs.

Love, Eran.

Current Song Mood: Bryson Tiller - Right My Wrongs

Could it be you calling me down?
My foolish heart turns at the stars
All that I am is all that you see
You don't need nobody else, 
and you're putting this all on me, forgive me

There's a time and a place for all this
This is not the place for all this
Is there a reason why you're saying all this?
And can we talk about it later?
I've gotta right my wrongs
With you is where I belong
You've been down from the go, recognition is what you want
And it's something that I should know

Something that I should know
All the things that you went through, 
girl I never meant to put you through it twice
Tell me how can I right my wrongs
That's something that I should know
All the things that we been through, 
girl I never meant to put you through it twice

Could it be you calling me down?
My foolish heart turns at the stars
All that I am is all that you see
You don't need nobody else, 
and you're putting this all on me, forgive me

I say you don't need nobody else
Feels like you don't got me 
so you feel like you've been by yourself
I've been feeling kinda down myself
I've been going through it as well
Girl, I guess time will tell
That's the problem, I ain't got any left
There's somethings I can't help
But you would make the time for me
Oh, isn't that something that I should know?

Something that I should know
All the things that you went through, 
girl I never meant to put you through it twice
Tell me how can I right my wrongs
That's something that I should know
All the things that we went through, 
girl I never meant to put you through it twice

Could it be you calling me down?
My foolish heart turns at the stars
All that I am is all that you see
You don't need nobody else, and you're putting this all on me, forgive me

Exchange

Page 469

Maybe you should know.

Or maybe not.

I should just keep it to myself.

Idk.. I'm not ready yet.

I don't want it to affect us at this point of time.

Lately I don't bother trying to strike conversations up anymore.

I'm tired.

I'll let fate handle things from now on.

And just keep positive.

I need something different.

Something in exchange..

For me.

Love, Eran

Current Song Mood: Bryson Tiller - Exchange

This what happen when I think about you
I get in my feelings, yeah
I start reminiscing, yeah
Next time around, fuck I want it to be different, yeah
Waiting on a sign, guess it's time for a different prayer
Lord please save her for me, do this one favor for me
I had to change my player ways, got way to complicated for me
I hope she's waiting for me
Everywhere she go, they playin' my song
That's why I say the things that I say that way I know you can't ignore me
But so, so

[Hook:]
So gimme all of you in exchange for me
Just give me all of you in exchange for me, for me

Break it down, yeah
Yes sir, check

We use to lay up and then stay up
Have sex and then blow dank
I shouldn't have played no games with you, just levelled up my rank
Last time I saw you we ain't speak that was strange
Guess it's nothing I can do, man it's true, ex's change, yeah
Guess you changed for the better (better)
I know you know how to make me jealous
I was never loyal, let you tell it, yo
But I'm ready to fix it if you ready, baby
But so, so

[Hook:]
So gimme all of you in exchange for me
Just give me all of you in exchange for me, for me

For real shawty
Yeah I know

Yeah, is you at 2 Keys or Tin Roof?
Turn up with young Tiller, we just getting loose
Maybe, I'm lowkey feelin' you, don't be cynical
I'm a fuck you over, wanna fuck you over then again the truth
Cause I ain't really here to start problems
Girl I swear to God though, hoes can't never say they got him
Know how bad you wanna tell 'em "Don't try him"
I don't wanna tell him, let's surprise him
I don't wanna get into it, why you stressin' him, I've been drivin'
Back and fourth, from Louisville to Lexington, mileage
On the whip, got your ass on my grip, college
Make you wanna strip for them dollars
Nah girl I got a job for you, swear to God I can do a lot for you
Saw you strollin' through the campus, I had to stop for you
I was scrollin' through the 'gram, girl, I had to follow you
Say wassup witchu? You got my soul

Dont

Page 468

So.. whatever I predicted came true today.

Not a good start to the year man.

It's like the past keeps haunting me.

But I'm gonna take it positively.

And learn from my mistakes.

I plan to keep the PAST in the PAST.

So if you're still fucking with my life today, go fuck yourself.

Dont.

Just Don't.

I believe in karma so badly.

What goes around, comes around.

And you're gonna get it so much worse.

Just you wait.

Love, Eran.

Current Song Mood: Bryson Tiller - Don't 

Don't
Don't play with her don't be dishonest
Still not understanding this logic
Aye, I'm back and I'm better
I want you bad as ever
Don't let me just let up
I want to give you better
Baby it's whatever
Somebody gotta step up
Girl I'm that somebody
So I'm Next up

Be damned if I let him catch up
It's easy to see that you're fed up
I am on a whole 'nother level
Girl he only fucked you over cause you let him

Fuck em girl I guess he didn't know any better
Girl that man didn't show any effort
Do all I can just to show you you're special
Certain it's your love that holds me together

Lately you say he been killin the vibe
Gotta be sick of this guy
Pull up, Skurt
Get in the ride
Left hand is steering the other is gripping your thigh
Light up a spliff and get high
Shawty you deserve what you been missing
Looking at you I'm thinking he must be tripping
Play this song for him tell him just listen

Don't
(Play this song for him...)
Don't

Girl, said he keeps on playing games and his loving ain't the same
I don't know what to say-ay but
What a shame
If you were mine you would not get the same
If you were mine you would top everything
Suicide in the drop switching lanes
And that thang so fire baby no propane
Got good pussy girl can I be framed
To keep it 100 girl I ain't no saint
But he the only reason that I'm feeling this way
Giving you the world baby when you get space
Pen game get me laid, baby that's penetrate
Oh baby

Don't
(Ey)

H-Town got a nigga so throwed
Po' up we can party some mo'
Yeah got this drink in my cup
Got a young nigga feeling so throwed
Spit fire and the world so cold
Young money got a nigga feeling old
Spit fire and the world so cold
H-Town got me feeling so throwed
H-Town got me feeling so throwed
Raw paint in the sip can it fold
H-Town got me feeling so throwed
Spit fire and the world so cold
H-Town got a nigga so throwed

Don't

GO GO GO

Page 467

Legit so excited for many things right now.

:D :D :D :D

For the first time..

It's like the stars are finally getting aligned.

I can see the visions coming to life.

All in it's time.

Feeling so rejuvenated lately.

Even when I feel down at times.

The opportunities coming my way..

I'm not gonna take them for granted.

Letting all of the pain go.

I wanna start afresh.

And be my personal best.

Let's go.

Love, Eran.

Current Song Mood: Roy Woods - GO GO GO

I see how you change at night, nothing like you're basement lies
Chevrolet trip half an hour ride,take a nigga back to the Southside
I'm giving it all to you, naked and raw baby, raw as my heart
Feel the pain as it thumps
I feel used on my chest, it ain't nothing at all
Cause I'm here for you, I'm making love to you
You're letting it all go, go, go, go
I'm here for you, I'm making love to you

You're letting it all go, go, go go
Let you're pain go, go, go, go
I let my pain go, go, go go
Let your pain go, go, go go
I let my pain go, go, go, go
Let your pain go, go, go go
I let my pain go, go, go, go
Let your pain go, go, go go

I need what I never had, you had, thought you had a spot
So show me what it is right now, girl yeah
Cause I been in the Lost and Found
And you are the only thing inside
Brand new heart is why I'm at the bonfire
Pick and choose what you need and who you want, girl I'm there
You can call on me when you know there's no one else
You got away, bet I'm down for the moment, shit
You the real shit, hold me down for a fucking spliff
Whenever I'm stressed (Whenever I'm stressed)
You hold me down the best
I see how you change at night
Nothing like your basement lies
Chevrolet trip half an hour ride
And take a nigga back to the Southside

You're letting it all go, go, go, go
Let you're pain go, go, go, go
I let my pain go, go, go go
Let your pain go, go, go go
I let my pain go, go, go, go
Let your pain go, go, go go
I let my pain go, go, go, go
Let your pain go, go, go go

Superstar

Page 466

A great day out.

Had a shoot with these asses. Hehe.

What a way to start the year.

Wore white today.

And also my Aviator watch. <3

To symbolise something new.

Something Pure.

As unpure as I am though HAHAHA.

BUT 

ITS

OKAY.

Cause I'm a changed man.

Went to the Railway track downtown.

I've always wanted to have a shoot here!

GOALS FULFILLED!

Went to town later on, to surprise & support my buddy.

He's so hardworking.

And we really admired him.

Thank you for the cute socks! 

*-*

It totally looks like me LOL.

It's okay Buddy. 

Hold your head up.

Cause to me, you're a superstar.

Love, Eran.

It's the life we're living now.

Current Song Mood: Broods - Superstar

You've been looking for more, I've been over my head
You've been filling up spaces, I'm working too much
(I, I, I)
It's the life we're living now
(I, I, I)
And it's beautiful, somehow

I've been waiting for the sun to rise where you are
So I can tell you you're a superstar
I've been waiting for our words to be in line
So I can let you know that baby, you're the rest of my life

You have loved, you have cared, you've been too good to me
I can't try hard enough just to make you believe
(I, I, I)
We've been holding on to us
(I, I, I)
Cause we need it way too much

I've been waiting for the sun to rise where you are
So I can tell you you're a superstar
I've been waiting for our words to be in line
So I can let you know that baby, you're the rest of my life

I've been dreaming of a future that looks like our past
And they'll admire that we made it last
So I've been waiting for the sun to rise where you are
So I can tell you you're a superstar

You know I think about it all the time
You would run away with me
And we'd go looking for a place to hide
And you would be at home with me
You would be at home with me
We would be at home

I've been waiting for the sun to rise where you are
So I can tell you you're a superstar
I've been waiting for our words to be in line
So I can let you know that baby, you're the rest of my life

I've been dreaming of a future that looks like our past
And they'll admire that we made it last
So I've been waiting for the sun to rise where you are
So I can tell you you're a superstar

(I, I, I)
It's the life we're living now

Revival

Page 465 (Chapter 7)

I was crossing to the other end of the pavement.
Ears were plugged with music.
When suddenly...
A car comes and halt right by my side.
I stared at the driver.
My mind was blank.
I almost got knocked down.
It was so close.
'What a start to the year..'
I muttered.
Phew.

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First post of the year.

New year, new plans, new layout, new chapter. 

Hehe.

Really can't wait for what's in store.

Already have certain goals in mind.

And I'm gonna be a legit adult soon.

Gonna do something special before that happens.

In case some of you are wondering about the series of photos I've been posting since enlistment,

I'll explain.

Earlier in August, just a day before I enlisted..

I did a photoshoot during one of the darkest moments of my life.

I was so down.

I felt like exploding.

Keeping all the emotions to myself.

After the shoot, I felt so much better.

I just needed to express myself.

And I realised.. yeah that's who I am.

Someone that always needs to constantly express himself.

Through photos, lyrics, songs.

And I'm just gonna keep doing that.

This pic is one of my faves.

It's simple but..

It's all me.

This is who I Am.

This is my revival.

Love, Eran.

Current Song Mood: Selena Gomez - Revival

I dive into the future
But I'm blinded by the sun
I'm reborn in every moment
So who knows what I'll become

I feel like I've awakened lately
The chains around me are finally breaking
I've been under self-restoration
I'm becoming my own salvation
Showing up, no more hiding, hiding
The light inside me is bursting, shining
It's my, my, my time to butterfly

What I've learned is so vital
More than just survival
This is my revival
This is a revival
Oh-oh-oh-oh
Oh-oh-oh
Oh-oh-oh-oh
Revival
Oh-oh-oh-oh
Oh-oh-oh
Oh-oh-oh-oh
Revival

I'll walk through the fire, I'll begin again
I'll burn through my skin
Cause I, cause I wanna feel it
Reaching for the truth, not afraid to lose
What shattered through me like a rifle (rifle) was a revival, revival, yeah
I admit, it's been painful, painful
But I'll be honest, I'm grateful, grateful
It's my, my, my time to realize

What I've learned is so vital
More than just survival
This is my revival
This is a revival
Oh-oh-oh-oh
Oh-oh-oh
Oh-oh-oh-oh
Revival
Oh-oh-oh-oh
Oh-oh-oh
Oh-oh-oh-oh
Revival

This won't take too long, you'll see
I'm just tryna get to me, ooh
What shattered through me like a rifle (rifle) was a revival

What I've learned is so vital
More than just survival
This is my revival
This is a revival
Oh-oh-oh-oh
Oh-oh-oh
Oh-oh-oh-oh
Revival
Oh-oh-oh-oh
Oh-oh-oh
Oh-oh-oh-oh
Revival

What I've learned is so vital
More than just survival
This is my revival, This is a revival