Told You So

Page 769

Hahahaha.

Syah, why do you keep getting yourself in these situations?

I could've spent my time better.

It's just that I followed what I felt right, in the moment.

Oh well.

What can I say?

I told you so.

Love, Eran.

Current Song Mood: Paramore - Told You So

For all I know
The best is over and the worst is yet to come
Is it enough?
To keep on hoping when the rest have given up?
And they go

I hate to say I told you so
But they love to say they told me so
I hate to say I told you so
They love to say they told me

Say they say they told me
Say they say they told me
You say, you say you told me

I know you like
When I admit that I was wrong and you were right
At least I try
To keep my cool when I'm thrown into a fire
And they go

I hate to say I told you so
But they love to say they told me so
I hate to say I told you so
They love to say they told me

Say they say they told me
Say they say they told me
You say, you say you told me

Throw me into the fire
Throw me in, pull me out again
Throw me into the fire
Throw me in, pull me out again
Throw me into the fire
Throw me in, pull me out again
Throw me into the fire
Throw me in, pull me out again

Throw me into the fire
Throw me in, pull me out again
Throw me into the fire
Throw me in, pull me out again
Throw me into the fire
Throw me in, pull me out again
Throw me into the fire
Throw me in, pull me out again
Throw me into the fire
Throw me in, pull me out again

I hate to say I told you so
But they love to say they told me so
I hate to say I told you so
They love to say they told me

Say they say they told me
Say they say they told me
You say, you say you told me

There's Nothing Holding Me Back

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Life works out in the most unexpected ways.

Who knew it was gonna lead to this?

It's so important.

Need a breather man. Woah.

All I know is this..

There's nothing holding me back.

From my dreams.

From reaching my goals.

I'm gonna make this work.

Watch.

Love, Eran.

Current Song Mood: Shawn Mendes - There's Nothing Holding Me Back

I wanna follow where she goes
I think about her and she knows it
I wanna let her take control
'Cause every time that she gets close, yeah

She pulls me in enough to keep me guessing, mmm
And maybe I should stop and start confessing
Confessing, yeah

Oh, I've been shaking
I love it when you go crazy
You take all my inhibitions
Baby, there's nothing holdin' me back

You take me places that tear up my reputation
Manipulate my decisions
Baby, there's nothing holdin' me back

There's nothing holdin' me back
There's nothing holdin' me back

She says that she's never afraid
Just picture everybody naked
She really doesn't like to wait
Not really into hesitations

Pulls me in enough to keep me guessing, whoa
And maybe I should stop and start confessing
Confessing, yeah

Oh, I've been shaking
I love it when you go crazy
You take all my inhibitions
Baby, there's nothing holdin' me back

You take me places that tear up my reputation
Manipulate my decisions
Baby, there's nothing holdin' me back

There's nothing holdin' me back

'Cause if we lost our minds
And we took it way too far
I know we'd be alright,
Know we would be alright

If you were by my side
And we stumbled in the dark
I know we'd be alright,
Oh no we would be alright

'Cause if we lost our minds
And we took it way too far
I know we'd be alright,
I know we would be alright

If you were by my side
And we stumbled in the dark
I know we'd be alright,
We would be alright

Oh, I've been shaking
I love it when you go crazy
You take all my inhibitions
Baby, there's nothing holdin' me back

You take me places that tear up my reputation
Manipulate my decisions
Baby, there's nothing holdin' me back

There's nothing holdin' me back

I feel so free
When you're with me,
Baby

Baby, there's nothing holdin' me back

Getaway Car

Page 767

A short getaway trip.

Once in a while is fine.

Had a good time :)

Tho I'm pretty shagged out.

Is it the age symptoms catching up? Hahaha shiet.

Certain areas brought back certain memories.

Guess I won't go into it.

Just live pass it.

Thanks for today guys.

It was satisfying, and my tummy is full of good fooood. 

Maybe we can do it in a getaway car next time?

Hehe.

Love, Eran.

Current Song Mood: Lea Michele - Getaway Car

Two kids with curious hearts
Not afraid to break
Running wild, running too far
Trying to find a way

Rubbing pennies together,
For worse or for better
One glass of cheap champagne
It's now or it's never,
We hope it's forever
All we got's one way, leaving fingerprints behind

'Cause if I got you, if you got me
We don't need nothing else at all
Sleeping all day, driving all night
Looking for a place we wanna go
We stole the night, now this world is ours, love
Just us kids in a getaway car

We'll change our names,
Make friends in new places
Be anyone we'd want
'Cause through the days and millions of faces
We're always holding on

Rubbing pennies together,
For worse or for better
One glass of cheap champagne
It's now or it's never,
We hope it's forever
We ran away, leaving fingerprints behind

'Cause if I got you, if you got me
We don't need nothing else at all
Sleeping all day, driving all night
Looking for a place to call our home
We stole the night, now this world is ours, love
We're chasing love in a getaway car

And we're singing
Hey-ey-ey-ey
Maybe I'm crazy, maybe you're crazy
Hey-ey-ey-ey
But, babe, if we're crazy, I'd rather be crazy

We don't need anything at all
We'll find a place to call our own

Rubbing pennies together,
For worse or for better
One glass of cheap champagne
It's all or it's never,
We hope it's forever,
My love

If I got you, if you got me
We don't need anything else at all
Sleeping all day, driving all night
Looking for a place to call our own
Stole the night, now this world is ours, love
It's just us kids in a getaway car

Two kids with curious hearts
Not afraid to break

Proud

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What a wonderful day.

Bumped into lots of familiar faces today.

Lots of smiles. Hugs. Warmth.

Felt pretty shy when people came up to me/ acknowledged me.

Like how could you remember this awkward kid?!

Lmao..

And there were plenty of candies too.

Hahaha.

Can't believe it... How far we've all come.

We should be proud of ourselves.

:)

Wish Buddy was there too.

You guys live so deep in the heart of me.

Always.

Love, Eran.

And all I wanna do is make you proud.

Current Song Mood: Lea Michele - Proud

Everybody's waiting on me to see what I can do
Everybody's talking about it
I can hear the whispers in the room
But you say go slow, go slow
Take all the time you need
Don't you know, yeah you know
It's in you that I believe

And so I, I never want to let you down
You live so deep in the heart of me
I just need to tell you now
All I want to do is make you proud
All I want to do is make you proud

I can't avoid the disappointments
It happened to everyone
But it's in your eyes where I
Find the strength to keep me strong
When you say go slow, go slow
Please don't forget to breathe
Yeah, you know in this home
Can never be afraid to dream
Never be afraid to dream

And so I, I never want to let you down
You live so deep in the heart of me
I just need to tell you now
All I want to do is make you proud
And even when I'm all alone
I can hear your voice inside of me
More than anything right now
All I want to do is make you proud
Proud

And so I, I'm never gonna let you down
You know every little part of me
And as the crowd gathers round
All I wanna do is make you proud
I never wanna let you down
You live so deep in the heart of me
I just need to tell you now
All I want do is make you proud
Proud

Cold Sweat

Page 765 

As you grow older, you lose all.. if not, most of your friends.

I know how true that is, based from painful experiences.

I've gotten used to it.

Been through the cold sweat of it.

Accepted it.

People grow older. People get committed to other things. 

Work. Relationships. Work.

Till they forget about close friendships they once shared.

And people just.. don't bother trying anymore.

And neither do I.

It's the harsh reality.

The circle gets smaller.

But life goes on.

Love, Eran.

Current Song Mood: Tinashe - Cold Sweat 

I like being alone
I'm out here, spend plenty of time on your own
Cause the city ain't kind
Other people who sign up for judgin' but can't take no
Complacent
This ain't a place to be making friends they all got agendas
These eyes on your back, hands in your neck
Thinkin' I've been fienin' for a taste of this shit
Seem so thirsty, smell fresh meat in the air
So the real test, after breakfast
We'll see who's to be here

This pressure ain't for everybody
Weighing so heavy on my body, body

Spine, shivers
Eyes, met
Head, in it
Heart, set
Cold, on my mind, yeah
Ice dripping, cold sweat
Ice, Ice dripping, cold sweat
Ice dripping, cold sweat
Ice, Ice dripping, cold sweat
Ice dripping, cold sweat

Can't choose the situation and friend
Always got to co-sign, everything's a ten
Damn I hate a yes man
I know while this buzzing gotta be ringing in your ear
Don't think I've forgotten, who was always here
Tell me where was you last year?
And I doubt you was last here
It's your last year

This pressure ain't for everybody
Weighing so heavy on my body, body

Spine, shivers
Eyes, met
Head, in it
Heart, set
Cold, on my mind, yeah
Ice dripping, cold sweat
Ice, Ice dripping, cold sweat
Ice dripping, cold sweat
Ice, Ice dripping, cold sweat
Ice dripping, cold sweat

No no no no

Wish it was goodbye
Time for me to accept defeat with my extra time
Like to handle with the lights on all night
Don't trip, everything will end up just fine
The summers they ain't the same
These lovers they ain't the game
These feeling, they don't mean nothing
These ceilings can keep the pain
Explanations you say I deserve it
Why after all this time I'm finally worth it
Ain't it funny, a power comes with money
And how now I'm out here poppin
They come back like they're an option
Man this shit is hella scummy
They claiming that they love me
Cause they realize that my time is finally coming
They know it
Cause my night is young
Moon is high
The stars are all, alligned

Sure Of Myself

Page 764

Today a friend of mine told me that he dreamt of me for no apparent reason.

In it, I achieved the school that I applied for.

As well as finding my specific soulmate there.
(I've been dreaming of the the type of person I wanna be with.)

Wow. Don't really know what to say.

It spook me.

Is it a sign..?

The future has been uncertain lately.

I honestly don't know what to expect anymore.

Like.. I've lost my way.

Day by day.

I want to be sure of myself.

Build myself up.

Make my family proud.

I'm gonna make sure.. that I don't end up like you.

Love, Eran.

Current Song Mood: Shawn Mendes - Sure Of Myself

I've lost my way
And day by day
Playing tough is hard enough
When the sun is out
Tougher, in rain

Oh your touch
Stringing little pieces of me into us
Giving me the reason to give all my love
Making it okay to let go

When I was little I was so sure of myself
Yeah I knew so little but I felt with every cell
And as I grow older my faith grows old as well
Yeah when I was little I was so sure of myself
Sure of myself (self)
Sure of myself (self)
Sure of myself (self)
Sure of myself (self)

And if I've lost my way (how am I still here)
Still standing straight (how am I still here)
I'm looking up to find I'm tough
When the sun goes down
And I feel the change

Oh your touch
Stringing little pieces of me into us
Giving me the reason to give all my love
Making it okay to let go

When I was little I was so sure of myself
Yeah I knew so little but I felt with every cell
And as I grow older my faith grows old as well
Yeah when I was little I was so sure of myself
Sure of myself (self)
Sure of myself (self)
Sure of myself (self)
Sure of myself (self)

Oh your touch
Stringing little pieces of me into us
Giving me the reasons to give all my love
Making it okay to let go
And oh your touch
Stringing little pieces of me into us
Giving me the reasons to give all my love
Making it okay to let go

When I was little I was so sure of myself (yeah)
Yeah I knew so little but I felt with every cell
And as I grow older my faith grows old as well
Because when I was little I was so sure of myself

When I was little I was so sure of myself (yeah)
Yeah I knew so little but I felt with every cell
And as I grow older my faith grows old as well
When I was little I was so sure of myself (oh)

A 1000 Times

Page 763

I feel like I daydream too much.

Today I found myself staring into blank space.

And reminiscing about the past.

I guess it's a bad habit.

I get too caught up with myself.

Too deep inside my head.

Thought about yesterday.

And what it all meant.

It was sweet.

Yet just went by too fast.

It's like I've had the same dream..

A 1000 times.

Love, Eran.

Current Song Mood: Hamilton Leithauser + Rostam - A 1000 Times

[Intro: Hamilton Leithauser]

I had a dream that you were mine

I've had that dream a thousand times

A thousand times, a thousand times

I've had that dream a thousand times

[Verse 1: Hamilton Leithauser]

I left my room on the west side

I walked from noon until the night

I changed my crowd, I ditched my tie

I watched the sparks fly off the fire

I found your house, I didn't even try

They'd closed the shutters, they'd pulled the blinds

My eyes were red, the streets were bright

Those ancient years were black and white

[Pre-Chorus: Hamilton Leithauser]

The 10th of November, the year's almost over

If I had your number, I'd call you tomorrow

If my eyes were open, I'd be kicking the doors in

But all that I have is this old dream I've always had

[Chorus: Hamilton Leithauser]

A thousand times, a thousand times

I've had that dream a thousand times

A thousand times, a thousand times

I've had that dream a thousand times

[Verse 2: Hamilton Leithauser]

I left my room on the west side

I walked from noon through the night

I changed the crowd, I ditched my tie

I watched the sparks fly off the fire

I found your old house, I didn't even try

They'd closed the shutters, they'd pulled the blinds

I had a dream that you were mine

I've had that dream a thousand times

[Pre-Chorus: Hamilton Leithauser]

But I don't answer questions, I just keep on guessing

My eyes are still open, the curtains are closing

But all that I have is this old dream I must have had

[Chorus: Hamilton Leithauser]

A thousand times, a thousand times

I've had that dream a thousand times

A thousand times, a thousand times

I've had that dream a thousand times

A thousand times, a thousand times

I've had that dream a thousand times

A thousand times, a thousand times

I've had that dream a thousand times