Bad Idea // Make Up

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Listening to Ari's new live album

And I'm so blown away.

Like... all these songs.

Are so damn nostalgic.

It's not a bad idea at all.

It is truly a special way to end this decade.

To listen to all these songs, and remember certain moments.

Certain memories.

It's almost magical.

Heh.

Makes me look back at the past decade.

Man, it's been such a ride.

From singing covers in the bedroom to finally writing and releasing my own music.

From completing my diploma, to (recently) completing my degree.

From all the heartbreaks, make ups, break ups, depression and shit to finding true love, and keeping those that I love close to me.

The growth is amazing, and sometimes you just don't realise that until you stop to take a look back.

To realise how far you've come.

And how more you have to go.

:)

Here's to a decade more.

I can't wait for what's in store.

Love, Eran.

Current Song Mood #1: Ariana Grande - Bad Idea

I've been outta sight
I've been worried 'bout you lately
Runnin' outta time
Wishin' you would come and save me

'Cause I don't wanna roll with it
(Yeah, yeah)
Tryna get control of it
(Yeah, yeah)
Why can't I let go of it?
(Yeah, yeah)
Gotta find somebody quickly
(Mm, yeah)

I got a bad idea
How 'bout we take a little bit of time away?
I got a bad idea
Forget about it, yeah
Forget about him, yeah
Forget about me
(Ari-chan)

I got a bad idea
(Uh-huh)
Yeah, I'ma call you over here to numb the pain
(Ari-chan)
I got a bad idea
(Uh-huh)
Forget about it, yeah
Forget about him, yeah
Forget about me

Yeah, I know we shouldn't, baby, but we will
(You know we will)
Need somebody, gimme something I can feel
(Yeah)
But, boy, don't trip (Don't trip), you know this isn't real
You should know I'm temporary

'Cause I don't wanna roll with it
(Yeah, yeah)
Tryna get control of it
(Yeah, yeah)
Why can't I let go of it?
(Yeah, yeah)
Gotta find somebody quickly
(Yeah)

I got a bad idea
How 'bout we take a little bit of time away?
I got a bad idea
Forget about it, yeah
Forget about him, yeah
Forget about me
(Ari-chan)

I got a bad idea
(Uh-huh)
Yeah, I'ma call you over here to numb the pain
(Ari-chan)
I got a bad idea
(Uh-huh)
Forget about it, yeah
Forget about him, yeah
Forget about me

Gotta get control of it
Why can't I let go of it? (Ooh)
Wishin' you would come and save me
Yeah, yeah-yeah, yeah, yeah

I got a bad idea
(Uh-huh)
How 'bout we take a little bit of time away?
(Ari-chan)
I got a bad idea
(a bad idea)
Forget about it, yeah
Forget about him, yeah
Forget about me
(Ari-chan)

I got a bad idea (a bad idea)
(Uh-huh)
Yeah, I'ma call you over here to numb the pain
(Ari-chan)
I got a bad idea (a bad idea)
(Uh-huh)
Forget about it, yeah
Forget about him, yeah
Forget about me
(Ari-chan)

Yeah
(Uh-huh)
Forget about it, yeah
Forget about him, yeah
Forget about me
(Ari-chan)
(Uh-huh)
Forget about it, yeah
Forget about him, yeah
Forget about me

I got a bad idea
How 'bout we take a little bit of time away?
I got a bad idea
Forget about it, yeah
Forget about him, yeah
Forget about me

Current Song Mood #2: Ariana Grande - Make Up

I like to fuck with you just to make up with you
'Cause the way you be screamin' my name
Make me wanna make love to you
I might break up with you just to make up with you
At the end of the day, boy
You know that I'm 'bout to wake up with you

I love it when we make up (Yeah-eh-eh)
Go 'head, ruin my makeup (Yeah-eh-eh)
I love it when we make up (Yeah-eh-eh)
Go 'head, ruin my makeup (Yeah-eh-eh)

My energy and attitude don't really coincide
I'm stayin' mad all day so we can let it out tonight
Bring you to the bed where we can really make it right
Sorry-in-a-box, so when it pops surprise, surprise

I love it when we make up (Yeah-eh-eh)
Go 'head, ruin my makeup (Yeah-eh-eh)
I love it when we make up (Yeah-eh-eh)
Go 'head, ruin my makeup (Yeah-eh-eh)

Promise me that when you kiss my lips, you'll make it stick
That's the way to shut me up after an argument
No eyeliner on, but looking at you is the fix
Highlight of my life, just like that Fenty Beauty kit

I love it when we make up (Yeah-eh-eh)
Go 'head, ruin my makeup (Yeah-eh-eh)
I love it when we make up (Yeah-eh-eh)
Go 'head, ruin my makeup (Yeah-eh-eh)

Let me stay in my bag 'cause I like when you mad
It's a mood, it's a vibe, it's a look, it's a match
Attitude, dream my mind (Dream my mind)
When you say that I'm right (That I'm right)
And I find that it works every time

And I love it when we make up (Yeah-eh-eh)
(And I love it when we make up)
Go 'head, ruin my makeup (Yeah-eh-eh)
(go 'head, ruin my makeup)
I love it when we make up (Yeah-eh-eh)
(And I love it when we make up)
Go 'head, ruin my makeup (Yeah-eh-eh)
(Go ahead, ruin my makeup, yeah)

Yeah-yeah, yeah-yeah, yeah-yeah
Oh, no, yeah-yeah, yeah-yeah
Mm, yeah-yeah, yeah-yeah, yeah-yeah, uh-huh

NASA

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Lonely Sunday.

Feels pretty weird not being around you.

Every Sunday is definitely our special time together.

To cuddle, be silly and manje.

;)

Well I guess I shouldn't be too clingy.

And let you have your own time.

To rest up, too.

I mean, too much time with me isn't good either.

We both need our space.

Managed to be productive in the meantime.

Got my teasers done and planned out.

Lots of editing today.

All worth it.

They say time apart can be beneficial.

Yet I miss you all the time.

I guess I'll just say 'I love you' through the phone tonight.

Love, Eran.

Current Song Mood: Ariana Grande - NASA

This is one small step for woman
One giant leap for woman-kind

I'd rather be alone tonight
You can say "I love you" through the phone tonight
Really don't wanna be in your arms tonight
I'll just use my covers to stay warm tonight
Think I'm better off here all alone tonight
Ain't no checkin' on when I get home tonight
Just makin' sure I'm good on my own tonight
Even though there isn't nothin' wrong tonight

Yeah, I'm just sayin', baby
I can't really miss you if I'm with you
And when I miss you, it'll change the way I kiss you
Baby, you know time apart is beneficial
It's like I'm the universe and you'll be N-A-S-A

Give you the whole world, I'ma need space
I'ma need space, I'ma, I'ma need
You know I'm a star; space, I'ma need space
I'ma need space, I'ma, I'ma need space (N-A-S-A)
Give you the whole world, I'ma need space
I'ma need space, I'ma, I'ma need
You know I'm a star; space, I'ma need space
I'ma need space, I'ma, I'ma need space (N-A-S-A)

Bottom line
Usually, I would love it if you stayed the night
I just think I'm on another page tonight
It ain't nothing wrong with saying I need me time

Usually, I would orbit around you
But gravity seems to be the only thing that's pulling me
You'll be my rise and shine soon as them stars align, mmm

Baby, I can't really miss you if I'm with you
And when I miss you, it'll change the way I kiss you
Baby, you know time apart is beneficial
It's like I'm the universe and you'll be N-A-S-A

Give you the whole world, I'ma need space
I'ma need space, I'ma, I'ma need
You know I'm a star; space, I'ma need space
I'ma need space, I'ma, I'ma need space (N-A-S-A)
Give you the whole world, I'ma need space
I'ma need space, I'ma, I'ma need
You know I'm a star; space, I'ma need space
I'ma need space, I'ma, I'ma need space (N-A-S-A)

You don't wanna leave me, but I'm tryna self-discover
Keep me in your orbit and you know you'll drag me under
You don't wanna leave me, but I'm tryna self-discover
(You don't wanna leave me, but I'm tryna self-discover)
Keep me in your orbit and you know you'll drag me under
(Keep me in your orbit and you know you'll drag me under)

I'd rather be alone tonight
You can say "I love you" through the phone tonight

Real Thing

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Tired Tired Tired.

It's been a long week.

But it's finally the weekends.

In the midst of preparing for my first song to be released.

And wow.

It is a looooot more work than I thought.

From marketing to preparing the streaming services.

I hope I can get everything done on time.

I am anxious.

Scared.

Excited.

All at the same time.

But I'm ready for the real thing.

My dream is finally coming true.

And I can't wait to share it.

Love, Eran.

Current Song Mood: Ruel - Real Thing

I'm so sick of thinking, staying up at night
I don't wanna play around, that ain't on my mind
When I think about her face, problems don't exist
But if I'm being honest with you

I'm tired of that fantasy, I'm tired of the daydream
Tired of just waiting to fall asleep to see you
I know it's imaginary but I think my mind is ready
Need to leave this sanctuary for something true

I just want the real thing
I just want the real thing

I want all the fights, you know
I want all the tears
I want all the conversations, tell me all your fears
'Cause I know that it's hard for you to trust
No one's ever given you enough
I might need to stop and give it up, eh

I'm tired of that fantasy, I'm tired of the daydream
Tired of just waiting to fall asleep to see you
I know it's imaginary but I think my mind is ready
Need to leave this sanctuary for something true

I just want the real thing
I just want the real thing
I just want the real thing
(I don't wanna think
I don't wanna live in fantasy)
Real thing
(I just want you here
I just want you in reality)

I just want the real, mmh, real thing
I just want the real thing, oh-oh
I just want the real, the real thing
(I don't wanna think
I don't wanna live in fantasy)
I just want the real thing
(I just want you here
I just want you in reality)
I just want you here
I just want you in reality

Headspace

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Dear best friend,

I wish I could be there right now.

To hold you in my arms as you cry your heart out.

I hate this.

Because I saw it coming.

I know how it feels like..

To be in such a negative headspace.

I hope you find strength to pull yourself together.

Please.

I really wish there was something more I could do.

But words are all I can give now.

I hope you are safe.

Take your time to cool yourself down.

And I hope, it all works out in the end..

Love, Eran.

Current Song Mood: Lewis Capaldi - Headspace

Salt of the earth, my friend
It's all that we are in the end
Well, you tracked down all the lines you drew
And I can take the hit but I'm sorry, I don't want the bruise
Your voice gets a little loud
When there's nothing to talk about, you shout, dear

And I'll find my lights fading out
More and more by the hour
It gets dark in here

If you got time enough for me
Sing me a song and send me to sleep
Slip into my headspace while I dream
Spin me a yarn, wrap it up around me

Dust to dust, my friend
Well, you're only blood and bones
And I know your heart's at war with your head
I am sure it hurt to see
You're more than I'll ever have
And more than I'll ever be
And I know it's a little late
My timing was never great
But I'm calling, dear

I just wanted to let you know
That I won't bother you anymore
I'll be gone this time next year

If you got time enough for me
Sing me a song and send me to sleep
Slip into my headspace while I dream
Spin me a yarn, wrap it up around me

If you got time enough for me
Sing me a song and send me to sleep
I never thought that a lie could sound so sweet
Until you opened your mouth
And you said you loved me

Good Thing

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It was certainly a well-spent off day today.

:)

Went out early to have a Mac breakfast date with my partner.

I am not an early person, but this was nice for a change.

It was a good thing too, as we had all the day to ourselves.

Had Starbucks afterwards while settling my song release.

Went back home, did some more music.

Watched Doctor Sleep, while eating kebabs and chips.

Took a nap (& slept like a baby).

Woke up and ate again, while watching Friends.

And then it was bedtime again.

Farts, laughs & cuddles.

Hahaha what more could I ask for?

This was perfect.

I've got everything I've ever wanted.

&

I cant be more grateful

For you.

:)

Love, Eran.

Current Song Mood: Zedd & Kehlani - Good Thing

I booked myself tables at all the best restaurants then eat alone
I buy myself fast cars just so I can drive them real fucking slow
I like my own company, company I don't need it
I'm not always cold, I'm just good on my own, so good on my own

I've always been told, one day I'll find
Somebody who changes my mind
If they come along, I won't think twice

'Cause I already got a good thing with me
Yeah, I already got everything I need
The best things in life are already mine
Don't tell me that you got a good thing for me
'Cause I already got a good thing with me
Yeah, I've already done everything I've dreamed
I'm good by myself, don't need no one else
Don't tell me that you got a good thing for me
'Cause I've already got a good thing

I make myself up just to dance in the mirror when I'm at home
I pose and take pictures then send them to people that I don't know
I like getting compliments, compliments how I'm feeling, ooh
I'm not always selfish, just bad at romance, it's not in my bones

I've always been told, one day I'll find
Somebody who changes my mind
If they come along, I won't think twice

'Cause I already got a good thing with me
Yeah, I already got everything I need
The best things in life are already mine
Don't tell me that you got a good thing for me
'Cause I already got a good thing with me
Yeah, I've already done everything I've dreamed
I'm good by myself, don't need no one else
Don't tell me that you got a good thing for me
'Cause I've already got a good thing

I've always been told, one day I'll find
Somebody who changes my mind
If they come along, I won't think twice

'Cause I already got a good thing with me
Yeah, I already got everything I need
The best things in life are already mine
Don't tell me that you got a good thing for me
'Cause I already got a good thing with me
Yeah, I've already done everything I've dreamed
I'm good by myself, don't need no one else
Don't tell me that you got a good thing for me
'Cause I've already got a good thing

Don't Start Now

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Finally the weekends.

One more tiring day to go.

I am getting sick of this routine.

But still hanging in there.

Just received my bonus letter today.

A lot of colleagues complaining.

And well, I can't complain.

At least it's something.

And you have to make do with it.

My boss looked me in the eyes and asked me if I am resigning next year.

I said yes.

Better to be straightforward about it.

At least you know now.

And I have nothing to hide.

And no, I don't need to know about what this company has to offer.

Don't start now.

I've seen it, and I'm not impressed.

Thank you very much.

There will always be better opportunities.

& I am going to take that leap of faith.

Love, Eran.

Current Song Mood: Dua Lipa - Don't Start Now

If you don't wanna see me

Did a full one eighty
Crazy, thinking about the way I was
Did the heartbreak change me?
Maybe, but look at where I ended up

I'm all good already
So moved on it's scary
I'm not where you left me at all
So if you don't wanna see me dancing with somebody
If you wanna believe that anything could stop me

Don't show up
Don't come out
Don't start caring about me now
Walk away
You know how
Don't start caring about me now

Aren't you the guy who tried to
Hurt me with the word goodbye
Though it took some time to, survive you
I'm better on the other-side

I'm all good already
So moved on it's scary
I'm not where you left me at all
So if you don't wanna see me dancing with somebody
If you wanna believe that anything could stop me

Don't show up
Don't come out
Don't start caring about me now
Walk away
You know how
Don't start caring about me now

Don't come out
Don't show now
Don't start now
Don't come out
I'm not where you left me at all

So if you don't wanna see me dancing with somebody
If you wanna believe that anything could stop me

Don't show up (Don't show up)
Don't come out (Don't come out)
Don't start caring about me now (About me now)
Walk away (Walk away)
You know how (You know how)
Don't start caring about me now

I Don't Like You

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I hate it when negativity just spoils my day.

I hate being treated like a child.

Is it because I'm too nice?

That people think that they can just talk however they want to me.

And nag.

And nag.

And nag???????

What the fuck?

I just don't like you.

I never asked for your fucking advice.

If I made a mistake, I'll own up to it.

But don't poke your nose into my reasonable decisions when I'm doing my job.

Which - I am doing just fine, thank you very much.

Seriously.

The more I work with older people, the more they get on my nerves.

Seems like my decision to leave is getting stronger each day.

I just need to get away from here.

FOR. GOOD.

Love, Eran.

Current Song Mood: Grace VanderWaal - I Don't Like You

Here we go again in that same story
Follow the routine until we say, "I'm sorry"
Hands are shaking till I just look down at the floor
Face is turning red and eyes are going puffy
You ask me why we yell and I come up with nothing
Your insecurities are pulling you back
But please know, oh, oh

I love you, but I don't like you
The simple truth is I can't do this, though I try to
I love you, but I don't like you
And I can't shut you out, so I'm shutting my mouth
But I'll never despise you
I just don't like you
Oh, oh, oh, oh
Oh, oh
Oh-oh-oh-oh-oh-oh-oh

We pour our souls out about the past months
By just trying to talk about lunch
And every single thing we say is gonna start a new war
And I'm exhausted from this tug of war of words
And when you said, "I don't care for you", it got worse
We both know it isn't working but I still put you first

'Cause I love you, but I don't like you
The simple truth is I can't do this, though I try to
I love you, but I don't like you
And I can't shut you out, so I'm shutting my mouth
But I'll never despise you
I just don't like you

Ooh
We both refuse to lose
We both refuse to choose the higher road
Which way will we go? Oh-oh, oh-oh
And ooh (Ooh)
We both refuse to lose (Lose)
We both refuse to choose the higher road
Which way will we go? Oh-oh, oh-oh

'Cause I love you, but I don't like you
The simple truth is I can't do this, though I try to
I love you, but I don't like you
And I can't shut you out, so I'm shutting my mouth
But I'll never despise you
I just don't like you
Oh, oh, oh, oh
Oh, oh
Oh-oh-oh-oh-oh-oh-oh
Oh, oh, oh, oh
Oh, oh
Oh-oh-oh-oh-oh-oh-oh
I just don't like you