Human

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I'm back again from another 2 weeks of attachment @IMH! Its been such a crazy (literally) posting.

I remember the first day - I didn't know what to expect at all. The patients were crowding at the doors like zombies and I felt like I was in a L4D2 game LOL. Even the way they walked, and their expressionless faces made me uncomfortable. But I slowly got used to them, the environment and the ward routine. I'm gonna miss the patients already HAHA. Teasing them and playing games.. :') I understand them better now. And I have more respect for them.

Not to mention, my amazing attachments, Anjek, Nadz, Jingy & Jo. I'm already missing all the silly kukubandung moments with them hehehe. They're my happy pills. <3 Like seriously I just love the positive vibes and hilarious conversations with them. Oh and also a big thank you to both of our amazingly nice CIs (they're so geeky & funny.. heheheh) for their guidance.

Well I'm so glad the posting's over. 1 month of attachment is long okay! Haha. Holidays here I come!! I'm gonna cherish it. Got some goals in my head that I wanna fulfil..

Mum's been worried about me being stressed up and keeping to myself. She thinks that one day I will hurt myself. Nah.. I don't think I'll go that far haha. When my kukubandungs share personal stories with me.. Sometimes I feel like sharing mine too.. But I don't think I should. Not everyone can handle the truth. I'll share them through other means. Bits and pieces. Slowly.

Cause I'm only human.

Love, Eran.

Current Song Mood: Christina Perri - Human

I can hold my breath

I can bite my tongue

I can stay awake for days

If that's what you want

Be your number one

I can fake a smile

I can force a laugh

I can dance and play the part

If that's what you ask

Give you all I am

I can do it

I can do it

I can do it

But I'm only human

And I bleed when I fall down

I'm only human

And I crash and I break down

Your words in my head, knives in my heart

You build me up and then I fall apart

'Cause I'm only human, yeah

I can turn it on

Be a good machine

I can hold the weight of worlds

If that's what you need

Be your everything

I can do it

I can do it

I'll get through it

But I'm only human

And I bleed when I fall down

I'm only human

And I crash and I break down

Your words in my head, knives in my heart

You build me up and then I fall apart

'Cause I'm only human, yeah

I'm only human

I'm only human

Just a little human

I can take so much

Until I've had enough

'Cause I'm only human

And I bleed when I fall down

I'm only human

And I crash and I break down

Your words in my head, knives in my heart

You build me up and then I fall apart

'Cause I'm only human, yeah

Paper Hearts

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It finally rained today. Thank God. I woke up peacefully with the cool breeze against my face.

Sometimes I wonder what.. what you're up to. I'm still waiting. Waiting for you to make the first move. To give me back something that was once mine.. Sometimes I still see you on my timeline. Sometimes I see someone I know tweeting you. Sometimes I come across your pictures in my phone. I keep telling myself I've moved on. That I'm stronger. But… I don't even know if it's true. Because truthfully..

There's a part of me that will always be longing for you.

Love, Eran.

This song is everything that I'm feeling right now.

Current Song Mood: Tori Kelly - Paper Hearts

Goodbye love
You flew right by love

Remember the way you made me feel
Such young love but
Something in me knew that it was real
Frozen in my head

Pictures I'm living through for now
Trying to remember all the good times
Our life was cutting through so loud
Memories are playing in my dull mind
I hate this part paper hearts
And I'll hold a piece of yours
Don't think I would just forget about it
Hoping that you won't forget about it

Everything is gray under these skies
Wet mascara
Hiding every cloud under a smile
When there's cameras
And I just can't reach out to tell you
That I always wonder what you're up to

Pictures I'm living through for now
Trying to remember all the good times
Our life was cutting through so loud
Memories are playing in my dull mind
I hate this part paper hearts
And I'll hold a piece of yours
Don't think I would just forget about it
Hoping that you won't forget

I live through pictures as if I was right there by your side
But you'll be good without me and if I could just give it some time
I'll be alright

Goodbye love you flew right by love

Pictures I'm living through for now
Trying to remember all the good times
Our life was cutting through so loud
Memories are playing in my dull mind
I hate this part paper hearts
And I'll hold a piece of yours
Don't think I would just forget about it
Hoping that you won't forget

The Bells

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Hey everyone! Just finished like 2 weeks of attachments at CDC which explains my absence from blogging & making covers. But I'll start doing more once attachment is REALLY over =) I have 2 more weeks to go, this time at IMH! Pretty sure I can blend in well with them HAHA.

CDC has been such a slack tbh. It gets boring in the morning and EVEN MORE boring in the afternoon lol. Nothing much to do. I do love to hang out at the nurses counter though! It's air-conditioned with lotsss of chairs & I love listening to the staffs having interesting & hilarious conversations. HAHA. The Indian clerk there is really friendly and sociable, we're always talking about where that missing Malaysian plane is lolol.

 The staff & healthcare assistants are nice too but some are really just.. annoying. Even the cleaner can be so kepo. ._. Gonna miss my fave patient to talk to, Mr P. He looked so depressed when we left :( Oh well I'm glad it's over. Been having some annoying mosquitoes that keeps bugging me around. -insert sarcasm- & also, I've realised the importance of women in my life after spending 2 weeks with the guys LOLOL.

Oh & I played L4D2 with some of the dudes yesterday hehe. I was so frustrated downloading pirated versions that I just bought the game. ._. STOP BULLYING ME OKAY GUYZ. Rawrz. Zombie-killing mode on. 

Happy Weekends!

Ps. If you haven't heard Lea Michele's album, GO LISTEN NOW!!!! It's filled with so much positivity, emotions & vulnerability. I've been listening to it everyday!  I've also been covering her songs the past few weeks & I'm so happy that people bother to actually listen and download them :') I'll make sure to do her whole album.

& I'll dedicate it to u.

Love, Eran.

I thought I was moving on.. But I think of nothing else.

Current Song Mood: Lea Michele - The Bells

Everyday I get a little bit closer

To the resolution that I am not yet bulletproof

Oh, the battle within rages on and on

The neighborhood seemed so small

The church on the corner

Has steps good for waiting

I should go in

But I'm tired of praying

And anyway

I can't stop the bells

Ringing since you've been gone

I thought I was moving on

But I think of nothing else

I can't break the spell

I still hear you every place

Can't forget what I saw in your face

I know every inch so well

I can't stop the bells

Can't stop the bells

Can't stop the bells

I can't stop the bells

Can't stop the bells

And it doesn't even matter what's going on

The sound in my head is constant

And I can't turn it off

Oh, and patience is hard

When you just don't know

Where all the waiting is taking you

The church on the corner

Torn down in December

That kiss in the doorway

I still won't surrender

And anyway

I can't stop the bells

Ringing since you've been gone

I thought I was moving on

But I think of nothing else

I can't break the spell

I still hear you every place

You don't know what you left in your wake

I guess I'm not so well

I should feel what I feel for a moment

Just see what I see

And you know that I won't find peace

Until you'll come back to me

Oh, I thought I was moving on

But I think of nothing else

I can't stop the bells

I still hear you every place

Can't forget what I saw in your face

I know every inch so well

I can't stop the bells

Can't stop the bells

Can't stop the bells

I can't stop the bells

Can't stop the bells, oh

The Other Side

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Just came back from a 3-days camp. Yes, my camp that I organised with Lily & Dan. It's finally over. After months of hard planning & mental breakdowns.

Day 1: Took a cab with Lily cause we had a LOT of things to carry. My bag was so thick I looked like a walking turtle. ._. 

Went to school and we were pretty productive! Planning the script for Ida and got a lot of ideas flowing for once haha. Then we went to collect projectors and such with the help of Prem :) Mann what a morning exercise it was! Went back to logi room and waited for the rest to come. Then we settled the logi stuff and went to start the administration at LT79. Before that, I had to go back and forth from the library to print items and I swear the day was full of me walking ._. TIRING OKAYZ. 

Sigh. Was expecting tables and chairs outside LT79 but there were none so we had to do it standing (LOL). Poor us. Me, Farah & Nex started calling people to sign and slowly the LT started filling up. Fast forward past the icebreakers, dinner & find the tribute, the day went pass fast. Me & the Excos stayed up in the class to prepare items for the next day. We decided to watch a horror movie in the meantime (SAW) haha but I ended up napping halfway cause I was sleepy. Was so tired after that, that I just decided to grab my sleeping bag & sleep on the table. Had like only 2-3 hours of sleep while the rest played cards and stuff haha. Crazy! I need mah beauty sleep .-.

Day 2: Went to bathe then went below LT51 for breakfast. Felt good to be in a camp again and being the one running it. :) Problems came though, and people kept leaving to go for other events so we were reallyyyyy short of people :( It was also the day with the most activities (Amazing Race, Dancing, Food Hunting Game). I liked how people were so into the dancing though ._. Awesome. And the maggi-cooking session after the food hunting made me feel happy because it was my first time eating outside army-style. Haha! Cooked so much and was so into it till the lights turned off and we had to go back to our rooms. This time I made sure I slept straight away. ._.

Day 3: The day I've been waiting for!! Time seemed to pass fast. We had breakfast, a mass dance (which was freakin awesome btw), cheer battles (WHICH I REALLY LOVED TOO HAHA) and prize presentations :) Along the way there were some negativity and slight conflicts but whatever, it doesn't matter anymore. Just want to thank the EXCOs, Year 2s & Year 1s for all the help and effort into making this camp a success. Love & appreciate you guys. <3

Taken by Tomei =)

Ida's makeup!! Hahaha so cute.

Stayed up REALLY late at night.

Our AWESOMELY handmade flag done by Prem!!! :)

Featuring Dan as President Snow. Lmao..

My first real 'camp' experience. =)

The Legends thinking of their cheers against the Yr 1s =)

=)

Sempat selfie hahaha.

With the EXCOs =)

With the Legends =)

After a long tiring day.

The Hunger Camp 2014

So tired now. 1 month of attachment starts tomorrow. Yep that's right. 1 FRIGGIN MONTH. ;-;

Ps. I'll post the camp photos some other time :)

Love, Eran.

Current Song Mood: Jason Derulo - The Other Side

In the beginning

I never thought it would be you

When we were chillin'

Smiling in the photo booth

But we got closer (Yeah)

Till you were eating off my spoon

And coming over

And we would talk all afternoon

Tonight we'll just get drunk

Disturb the peace

Bind your hands all over me

And then you bite your lip

Whisper and say, We're going all the way

Tonight, take me to the other side

Sparks fly like the Fourth of July

Just take me to the other side

I see that sexy look in your eyes

And I know, we ain't friends anymore

If we walk down this road

We'll be lovers for sure

So tonight kiss me like its do or die

And take me to the other side

This could be perfect (yeah)

But we won't know unless we try (Try)

I know you're nervous

So just sit back and let me drive

Tonight well just get drunk

Disturb the peace

Bind your hands all over me

And then you bite your lip

Whisper and say, We're going all the way

Tonight, take me to the other side

Sparks fly like the Fourth of July

Just take me to the other side

I see that sexy look in your eyes

And I know, we ain't friends anymore

If we walk down this road

We'll be lovers for sure

So tonight kiss me like its do or die

And take me to the other side

(Woah)

Kiss me like its do or die

And take me to the other side

Tonight we'll just get drunk

Disturb the peace

Let your love crash into me

And then you bite your lip

Whisper and say, We're going all the way

Tonight, take me to the other side

Sparks fly like the Fourth of July

Just take me to the other side

I see that sexy look in your eyes

And I know, we ain't friends anymore

If we walk down this road

We'll be lovers for sure

So tonight kiss me like its do or die

And take me to the other side

(Woah)

Take me to the other side

(Woah)

And take me to the other side

(Woah)

Kiss me like its do or die

(Woah)

And take me to the other side