Secret Love Song Pt II

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This morning, Mum hugged me as I was asleep.

She didnt want to let go.

It must be painful for her to see me grow up and leave the house.

But I gotta do what I'm meant to do.

Sorry Mum.

All I wanna do today is just chill.

Relax.

And enjoy the last few moments I have here.

Not that I'll be gone that long.

But...

It's gonna feel like confinement week.

Just, with more freedom.

A lot can change in just 3 weeks.

People, can change.

Feelings, can change.

I'm holding on to mine.

You...

You'll always be my secret love song.

I wish I can pack you in my bag and bring it overseas with me.

Haha.

I'll be back..

Hopefully as a better person.

More experience.

See you in 3 weeks.

Take care guys.

Love, Eran.

I'll never show it on my face.

Current Song Mood: Little Mix - Secret Love Song Pt II

We keep behind closed doors
Every time I see you, I die a little more
Stolen moments that we steal as the curtain falls
It'll never be enough
As you drive me to my house
I can't stop these silent tears from rolling down
You and I both have to hide on the outside
Where I can't be yours and you can't be mine

But I know this, we got a love that is homeless

Why can't I hold you in the street?
Why can't I kiss you on the dance floor?
I wish that it could be like that
Why can't it be like that? 'Cause I'm yours
Why can't I say that I'm in love?
I wanna shout it from the rooftops
I wish that it could be like that
Why can't it be like that? 'Cause I'm yours

It's obvious you're meant for me
Every piece of you, it just fits perfectly
Every second, every thought, I'm in so deep
But I'll never show it on my face

But we know this, we got a love that is hopeless

Why can't you hold me in the street?
Why can't I kiss you on the dance floor?
I wish that it could be like that
Why can't we be like that? 'Cause I'm yours
Why can't I say that I'm in love?
I wanna shout it from the rooftops
I wish that it could be like that
Why can't we be like that? 'Cause I'm yours

I don't wanna live love this way
I don't wanna hide us away
I wonder if it ever will change
I'm living for that day, someday
When you hold me in the street
And you kiss me on the dance floor
I wish that we could be like that
Why can't we be like that? 'Cause I'm yours, I'm yours

Why can't you hold me in the street?
Why can't I kiss you on the dance floor?
I wish that it could be like that
Why can't it be like that? 'Cause I'm yours
Why can't I say that I'm in love?
I wanna shout it from the rooftops
I wish that it could be like that
Why can't we be like that? 'Cause I'm yours

Why can't we be like that?
Wish we could be like that

White Iverson

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Thanks to my Sluts for the meet-up.

Enjoyed the company.

Appreciate people who *make time* for friends.

UNLIKE SOME PEOPLEEEEEE.

*throws shades*

I'm lovestruck and I don't know what to do.

It's too early.

Too early.

I'll leave with a heavy heart for sure.

Love, Eran.

When I started ballin' I was young.

Current Song Mood: Post Malone - White Iverson

Double OT
I'm a new breed

Saucin', saucin', I'm saucin' on you
I'm swaggin', I'm swaggin', I'm swaggin' oh ooh
I'm ballin', I'm ballin', Iverson on you
Watch out, watch out, watch out, yeah
That's my shot, that's my shot, that's my shot, yeah
Spendin', I'm spendin' all my fuckin' pay

I got me some braids and I got me some hoes
Started rockin' the sleeve, I can't ball with no Joes
You know how I do it, Concords on my toes
(This shit is hard)
I ain't rich yet, but you know I ain't broke, I
So if I see it, I like it, buy that from the store, I
I'm with some white girls and they lovin' the coca
Like they're OT
Double OT like I'm KD, smokin' OG
And you know me, in my 2-3s and my gold teeth
Bitch I'm smiling, bet you see me from the nosebleeds
I'm the new 3 and I change out to my new 3s

White Iverson
When I started ballin' I was young
You gon' think about me when I'm gone
I need that money like the ring I never won, I won

Saucin', saucin', I'm saucin' on you
I'm swaggin', I'm swaggin', I'm swaggin' oh ooh
I'm ballin', I'm ballin', Iverson on you
Watch out, watch out, watch out, yeah
That's my shot, that's my shot, that's my shot yeah
Spendin', I'm spendin' all my fuckin' pay

Cigarettes and a headband
Commas, commas in my head, man
Slumped over like a dead man
Red and black, 'bout my bread, man
I'm the answer, never question
Lace up, learn a lesson
Bitch I'm saucin', I do this often, don't do no talkin'
My options right when I walk in, jump all them Jordans
I'm ballin', money jumpin'
Like I'm Davis from New Orleans
Or bitch I'm Harden, I don't miss nothin'
Fuck practice, this shit just happens, know y'all can't stand it
I have it, I'll never pass it, I work my magic
High average, ball on these bastards, it makes me happy
It's tragic, I make it happen, and all y'all Shaqtin'

White Iverson
When I started ballin' I was young
You gon' think about me when I'm gone
I need that money like the ring I never won, I won

Saucin', saucin', I'm saucin' on you
I'm swaggin', I'm swaggin', I'm swaggin' oh ooh
I'm ballin', I'm ballin', Iverson on you
Watch out, watch out, watch out, yeah
That's my shot, that's my shot, that's my shot, yeah
Spendin', I'm spendin' all my fuckin' pay

Faith

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Faith.

Is all I need.

I realized, I've been chasing after the wrong things.

I don't know if there's still time to turn back.

But after our conversation tonight, I felt so damn guilty.

That I'm not that boy I used to be.

Faith.

I'm so glad to have met you.

A beautiful soul like you.

Made me realised, what kind of person I really am.

Makes me... want to change so badly.

Few people can do that.

You did.

Faith.

I hope to meet you in person some day.

I have a very good feeling about you.

I'm holding onto this feeling.

Please wait for me.

Please.

Faith.

Love, Eran.

I saved this special song for you.

Current Song Mood: Lacey Sturm - Faith

Laughter tickles my tongue
A breathless chase has begun
I'm gonna let you in
Catch me I'm falling in love
Oh what have I done?

Love how you gamble your pride
Amazed how strong you are
You risk looking in my eyes
And let me melt your heart

Will you always
Chase me like this?
Will time and space
Leave when we kiss?

Curses burning my tongue
I'm wondering if you're enough
I promised forever
Am I a liar?
Love oh what have I done?

Love how you gamble your pride
Amazed how strong you are
You risk looking in my eyes
And let me break your heart

Will you always
Chase me like this?
Will time and space
Leave when we kiss goodbye?

I was divided
My heart was so confused
My heart's a liar
And I used to know the truth
I have decided
I'm gonna follow through
I'm wanna gamble and fall in love with you

I hear your heartbeat
You're singing to me

Will you always
Chase me like this?
Will time and space
Leave when we kiss?

Some They Lie

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Cant help but feel the disappointment sinking in hard as I read the text.

But I guess some things can't be helped.

I understand.

Some they lie, they don't come back.

I'm really hoping you won't do that.

Not surprising in this circle.

But please don't be the one.

Cause I'm (surprisingly) into you.

My hopes are real.

Truly.

Madly.

Deeply.

Love, Eran.

(Song's in Spotify, MV coming soon)

Current Song Mood: Narelle - Some They Lie

I don't really care 

Wont you sit a little bit longer

Don't walk away

You don't even care

If Im going out of my mind

Dont fuck with my head

But I keep taking my chances 

Don't waste my time

You know I fall apart everytime

Taking my chances, don't waste my time

Ohh, Some they lie, they don't come back

Pacify my maniac

Some they lie, they don't come back

Fortify, won't break yet

Some they lie, they don't come back x2

I'm burning all my bridges down

Oh I tried to make it work

To prove my love to you

But everything I tried to do

Is no use - because you left me

Please don't take me for granted

Oh darling don't lie

The truth won't end myself recognised

Won't be taking more chances

Don't waste my time

Ohh, Some they lie, they don't come back

Pacify my maniac

Some they lie, they don't come back

Fortify, won't break yet

Some they lie, they don't come back x2

Ohh, Some they lie, they don't come back

Don't be sorry, won't buy that

Shaved through my way

Oh i'm losing my mind

Cause I stil trust your heart

But the kisses I'ved tried

Would you please let me off

Don't you lie

Some they lie

Don't you lie

Tell that to my face, tell me everything's okay

Cause I'm loving you

Tell that to my face, tell me everything's okay

Cause I'm loving you

Some they lie they don't come back

How'd you get so faded?

Some they lie, they don't come back 

Fortify, won't break yet

Some they lie, they don't come back x2

I'm burning all my bridges down

Oh I tried to make it work

To prove my love to you

Sex With Me

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Kinda guilty right now.

I don't know.

I kinda feel.. different now.

Maybe it was a rash decision.

Maybe it wasnt the best.

But I'm glad you liked it.

You flatter me.

I don't know what's gonna happen next.

There's always.. a risk in everything we do.

How long can we run from it?

I don't want to give false hope.

We have to face reality one day.

Love, Eran.

I loved it.

Current Song Mood: Rihanna - Sex With Me

Sex with me, so amazing
All this all work, no vacation
Stay up off my Instagram, pure temptation
Hit a switch on a fake nigga, like a station
Sex with me, so amazing
Sex with me, so amazing

Vodka and water, and a lemon
And a few other things I can not mention
Oh-na-na-na-na
Five fingers on it (five fingers)
Hit it like you own it, I'mma hit it like I'm on it
Straight shots of the blue dot
(shots, shots, shots, shots)
Baby, I'mma pick your poison
Oh-we, ah-yeah, you gon' need it
I'm off that la-la
I'mma get it wet like jacuzzi, ah-yea

And sex with me, so amazing
All this all work, no vacation
Stay up off my Instagram, pure temptation
Sex with me, sex with me, sex with me
So amazing, so amazing, mmmm

You know I got the sauce (sauce), you know I'm saucy
And it's always wet, a bitch never ever had to use lip gloss on it
I'mma need you deeper than six, it's not a coffin
We're not making love, tryna get nasty
Wrap up your drugs, come make me happy
Sex with me is amazing, with her it'll feel alright
The sex doesn't get any better, make it long, let it be all night
I know, I know, I make it hard to let go
Tonight, all night, I'm Monroe
Even if I'm alone

Sex with me, so amazing
All this all work, no vacation
Stay up off my Instagram, pure temptations
Hit a switch on a fake nigga, like a station
Sex with me, sex with me, sex with me
So amazing, so amazing, mmmm

Sex with me, so amazing
Sex with me so amazing
(this is the best there is)

Into You

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Today marks a year since I badly ended a significant trip.

And today I've started over again.

I love meeting new people.

Creative people.

People with chivalry.

People who are like-minded.

Makes my heart warm and fuzzy again.

And I guess that hug made me blush crazy.

Thank you for today.

I'm kinda into you.

Love, Eran.

Been waiting for you to make a move.

Current Song Mood: Ariana Grande - Into You

[Verse 1:]
I'm so into you, I can barely breathe
And all I wanna do is to fall in deep
But close ain't close enough 'til we cross the line, baby
So name a game to play, and I'll roll the dice, hey

[Pre-Chorus:]
Oh baby, look what you started
The temperature's rising in here
Is this gonna happen?
Been waiting and waiting for you to make a move
(Woo, oh, oh, oh)
Before I make a move
(Woo, oh, oh, oh)

[Chorus:]
So baby, come light me up and maybe I'll let you on it
A little bit dangerous, but baby, that's how I want it
A little less conversation, and a little more touch my body
Cause I'm so into you, into you, into you
Got everyone watchin' us, so baby, let's keep it secret
A little bit scandalous, but baby, don't let them see it
A little less conversation and a little more touch my body
Cause I'm so into you, into you, into you, oh yeah

[Verse 2:]
This could take some time, hey
I made too many mistakes
Better get this right, right, baby

[Pre-Chorus:]
Oh baby, look what you started
The temperature's rising in here
Is this gonna happen?
Been waiting and waiting for you to make a move
(Woo, oh, oh, oh)
Before I make a move
(Woo, oh, oh, oh)

[Chorus:]
So baby, come light me up and maybe I'll let you on it
A little bit dangerous, but baby, that's how I want it
A little less conversation, and a little more touch my body
Cause I'm so into you, into you, into you
Got everyone watchin' us, so baby, let's keep it secret
A little bit scandalous, but baby, don't let them see it
A little less conversation and a little more touch my body
Cause I'm so into you, into you, into you

[Bridge:]
Tell me what you came here for
Cause I can't, I can't wait no more
I'm on the edge with no control
And I need, I need you to know
You to know, oh

[Chorus:]
So baby, come light me up and maybe I'll let you on it
A little bit dangerous, but baby, that's how I want it
A little less conversation, and a little more touch my body
Cause I'm so into you, into you, into you
Got everyone watchin' us, so baby, let's keep it secret
A little bit scandalous, but baby, don't let them see it
A little less conversation and a little more touch my body
Cause I'm so into you, into you, into you

[Outro:]
So come light me up, so come light me up my baby
A little dangerous, a little dangerous my baby
A little less conversation and a little more touch my body
Cause I'm so into you, into you, into you

All Night

Page 543

Been an eventful day :)

Fine-dined with the family.

Been a while since we went out together as a whole.

Honestly, the last time we were out, it was so horrible.

But this time round the mood was light and everyone pretty much had a good time.

Ate at SPIZE at Temasek Club and the whole place is just so grand and huge.

Good service too.

Went to Grandma's for a while to visit her for awhile.

Then headed to CCK with Bunk7 where we had a surprise celebration for Damn Daniel.

HAHAHA. So cute everyone was damn kecoh.

Overall the celebration was a success.

Thanks for the invitation!

I could do this all night.

Gonna catch some snooze now.

Love, Eran.

True love never has to hide.

Current Song Mood: Beyonce - All Night

Found the truth beneath your lies
And true love never has to hide
True love never has to hide
I'll trade your broken wings for mine
Trade your broken wings for mine
I've seen your scars and kissed your crime
Seen your scars and kissed your crime

So many people that I know, they're just tryna touch ya
Kiss up and rub up and feel up
Kiss up and rub up and feel up on you
Give you some time to prove that I can trust you again
I'm gonna kiss up and rub up and feel up
Kiss up and rub up and feel up on you

All night long
Sweet love all night long
Sweet love all night long
Sweet love all night long
All I wanna, ain't no other
We together, I remember
Sweet love all night long

Our love was stronger than your pride
Beyond your darkness, I'm your light
If you get deep, you touch my mind
If you get deep, you touch my mind
Baptize your tears and dry your eyes
Baptize your tears and dry your eyes

So many people that I know, they're just tryna touch ya
Kiss up and rub up and feel up
Kiss up and rub up and feel up on you
Give you some time to prove that I can trust you again
I'm gonna kiss up and rub up and feel up
Kiss up and rub up and feel up on you

All night long
Sweet love all night long
Sweet love all night long
Sweet love all night long
All I wanna, ain't no other
We together, I remember
Sweet love all night long

They say true love's the greatest weapon
To win the war caused by pain, pain
But every diamond has imperfections
But my love's too pure to watch it chip away
Oh nothing real can be threatened
True love breathes salvation back into me
With every tear came redemption
And my torturer became a remedy

So many people that I know, they're just tryna touch ya
Kiss up and rub up and feel up
Kiss up and rub up and feel up on you
Give you some time to prove that I can trust you again
I'm gonna kiss up and rub up and feel up
Kiss up and rub up and feel up on you

All night long
Sweet love all night long
Sweet love all night long
Sweet love all night long
All I wanna, ain't no other
We together, I remember
Sweet love all night long

How I missed you, my love

With You

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Been productive lately.

That's highly unusual of me haha.

I just wanna do my best.

For me.

For my future.

And make a name for myself.

I hope you know.

It's all about us right now.

I'm with you.

I don't know why but I'm having some kind of high hope on us.

I hope you don't turn out like the others.

Because at this point, I won't be surprised.

Love, Eran.

Where you goin'?

Current Song Mood: Drake - With You

[PARTYNEXTDOOR:]
It's about us right now, girl, where you going?
It's about us right now, girl, where you going?
I'm with you

Yeah, I can't get enough of you, babe
Bottles open up so you can try and open up for me, baby
M.I.A. in the M.I.A
You do you, girl, the haters gon' hate
Cut them off like you a sensei, girl
Oh, I know you feel what I feel
Breaking you off, it's so real
I can't fake that, babe
My love's locked down and you cuffing it
You're the only one I trust with it
You're the only one that stuck with it

[PARTYNEXTDOOR & Drake:]
It's about us right now, girl, where you going?
It's about us right now, girl, where you going?
I'm with you
It's about us right now, girl, where you going?
It's about us right now, girl, where you going? Yeah
I'm with you

[Drake:]
Yeah, linking me down on my line
Busy as usual but we should make some time
Looking for things you can find
Just so you can have something to bring up when it's time
Mixing vodka and emotions, tapping into your emotions
Dry cry cause I'm hopeless
Choose your lover for the moment
Different story when I leave you
Story of just to keep you
I need you around, I need you, oh

[PARTYNEXTDOOR & Drake:]
It's about us right now, girl, where you going?
It's about us right now, girl, where you going?
I'm with you
It's about us right now, girl, where you going?
It's about us right now, girl, where you going? Yeah
I'm with you

This Is What You Came For

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I stared into the horizon.

The clear sky.

I remembered those time where I would watch the sun rise.

Just like... that trip.

The familiar passing-by of the aeroplanes.

And that feeling back then that I should be on that plane..

And I did.

I did get to travel.

I would always count myself fortunate.

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What am I looking for?

Because I really don't know what I want.

I'm just floating.

Letting life take it's course.

Is it risky? Yeah.

But it feels more natural.

Are you sure you wanna continue?

Cause.

Im not sure if.

This is what you came for.

Love, Eran.

Current Song Mood: Calvin Harris Ft Rihanna - This Is What You Came For

Baby, this is what you came for
Lightning strikes every time she moves
And everybody's watching her
But she's looking at you, oh, oh
You, oh, oh, you, oh, oh
You, oh, oh, you, oh, oh
You, oh, oh, oh, oh

Baby, this is what you came for
Lightning strikes every time she moves
And everybody's watching her
But she's looking at you, oh, oh
You, oh, oh, you, oh, oh
You, oh, oh, you, oh, oh
You, oh, oh, oh, oh

We go fast 'til they can't replay
Who knows why it's gotta be this way
We say nothing more than we need
I say "your place" when we leave

Baby, this is what you came for
Lightning strikes every time she moves
And everybody's watching her
But she's looking at you, oh, oh
You, oh, oh, you, oh, oh
You, oh, oh, you, oh, oh
You, oh, oh, oh, oh

Baby, this is what you came for
Lightning strikes every time she moves
Yeah

Baby, this is what you came for
Lightning strikes every time she moves
And everybody's watching her
But she's looking at you, oh, oh
You, oh, oh, you, oh, oh
You, oh, oh, you, oh, oh
You, oh, oh, oh, oh