Doctor You

Page 663

It could be a sign.

The fact that it was raised up..

HMM.

It raised my eyebrows.

And maybe something else.

I'd doctor you anytime.

To find out the truth.

Love, Eran.

Current Song Mood: DNCE - Doctor You

Come on!

Lady, do you feel okay?
'Cause your heart'll race, hard to sleep, get away, girl every day
Need something to ease the pain
You can count on me for a fee, I'll happily take it away
Here's what I'll say

You're gonna need, need a real good doctor
(Call the doc!) Good doctor
Doctor Me, your Doctor Who
Your Doctor You (Call the doc!)
(Said you gonna call the doc!)
Whenever you feel the fever burnin' hotter
(Call the doc!) So hot
Doctor Me, your Doctor Who
Your Doctor You (Call the doc!)
(Said you gonna call the doc!)

I think I've seen this before
You're stayin' awake, you're losin' sleep, you're gonna be back at my door
Once you start, you just want more
My medicine is a remedy, just come to me, your private drugstore
Yeah...

You're gonna need, need a real good doctor
(Call the doc!) Good doctor
Doctor Me, your Doctor Who
Your Doctor You (Call the doc!)
(Said you gonna call the doc!)
Whenever you feel the fever burnin' hotter
(Call the doc!) So hot
Doctor Me, your Doctor Who
Your Doctor You (Call the doc!)
(Said you gonna call the doc!)

(Who!)
(Call the doc!)
Call for...
(Said you gonna call the doc!)
Whatever you need
(Who!)
(Call the doc!)
Hey
(Said you gonna call the doc!)
You look sick bitch
(Call the doc!)
If you grow an addition
(Call the doc!)
If you tell me you're still in pain
(Call the doc!)
I'ma double the dosage
Twice a day, everyday
Here's what I'll say...

You're gonna need, need a real good doctor
(Call the doc!) Good doctor
Doctor Me, your Doctor Who
Your Doctor You (Call the doc!)
(Said you gonna call the doc!)
Whenever you feel the fever burnin' hotter
(Call the doc!) So hot
Doctor Me, your Doctor Who
Your Doctor You (Call the doc!)
(Said you gonna call the doc!)

Six Feet Under

Page 662

Pretty smooth day aye.

Got a lot going on my mind lately.

Sometimes I think so much, I just stare into blank space.

Good to be back huh? Haha.

Been a while since work occupied my mind.

Taking it positively.

Wont be put down man.

Even when I'm six feet under.

Love, Eran.

Current Song Mood: The Weeknd - Six Feet Under

Ask around about her

She don't get emotional
Kill off all her feelings
That's why she ain't approachable
She know her pussy got a fan base
A couple niggas with a suit case
Suit and tie niggas who play role play
When it comes to money she play no games

She lick it up just like a candy
She wanna make them leave their family
She trying to live a life so fancy
She wanna pull up in a Bentley
She ain't got time for lovin'
Louis Vuitton her husband
She rather die in lusting
She rather die in the club, till she

Six feet under she gon' get that fucking paper
Six feet under she gon' get that fucking paper
Six feet under she gon' get that fucking paper
You know how she get down, pop her for a check now
Six feet under, six
Six feet under
Six feet under, six
Six feet under
Six feet under she gon' kill me for that paper
Not the type to fuck around, gonna turn that ass around

She don't depend on anybody
Know just what to do with her own body
Counting all that money like a hobby
She don't give a fuck about nobody
And she got her whole crew poppin'
And she bend it over like she got no back bone
Got a couple niggas blinging up a trap phone
She don't need nobody waiting back home, she got it

She lick it up just like a candy
She wanna make them leave their family
She trying to live a life so fancy
She wanna pull up in a Bentley
She ain't got time for lovin'
Louis Vuitton her husband
She rather die in lusting
She rather die in the club, till she

Six feet under she gon' get that fucking paper
Six feet under she gon' get that fucking paper
Six feet under she gon' get that fucking paper
You know how she get down, pop her for a check now
Six feet under, six
Six feet under
Six feet under, six
Six feet under
Six feet under she gon' kill me for that paper
Not the type to fuck around, gonna turn that ass around
Gonna turn that ass around
Oh murder, oh murder
Gonna turn that ass around
Oh murder, oh murder

Real love starts to fall
So she don't waste her time
So she don't waste her time, oooh
You ain't gon' catch her crying
She ain't gon' lose her mind
She ain't gon' lose her mind
Till she..

Six feet under she gon' kill me for that paper (Till she)
Six feet under she gon' kill me for that paper (Till she)
Six feet under she gon' kill me for that paper
Not the type to fuck around, gonna turn that ass around

Back From The Edge

Page 661

I'm back from the edge.

And...

Back to camp.

Ugh. Lol.

I feel like my inner Donna Paulsen has just awoken.

Reality slapped me hard again.

And it was back to work.

And chaos.

But oh well, i'm ready to go through all this.

There's a lot to be done.

And I gotta get my head back in the game.

Let's do this.

Love, Eran.

Current Song Mood: James Arthur - Back From The Edge

Back from the edge
Back from the dead
Back before demons took control of my head
Back to the start
Back to my heart
Back to the boy who would reach for the stars
Oh, he would reach for the stars, yeah

You can take my home, you can take my clothes
You can take the drugs I have that nobody knows
You can take my watch, you can take my phone
You can take all I've got 'til I'm skin and bone
I don't want control, I can dig my own hole
I can make my bed and I can lie in it cold

'Cause I don't need heat, I've been burnin' in hell
But now I'm back with my own story to tell

Back from the edge
Back from the dead
Back before demons took control of my head
Back to the start
Back to my heart
Back to the boy who would reach for the stars
Oh, back from the edge
Back from the dead
Back from the tears that were too easily shed
Back to the start
Back to my heart
Back to the boy who would reach for the stars
Who would reach for the stars, yeah

They don't like my lies, they don't like my songs
Except in karaoke when they're singing along
Did you see them build me up? Well I just tear myself down
With a smile on my face, I dug my grave in the ground
We all make mistakes, we're so quick to judge
It's hard to forgive when we hold onto a grudge

So turn down the heat, I've been burnin' in hell
But now I'm back with my own story to tell

Back from the edge
Back from the dead
Back before demons took control of my head
Back to the start
Back to my heart
Back to the boy who would reach for the stars
Oh, back from the edge
Back from the dead
Back from the tears that were too easily shed
Back to the start
Back to my heart
Back to the boy who would reach for the stars
Who would reach for the stars, yeah

I don't want control, I can dig my own hole
I can make my bed and I can lie in it cold
'Cause I don't need heat, I've been burnin' in hell
But now I'm back with my own story to tell

Back from the edge
Back from the dead
Back before demons took control of my head
Back to the start
Back to my heart
Back to the boy who would reach for the stars
Oh, back from the edge
Back from the dead
Back from the tears that were too easily shed
Back to the start
Back to my heart
Back to the boy who would reach for the stars
Who would reach for the stars, yeah

Starboy

Page 660

Two weeks have gone by in a flash.

Sigh.

Where did the time go?

All these messages.

Yet none with substance.

What's the point?

I don't know.. 

I don't know how you feel about it.

Are you happy for me?

Or are you disappointed.

It just won't show.

Look what you've done.

I'm a motherf*cking starboy.

Love, Eran.

Current Song Mood: The Weeknd - Starboy

I'm tryna put you in the worst mood, ah
P1 cleaner than your church shoes, ah
Milli point two just to hurt you, ah
All red lamb' just to tease you, ah
None of these toys on lease too, ah
Made your whole year in a week too, yeah
Main bitch out of your league too, ah
Side bitch out of your league too, ah

House so empty need a centerpiece
Twenty racks a table cut from ebony
Cut that ivory into skinny pieces
Then she clean up with her face, man
I love my baby
You talking money need a hearing aid
You talking 'bout me I don't see the shade
Switch up my style I take any lane
I switch up my cup I kill any pain

Ha-ha-ha-ha-ha-ha-ha-ha-ha-ha
Look what you've done!
Ha-ha-ha-ha-ha-ha-ha-ha-ha-ha
I'm a motherfuckin' Starboy
Ha-ha-ha-ha-ha-ha
Look what you've done!
Ha-ha-ha-ha-ha-ha-ha-ha-ha-ha
I'm a motherfuckin' Starboy

Every day a nigga try to test me, ah
Every day a nigga try to end me, ah
Pull off in that roadster SV, ah
Pockets over weight getting hefty, ah
Coming for the king that's a far cry
I come alive in the fall time I
No competition I don't really listen
I'm in the blue Mulsanne bumping New Edition

House so empty need a centerpiece
Twenty racks a table cut from ebony
Cut that ivory into skinny pieces
Then she clean up with her face, man
I love my baby
You talking money need a hearing aid
You talking bout me I don't see the shade
Switch up my style I take any lane
I switch up my cup I kill any pain

Ha-ha-ha-ha-ha-ha-ha-ha-ha-ha
Look what you've done!
Ha-ha-ha-ha-ha-ha-ha-ha-ha-ha
I'm a motherfuckin' Starboy
Ha-ha-ha-ha-ha-ha
Look what you've done!
Ha-ha-ha-ha-ha-ha-ha-ha-ha-ha
I'm a motherfuckin' Starboy

Let a nigga Brad Pitt legend of the fall
Took the year like a bandit
Bought mama a crib and a brand new wagon
Now she hit the grocery shop looking lavish
Star Trek groove in that Wraith of Khan
Girls get loose when they hear this song
Hundred on the dash get me close to God
We don't pray for love we just pray for cars

House so empty need a centerpiece
Twenty racks a table cut from ebony
Cut that ivory into skinny pieces
Then she clean up with her face
Man I love my baby
You talking money need a hearing aid
You talking bout me I don't see your shade
Switch up my style I take any lane
I switch up my cup I kill any pain

Ha-ha-ha-ha-ha-ha-ha-ha-ha-ha
Look what you've done!
Ha-ha-ha-ha-ha-ha-ha-ha-ha-ha
I'm a motherfuckin' Starboy
Ha-ha-ha-ha-ha-ha-ha-ha-ha-ha
Look what you've done!
Ha-ha-ha-ha-ha-ha-ha-ha-ha-ha
I'm a motherfuckin' Starboy

Ha-ha-ha-ha-ha-ha-ha-ha-ha-ha
Look what you've done!
Ha-ha-ha-ha-ha-ha-ha-ha-ha-ha
I'm a motherfuckin' Starboy
Ha-ha-ha-ha-ha-ha-ha-ha-ha-ha
Look what you've done!
Ha-ha-ha-ha-ha-ha-ha-ha-ha-ha
I'm a motherfuckin' Starboy

Skeletons

Page 659

GAH.

I keep making stupid mistakes in life.

Mistakes that are avoidable.

That costed me more than it should.

Need to start getting my shit together.

I know I'm better than this.

Just need to let some love in.

Give me some strength.

All these skeletons in my closet.

They're adding weight on my shoulders.

Love, Eran.

Current Song Mood: James Arthur - Skeletons

They see that thing
That you don't see
They call them scared to tell us
Don't be scared of them
'Cause you're still you
And I'm still me
It's all irrelevant
I got scared to change

You could tell me everything
And then we could forget it
Baby, you could show me all your demons
Admit it
You could be a battle
And the words come back around, around
We going never gotta tell the lions
Where we're living
I could show you demons
Only you could take a minute
Show me that you be there
When the walls come crashing down

When you're holding back the words
'Cause you're afraid of being heard
Just let love in
Just let love in
Oh, we're only skin and bones
We don't have to be alone
Just let love in
Just let love in
I, I, I, I, I, I just let love in
Just let love in

Sink or swim
What will it be?
We all got scared to change
Set them free
But now I'm over it
And I'm under you
So tell me everything
Take a trip to the moon

Oh, when you're holding back the words
'Cause you're afraid of being heard
Just let love in
Just let love in
Oh, we're only skin and bones
We don't have to be alone
Just let love in
Just let love in
I, I, I, I, I, I, just let love in
Just let love in

You could tell me everything
And then we could forget it
Baby, you could show me all your demons
Admit it
You could be a battle
And the words come back around, around
We going never gotta
Tell the lions that we're living
I could show you demons
Only you could take a minute
Tell me I should be there
When the walls come crashing down

Oh, when you're holding back the words
'Cause you're afraid of being heard
Just let love in
Just let love in
Oh, we're only skin and bone
We don't have to be alone
Just let love in
Just let love in
I, I, I, I, I, I, just let love in
Just let love in
I, I, I, I, I, I, just let love in
Just let love in

Flashes

Page 658

I hate feeling worthless.

Takes me back to a really dark place.

I'm just glad.

It's not in front of camera flashes.

When people keep putting you down for things beyond your control.

When you feel like you keep f*cking things up.

What about you?

You think you're so f*cking perfect?

Have you been in these shoes before?

At least I know I'll learn from my mistakes.

But your narrow mind will remain narrow.

Love, Eran.

Current Song Mood: Tove Lo - Flashes

Just because I'm present
Don't mean I forgot about you back home
You think I'm surrounded
But babe, I do most of this alone

People come, I push them away
People talk, I know what they say
People come, I push them away
People talk, I know what they say
What about you?

When I fuck things up
When I fuck things up in front of camera flashes
What about you?
When all I built up
When all I built up with sweat, blood, tears just crashes
What about you?
What about you?

"Money is a problem"
You say in a way like I'm to blame
I don't really need them
All I want is for us to stay the same
What about you?

People come, I push them away
People talk, I know what they say
People come, I push them away
People talk, I know what they say
What about you?

When I fuck things up
When I fuck things up in front of camera flashes
What about you?
When all I built up
When all I built up with sweat, blood, tears just crashes
What about you?
What about you?
What about you?
What about you?

Yeah, oh, what about you?
Oh, yeah, nah, when I fuck things up, yeah
Oh, yeah, fuck things up, what about you?
Oh, what about you (fuck things up)

(When I fuck things up)
Fuck things up
Coming over me
(All of these flashes)
What-a-bout-You?
(All of these flashes)
Comin' over me
When I fuck things up
In front of camera flashes
(All of these flashes)
What about you?
When all I built up, with sweat, blood, tears just crashes
What about you?
Fuck things up, yeah

Do You Miss Me At All

Page 657

I nag cause I care.

I check up on you cause I care.

I ask cause I care.

You're always so busy..

There's something I'd like to know.

Do you miss me at all?

Have you wondered what I'm up to without you?

Well you should.

Love, Eran.

Current Song Mood: Bridgit Mendler - Do You Miss Me At All

From this view
I see colors, the blacks and the blues
Here comes another night
Without you
Looking over the trees and the roofs
And I don't know what I would find

I don't know if you're even in the city
Don't know if you're even at home
Don't know who you're spending all your time with

But do you miss me at all?
Do you wonder what I'm up to
Without you?
Do you miss me at all?
Do you wanna leave a message on my phone
Saying "I'm coming home"?

In this room
You are the wallpaper that sticks like glue
Into my memory
So do you
Think me over
Once in a blue moon
'Cause you always rise to me

I don't know if you're even in the city
Don't know if you're even at home
Don't know who you're spending all your time with

But do you miss me at all?
Do you wonder what I'm up to
Without you?
Do you miss me at all?
Do you wanna leave a message on my phone
Saying "I'm coming home"?

Gone without a trace
You been so MIA
Was passing through your neighborhood
Boy, you've been abrupt
I never get enough to
Know that you still think of me too

And I don't know if you're even in the city
Don't know if you're even at home
Don't know who you're spending all your time with

But do you miss me at all?
Do you wonder what I'm up to
Without you?
Do you miss me at all?
Do you wanna leave a message on my phone
Saying "I'm coming home"?
Yeah
Do you wonder what I'm up to
Without you?
Do you miss me at all?
Do you wanna leave a message on my phone
Saying "I'm coming home"?
Yeah
Do you wonder what I'm up to
Without you?
Do you miss me at all?
Do you wanna leave a message on my phone
Saying "I'm coming home"?

Naked

Page 656

It was wrong.

But it happened.

I felt naked today.

Or was I?

I tried my best.

But sometimes I can't help but make mistakes.

Honesty's the best policy.

Feels good doesn't it, baring it all?

Lets enjoy that, for a moment.

Love, Eran.

I wanna do it with you.

Current Song Mood: DNCE - Naked

1 2, 1 2 3 4
I wanna be

I got a, I got a 5 star dinner for ya
I drove a, I drove a, a brand new 'cedes for ya
Red rover, red rover, I bring them kisses over
The vibes were getting insane
I'm trying, I'm trying to be real classy for ya
No lying, no lying, I got real feelings for ya
This clothing, this clothing is turning into torture
Got one thing left on my brain

I wanna be naked with you
With all our time, just the nude
I wanna be naked with you
We'll leave our clothes on the floor, put a sock on the door
I wanna be naked with you
At least until tell the truth
I wanna be naked with you
We'll leave a drop on the top, put your body on mine
I wanna be
I wanna be
I wanna be

Natural, natural, there's nothing dirty 'bout it
Masterful, masterful, keep putting pressure on it
True loving, true loving, the thing God finally founded
The vibes are getting insane, hey
I haven't been so nice, since the past life
I swear to God, you were mine in a past life

I wanna be naked with you
With all our time, just the nude
I wanna be naked with you
We'll leave our clothes on the floor, put a sock on the door
I wanna be naked with you
At least until tell the truth
I wanna be naked with you
We'll leave a drop on the top, put your body on mine
I wanna be
I wanna be
I wanna be
I wanna be naked with you

I haven't been so nice, since the past life
I wanna be
I swear to God, you were mine in a past life
I wanna be
I wanna be naked with you
Naked with you

I wanna be naked with you
With all our time, just the nude
I wanna be naked with you
We'll leave our clothes on the floor, put a sock on the door
I wanna be naked with you
At least until tell the truth
I wanna be naked with you
We'll leave a drop on the top, put your body on mine
I wanna be
I wanna be
I wanna be
I wanna be naked with you

Let Me Love The Lonely

Page 655

Too soon.

But I can't help it.

I've grown too attached.

Too clingy. And I can't show that.

It's just been so long.

I hate that you're a workaholic.

It's a good thing for you.

But it means that you'd have lesser time for me.

I get it.

I understand.

I'm used to being alone anyways.

And I know you do sometimes too.

But I wanna love again.

I wanna commit.

I wanna provide.

Let me love the lonely out of you.

Let me.. love you.

Love, Eran.

I think I saved myself by saving you.

Current Song Mood: James Arthur - Let Me Love The Lonely

You laugh at all the jokes
Even the ones you know
Funny I'm doing that, too
I love the crowded room
The one string that's out of tune
Trust me, I feel like I do

Let me love the lonely out of you
Let me love the pain you're going through
I think I've saved myself by saving you
Let me love the lonely out of you

Lighthouse without the lights
You smile without your eyes
I know, cause I do that too
Your own worst enemy
You think that no one sees
I do, cause I'm like that too

Let me love the lonely out of you
Let me love the pain you're going through
I think I've saved myself by saving you
Let me love the lonely out of you

We can light a fire to warm our bones
This world's much too cold to sleep alone

Let me love the lonely out of you
Let me love the pain you're going through
I think I've saved myself by saving you
Let me love the lonely out of you

Let me love the lonely out of you
Let me love the pain you're going through
Think I've saved myself by saving you
Let me love the lonely out of you

In The Name Of Love

Page 654

Thanks for working out with me today.

Finally got my ass out after a long week of slacking.

A new motivation.

Didnt expect myself..

To fall this deep in the first place.

I've always been cautious.

Ever since...

But now, you've got me.

Entranced.

And I'll continue to fall.

In the name of love.

Love, Eran.

Current Song Mood: Martin Garrix Ft Bebe Rexha - In The Name Of Love

[Bebe Rexha:]
If I told you this was only gonna hurt
If I warned you that the fire's gonna burn
Would you walk in? Would you let me do it first?
Do it all in the name of love
Would you let me lead you even when you're blind?
In the darkness, in the middle of the night
In the silence, when there's no one by your side
Would you call in the name of love?

In the name of love, name of love
In the name of love, name of love

In the name of love
In the name, name
In the name of
In the name, name
In the name of
In the name, name
In the name of
Love

If I told you we could bathe in all the lights
Would you rise up, come and meet me in the sky?
Would you trust me when you're jumping from the heights?
Would you fall in the name of love?
When there's madness, when there's poison in your head
When the sadness leaves you broken in your bed
I will hold you in the depths of your despair
And it's all in the name of love

In the name of love, name of love
In the name of love, name of love

In the name of love
In the name, name
In the name of
In the name, name
In the name of
In the name, name
In the name of
Love

I wanna testify
Scream in the holy light
You bring me back to life
And it's all in the name of love
I wanna testify
Scream in the holy light
You bring me back to life
And it's all in the name of love

In the name of love, name of love
In the name of love, name of love

In the name of love
In the name, name
In the name of
In the name, name
In the name of
In the name, name
In the name of
Love

Say You Wont Let Go

Page 653

What just happened?

I'm a little dazzled.

It's been a while..

I honestly enjoyed my time.

More than I expected.

And I hope it doesn't end here.

I think..

I've found you.

Say you won't let go.

Cause I know I don't want to.

<3

Love, Eran.

I dont wanna jinx it.

Current Song Mood: James Arthur - Say You Wont Let Go

I met you in the dark
You lit me up
You made me feel as though
I was enough
We danced the night away
We drank too much
I held your hair back when
You were throwing up

Then you smiled over your shoulder
For a minute I was stone cold sober
I pulled you closer to my chest
And you asked me to stay over
I said, I already told you
I think that you should get some rest

I knew I loved you then
But you'd never know
'Cause I played it cool when I was scared of letting go
I knew I needed you
But I never showed
But I wanna stay with you
Until we're grey and old
Just say you won't let go
Just say you won't let go

I wake you up with some breakfast in bed
I'll bring you coffee
With a kiss on your head
And I'll take the kids to school
Wave them goodbye
And I'll thank my lucky stars for that night

When you looked over your shoulder
For a minute, I forget that I'm older
I wanna dance with you right now, oh
And you look as beautiful as ever
And I swear that every day you'll get better
You make me feel this way somehow

I'm so in love with you
And I hope you know
Darling, your love is more than worth its weight in gold
We've come so far my dear
Look how we've grown
And I wanna stay with you
Until we're grey and old
Just say you won't let go
Just say you won't let go

I wanna live with you
Even when we're ghosts
'Cause you were always there for me
When I needed you most

I'm gonna love you 'til
My lungs give out
I promise till death we part
Like in our vows
So I wrote this song for you
Now everybody knows
That it's just you and me
Until we're grey and old
Just say you won't let go
Just say you won't let go

Just say you won't let go
Oh, just say you won't let go

Good Things Come To Those Who Wait

Page 652

Contemplating.

Overthinking.

All these messages aren't helping.

So many yet none, that stays.

What's the point?

Good things comes to those who wait.

Missed the chance yesterday.

It's like the only thing that was in my mind.

I played along.

Played it cool

When deep inside,

All I wanted was..

To get in your pants.

Love, Eran.

Current Song Mood: Nathan Sykes - Good Things Come To Those Who Wait

There's no emergency
No sirens in front of me
There's nothing to stop me from getting my way, yeah
I'm not going anywhere
If you tell me, I'll stay right here
I'll be in the same place everyday

Heart stays patient
'cause I know it's worth it

That's why I take my time
Take as long as I got
Won't pretend to be somebody I'm not, no
Good things come to those who wait
I'm not perfect, nobody is
Could fill an ocean of blood sweat and tears, yeah
Good things come to those who wait

To show all my cards to you
But that's what a fool will do
I prefer to stick when the others would twist

'cause most people run and fall
They don't even work at all
There's nothing to prove, just to feel you exist

Heart stays patient
'cause I know it's worth it

That's why I take my time
Take as long as I got
Won't pretend to be somebody I'm not, no
Good things come to those who wait
I'm not perfect
Nobody is could fill an ocean of blood sweat and tears yeah
Good things come to those who wait

Good things
Yeah yeah yeah
Good things
Gotta hold on

That's why I'll take my time
Take as long as I got
I won't pretend to be somebody I'm not
Good things come to those who wait
Yeah yeah yeah yeah
Baby
Good things come to those who wait
Oh good things
(I'm not perfect) oh I know
(Nobody is), oh...
(could fill an ocean of blood sweat and tears) good things come, yeah
(Good things come to those who wait) oh I know it yeah yeah

Said I know
Gotta hold on, darling
Good things come to those who wait
Oh yeah