No More Sad Songs

Page 695

I don't know why.

I was tossing and turning.

My heart was uneasy.

I'm all the way over here.

While you're all the way over there.

Are you thinking about me?

I miss you.

Even though we've met only once.

But what can I do about it?

I'm just gonna bury myself under the blanket.

And forget you ever existed.

Just like them.

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A day well spent.

I love my hobbies. 

I'm very passionate about them.

Even though I feel a little off.

After some news I've received.

Well, I guess life goes on.

I know where I stand. :)

Just gonna be my personal best.

No more sad songs for today.

Love, Eran.

I'm begging please.

Current Song Mood: Little Mix - No More Sad Songs

I keep trying, nothing's working
I still wanna know, if you're alone
I keep trying to put this behind me
I still wanna know who's taking you home

For tonight, I'm going to get my mind off it
Don't care that someone's got his hands all over my body
Stay out all night, go where the music is loud
So I don't have to think about it, I'm beggin', please, don't play

No more! Sad songs
No more! Sad songs
No more! Sad songs
I'm beggin', please, don't play
No more! Sad songs
No more! Sad songs
No more! Sad songs
I'm beggin', please, don't play no more sad songs

Dancing with danger, talking to strangers
Don't care where I go, just can't be alone
They'll never know me, like you used to know me, no

For tonight, I'm going to get my mind off it
Don't care that someone's got his hands all over my body
Stay out all night, go where the music is loud
So I don't have to think about it, I'm beggin', please, don't play

No more! Sad songs
No more! Sad songs
No more! Sad songs
I'm beggin', please, don't play
No more! Sad songs
No more! Sad songs
No more! Sad songs
I'm beggin', please, don't play

No more sad songs
No, no more sad songs
No more sad songs
No more sad songs
No, no more sad songs
No more sad songs
Oh

Going home, take the long way round
Lights pass, sit back with the windows down
Still got you on my mind
Starting to realize
No matter what I do
I will only hurt myself, tryna hurt you
And if I turn the music loud, just to drown you out
I'm beggin', please don't play

No more! Sad songs
No more! Sad songs
No more! Sad songs
I'm beggin', please, don't play
No more! Sad songs
No more! Sad songs
No more! Sad songs
I'm beggin', please, don't play

No more sad songs
No, no more sad songs
No more sad songs
No more sad songs
No, no more sad songs
No more sad songs
Oh
No more sad songs

Fade Into You

Page 694

The stars were so beautiful.

So clear.

So bright.

I've never seen anything like this.

As we trekked into the darkness.

In the middle of nowhere.

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I'll admit it.

I was shaking inside.

When I heard the news.

Who wouldn't?

No matter how much I despised.

It'd be such a tragedy.

But I'm glad it wasnt him.

I closed my mind and envisioned.

The darkness.

The cold water.

The struggle.

My mind wandered.

As I faded into you.

Love, Eran.

Current Song Mood: Ben Harper - Fade Into You

[Verse 1]
I want to hold the hand inside you
I want to take a breath that's true
I look to you and I see nothing
I look to you to see the truth
You live your life, you go in shadows
You'll come apart and you'll go black
Some kind of night into your darkness
Colors your eyes with what's not there
[Chorus]
Fade into you
Strange you never knew
Fade into you
I think it's strange you never knew

[Verse 2]
A stranger's light comes on slowly
A stranger's heart without a home
You put your hands into your head
And then its smiles cover your heart

[Chorus]
Fade into you
Strange you never knew
Fade into you
I think it's strange you never knew
Fade into you
Strange you never knew
Fade into you
I think it's strange you never knew
I think it's strange you never knew

Shape Of You

Page 693

Kittens!

Two of them.

They got inside the bunk.

Some ran from them.

Most gathered to play with them.

One of them climbed onto my bed.

It moved towards me.

Meowing.

Purring.

Attacking my face with kisses.

I felt so happy.

So loved.

Just this little animal was enough to make my heart full.

And just like that, my worries disappeared.

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I should stop.

But.

Cant seem to stop myself.

It's been consecutive. 

A relapse?

I suppose.

But I keep justifying it.

And I would.

I'm just in love with the idea.

The feeling.

The body.

The shape of you.

Love, Eran.

And it's so addicting.

Current Song Mood: Ed Sheeran - Shape Of You

The club isn't the best place to find a lover
So the bar is where I go
Me and my friends at the table doing shots
Drinking fast and then we talk slow
You come over and start up a conversation with just me
And trust me I'll give it a chance now
Take my hand, stop
Put Van The Man on the jukebox
And then we start to dance
And now I'm singing like

Girl, you know I want your love
Your love was handmade for somebody like me
Come on now, follow my lead
I may be crazy, don't mind me
Say, boy, let's not talk too much
Grab on my waist and put that body on me
Come on now, follow my lead
Come, come on now, follow my lead

I'm in love with the shape of you
We push and pull like a magnet do
Although my heart is falling too
I'm in love with your body
And last night you were in my room
And now my bedsheets smell like you
Every day discovering something brand new
I'm in love with your body
Oh I oh I oh I oh I
I'm in love with your body
Oh I oh I oh I oh I
I'm in love with your body
Oh I oh I oh I oh I
I'm in love with your body
Every day discovering something brand new
I'm in love with the shape of you

One week in we let the story begin
We're going out on our first date
You and me are thrifty
So go all you can eat
Fill up your bag and I fill up a plate
We talk for hours and hours about the sweet and the sour
And how your family is doing okay
Leave and get in a taxi, then kiss in the backseat
Tell the driver make the radio play
And I'm singing like

Girl, you know I want your love
Your love was handmade for somebody like me
Come on now, follow my lead
I may be crazy, don't mind me
Say, boy, let's not talk too much
Grab on my waist and put that body on me
Come on now, follow my lead
Come, come on now, follow my lead

I'm in love with the shape of you
We push and pull like a magnet do
Although my heart is falling too
I'm in love with your body
And last night you were in my room
And now my bedsheets smell like you
Every day discovering something brand new
I'm in love with your body
Oh I oh I oh I oh I
I'm in love with your body
Oh I oh I oh I oh I
I'm in love with your body
Oh I oh I oh I oh I
I'm in love with your body
Every day discovering something brand new
I'm in love with the shape of you

Come on, be my baby, come on
Come on, be my baby, come on
Come on, be my baby, come on
Come on, be my baby, come on
Come on, be my baby, come on
Come on, be my baby, come on
Come on, be my baby, come on
Come on, be my baby, come on

I'm in love with the shape of you
We push and pull like a magnet do
Although my heart is falling too
I'm in love with your body
Last night you were in my room
And now my bedsheets smell like you
Every day discovering something brand new
I'm in love with your body
Come on, be my baby, come on
Come on, be my baby, come on
I'm in love with your body
Come on, be my baby, come on
Come on, be my baby, come on
I'm in love with your body
Come on, be my baby, come on
Come on, be my baby, come on
I'm in love with your body
Every day discovering something brand new
I'm in love with the shape of you

Canary

Page 692

I ran through the cooling night.

The cold breeze brushed against my face.

Our last jog in this camp.

Dark.

Beautiful.

Peaceful.

As the stars above twinkled in their spots.

And I'm wishing it never ends.

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I needed the run today.

And the meet-up with my GBF.

To let off some steam.

I feel much better already.

It's not healthy to keep it all in.

I know that by now.

I feel lighter now.

Like I'm flying.

Like a canary. 

Love, Eran.

Current Song Mood: Nikki Flores - Canary

[Verse:]
So much for happy endings
I know it don't work like that, no
So much of me belonged to
Someone who didn't know exactly what they had, mm

[Bridge:]
I wish that you could be happy with nothing but me
I wish my love was enough but I just can't compete

[Chorus:]
Canary diamond
Canary diamond
It wasn't worth me riding in the backseat
Acting like I'm happy
Knowing that you'd only want me when you didn't have me anymore
I was yours and you were never mine...

This Time

Page 691

A sudden commotion.

I stared at the two raging idiots.

They were hurling vulgarities.

Too close for comfort.

Unnecessary.

Chaotic.

Childish.

A perm staff looked at me in concern.

'What happened?'

Everyone was staring.

I was really embarrassed, all the officers were around.

'Wtf are they doing...' I cursed.

And a kind soul stepped in to sort them out.

Hours later they seemed to work things out.

A little feisty, but ok.

I wish it was that easy.

At least they can pretend like nothing happened.

Not like family.

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Wow.

Can't seem to process what happened today.

And right after I come back too..

But I guess it needed to happen.

Now I'm wishing I'm not here.

I don't wish to dwell on negativity anymore.

It's been going on Long enough. 

Pack your bags and leave.

It's for the best.

We might never be the same again.

Nobody wins this time.

This time, it's over.

Love, Eran.

Everything has a solution. Maybe this is it.

Current Song Mood: Jarryd James - This Time (Serious Symptoms, Simple Solutions)

Last time, we were in it, in it
Translating our feelings within
Now we're right back in it, in it
All I, all I can say is

Hold me back, tell me something
Something that will bring me closer to you
Had enough, fall back in
Falling for the thing that brought me

Love, our love, our love can't make it now
Can't we, can't we, can't save it now
Our love, our love, won't make it now

No one really wins this time
No one really wins this time around
No one really wins this time
Nobody

Last time, we were in it, in it
We had, we had nothing in between us
Now we're right down in it, in it
Million different reasons you should hold me

Hold me back, tell me something
Something that will bring me closer to you
Had enough, fall back in
Falling for the thing that brought me

Love, our love, our love can't make it now
Can't we, can't we, can't save it now
Our love, our love won't make it now

No one really wins this time
No one really wins this time around
No one really wins this time
Nobody

No one, no one, no one, no, no
No one, no one, no one, no, no

Love, our love, our love, can't make it now
Can't we, can't we, can't save it now
Our love, our love won't make it now

No one really wins this time
No one really wins this time around
No one really wins this time
Nobody

No one really wins this time
No one really wins this time around
No one really wins this time
Nobody

I Feel It Coming

Page 690

It's good to be back.

I don't even know where to start.

The past three weeks in Thailand has been so memorable.

Everything there is just so serene.

The food was delicious. The bunk was comfortable. The people were nice.

The scenery was beautiful.

I've never been so at peace with myself.

Took all the time I had to do some soul-searching.

To find myself again.

To re-define myself as a young adult, a friend, a son, a brother, a human being.

I've done some things in my life that I'm not proud of...

But I've accepted the fact that I'm not perfect.

 And I'm finally able to let the ugly past go.

I've been filtering a lot of things out.

Contacts, Pictures, Apps.

It was painful reading conversations I once had.

Reliving certain moments.

But it was necessary.

I had to let go.

This trip changed my life.

I feel renewed.

And I hope to carry that throughout the year.

A better future.

A better me.

I feel it coming.

Love, Eran.

Current Song Mood: The Weeknd Ft Daft Punk - I Feel It Coming

[The Weeknd:]
Tell me what you really like
Baby I can take my time
We don't ever have to fight
Just take it step-by-step
I can see it in your eyes
Cause they never tell me lies
I can feel that body shake
And the heat between your legs

You've been scared of love and what it did to you
You don't have to run, I know what you've been through
Just a simple touch and it can set you free
We don't have to rush when you're alone with me

I feel it coming, I feel it coming, babe
I feel it coming, I feel it coming, babe
I feel it coming, I feel it coming, babe
I feel it coming, I feel it coming, babe

You are not the single type
So baby, this the perfect time
I'm just trying to get you high
And faded off this touch
You don't need a lonely night
So baby, I can make it right
You just got to let me try
To give you what you want

You've been scared of love and what it did to you
You don't have to run, I know what you've been through
Just a simple touch and it can set you free
We don't have to rush when you're alone with me

[The Weeknd & Daft Punk:]
I feel it coming, I feel it coming, babe
I feel it coming, I feel it coming, babe
I feel it coming, I feel it coming, babe
I feel it coming, I feel it coming, babe
I feel it coming, I feel it coming, babe
I feel it coming, I feel it coming, babe
I feel it coming, I feel it coming, babe
I feel it coming, I feel it coming, babe

[The Weeknd:]
You've been scared of love
And what it did to you
You don't have to run
I know what you've been through
Just a simple touch
And it can set you free
We don't have to rush
When you're alone with me

[The Weeknd & Daft Punk:]
I feel it coming, I feel it coming, babe
I feel it coming, I feel it coming, babe
I feel it coming, I feel it coming, babe
I feel it coming, I feel it coming, babe
I know what you feel right now
I feel it coming, I feel it coming, babe
I feel it coming, I feel it coming, babe
I feel it coming, I feel it coming, babe
I feel it coming, I feel it coming, babe
I know what you say right now, babe
I feel it coming, I feel it coming, babe
I feel it coming, I feel it coming, babe
I feel it coming, I feel it coming, babe
I feel it coming, I feel it coming, babe
I know what you say right now, babe
I feel it coming, I feel it coming, babe
I feel it coming, I feel it coming, babe
I feel it coming, I feel it coming, babe
I feel it coming, I feel it coming, babe

[Daft Punk:]
I feel it coming, babe
I feel it coming, babe
I feel it coming, babe
I feel it coming, babe

True Colors

Page 689

Well this is it.

Will be going on hiatus.

Will be gone for some time.

Flying off tonight.

Hopefully this time away will give me space for some self-recovery & discovery.

And let me find my true colors.

Take care guys, and stay safe. 

<3

Love, Eran.

I will always be there.

Current Song Mood: Justin Timberlake Ft Anna Kendrick - True Colors

[Verse 1: Justin Timberlake]
You with the sad eyes
Don't be discouraged, oh I realize
It's hard to take courage
In a world full of people
You can lose sight of it all
The darkness inside you
Can make you feel so small

[Pre-Chorus: Justin Timberlake & Anna Kendrick]
Show me a smile then
Don't be unhappy
Can't remember when
I last saw you laughing
This world makes you crazy
And you've taken all you
Can bear
Just, call me up
'Cause I will always be there

[Chorus: Justin Timberlake]
And I see your true colors
Shining through
I see your true colors
And that's why I love you

[Chorus: Justin Timberlake, Anna Kendrick, together]
So don't be afraid to let them show
Your true colors
True colors are beautiful

I see your true colors
Shining through (true colors)
I see your true colors
And that's why I love you
So don't be afraid to let them show
Your true colors
True colors are beautiful
Like a rainbow
Oooooh oooooh oooh like a rainbow

[Pre-Chorus: Justin Timberlake (alone) & Anna Kendrick]
Can't remember when
I last saw you laughing
Oooooh
This world makes you crazy
Taking all you can bear
Just, call me up
'Cause I'll be always be there

[Chorus: Justin Timberlake, Anna Kendrick, together]
And I see your true colors
Shining through
I see your true colors
And that's why I love you

So don't be afraid (don't be afraid)
To let them show
Your true colors
True colors are beautiful
Like a rainbow (Oooh)

Like a rainbow
Oooh

Touch

Page 688

Random thoughts.

Touch.

I think that's all we need in our lives.

Just a little touch.

A little love.

The feeling of being appreciated.

Once in a while.

Then only we can function normally.

Then only, we can think straight.

Love, Eran.

Current Song Mood: Little Mix - Touch

You and I and nobody else
Feeling feelings I never felt
The way you got me under your spell
Don't you keep it all to yourself

So won't you take it, I feel like for the first time I am not faking
Fingers on my buttons and now you're playing
Master of anticipation
Don't you keep it all to yourself

Just a touch of your love is enough
To knock me off of my feet all week
Just a touch of your lo-ove
Just a touch of your lo-ove
Just a touch of your love is enough
To take control of my whole body
Just a touch of your lo-ove
Just a touch of your lo-ove

Just a touch of your love is enough
To knock me off of my feet all week
Just a touch of your lo-ove
Just a touch of your lo-ove
Just a touch of your love is enough
To take control of my whole body
Just a touch of your lo-ove
Just a touch of your lo-hey-ove

Photograph with no T-shirt on
Why you making me wait so long? (Wait so long)
I promise to keep this a secret, I'll never tell
But don't you keep it all to yourself

So won't you take it, I feel like for the first time I am not faking
Fingers on my buttons and now you're playing
Master of anticipation
Don't you keep it all to yourself (To yourself)

Just a touch of your love is enough
To knock me off of my feet all week
Just a touch of your lo-ove (Just a touch)
Just a touch of your lo-ove (Just a touch)
Just a touch of your love is enough
To take control of my whole body
Just a touch of your lo-ove (Just a touch, just a touch)
Just a touch of your lo-ove (Just a touch, just a touch)

Just a touch of your love is enough
To knock me off of my feet all week (knock me off my feet)
Just a touch of your love, hey
Just a touch of your love, hey
Just a touch of your love is enough
To take control of my whole body (body)
Just a touch of your love, hey
Just a touch of your lo-hey-ove

And now my whole week, my whole week is golden (yeah)
Can you see me glowing? That's how I feel (feel)
And I'm not afraid to fade into emotions (yeah)
'Cause I know that this could be something real (ooh)

Just a touch of your love is enough
To knock me off of my feet all week
Just a touch of your lo-ove (hey)
Just a touch of your lo-ove (just a touch)
Just a touch of your love is enough
To take control of my whole body (body)
Just a touch of your lo-ove (Only a touch of your love)
Just a touch of your love (Want a touch of your)

Just a touch of your love is enough
To knock me off of my feet all week
Just a touch of your love, hey (Just a touch)
Just a touch of your love, hey (Just a touch)
Just a touch of your love is enough
To take control of my whole body (oh yeah)
Just a touch of your love, hey
Just a touch of your lo-ove