Ocean

Page 1071

Fate.

That's all I can say.

It's so scary to put your faith in something you can't see.

But that's how the universe works.

Have faith.

I'm so happy to finally see you again.

Really.

It's been way too long.

No words can express it.

The nostalgia...

No ocean can keep us apart.

I'm glad you're okay now.

You're such a special friend.

And everybody knows that.

Please don't ever disappear again.

<3

Love, Eran.

Current Song Mood: Martin Garrix Ft Khalid - Ocean

Tell me what you're crying for
I'll wipe your tears, oh love
If your soul is aching love
We'll comfort you for sure

If we're caught in a wave, I will carry you over
It don't matter where you are, I'll run to your front door
When my head goes in different directions
You know my heart's never on the move
And in the dark times you don't have to question
If I'm a hun' where were you

You could put an ocean between our love, love, love
It won't keep us apart
You could build a wall, I will run it up, up, up
Just to get to your heart
If we're caught in a wave
Baby, we'll make a way
You could put an ocean between our love, love, love
It won't keep us apart

Loves, between our love
Loves, between our love

Shadows play on idle hands
I'll lose myself if I do
But I've found my way to velvet sands
I'll crash right into you

If we're caught in a wave, I will carry you over
It don't matter where were we are, you're still the one I choose
When my head goes in different directions
You know my heart's never on the move
And in the dark times you don't have to question
If I'm a hun' where were you

You could put an ocean between our love, love, love
It won't keep us apart
You could build a wall, I will run it up, up, up (run it up)
Just to get to your heart
If we're caught in a wave (in a wave)
Baby, we'll make a way
You could put an ocean between our love, love, love
It won't keep us apart

Loves, between our love
Loves, between our love

You could put an ocean between our love, love, love
It won't keep us apart
You could build a wall, I will run it up, up, up (run it up)
Just to get to your heart
If we're caught in a wave
Baby, we'll make a way
You could put an ocean between our love, love, love
It won't keep us apart

A Million Dreams

Page 1070

Good vibes.

Good times.

I've had the most incredible week of the year so far.

Film and Acting...

It's such an amazing industry to be a part of.

Even if we don't end on time, and things go wrong.

Everyone's just so passionate and hardworking.

I first fell in love with it when I cameo'd in a Youtube production with my Buddy 2 years ago.

And now?

Finally getting my own role...

I'm blessed.

Thank you for letting me be a part of something special.

All the new friends I've made.

From the Crew to the Audio, PAs, Wardrobe and Make-Up teams who took care of my needs, to the Directors that guided me, put their trust in me & inspired me so much. Thank you.

I have a million dreams.

And one of them is finally coming true.

xo.

Love, Eran.

Current Song Mood: The Greatest Showman Cast - A Million Dreams

[Ziv Zaifman:]
I close my eyes and I can see
The world that's waiting up for me
That I call my own
Through the dark, through the door
Through where no one's been before
But it feels like home

They can say, they can say it all sounds crazy
They can say, they can say I've lost my mind
I don't care, I don't care, so call me crazy
We can live in a world that we design

'Cause every night I lie in bed
The brightest colors fill my head
A million dreams are keeping me awake
I think of what the world could be
A vision of the one I see
A million dreams is all it's gonna take
A million dreams for the world we're gonna make

There's a house we can build
Every room inside is filled
With things from far away
The special things I compile
Each one there to make you smile
On a rainy day

They can say, they can say it all sounds crazy
They can say, they can say we've lost our minds
I don't care, I don't care if they call us crazy
Run away to a world that we design

[Hugh Jackman:]
Every night I lie in bed
The brightest colors fill my head
A million dreams are keeping me awake
I think of what the world could be
A vision of the one I see
A million dreams is all it's gonna take
A million dreams for the world we're gonna make

[Michelle Williams:]
However big, however small
Let me be part of it all
Share your dreams with me
You may be right, you may be wrong
But say that you'll bring me along
To the world you see
To the world I close my eyes to see
I close my eyes to see

[Michelle Williams & Hugh Jackman:]
Every night I lie in bed
The brightest colors fill my head
A million dreams are keeping me awake
A million dreams, a million dreams
I think of what the world could be
A vision of the one I see
A million dreams is all it's gonna take
A million dreams for the world we're gonna make

For the world we're gonna make

Where Were You In The Morning

Page 1069

Sometimes you just have to cut toxic people out of your life.

Even if it makes you look like you're overreacting.

It's the only way..

I don't know if I can put my trust in you yet.

I can already tell certain things from your character.

I don't know...

I can't believe I did THAT just to find you.

I'm amazed with myself.

It's just ... me following my heart.

Trust issues will always be a part of me.

You said you wanted to get to know me.

Maybe.. I'll slowly let you in.

Just maybe.

Where were you in the morning?

Cause I'm not sure if I'll stick around to find out.

... maybe.

Love, Eran.

Current Song Mood: Shawn Mendes - Where Were You In The Morning?

You said, "I wanna get to know ya"
Why you gotta get my hopes up?
You said that you were staying over
But then I woke up to the cold air

How could you make me believe?
That there was something in between you and me, yeah
I look around and I don't see you

Where were you in the morning, baby?
You didn't leave your number for me
Left me without a warning, waiting
Where were you in the morning, baby?

How do you, how do you just walk away?
How do you, how do you just walk away?

And I thought you really felt this
When we were talking about breakfast
You made it seem like we connected
I guess I just didn't expect this

How could you make me believe?
That there was something in between you and me, yeah
I look around and I don't see you

Where were you in the morning, baby?
You didn't leave your number for me
Left me without a warning, waiting
I said where were you in the morning, baby?

How do you, how do you just walk away?
(Where were, where were you?)
How do you, how do you just walk away?
(Where were, where were you?)

And I hope you had a good reason
'Cause I know you had a good time
And I'm looking up at the ceiling
And I keep wondering why

Where were you in the morning, baby?
(Where were you in the morning?)
You didn't leave your number for me
(You didn't leave your number)
Left me without a warning, waiting
(Left me without a warning)
I said, where were you in the morning baby?
(Where were you in the morning?)

How do you, how do you just walk away?
(Where were, where were you?)
How do you, how do you just walk away?
(Where were, where were you?)
How do you, how do you just walk away?
(Where were, where were you?)
How do you, how do you just walk away?
(Where were, where were you?)

Fallin' All In You

Page 1068

So confused.

With everything that's been happening lately.

We met at the most unexpected place.

An old flame.

Which got reignited.

Who turned out to be so different now.

It felt like fate brought us together again.

Which was why I gave you my number again.

But then I remembered... I blocked you a long time ago so you wouldn't be able to contact me.

I spent last night tossing and turning, wondering if you were looking for me too.

As I scrolled through your non-existent social media.

I decided..

I had to see you again.

And I knew just where.

And true enough, there you were today.

Surprised to see me.

Gentle.

But yet.. under inappropriate circumstances.

Sigh.

I'm sorry.

You know... I've been alone for quite a while.

I'm ready for that to stop.

You're bringing out a different kind of me.

Guess.. I'm just fallin' all in you.

Love, Eran.

Current Song Mood: Shawn Mendes - Fallin' All In You

Sunrise with you on my chest
No blinds in the place where I live
Daybreak open your eyes
'Cause this was only ever meant to be for one night
Still, we're changing our minds here
Be yours, be my dear
So close with you on my lips
Touch noses, feeling your breath
Push your heart and pull away, yeah
Be my summer in a winter day love
I can't see one thing wrong
Between the both of us
Be mine, be mine, yeah
Anytime, anytime

Ooh, you know I've been alone for quite a while, haven't I
I thought I knew it all
Found love but I was wrong
More times than enough
But since you came along
I'm thinking, baby

You are bringing out a different kind of me
There's no safety net that's underneath
I'm free
Falling all in you
Fell for men who weren't how they appear
Trapped up on a tightrope now we're here
We're free
Falling all in you

Fast forward a couple years, yeah
Grown up in the place that we live
Make love, then we fight
Laugh 'cause it was only meant to be for one night baby
I guess we can't control
What's just not up to us
Be mine, be mine, yeah
Anytime, anytime

Ooh, you know I've been alone for quite a while, haven't I
I thought I knew it all
Found love but I was wrong
More times than enough
But since you came along
I'm thinking, baby

You are bringing out a different kind of me
There's no safety net that's underneath
I'm free
Falling all in you
Fell for men who weren't how they appear
Trapped up on a tightrope now we're here
We're free
Falling all in you

Every time I see you baby I get lost
If I'm dreaming, baby, please don't wake me up
Every night I'm with you I fall more in love
Now I'm laying by your side
Everything feels right since you came along
I'm thinking baby

You, yeah, are bringing out a different kind of me
There's no safety net that's underneath
I'm free
Falling all in you
Fell for men who weren't how they appear (Ooh)
Trapped up on a tightrope now we're here
We're free
Falling all in

Don't Wake Me Up

Page 1067

Weird.

Life is so so weird.

I'm at that point in life where... I'm just so amazed how everything works.

How everything is connected.

I feel like I don't deserve this.

But it's really happening.

It's unfolding in a way...

I never thought possible.

I feel like.. I can do anything.

Don't wake me up.

Cause i'm living the life.

Love, Eran.

Current Song Mood:  The Newton Br Ft JoJo - Don't Wake Me Up

I’m sinking
I’m falling
You lit some fire and walked away
Left me fog and let me in chains.
I’m not a fire, we’re not the same
The wind is singe, you’ll know my name

I lost my composure lost my way
Let it fog and let the air in chains
The nightmare is over
That’s what you say
But I’m scared sober and wide awake

Out of my way, I’m king of the world
Just for the day until it all burns
Don’t wake me up, just let me dream
It’s never enough, it’s never enough

Familiar foreign , everything change
I don’t even recognize my face
Without the morning , I lost faith
Just like that, the future turn grey

Out of my way, king of the world
Just for the day until it all burns
Don’t wake me up, just let me dream
It’s never enough

These days rush by, I wonder why
I just can’t find any peace, these days rush by
I wonder 

Out of my way, I’m king of the world
Just for the day until it all burns

Out of the way, I’m king of the world
Just for the day until it all burns

Don’t wake me up, just let me dream
It’s never enough, it’s never enough

Out of my way, I’m king of the world
Just for the day until it all burns
Don’t wake me up, just let me dream
It’s never enough, it’s never enough

Entertainer

Page 1066

I've always had a thing for you.

But I guess I never got to explore that.

Till today.

That familiar feeling..

All the casual teasing.

Don't take me for a fool.

I'mma show you a thing or two.

Out of everything today,

You were my favourite entertainer.

:)

Love, Eran

Current Song Mood: ZAYN - Entertainer

You thought you had me, didn't you?
When you lied to my face I could see the truth
Every step of the way I knew
How you fool me, boo
Guess you didn't know that

You were my favorite entertainer
I watch you, I laugh away, fuck with you
Don't you take me for a fool
In this game I own the rules
You were my favorite entertainer
I watch you, I laugh away, fake it too
Don't you take me for a fool
Imma show you thing or two

Never see me coming, I will turn you down
When you need me the most, I will turn you
When you need me the most, I will turn you down
Never see me coming, I will turn you down
When you need me the most, I will turn you
When you need me the most, I will turn you down

Thought that you were smarter, I'm ashamed for you
I knew it right away when you stopped loving me
It happened when your touch wasn't enough for me
Thought that you should know that

You were my favorite entertainer
I watch you, I laugh away, fuck with you
Don't you play me for a fool
In this game I own the rules
You were my favorite entertainer
I watch you, I laugh away, fake it too
Don't you play me for a fool
Imma show you thing or two

Never see me coming, I will turn you down
When you need me the most, I will turn you
When you need me the most, I will turn you down
Never see me coming, I will turn you down
When you need me the most, I will turn you
When you need me the most, I will turn you down

Know it's harder to take
But let's face it
No one's playing no games
'Cause that's basic
I'm being straight up
I know a fake love when I see it anyway
Imma turn you down, when you need me anyway
Anyway, anyway
(I know you need me the most)

Never see me coming, I will turn you down
When you need me the most, I will turn you
When you need me the most, I will turn you down
Never see me coming, I will turn you down
When you need me the most, I will turn you
When you need me the most, I will turn you down

I know you need me the most
The most, the most
(One more time)

Say

Page 1065

I don't know.. what to say.

I tried to ask for help.. That night. But the words just couldn't come out.

Especially around him.

What would you do?

If you were in my shoes.

I'm so glad you called me today.

Yet I was so afraid.

Holding back the words.

Haunted by the feeling.

 I was so ashamed.

Ashamed of myself.

It's easier to run away...

Than to know what to say.

I guess, you just have to accept it.

Thank you for listening.

Love, Eran.

Current Song Mood: Ruel - Say

I've been feelin' like it's impossible to say, you know
And I'm losing all control
'Cause I wish that I could break the fall and save it all
But I've been holding it too close

Wish I knew what you're thinking
Words don't come that easy
We might be broken by design
I can't help how I'm feeling
Scared of my own reasons
I don't wanna waste your time

Searching for
Another way, another way, another way
To keep us safe
Another day, another day, another day
It's easier
To run away, run away, run away
Than to know what to say, say, say
Than to know what to say

I just lie awake and play it out in my head
Like I know what to do
But the world has got a different plan for me and you
And it hurts when it's true

I don't know what you're thinking
Words don't come that easy
We might be broken by design
I can't help how I'm feeling
Scared of my own reasons
I don't wanna waste your time

Searching for
Another way, another way, another way
To keep us safe
Another day, another day, another day
It's easier
To run away, run away, run away
Than to know what to say, say, say

(Say, say, say)
(Say, say, say)

Searching for
Another way, another way, another way
To keep us safe
Another day, another day, another day
It's easier
To run away, run away, run away
Than to know what to say, say, say
Than to know what to say, say, say
To know what to say, say, say

Sober

Page 1064  

The quiet day passed.

As last night's events kept replaying in my head.

Over.

And Over.

I keep telling myself.

That it'll be okay.

That I'll be alright.

That I'll pass it off again.

But I know.. I'll never be the same again.

As this stinging pain reminds me of my woes. 

Bruised.

Traumatised.

Jaded..

I'm so disappointed.

In myself.

In every way.

I'm only human.

I'm so sorry.

I feel like I've let everyone I loved down..

Call me when it's over.

Cause.. I'm not sober anymore.

</3.

Love, Eran.

Current Song Mood: Demi Lovato - Sober

I got no excuses
For all of these goodbyes
Call me when it's over
'Cause I'm dying inside
Wake me when the shakes are gone
And the cold sweats disappear
Call me when it's over
And myself has reappeared

I don't know, I don't know, I don't know, I don't know why
I do it every, every, every time
It's only when I'm lonely
Sometimes I just wanna cave and I don't wanna fight
I try and I try and I try and I try and I try
Just hold me, I'm lonely

Momma, I'm so sorry I'm not sober anymore
And daddy, please forgive me for the drinks spilled on the floor
To the ones who never left me, we've been down this road before
I'm so sorry, I'm not sober anymore

I'm sorry to my future love
For the man that left my bed
For making love the way I saved for you inside my head
And I'm sorry for the fans I lost
Who watched me fall again
I wanna be a role model, but I'm only human

I don't know, I don't know, I don't know, I don't know why
I do it every, every, every time
It's only when I'm lonely
Sometimes I just wanna cave and I don't wanna fight
I try and I try and I try and I try and I try
Just hold me, I'm lonely

Momma, I'm so sorry I'm not sober anymore
And daddy, please forgive me for the drinks spilled on the floor
To the ones who never left me, we've been down this road before
I'm so sorry, I'm not sober anymore

I'm not sober anymore

I'm sorry that I'm here again
I promise I'll get help
It wasn't my intention
I'm sorry to myself

Don't Matter To Me

Page 1063

Nothing but positive vibes.

Good home-cooked food.

With old friends. 

And new ones.

And family of course.

Don't need people who are toxic around.

Honest.

They can say whatever the f*ck they want.

It don't matter to me.

Or my loved ones.

:)

Love, Eran.

Current Song Mood: Drake Ft Michael Jackson - Don't Matter To Me

[Drake:]
Ayy, wild things you're doin' at night
Trips to wherever feels right
Doin' it all just to feel things
Drinking's enough of a vice
Drugs just aren't suiting you right
You were just fine as a real thing, thing

You, you, you know
That's not the way to get over me
I don't know what you're sayin'
You, you, you know
That's not the way to get over me

[Michael Jackson:]
All of a sudden you say you don't want me no more
All of a sudden you say that I closed the door

It don't matter to me
It don't matter to me what you say
It don't matter to me
It don't matter to me what you say

[Drake:]
I can't recover from our last conversation
You called me weak
And you tested my manhood as we yelled at each other
You wanted me to gon' put my hands on you
Just to show you I love you
You know I can't jeopardize both our reputations
Despite what you say
Despite what you choose to do with yourself this summer
You're actin' out, you know you love to see me down
Stressin' over somethin' (stressin' over somethin')

You, you, you know
That's not the way to get over me
I don't know what you're sayin'
You, you, you know
That's not the way to get over me

[Michael Jackson:]
All of a sudden you say you don't want me no more
All of a sudden you say that I closed the door

It don't matter to me
It don't matter to me what you say
It don't matter to me
It don't matter to me what you say

Girl, you love, you think you broke it
I'm leavin' you today, you broke my heart
Girl, you love, you think you broke it
I'm leavin' you today, you broke my heart