Sober

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The quiet day passed.

As last night's events kept replaying in my head.

Over.

And Over.

I keep telling myself.

That it'll be okay.

That I'll be alright.

That I'll pass it off again.

But I know.. I'll never be the same again.

As this stinging pain reminds me of my woes. 

Bruised.

Traumatised.

Jaded..

I'm so disappointed.

In myself.

In every way.

I'm only human.

I'm so sorry.

I feel like I've let everyone I loved down..

Call me when it's over.

Cause.. I'm not sober anymore.

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Love, Eran.

Current Song Mood: Demi Lovato - Sober

I got no excuses
For all of these goodbyes
Call me when it's over
'Cause I'm dying inside
Wake me when the shakes are gone
And the cold sweats disappear
Call me when it's over
And myself has reappeared

I don't know, I don't know, I don't know, I don't know why
I do it every, every, every time
It's only when I'm lonely
Sometimes I just wanna cave and I don't wanna fight
I try and I try and I try and I try and I try
Just hold me, I'm lonely

Momma, I'm so sorry I'm not sober anymore
And daddy, please forgive me for the drinks spilled on the floor
To the ones who never left me, we've been down this road before
I'm so sorry, I'm not sober anymore

I'm sorry to my future love
For the man that left my bed
For making love the way I saved for you inside my head
And I'm sorry for the fans I lost
Who watched me fall again
I wanna be a role model, but I'm only human

I don't know, I don't know, I don't know, I don't know why
I do it every, every, every time
It's only when I'm lonely
Sometimes I just wanna cave and I don't wanna fight
I try and I try and I try and I try and I try
Just hold me, I'm lonely

Momma, I'm so sorry I'm not sober anymore
And daddy, please forgive me for the drinks spilled on the floor
To the ones who never left me, we've been down this road before
I'm so sorry, I'm not sober anymore

I'm not sober anymore

I'm sorry that I'm here again
I promise I'll get help
It wasn't my intention
I'm sorry to myself

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Been stuck at home nursing my damn fever.

Ugh.

I hate feeling weak and shit.

But gotta let my body rest & stay hydrated.

Oh well.

Feeling much sober now.

Lots of missed opportunities.

Guess I have to be grateful.

Last year was way worse...

First day of fasting month, and I was in Brunei.

Almost died man.

Can't believe it's been so long.

The end is near.

Might just lose my mind.

Love, Eran

Current Song Mood: Lorde - Sober

Night, midnight, lose my mind
Night, midnight, lose my mind
Night, midnight, lose my mind
(When you get to my high, when you get to my)
Night, midnight

Oh, God, I'm clean out of air in my lungs
It's all gone
Played it so nonchalant
It's time we danced with the truth
Move alone with the truth
Ooh (hey)
We're sleeping through all the days
I'm acting like I don't see
Every ribbon you used to tie yourself to me

But my hips have missed your hips
So, let's get to know the kicks
Will you sway with me?
Go astray with me?
(Ah ha)

We're King and Queen of the weekend
Ain't a pill that could touch our rush
(But what will we do when we're sober?)
When you dream with a fever
Bet you wish you could touch our rush
(But what will we do when we're sober?)
These are the games of the weekend
We pretend that we just don't care
But we care
(But what will we do when we're sober?)
When you dream with a fever
Bet you wish you could touch our rush
(But what will we do when we're sober?)

Oh, God, I'm closing my teeth
Around this liquor-wet lime
Midnight, lose my mind
I know you're feeling it too
Can we keep up with the ruse?
Ah ah (hey)
B-bodies all through my house
I know this story by heart:
Jack and Jill get fucked up and possessive
When it get dark

But my hips have missed your hips
So, let's get to know the kicks
Will you sway with me?
Go astray with me?
(Ah ha)

We're King and Queen of the Weekend
Ain't a pill that could touch our rush
(But what will we do when we're sober?)
When you dream with a fever
Bet you wish you could touch our rush
(But what will we do when we're sober?)
These are the games of the weekend
We pretend that we just don't care
But we care
(But what will we do when we're sober?)
When you dream with a fever
Bet you wish you could touch our rush
(But what will we do when we're sober?)

Midnight, we're fading
'Til daylight, we're jaded
We know that it's over
In the morning, you'll be dancing with all the heartache
And the treason, the fantasies of leaving
But we know that, when it's over
In the morning, you'll be dancing with us
(Midnight, lose my mind, midnight, lose my mind)
Oh, dancing with us, oh, dancing with us
(But what will we do when we're sober?)
Oh, you'll be dancing with us
(Can you feel it? Can you feel it?)
Dancing with us, us
(But what will we do when we're sober?)
Us

When you get to my high (midnight, lose my mind)
When you get to my (midnight, lose my mind)

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The cool breeze hit against my soft skin.

As the streets passed by in a flash.

I jogged around the dark neighbourhood.

Enjoying the night air.

Trying to ignore..

The thoughts that kept taking over.

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It's bad. 

It's wrong.

I know I shouldn't be feeling that way when you said that.

But I did.

And I wonder if i'm getting desperate.

There's a line drawn that I shouldn't cross.

I need to do something to get my life straight.

I need to be more sober.

Love, Eran.

I miss you but you don't know how to love me when you're sober.

Current Song Mood#1: Broods - Sober

I am sober
Lying in my bed
Recreating you inside my head
You speak softly
Resonating in my subconscious
Where did we begin

Just one break in the year
When it's all about the two of us
And nothing's ever been so good
You remember a life
That was all about the two of us
But you and I, we never knew

[Chorus:]
It was the greatest place I've ever been
And it was right in front of me 
You carried me back home again
Where you became it all for me
[x2]

Still and silent
One gets used to it
Being idle
But not you and me

Just one break in the week
We sit down as just the two of us
And think about the life we know
Oh the promise we made
It will always be the two of us
The dream of being in control

[Chorus x2]

Ohh
Where you became it all for me
[x6]

Current Song Mood#2: Selena Gomez - Sober

We fall for each other at the wrong time
Only for a moment, but I don't mind
Guess I don't know where to draw the line, the line, the line
And we'll play the same game every night

Up in the clouds
Yeah, you know how to make me want you
When we come down
Oh I know, yeah I know, it's over

You don't know how to love me when you're sober
When the bottle's done you pull me closer
And you're saying all the things that you're supposed to
But you don't know how to love me when you're sober

Why is it so different when we wake up?
Same lips, same kiss, but not the same touch
Don't you know that you do it just enough, but not enough
But I know what's next, and I want so much

Up in the clouds
Yeah, you know how to make me want you
When we come down
Oh I know, yeah I know, it's over

You don't know how to love me when you're sober
When the bottle's done you pull me closer
And you're saying all the things that you're supposed to
But you don't know how to love me when you're sober

I know I should leave, I know I should, should, should
But your love's too good, your love's too good, good, good
I know I should leave, I know I should, should, should
But your love's too good, your love's too good, good, good
Yeah!

You don't know how to love me when you're sober
When the bottle's done you pull me closer
And you're saying all the things that you're supposed to
But you don't know how to love me when you're sober

You've got a hold on me
You're like a wasted dream
I gave you everything
But you don't know how to love me when you're sober