Always

Page 1198

I love our simple relationship.

We don't need fancy dates.

Or to go anywhere at all.

Every Sunday we just cuddle at your place.

Watch movies.

Game.

Eat A LOT.

Play music.

Hehe.

That's all that we ever need.

The therapy light goes on.

And we just lay in the dim room.

Talking.

About anything.

I love this.

Its.. healthy.

And I've never had it with anyone else.

So thank you.

For being here.

For being alive.

Always.

Love, Eran.

Current Song Mood: Above & Beyond - Ft Zoe Johnston - Always 

Baby, when I'm hurting

Oh maybe you will give a little time to me

And someday when I really need you

You will take me in your arms and you will say

Always, sure as the rising sun

Always, mornings begun

Always, the way that all good things come

Always, always

Can you hear me when I'm way down here

Oh, maybe you will one day walk away from me

Stay close when the wind's howling

And never let me go

Always, sure as the rising sun

Always, mornings begun

Always, the way all good things come

Always, always

Always, sure as the rising sun

Always, mornings begun

Always, all good things come

Always, always

Baby, one day you'll walk away, one day you'll walk away from me

Baby, you'll be there for me, you'll be there for me

You'll be there for me

Always, sure as the rising sun

Always, mornings begun

Always, the way that all good things come

Always, always

Talking To Myself

Page 1197

Keep talking to myself lately.

When there's no one listening.

How do I fit in?

Do I look good enough?

Will people notice me?

Things I ponder about on the daily.

When really, all you need is reassurance that you're good enough.

You.

Are.

Enough.

Love, Eran.

Current Song Mood: brb. - Talking To Myself

You know I cant stop thinking Bout how you keep on missing Whats my need what I could be hmm Late nights have got me feeling Like I should keep on listening To the streets turn out the beat I can make magic taken for granted cant say its over lover ,and I Keep talking to myself lately Keep talking to myself lately I know we got together and forever but Gotta find a way to make it work without All the ones know I cant do I compromised yea I know its true So let us all go take in tenths Its Friday and we’ll finally fix this, ohh. I mean we cant pretend Like we’re in neverland Just so you know I can make magic taken for granted cant say its over lover ,and I Keep talking to myself lately Keep talking to myself lately Keep talking to myself lately Keep talking to myself lately Keep talking to myself lately Hmmm Remember how we used to Feel like nothings better Walked to your doorstep thinking I can live without her Eyes closed for a minute Feels right now in it Hands around your waist Real tuck no gimmicks Shes a witch I can make magic taken for granted cant say its over lover ,and I Keep talking to myself lately Keep talking to myself lately I can make magic taken for granted cant say its over lover ,and I Keep talking to myself lately Keep talking to myself lately

There's Only You

Page 1196

The weekends couldnt have been better spent. :)

With my love.

Doing the things we love.

Netflix. Cuddle. Eat. Music. Eat. Sleep.

Hahaha.

Honestly, that's all I've ever wanted to do.

And I'm grateful, to have found someone to do it with.

If not I'd be really lonely as usual.

Theres no one else.

There's only you.

 I hope you know that.

I love you.

So let's get through this week together.

We can do this.

Love, Eran.

Current Song Mood: Above & Beyond Ft Zoe Johnston - There's Only You

In the stillness of an empty room
In the face of every settled moon
In everything that comes apart
You rise and fall in my heart

In the morning's invitations
Impromptu celebrations
In every mainstay, on every holiday
In every single doorway, there’s you

There's you, there's only you
There’s only you, always you
There's you, there's only you
There's only you, always you

You, there's only you
There's only you, always you
There's you, there's only you
There’s only you, always you

Slow Dancing In The Dark

Page 1195

I remember.

I remember how it made me feel back then.

Social media was so toxic, everytime I came across you.

It triggered my panic attacks.

My anxiety.

It got so bad that.

I had to mute your account.

I just.. didnt have the strength to remove you from my life.

I was weak.

And I blamed myself.

I needed something.

Desperately.

To numb the pain.

To stop the triggers.

Every song I had in my playlist just.. wasnt working.

My friends were there for me, but I couldnt depend on them everytime.

I just felt empty.

Alone.

And miserable.

I remember..

The late nights.

I'd always be up at 3am.

Feeling so shitty.

Overthinking about EVERYTHING.

Writing to let out emotions.

Just wanting to.. die.

There was a time where I..

Was just scrolling Youtube.

Lost.

And somehow.

I found this.

And soon enough.

Everything made sense.

Thank you JoJi.

And thank you for being there for me the past few months.

I finally found the strength to do it tonight.

It's time I close this chapter of my life.

And move forward.

For now.

I'll just be..

slow dancing in the dark.

Love, Eran.

Current Song Mood: JoJi - Slow Dancing In The Dark

I don't want a friend (Just one more night)
I want my life in two (My life in two)
Please one more night
Waiting to get there
Waiting for you (Waiting for you)
Just one more night
I'm done fighting all night

When I'm around slow dancing in the dark
Don't follow me, you'll end up in my arms
You done made up your mind
I don't need no more signs
Can you?
Can you?

Give me reasons we should be complete
You should be with him, I can't compete
You looked at me like I was someone else, oh well
Can't you see? (Can't you see?)
I don't wanna slow dance (I don't wanna slow dance)
In the dark, dark

When you gotta run
Just hear my voice in you (My voice in you)
Shutting me out of you (shutting me out of you)
Doing so great (So great, so great)
You

Used to be the one to hold you when you fall
Yeah, yeah, yeah (When you fall, when you fall)
I don't fuck with your tone (I don't fuck with your tone)
I don't wanna go home (I don't wanna go home)
Can it be one night?
Can you?
Can you?

Give me reasons we should be complete
You should be with him, I can't compete
You looked at me like I was someone else, oh well
Can't you see?
I don't wanna slow dance (I don't wanna slow dance)
In the dark, dark
In the dark, dark

Love Is Not Enough

Page 1194

Love is not enough.

It never has been.

It's the connection.

Not just from your similar interests, but your past experiences.

Your emotions.

Your souls.

They have to connect and fit each other perfectly.

It's so important.

I'm glad.. that after all these years of heartbreak..  we've both found that.

You don't need to be at the top of my twitter page.

You've already earned a special place in my heart.

I can assure that. 

:)

Thank you, for everything you've done for me so far.

I can never be more grateful..

Love, Eran.

Current Song Mood: Above & Beyond Ft Zoe Johnston - Love Is Not Enough

I've had too many a good cry for you
This is my time to say goodbye to you

In my heart of hearts
I know there's more love left for you
But love is not enough, I've learned,
To see the journey through

This is not yours alone
It hurts me too
Please don't say you don't care
(I know you do)

Love is not enough for me
If it screams when you hold it
Love is not enough for me
Love is hurting if it screams
Oh if it's screaming out loud

Love is not enough

One day you will fly away from here
One day you will leave your hurts behind

Hundred

Page 1193

It's been more than a hundred days.

It was one of the lowest period for me.

Where I wasnt sure of how my life would turn out.

It was so different. 

I was all alone.

I could've gone down that path again

The path of depression,  darkness and mental breakdown.

But I knew I couldnt afford to.

To lose myself.

I just couldnt.

So I didnt.

I surrounded myself with people who cared.

I picked myself up.

Took it day by day.

And I'm glad I didnt give up.

On myself.

Cause I'm in a much better place.

Never could I.. imagine.

That it was possible.

Here's to another hundreds of days to come.

Here's to.. the future.

Love, Eran.

Current Song Mood: Khalid - Hundred

Life is never easy when you need it to be
Try to knock me down but I get back on my feet
Everybody's angry and they comin' for me (Comin' for me)
But I can't give them energy that I won't receive (I won't receive)

So I brush them off I got a lot on my sleeve
Like I'm movin' backwards but it's all on repeat
This place is getting crowded I got no room to breathe
The only thing I'm losin' isn't our memory

'Cause the world keeps spinnin' the sun won't shine on my face
I'm a keep it movin' gotta hundred things I gotta do today
'Cause the world keeps spinnin' the sun won't shine on my face
I'm a keep it movin' gotta hundred things I gotta do today

Now it's real, take you time we're almost there
Wherever we're going gotta be prepared
We'll be fine, I ain't scared, I ain't scared
People keep on talkin' 'bout what they wanna to be (They wanna to be)
Walkin' down the line but they don't live what they preach (Live what they preach)
You sharin' attributes with our old enemies
You gotta pay to live and even dying ain't free

'Cause the world keeps spinnin' the sun won't shine on my face
I'm a keep it movin' gotta hundred things I gotta do today
'Cause the world keeps spinnin' the sun won't shine on my face
I'm a keep it movin' gotta hundred things I gotta do today

Yeah, you gotta take it slow
Dust yourself off don't you lose control
You gotta take it slow
Dust yourself off don't you lose control
(Dust yourself off don't you lose control)
You gotta take it slow
Dust yourself off don't you lose control
(Dust yourself off don't you lose control)
You gotta take it slow
Dust yourself off don't you lose control
(Dust yourself off don't you lose control)

'Cause the world keeps spinnin' the sun won't shine on my face
Outta sight, outta mind, got no time
So blind, hundred days and I'm still alive, what a life
Outta sight, outta mind, got no time
So blind, hundred days and I'm still alive, what a life
Hundred days and I'm still alive
Hundred days and I'm still alive
It's been a hundred, hundred
Hundred days and I'm still alive

Had a hundred friends but I cut them off I don't need 'em
Not like any of them gave a fuck if I was breathin'
Summer's over so they switch around like the seasons
Gotta keep my guard up now I'm playin' defense
Everybody wants a favor everybody needs me
But I'm too busy tryin' to fight away all of my demons
I'm too busy tryin' to fight away my demons
Everybody wants a favor everybody needs me

Outta sight, outta mind, got no time
So blind, hundred days and I'm still alive, what a life
Outta sight, outta mind, got no time
So blind, hundred days and I'm still alive, what a life
Hundred days and I'm still alive
Hundred days and I'm still alive
It's been a hundred, hundred
Hundred days and I'm still alive

Running

Page 1192

You're.. everything to me.

There's no one else but you.

Only you.

I know it's been pretty rough for us lately. 

Can't imagine the pain we've both went through.

Yet here we are, spending the whole day together again.

I'm always here for you.

I'm here to wipe your tears away too :)

And to hold onto you, tightly.

Even if you feel like running away.

Take me with you.

Cause I can't imagine my life without you.

Love, Eran.

Current Song Mood: Christian Loffler Ft Josephine Phillip - Running

Solitude

To break my heart

Cant let go

Cant let go

Wake up 

Late at night

Thinking of you

Of you

I know we are through 

But I keep on calling your name

I do

I know we are through 

I keep on calling your name

I do

Running away x5 

With you x2

Running away x5 

With you x2

Break my heart

Tear me apart

I can't let go

Cant let go

I know we are through 

But I keep on calling your name

I do

I know we are through 

I keep on calling your name

I do

Running away x5 

With you x2

Running away x5 

With you x2

Pet Semetary

Page 1191

Impromptu late night movie session with love.

:)

Gosh.

Pet Semetary.

What a show!

Imagine having to bury your loved one.

Not being able to let go.

Doing whatever it takes to bring them back.

Just so you could spend a little more time with them.

Damn.

That's heartbreaking.

And only human.

Did not expect that twist at the end though.

Wow.

It was darker than I expected.

I really love Stephen King's Horror novels/movies.

The dude's a genius.

Can't wait for IT 2 later this year too.

:))

Love, Eran.

Current Song Mood: Starcrawler - Pet Semetary  

Under the arc of a weather stain boards
Ancient goblins, and warlords
Come out of the ground, not making a sound
The smell of death is all around
And the night when the cold wind blows
No one cares, nobody knows

I don't want to be buried in a Pet Sematary
I don't want to live my life again
I don't want to be buried in a Pet Sematary
I don't want to live my life again

Follow Victor to the sacred place
This ain't a dream, I can't escape
Molars and fangs, the clicking of bones
Spirits moaning among the tombstones
And the night, when the moon is bright
Someone cries, something ain't right

I don't want to be buried in a Pet Sematary
I don't want to live my life again
I don't want to be buried in a Pet Sematary
I don't want to live my life again

The moon is full, the air is still
All of a sudden I feel a chill
Victor is grinning, flesh rotting away
Skeletons dance, I curse this day
And the night when the wolves cry out
Listen close and you can hear me shout

I don't want to be buried in a Pet Sematary
I don't want to live my life again
I don't want to be buried in a Pet Sematary
I don't want to live my life again

Oh, no
Oh, no

I don't want to live my life, not again

Oh, no
Oh, no

I don't want to live my life, not again

Monopoly

Page 1190

Feels strangely weird & satisfying.

To see two special worlds collide.

Especially when you're so close to them individually. 

People come and go like monopoly.

But its the real ones that will stick by.

Tonight was really good.

An interesting conversation with open & like-minded loved ones.

I dig that shit.

More of that to come.

Yuh.

:)

Love, Eran.

Current Song Mood: Ariana Grande & Victoria Monet - MONOPOLY

[Ariana Grande:]
Yeah

[Victoria Monét:]
I've been on a roll, where you been?
Real protective with my soul, where you been?
Is your GPS even on, where you been?
Matter of fact, I don't even care where you been

Bad vibes, get off of me
Outta here with that fuckery
Treat my goals like property
Collect them like Monopoly
I probably won't come if there's not a fee
And if they try come stoppin' me
I swerve both ways, dichotomy

[Victoria Monét (Ariana Grande):]
I like women and men (Yeah)
Work so fuckin' much, need a twinny, twin, twin
How you hit the club and you barely got in?
Then we hit the bank, making them investments for the win, oh

[Ariana Grande:]
Said, I been on a roll, where you been? (Where you been?)
Real protective with my soul, where you been? (Where you been?)
Is your GPS even on, where you been? (Where you been?)
Matter of fact, I don't even care where you been

Bad vibes, get off of me
Outta here with that fuckery
Treat my goals like property
Collect them like Monopoly
I probably won't come if there's not a fee
And if they try come stoppin' me
I show them my discography (Yeah, yeah)

I like women and men (Yeah)
Work so fuckin' much, need a twinny, twin, twin (Hey)
You'd be straight for life if I gave you my PIN (Yeah)
Even though we gave up that 90% for the win, go

[Victoria Monét & Ariana Grande:]
I've been on a roll, where you been? (Where you been?)
Real protective with my soul, where you been? (Where you been?)
Is your GPS even on, where you been? (Where you been?)
Matter of fact, I don't even care where you been

[Ariana Grande:]
Yeah, hell no
I don't even care where you been (Oh, yeah)
Hell no (Oh, yeah)
Said I don't even care

[Victoria Monét & Ariana Grande:]
Remember when we made a fuckin' album off that Clicquot? (Ooh)
I never track my vocals, so shout out to Eric Vetro (I love Eric Vetro, man)
This been buildin' up, I guess this friendship like Home Depot (Ooh)
I'm so thankful working with my best friend, she the cheat code
She the cheat code (Yeah)

Where you at? Where you been? (Oh yeah)
Where you been? Where you at, ho? Hey (Where you been?)
Where you at? Where you been, ho? Hey (Mmm, yeah)
I don't care where you been, ho (Been)
Where you been, Cletus?
Yeah, who? (What?) Clevis?
Who the fuck is Cletus?
It's from, um
Cletus? Girl
Nutty Fropessor
We have to wrap, five, six, seven, eight
Yeah