Beautiful People

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We are definitely the world's most boring couple.

We stay in on the weekends.

And just hide away from the world.

But that's all I've ever wanted.

To have a simple life like that.

And be happy with someone. :)

We have everything we need right behind those four walls.

And that's more than enough.

Thank you for sharing that with me.

We are not beautiful people.

We are very very simple.

And that's what makes our relationship perfect.

:)

Love, Eran.

Current Song Mood: Ed Sheeran Ft Khalid - Beautiful People

(We are, we are, we are)

L.A. on a Saturday night in the summer
Sundown and they all come out
Lamborghinis and their rented Hummers
The party's on, so they're heading downtown
Everybody's looking for a come-up
And they wanna know what you're about
Me in the middle with the one I'm loving
We're just tryna figure everything out

We don't fit in well
'Cause we are just ourselves
I could use some help
Getting out of this conversation, yeah
You look stunning, dear
So don't ask that question here
This is my only fear
That we become

Beautiful people
Drop-top, designer clothes
Front row at fashion shows
"What d'you do?" and "Who d'you know?"
Inside the world of
Beautiful people
Champagne and rolled-up notes
Pre-nups and broken homes
Surrounded, but still alone
Let's leave the party

That's not who we are
(We are, we are, we are)
We are not beautiful
Yeah, that's not who we are
(We are, we are, we are)
We are not beautiful

(L.A., mmm)

Drove for hours last night and we made it nowhere
I see stars in your eyes when we're halfway there (all night)
I'm not fazed by all the lights and flashing cameras
'Cause with my arms around you, there's no need to care

We don't fit in well
We are just ourselves
I could use some help
Getting out of this conversation, yeah
You look stunning, dear
So don't ask that question here
This is my only fear
That we become

Beautiful people
Drop-top, designer clothes
Front row at fashion shows
"What d'you do?" and "Who d'you know?"
Inside the world of
Beautiful people
Champagne and rolled-up notes
Pre-nups and broken homes
Surrounded, but still alone
Let's leave the party

That's not who we are
(We are, we are, we are)
We are not beautiful
Yeah, that's not who we are
(We are, we are, we are)
We are not beautiful

(We are, we are, we are)
We are not beautiful

Body

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Self love is always the hardest.

For anyone.

But you, you taught me to be comfortable with my own body.

Thank you for loving me for who I am.

When no one else would.

You truly are amazing.

Love, Eran.

Current Song Mood: Julia Michaels - Body

Sorry I'm a bitch to you
I know that I'm the reason that you're so insecure
Think that I'd know better
As I get a little older

I'm sorry I'm a bitch to you
I know that I'm the reason you don't smile anymore
Think I'd learn my lesson
'Cause now I'm feelin' empty

And you say, "Why do you talk to yourself like that?"
I say, "I don't know why."
Oh
You say all of these things are just in my mind
Kiss me 'til I'm alright

I just wanna love my body
Like you love my body
I wanna look in the mirror
And tell it that it's beautiful like you do
I wanna love my body
Like you love my body
Wanna make it feel like it's incredible like you do

And I don't see what you see
But I want to, I wanna love...
Love my body like I love your body

I'm sorry I don't let you go out with your friends
Last time I think I said it was a little too short
And you said I harp on you too much
So you put a sweatshirt on 'cause you gave up
Watched TV still in your make-up
And you stayed in it 'til you waked up
You wiped it off when we made up

And you say, "Why do you talk to yourself like that?"
I say, "I don't know why."
Oh
You say all of these things are just in my mind
Kiss me 'til I'm alright

I just wanna love my body
Like you love my body
Wanna look in the mirror
And tell it that it's beautiful like you do
I wanna love my body
Like you love my body
Wanna make it feel like it's incredible like you do

And I don't see what you see
But I want to, I wanna love...
Love my body like I love your body

I just wanna love my body
Like you love my body
I wanna look in the mirror
And tell it that it's beautiful like you do
I wanna love my body
Like you love my body
Wanna make it feel like it's incredible like you do

I Dont Care

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Thank you for always being there for me.

Cheering me up when I'm down.

It's like you can read me.

What we have is special.

And that's all that matters.

I know I shouldn't care what others think about me.

When all I have is you.

:)

I don't care anymore.

Thank you for tonight.

Love, Eran.

Current Song Mood: Ed Sheeran Ft Justin Bieber - I Dont Care

[Ed Sheeran:]
I'm at a party I don't wanna be at
And I don't ever wear a suit and tie, yeah
Wonderin' if I could sneak out the back
Nobody's even lookin' me in my eyes
Can you take my hand?
Finish my drink, say, "Shall we dance?" (Hell, yeah)
You know I love ya, did I ever tell ya?
You make it better like that

Don't think I fit in at this party
Everyone's got so much to say (Yeah)
I always feel like I'm nobody, mmm
Who wants to fit in anyway?

'Cause I don't care when I'm with my baby, yeah
All the bad things disappear
And you're making me feel like maybe I am somebody
I can deal with the bad nights
When I'm with my baby, yeah
Ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh, oooh, ooh
'Cause I don't care as long as you just hold me near
You can take me anywhere
And you're making me feel like I'm loved by somebody
I can deal with the bad nights
When I'm with my baby, yeah
Ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh, oooh, ooh

[Justin Bieber:]
We at a party we don't wanna be at
Tryna talk, but we can't hear ourselves
Press your lips, I'd rather kiss 'em right back
With all these people all around
I'm crippled with anxiety
But I'm told it's where I'm supposed to be
You know what? It's kinda crazy 'cause I really don't mind
When you make it better like that

Don't think we fit in at this party
Everyone's got so much to say, oh yeah, yeah
When we walked in, I said I'm sorry, mmm
But now I think that we should stay

[Ed Sheeran (Justin Bieber):]
'Cause I don't care when I'm with my baby, yeah
All the bad things disappear
Yeah, you're making me feel like maybe I am somebody
I can deal with the bad nights
When I'm with my baby, yeah
Ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh, oooh, ooh (Oh yeah, yeah, yeah)
'Cause I don't care as long as you just hold me near
You can take me anywhere
And you're making me feel like I'm loved by somebody
I can deal with the bad nights
When I'm with my baby, yeah
Ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh, oooh, ooh (No)

[Justin Bieber:]
I don't like nobody but you, it's like you're the only one here
I don't like nobody but you, baby, I don't care

[Ed Sheeran:]
I don't like nobody but you, I hate everyone here
I don't like nobody but you, baby, yeah

[Ed Sheeran (Justin Bieber):]
'Cause I don't care (Don't care)
When I'm with my baby, yeah (Oh yeah)
All the bad things disappear (Disappear)
And you're making me feel like maybe I am somebody (Maybe I'm somebody)
I can deal with the bad nights (With the bad nights)
When I'm with my baby, yeah
Ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh (Oh yeah, yeah, yeah)
'Cause I don't care as long as you just hold me near (Me near)
You can take me anywhere (Anywhere, anywhere)
And you're making me feel like I'm loved by somebody
(I'm loved by somebody, yeah, yeah, yeah)
I can deal with the bad nights
When I'm with my baby, yeah
Ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh

Don't Worry Bout Me

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I've never thought that this would affect me.

Is it such a bad thing to gain weight?

Maybe I overdid it these past few months.

What can I say?

I'm in a happy place. Where I feel like I shouldn't restrict myself. Or care about what anyone thinks about my image.

I don't feel the need to impress anyone, anymore. 

But what happens when you work in a place where people sees you all the time, and notices all the small things about you.

What happens when every single day, there is someone that will comment on the way you look?

It's manageable the first few times. Brushing it off like a joke, with a smile.

But the constant comments, every single day, feels degrading. Insulting, even.

Don't worry bout me.

You should worry about yourself.

I'm trying my best to get back into shape.

And I hope people will notice the effort instead.

Love, Eran.

Current Song Mood: Zara Larsson - Don't Worry About Me

Everything, everything is cool now
I wanted you to know that I
I'm fine tonight
Why do you do that to me?
Unfair how after we done, then you care
It's like you know I
I'm fine
But why don't you remind yourself that?

Don't worry 'bout me
You should worry 'bout you, yeah, yeah
Keep doing what you do best, babe
That's loving only yourself, babe
'Cause I've been sleeping okay (No, no, no, no)
Don't worry 'bout me
You should worry 'bout you (Oh, oh)
Yeah, that's your problem, so fix it
'Cause I ain't none of your business
Now I've been sleeping okay (No, no, no, no)

Now that you hurting like hell
You see things that reminds you of me everywhere
Just know that I
I'm fine tonight
You tryna stay in my life
Ain't got the space or the time
It's too late now, I'm moving on
I'm so unfazed, you ain't what I want, no

Don't worry 'bout me (Don't worry 'bout)
You should worry 'bout you, yeah, yeah
Keep doing what you do best, babe
That's loving only yourself, babe
'Cause I've been sleeping okay (No, no, no, no)
Don't worry 'bout me
You should worry 'bout you (Oh, oh)
Yeah, that's your problem, so fix it
'Cause I ain't none of your business
Now I've been sleeping okay (No, no, no, no)

Don't worry 'bout me
Don't worry 'bout me
You tryna stay in my life
Ain't got the space or the time
It's too late, now I'm moving on
I'm so unfazed, you ain't what I want, no

Don't worry 'bout me (Don't you worry 'bout)
You should worry 'bout you, yeah, yeah
Keep doing what you do best, babe
That's loving only yourself, babe
'Cause I've been sleeping okay (No, no, no, no, yeah)
Don't worry 'bout me (Don't worry 'bout me)
You should worry 'bout you (Oh, oh)
Yeah, that's your problem, so fix it
'Cause I ain't none of your business
Now I've been sleeping okay (No, no, no, no)

Don't worry 'bout me
You should worry 'bout you
Worry 'bout you, worry 'bout you, worry 'bout you
Yeah, you should worry 'bout you

You There

Page 1216

You there?

If only you could see me right now.

And the broken pieces of my heart around me.

This pain that i'm just too familiar with.

I can't even cry anymore.

Maybe you would've thought it through before you said that.

I'll give you time to sleep this off.

For both of us.

I still.. love you.

💔

Love, Eran.

Current Song Mood: Aquilo - You There

You there, you're better off here
You there, you're better off here
Funny it takes no time to fall back down
Funny it takes the time to get back up

You there, you're better off here
You there, you're better off here
Funny it takes no time to fall back down
Funny it takes the time to get back up

Uncover your eyes
Uncover your eyes
There's no sun, where is your direction?
Uncover your eyes
Uncover your eyes
Ask yourself, where is my reflection?

Uncover your eyes
Uncover your eyes
There's no sun, where is your direction?
Uncover your eyes
Uncover your eyes
Ask yourself, where is my reflection?

Sanctuary

Page 1215

I guess it's a big milestone for you to step into my house.

I really appreciate it.

:)

Thank you to all my friends that came as well.

Though a lot couldnt make it this  year.

That's fine.

I always feel like, its better with limited people around.

I find that I give off energy easily when there's a lot of people around.

 I'm totally drained at the end of the day.

And that's okay.

Welcome to my sanctuary.

I hope you guys enjoyed today.

Love, Eran.

Current Song Mood: Joji - Sanctuary

Go 'head and park after dark, fallen star, I'm your one call away
Motel halls, neon walls, when night falls I am your escape
When you lay alone, I ache
Something I wanted to feel

If you've been waiting for falling in love
Babe, you don't have to wait on me
'Cause I've been aiming for heaven above
But an angel ain't what I need

Not anyone, you're the one
More than fun, you're the sanctuary
'Cause what you want is what I want, sincerity

Souls that dream alone lie awake
I'll give you something so real

If you've been waiting for falling in love
Babe, you don't have to wait on me
'Cause I've been aiming for heaven above
But an angel ain't what I need

Pull me oh so close, 'cause you never know
Just how long our lives will be

If you've been waiting for falling in love
Babe, you don't have to wait on me
'Cause I've been aiming for heaven above
But an angel ain't what I need

I Lost A Friend

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Wish I could be there to hug you to sleep tonight.

I know how it feels.

I've lost a friend before.

And it hurts like fuck.

I feel you. 

Your pain.

I understand.

And I wish I can take it away from you.

It'll take time..

Ok?

I'm always here for you.

For all my loved ones.

Always.

Love, Eran.

Current Song Mood: Finneas - I Lost A Friend

I lost a friend
Like keys in a sofa
Like a wallet in the backseat
Like ice in the summer heat

I lost a friend
Like sleep on a red-eye
Like money on a bad bet
Like time worrying about every bad thing that hasn't happened yet

I know I'll be alright
But I'm not tonight
I'll be lying awake counting all the mistakes I've made
Replaying fights
I know I'll be alright
But I'm not tonight

I lost a friend
I lost a friend
I lost my mind
And nobody believes me
Saying no that it don't lead me
'Cause he made a little too much money to be twenty and sad
And I'll be fine without them
But all I do is write about 'em
How the hell did I lose a friend I never had?
Never had

I'm on the mend
Like I'm wearing a neck brace
Like I'm sleeping in my own place
Like I'm pulling all the stitches out of my own face

I'm on the mend
Like I'm icing a new sprain
Like I'm walking on a new cane
Like it's been a couple days since I slipped and said something sorta like your name

I know I'll be alright
But I'm not tonight
I'll be lying awake counting all the mistakes I've made
Replaying fights
I know I'll be alright
But I'm not tonight

I'm on the mend
But I lost a friend
I lost my mind
And nobody believes me
Saying no that it don't lead me
'Cause he made a little too much money to be twenty and sad
And I'll be fine without them
But all I do is write about 'em
How the hell did I lose a friend I never had?

I'd apologize 
If I thought it might 
Make a difference 
Or make you listen
I'd apologize 
If it was black and white
But life is different
Just try to listen 
To me now

I know I'll be alright
But I'm not tonight
I lost a friend
I lost a friend
I lost my mind
And nobody believes me
Saying no that it don't lead me
'Cause he made a little too much money to be twenty and sad
And I'll be fine without them
But all I do is write about 'em
How the hell did I lose a friend I never had?

Never had

Never Really Over

Page 1213

Finally done with school for the sem.

YAS.

Now I finally feel free again.

Though my holidays are ironically ending soon.

Oh well.

That's life.

It's never really over.

It's really what you make out of it.

Gonna enjoy the remaining time left. 

Cheers to the weekends.

:)

Love, Eran.

Current Song Mood: Katy Perry - Never Really Over

I'm losing my self control
Yeah, you're starting to trickle back in
But I don't wanna fall down the rabbit hole
Cross my heart, I won't do it again

I've told myself, told myself 
Told myself draw the line
And I do, I do
But once in a while I trip up and I cross the line
When I think of you

Two years and just like that
My head still takes me back
Thought it was done, but I
Guess it's never really over
Oh, we were such a mess
But wasn't it the best?
Thought it was done, but I
Guess it's never really over

Just because it's over doesn't mean it's really over
And if I think it over, maybe you'll be coming over again
And I'll have to get over you all over again
Just because it's over doesn't mean it's really over
And if I think it over, maybe you'll be coming over again
And I'll have to get over you all over again

I guess I could try hypnotherapy
I gotta rewire this brain
'Cause I can't even go on the internet
Without even checking your name

I've told myself, told myself 
Told myself draw the line
And I do, I do
But once in a while I trip up and I cross the line
When think of you

Two years and just like that
My head still takes me back
Thought it was done, but I
Guess it's never really over
Oh, we were such a mess
But wasn't it the best?
Thought it was done, but I
Guess it's never really over

Just because it's over doesn't mean it's really over
And if I think it over, maybe you'll be coming over again
And I'll have to get over you all over again
Just because it's over doesn't mean it's really over
And if I think it over, maybe you'll be coming over again
And I'll have to get over you all over again

Thought we kissed goodbye
Thought we meant this time
Was the last, but I guess it's never really over
Thought we drew the line
Right through you and I
Can't keep going back
I guess it's never really over

Two years and just like that
My head still takes me back
Thought it was done, but I
Guess it's never really over

Just because it's over doesn't mean it's really over
And if I think it over, maybe you'll be coming over again
And I'll have to get over you all over again
(And I'll have to get over you all over again)
Just because it's over doesn't mean it's really over
And if I think it over, maybe you'll be coming over again
And I'll have to get over you all over again
(Over you all over again)

Thought we kissed goodbye
Thought we meant this time
Was the last, but I guess it's never really over
Thought we drew the line
Right through you and I
Can't keep going back
I guess it's never really over

Love Yourself // The Most

Page 1212

So happy.

To see you like yourself again.

I'm glad the meds are working.

And that you're less worried about work tomorrow.

Your mind is such a powerful barrier.

Once you overcome it, you're in control.

You'll be just fine.

Love yourself.

Just like how I love you, the most.

Goodnight x 

Love, Eran.

Current Song Mood #1: Sufian Stevens - Love Yourself

Love yourself
You are the one thing
I needed
Share of yourself
Show me the things that
You believe in

Love, can you love yourself
Show me everything
Every reason to believe in yourself

Make a shelf
Put all the things on
That you believe in

Love, can you love yourself
Show me everything
Every reason to believe in yourself

Love yourself
You are the one thing
I believe in
Love, can you love yourself
Show me everything
Every reason to believe in yourself
Make a shelf
Put all the things on
That you believe in

Love, can you love yourself
(You are the one thing)
Show me everything
(You are the one thing)
Every reason to believe in yourself
(You are the one thing)
Love, can you love yourself
(You are the one thing)
Show me everything
(You are the one thing)
Every reason to believe in yourself
(You are the one thing)

Current Song Mood #2: Miley Cyrus - The Most

(Yeah, yeah, yeah)
(Yeah, yeah, yeah)
(Yeah, yeah, yeah)

This winter was as cold as you and I
I know you're home hoping I'm alright
How many times have I left you in the deep?
I don't know why you still believe in me

Oh and even at my darkest days
Even in my lowest place
You love me the most
And even when I can't stay
Even when I run away
You love me the most

So why do I hurt you so?
Is it 'cause I know?
Why do I hurt you so?
Is it 'cause you love me the most?
(Yeah, yeah, yeah) The most
(Yeah, yeah, yeah)
Is it 'cause I know?
Is it 'cause you love me the most?
(Yeah, yeah, yeah) The most
(Yeah, yeah, yeah)
Is it 'cause I know? Yeah

Your tender touch is the feeling that I seek
I come to you when my judgement becomes weak
All that you are is all I ever need
I don't know why you still believe in me

Oh and even at my darkest days
Even in my lowest place
You love me the most
And even when I can't stay
Even when I run away
You love me the most

So why do I hurt you so?
Is it 'cause I know?
Why do I hurt you so?
Is it 'cause you love me the most?
(Yeah, yeah, yeah) The most
(Yeah, yeah, yeah)
Is it 'cause I know?
Is it 'cause you love me the most?
(Yeah, yeah, yeah) The most
(Yeah, yeah, yeah)
Is it 'cause I know? Yeah

How many times have I left you in the deep?
I don't know why you still believe in me

In This Together

Page 1211

I wish I can take away your pain.

Your anxiety.

Your insecurities.

You're never alone.

Not with me by your side.

We're in this together.

You and me.

You can get through today, tomorrow, and the day after.

You can.

and, you will.

:)

Love, Eran.

Current Song Mood: Ellie Goulding - In This Together

Is it really over?
The echoes just seem to get longer
How did we get here?
There was so much love in us
And all I have left is my faith
I can change

I can't watch this burn
I can't watch this burn to the ground
You'd have thought we'd learned
You'd have thought we'd learned by now

I can hear the whole world singing together
I can hear the whole world sing, "It's now or never"
'Cause it's not too late if we change our ways
And connect the dots to our problems
I can hear the whole world sing, "We're in this together"
"We're in this together"

Pickin' up the pieces
I listen out for beating hearts
And now it's time for healing
The sun will rise, but this time it's so bright
And all I have left is my faith that we could change

'Cause I can't watch us lose
Like I watch us lose what we found
You'd have thought we'd learned
You'd have thought we'd learned by now

I can hear the whole world singing together
I can hear the whole world sing, "It's now or never"
'Cause it's not too late if we change our ways
And connect the dots to our problems
I can hear the whole world sing, "We're in this together"
"We're in this together"

Oh, oh...

Oh, I can hear the whole world singing together
And I can hear the whole world sing, "It's now or never"
'Cause it's not too late if we change our ways
And connect the dots to our problems
I can hear the whole world sing, "We're in this together"
"We're in this together"

Ah-ooh, ooh...
Ooh, ooh...

Again

Page 1210

Started again.

The need to numb.

Everything.

.

Love, Eran.

Current Song Mood: SG Lewis Ft TEED - Again

Turn it around
Start it again
Turn it around
Start it again
Do you turn it around?
Turn it around
Start it again
Turn it around
Start it again

Turn it around
Start it again
Turn it around
Start it again
Do you turn it around?

Now he's gonna see
Lost myself again
For so long I was right about it all
Didn't listen to the voices
Now it starts again
Now it starts again

Turn it around
Start it again
Turn it around
Start it again
Do you turn it around?
Turn it around
Start it again
Turn it around
Start it again
Do you turn it around?