Everything I Wanted

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I've got everything I wanted.

But why do I feel like I don't deserve it?

I guess its just me and my troubled past.

Maybe I will never get past it.

The way it just keeps haunting me.

Affecting my head.

Over and over.

Like a broken record.

As you left the room and I just..

Had my hands on my head, defeated.

Tears. Hyperventilation. Fear.

Another panic attack.

That familiar feeling of, loneliness.

The overwhelming darkness that slowly swept in as the sun set.

And I was engulfed.

Engulfed in pitch darkness.

I found myself under the sheets.

Waiting. And drifting away.

And then you came back.

And you saved me, from my own self.

And I saw the light, again.

You are..

 everything I've wanted.

Love, Eran.

Current Song Mood: Billie Eilish - Everything I Wanted

I had a dream
I got everything I wanted
Not what you'd think
And if I'm being honest

It might have been a nightmare
To anyone who might care

Thought I could fly
So I stepped off the golden
Nobody cried
Nobody even noticed

I saw them standing right there
Kinda thought they might care

I had a dream
I got everything I wanted
But when I wake up, I see
You with me

And you say
As long as I'm here
No one can hurt you
Don't wanna lie here
But you can learn to
If I could change the way that you see yourself
You wouldn't wonder why you’re here
They don't deserve you

I tried to scream
But my head was under water
They called me weak
Like I'm not just somebody's daughter

Coulda been a nightmare
But it felt like they were right there
And it feels like yesterday was a year ago
But I don't wanna let anybody know
'Cause everybody wants something from me now
And I don't wanna let 'em down

I had a dream
I got everything I wanted
But when I wake up, I see
You with me

And you say
As long as I'm here
No one can hurt you
Don't wanna lie here
But you can learn to
If I could change the way that you see yourself
You wouldn't wonder why you’re here
They don't deserve you

If I knew it all then, would I do it again?
Would I do it again?
If they knew what they said would go straight to my head
What would they say instead?

If I knew it all then, would I do it again?
Would I do it again?
If they knew what they said would go straight to my head
What would they say instead?