Holding Back

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Leap years are so weird. 

How do people celebrate their birthdays on 29 Feb? Haha.

February was like a breeze.

Though I've had my fair share of break downs with work and my personal life.

That's okay. Relapses are still progress. Right? Yea well.

Been adjusting to the new work schedule. Also, our workloads have been increasing exponentially.  Hospital's are overflowing with COVID cases so our centre has to take some of our own in. 

Well. I trust my immune system can handle it. OCD mode, on.

I'm still enjoying the peace of not having social media. 

Well, most of it. I'm back on Twitter. For the cat vids of course. Hahah.

Shall try not to hold myself back too much.

It almost feels like I'm punishing myself.

I went to my childhood friend's wedding the other day and it felt so surreal.

Always does. But I'm so happy to see her contented. It's been a long journey for her.

We're all growing up so fast..

I'm also trying not to get all the peer pressure get to me.

One day at a time.

And aim for my own freedom and peace to come.

:)

Love, Eran.

Current Song Mood: BANKS - Holding Back

Oh, love, love is holding back
I know I've done you wrong
Did I say too much?
Drowned my sorrows, called you up
When the truth is tough
Honesty may not be enough

'Cause love is holding back
I know I've done you wrong
Leave me, I'm alright
I'll see you in the morning
And lovin' is holding back
And I have been in mourning

Never told you that I seen the light
You know I push it 'cause I go too far
Something 'bout what you said in the morning
Never gave me a warning, ah
And while you walking free
I stay in the middle unaccompanied
Missin' you a little, won't you come and see?
I wrote you a melody, can't you see that?
It's you I'm lovin', babe
I know you won't admit it, but we're something, babe
All I wanna do is get you loved and laid
I wrote you a melody, can't you see that?

Love is holding back
I know I've done you wrong
Did I say too much?
Leave me, I'm alright
I'll see you in the morning
And lovin' is holding back
And I have been in mourning

I remember when you locked us out
We had to climb in through the window, how
Lifted me up, was on the second floor and
I always loved that story
And while you talk to me
You don't think I listen, but I do, you see
Words are never bitter 'cause your voice so sweet
Your voice is like a melody, can't you see that?
Baby, don't be afraid
Not every conversation is a new grenade
All I wanna do is get you loved and laid
I wrote you a melody, can't you see that?

Love is holding back
I know I've done you wrong
Did I say too much?
Leave me, I'm alright
I'll see you in the morning
And lovin' is holding back
And I have been in mourning

Anything
I want you more than all time
I want you more than moonlight
I want you more than sunshine
I want you more than water
I want you more than high tides
So don't you say that our time is up
Our time ain't up, oh-ooh-ooh-ooh
'Cause I want you, I want you, I want you
I want you, I want you (I want you)
Give me love, give me love, give me love
Give me love, give me love, yeah
I want you, I want you, I want you
I want you, I want you (Want you, want you, want you, want you, want you)
Give me love, give me love, give me love
Give me love, give me love, yeah (Give me love, yeah)

Love is holding back, yeah
I know I've done you wrong
Over and over
Leave me, I'm alright
I'll see you in the morning
And lovin' is holding back
And I have been in mourning
Love is holding back, yeah
I know I've done you wrong (Oh, na na na na na na)
Leave me, I'm alright (Oh, na na na na na na)
I'll see you in the morning (Oh, na na na na na na)
(Baby, I want you, I want you, I want you, I want you, I want you)
And lovin' is holding back
And I have been in mourning

Dawn FM // BED

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WEEEEEEEEEEE.

How was your weekend?

Because mine was absolutely perfect.

Turned 27 recently.

Damn. Time flies. What an odd number.

 I spent last year dreading my birthday...

I spent the start of the year wanting to disappear.

But this year, this weekend, I decided to celebrate.. life.

And that's exactly what happened.

A weekend away @ St Regis Hotel.

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Such a grand lobby! Everything was so posh. We felt so underdressed haha.

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Just look at that. What a beautiful, luxurious space. It was exactly what I wanted. :)

A huge bed and toilet + bathtub? A huge window. Marble designs? Chandeliers? Hell yeah I could stay here forever.

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Views from the gym. Equipments were pretty decent.

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Views from Remede Spa, and its facilities (Jacuzzi, sauna, steam room, out door jacuzzi). I was the only soul around so I had the facilities all to myself. ;)

Massage was good, albeit overpriced than usual, but service was great. They even went out of their way and gave me a small birthday present! 

                                                 

What's a rainy day without hot chocolate? :)

Absolutely loved that I could see the big sky from the couch. Wish I spent more time on it.

Did some music stuff for fun. Heh.

A perfect gift from my partner. I didn't expect that. Thank you so much. :')

The assorted cheese & crackers was definitely.. an interesting experience. Rich people food. xD 

Had the best dinner @ Harry's. The outdoor dining was perfect & romantic. And the food quality for its discounted price??? What are the odds.

Breakfast the next morning was perfectly splendid! Though some dishes were kinda bland, and the waitress forgot some of our orders. It was still a nice & cozy experience. And I was reallyyy full.

Finally got our sausages lmao.

The ambience was really pretty.

Banana fritters on the house from the chef. AKA atas goreng pisang. xD

More stills from the rooms by le partner. :)

Bubble baths are LIFE. I spent everyday soaking and splashing around hahah. 

Everyday's your birthday, right?

Yes.

Last breakfast before check-out. :( 

And of course, a little shoot before we leave.

Hehe.

Overall, that was the best birthday celebration I've ever had. Truly. And a perfect staycation.

A quiet, peaceful get-away from work & family. The Weather had been so perfect throughout too.

It was like all the stars were aligned.

I couldn't ask for anything more.

Thank you to my wonderful partner. And the kind people at St Regis for this experience.

I definitely recommend this hotel for anyone who wants to experience luxury haha. 

And I would definitelyyy come back again. 

Forever grateful. 🤍

Love, Eran.

Current Song Mood#1: The Weeknd - DAWN FM

Current Song Mood #2 - Joel Corry, RAYE, David Guetta - Bed

I got a bed, but I'd rather be in yours, yours

9:05 in the evening
I'm all up in my feelings
I'm calling your phone 'cause I can't get enough
And I got work in the morning
Early, early in the morning
But who needs sleep when we're loving it up

Oh oh why'd I gotta do this the hard way?
My body wants to be in your arms, bae, baby
Something I'll regret in the morning
But I just can't resist when you're calling

I got a bed, but I'd rather be in yours tonight
I got a bed, but I'd rather be in (Yours, yours, yours)
That's what I said when I called you on the phone tonight
I got a bed, but I'd rather be in yours

You know I sleep on the left side
If you sleep on the left side
I'll move to the right, yeah, I'd do it for you, oh oh
And I got work in the morning
Early, early in the morning
But who needs sleep when I'm rockin' with you

Oh oh why'd I gotta do this the hard way?
My body wants to be in your arms, bae, baby
Something I'll regret in the morning
But I just can't resist when you're calling

I got a bed, but I'd rather be in yours tonight
I got a bed, but I'd rather be in (Yours, yours, yours)
That's what I said when I called you on the phone tonight
I got a bed, but I'd rather be in yours

I got a bed, but I'd rather be in yours tonight
I got a bed, but I'd rather be in (Yours, yours, yours)
That's what I said when I called you on the phone tonight
I got a bed, but I'd rather be in yours

Ooh ooh
Know I need your love
Know I need your love
Yeah
Ooh ooh
Know I need your love
Know I need your love

Been way too long on the phone right now
What you saying, wanna roll right now
If you don't wanna be on your own right now
Ring my phone 'cause

I got a bed, but I'd rather be in yours tonight
But I'd rather be in (Yours, yours, yours)
Oh whoa

I got a bed, but I'd rather be in yours tonight
I got a bed, but I'd rather be in (Yours, yours, yours)
That's what I said when I called you on the phone tonight
I got a bed, but I'd rather be in yours

Been way too long on the phone right now
What you saying, wanna roll right now
If you don't wanna be on your own right now
Ring my phone 'cause

I got a bed, but I'd rather be in yours tonight
I got a bed, but I'd rather be in (Yours, yours, yours)