Horses

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Things have gotten a little less chaotic these days.

Well, not so at work. (Cant wait for it to subside, ugh)

But at least in other aspects.

My dad's been recovering since getting admitted to ICU, and is currently resting in a general ward.

He's been doing PT everyday, not relying on oxygen at the moment and just waiting for some follow up scans.

It's not completely over, but I'm thankful.

At least I can breathe a bit now. :)

Been going through some existential crisis lately as well.

I feel that I'm missing out work wise, because I'm not working in a restructured hospital.

Well, we'll see how it goes.

Next year could be a turning point.

In the meantime, I'm gonna keep my head low and just work. :>

Love, Eran.

Current Song Mood: Maggie Rogers - Horses

Watch you go
Cross the street
Like a dream
Out my window
Sucking nicotine down my throat
Thinking of you giving head

You said
You wondered 'bout the world
Well I have since I was a little girl
Watching white birds graze the hedge

Took me all this long to figure out
It's not worth it if I can't touch the ground
Can't believe I let it turn me 'round
Turn me onto you

I see horses running wild, I wish
I could feel like that for just a minute
Would you come with me or would you resist?
Oh, could you just give in?
I see horses and I know there's a way
I hear thunder, oh and I start to break
Would you come with me or would you resist?
Oh, could you just give in?

I believe in you
But the truth about dreams
Is they're a feeling that meets you in between
What you want and what you really need

Took me all this long to figure out
It's not worth it if I can't touch the ground
Can't believe I let you turn me 'round
Waiting up for you

I see horses running wild, I wish
I could feel like that for just a minute
Would you come with me or would you resist?
Oh, could you just give in?
I see horses and I know there's a way
I hear thunder, oh and I start to break
Would you come with me or would you resist?
Oh, could you just give in?

I can't wait up for you today
I'm leaving
Are you coming with me?
Can't hold me back
Can't hold me back
I'm going, I'm going, I'm going, I'm going away

I see horses running wild, I wish
I could feel like that for just a minute
Would you come with me or would you resist?
Oh, could you just give in?
I see horses and I know there's a way
I hear thunder, oh and I start to break
Would you come with me or would you resist?
Oh, could you just give in?

Oh, could you just give in?
Give in, give in, give in, give in

Borderline

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My life appears in shambles these days.

With a major crisis my family is facing.

My dad landed in ICU a week ago, and he's still there right now.

Things look pretty borderline.

I... I dont know what's going to happen.

But yet, I'm thankful.

Thankful I caught it on early.

Thankful for all the support I have from my close friends.

Thankful I about all the concerned family & relatives.

I have to be strong.

Love, Eran.

Current Song Mood: Ry X - Borderline

Fall into the night, bodies swaying
Hold onto the silence, mine is heavy
The hardest part, want you to stay
Feel you breathing, are you ready?

I, I can take you there
I can take you there
Through the dark, to the borderline
I can take you there
I can take you there
Through my heart, to the borderline

Reach for me, call my name
Leave me here in this higher plane
This higher plane

I, I can take you there
I can take you there
Through the dark, to the borderline
I can take you there
I can take you there
Through my heart, to the borderline

Borderline
Through my heart, to the borderline
Borderline
Through my heart, to the borderline

Falling Back

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Hey yooooooo.

Been missing for a while, yeah.

Last month was quite a busy period for me.

Had so much gatherings, catch ups with friends etc.

But oh well, its a whole new month.

Here's what happened last month:

------ Got myself an Iphone 13 Pro Max. Ahahah. Hopefully this would inspire me to take more shots and videos. I'm grateful to even be able to afford it.

------- My close Buddy got married and I helped out a bit for the wedding.

It's an honour to be a part of his journey and watch him be where he is :)

We've come such a long way.

It was also nice to catch up with my army mates and officers haha. It felt like nothing had changed. Truly. I wish them all the best in their endeavours.

------Watched a play by another childhood friend. It took me back to 4-5 years ago when we would go to plays and support each other. I missed that so much. Those carefree days..

Work has been taking a toll on my mental health lately.

But I'm still fighting my way through day by day.

We'll see where it goes from here...

I'm a bit lonely now, but I'll get used to it.

For now, I'm thankful for my partner, my job and a roof over my head, falling back on me. 😊

Love, Eran.

Current Song Mood: Drake - Falling Back 

Ayy, yo
Ayy, ayy
Oh

Finding myself
Showing myself
Finding a way to stay outta the way
Holding me back
Supposed to come right back
Guardin' myself while I'm all on display
I know you know all about it
I know, deep down, you feel the same
I know you know how I feel
I know you know how I feel
How do I, how do I feel? How do I feel?
How do you say to my face, "Time heals"?
Then go and leave me again, unreal
I see us fadin' away
I'm still holdin' my breath for the day that you will
See that the effort I make is too real
How can you say that you know how I feel?
Ayy, whee
How can you say you know what I'm feeling? Wait
Know what I'm feeling, wait
You don't feel nothing, wait
Nothing is healing, wait
Time is just killing, wait
How can you say? Wait
You know what I'm feeling, wait
You know what I'm feeling, wait
You don't feel nothing, wait
Time isn't healing, wait
Time is revealing, wait
How are you feeling? Wait
You don't feel nothing

Me
Me

Just like I expected, falling back on me
Falling with I, falling back on me
Falling back on me, falling back on me
Falling back on me, falling back on me
Falling back on me, falling back on me
Falling back on me, falling back on me
Falling back on me, falling back on me
Falling back on me
Falling back on me, falling back on me
Falling back on me, falling back on me
Falling back on me, falling back on me
Falling back on me, falling back on me
What would you do without me?
What would you do without me?
I think you would lose everything
Fallin' back on me

Wherever you are, you don't test