Keep Forgetting To Forget About You

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Woke up with a fever today hais. I'm always sick near my special day. Popped 2 pills and it got better when I woke up again. 

Went to West Gate & JEM with my cousin, Fanna today! She gave me my advanced birthday gift and a card hehehe. Can't wait to open it on my birthday :) Hehe. We walked around and bought drinks from Starbucks. The cashier was SO. CUTE. LOL. Awkward moments and he kept saying sorry to me x) Haha. I understand how he feels because I worked in an FnB restaurant before :) So got my drink and I totallyyyyy regretted it because it was coffee and I don't drink that na uh. ._. At least it was hot though because I was having a sore throat :(

Anyways walked around with Fanna and window shopped which was totally a bad idea because I bought another shirt AGAIN. Sooo tempting I swear I need to stop .-. Okayyy. No more shopping this month! After that we went to Sembawang (haven't been there in a while) and had dinner at KFC. Feels good to let some things out. :) Looking forward to our next meet-up <3

Love, Eran.

It's hard not to think about you. About what we used to have.

Current Song Mood: Keep Forgetting To Forget About You

Na, Na, Noo
Mmmm
Yeah, Yeah

Thinking back when we got together
And in our hearts we were saying forever
So in love, boy we were so in love, mmm
Jealousy wasn't what we wanted, we broke up
You looked into my eyes I should of spoke up
And held you near, now I'm alone
And here it comes again

Cause I remember every word that you said
It all just keeps spinning and running in my head
But it don't matter what I try to do
I keep on forgetting to forget about you
And I don't want to think about you baby so much
All the things we did and the way that we touched
Just when I think about someone new
I keep on forgetting to forget about you
Forget about you, forget about
Watch me turn around keep forgetting to forget about you
Forget about me and you

I'd be crazy to say that we were perfect
And sometimes I was wondered if it was worth it
But now I see, how good you were for me
And everytime I drive by your apartment
I get this overwhelming urge to walk in
And see your face and to be in that place all over again

Cause I remember every word that you said
It all just keeps spinning and running in my head
But it don't matter what I try to do
I keep on forgetting to forget about you
And I don't want to think about you baby so much
All the things we did and the way that we touched
Just when I think about someone new
I keep on forgetting to forget about you
Forget about you, forget about
Watch me turn around keep forgetting to forget about you
Forget about me and you

The way we laughed, the way we kissed
I never thought that I would miss
All the things I used to complain about you
The football games, the hometown friends
I was glad to see it end
But tell me why I feel so lost without you?
Ooo oh, Oooh, Yeah,
Here it comes again

Cause I remember every word that you said
It all just keeps spinning and running in my head
But it don't matter what I try to do
I keep on forgetting to forget about you
And I don't want to think about you baby so much
(I don't want to think about you baby so much)
All the things we did and the way that we touched (we touched)
Just when I think about someone new (new)
I keep on forgetting to forget about you
(I keep on forgetting to forget about you)

Cause I remember every word that you said
It all just keeps spinning and running in my head (head)
But it don't matter what I try to do
I keep on forgetting to forget about you
(I keep on forgetting to forget about you)
Forget about you, forget about
Watch me turn around keep forgetting to forget about you
Forget about me and you

Noo, Oh,
Yeah,
Forget about you

When You Let Me Go

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Went to school today but I ended up skipping ALL my classes LOL. Sucha badass eh but yeah, I was really lazy and my friends weren't going either ._. Oh wells. Met up with Mr J. at Makan Place alone because Dan just woke up and was still at home >_> RAWR. Anyways, had a nice chat with J. and we talked about lots of stuffs. He has such an stressful life juggling it with all the sh-t he faces at work. Woah. Much respect to him!

After meeting him, ended up lepaking at co-op with Ida before having a meeting with Dan. Really pumped about the camp because finally things are starting to progress! After the meeting, went to SATA @ Jurong to meet Syah and collect my blood results. Yeah that place again but whatever, didn't let it affect me this time. Luckily my blood results was alright and everything went smoothly! Poor Syah had to get another vaccination. :( The school better compensate all the money its costing us! Sheesh.

Afterwards, went to West Gate & JEM with Syah and Ecah for the first time and got myself a new outfit! It was funny because I only intended to 'try' it on but I ended up buying it HAHA. There goes my $$$ hais. Can't wait to wear it on my special day *winks* hehe. Went around the shopping mall then went to this kaya bread stall where I got my kaya balls ._. Yumz. Then we had a chat and it somehow lead them to asking about my life and I swear I love them so much. For being understanding and open-minded. Love you guys. :')

That's all for today. Shout-out to Ginette Claudette for following me on Twitter *-* This weekend is gonna be a good one. xx

Love, Eran.

When you let me go, it brought me nothing but sadness. But now that sadness has turned into a newfound purpose. A new kind of strength.

Current Song Mood: Ginette Claudette - When You Let Me Go

(Verse) 

Your carefree attitude has got me worried for myself 

I don't remember when it was but obviously I fell 

I've gotten way too comfortable now 

Don't know if I could do it without your love 

Your daily kiss 

Oh no 

(Chorus) 

Why is it always gotta be me left alone 

Tell me why I'm always the last one to know 

And if it's time again I'd rather 

You just break it to me 

Gently,Gently 

When you let me go 

Break it to me,Break it to me,Gently 

Break it to me,Break it to me,Gently 

When you let me go 

Break it to me,Break it to me,Gently 

Break it to me,Break it to me,Gently 

(Verse) 

I feel it in your movements when we're laying down asleep

The warmth I used to feel inside your touch 

So obsolete

You say "I love you" 

But in your eyes 

It's one of many other white lies 

I believed from you 

(Chorus) 

Why is it always gotta be me left alone 

(Yeah) 

Tell me why I'm always the last one to know 

And if it's time again I'd rather 

You just break it to me 

Gently,Gently 

When you let me go 

(Verse) 

Watching the sky go dark 

I've witnessed us lose our spark 

I've tried but the same old show 

Reruns,goes on and on 

Your carefree attitude has gone me worried for myself 

I can't remember when it was but obviously I fell 

In love with you 

(Chorus) 

Why is it always gotta be me left alone 

(Heyy) 

Tell me why I'm always the last one to know 

And if it's time again I'd rather 

You just break it to me 

Gently,Gently 

When you let me go 

Break it to me,Break it to me,Gently 

Break it to me,Break it to me,Gently 

When you let me go 

Break it to me,Break it to me,Gently 

Break it to me,Break it to me,Gently 

When you let me go 

Break it to me,Break it to me,Gently 

Break it to me,Break it to me,Gently 

When you let me go 

Break it to me,Break it to me,Gently 

Break it to me,Break it to me,Gently 

When you let me go 

Go 

Go 

Go 

Go

Fix A Heart

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Finally! A week of presentations and practicals is almost over. Left with tons of ASSignments though… Also really stressed up over my camp which i'm in charge of at the end of the month. Sigh please let things run smoothly… In the meantime, I'm gonna do pushups and crunches everyday hehe. Gotta start somewhere to lose these fatties. Sheesh. :)

Oh and to that fellow who stomped my friends: Get a life and do something meaningful. Spread love not hate. xx

Love, Eran. 

You know.. I tried. I tried my best. I waited. But I couldn't wait any longer so.. I stopped waiting. I ended up with wounds to bind. And now you can't fix my heart.

Current Song Mood: Demi Lovato - Fix A Heart

It's probably what's best for you

I only want the best for you

and if I'm not the best

then you're stuck

I tried to sever ties

and I ended up with wounds to bind

its like you're pouring salt in my cuts

And I just ran out of bandaids

I don't even know where to start

cause you can bandage the damage

you never really can fix a heart

Even though i know what's wrong

how could I be so sure

if you never say what you feel, feel

I must have held your hand so tight

you didn't have the will to fight

I guess you needed more time to heal

Baby I just ran out of band aids

I don't even know where to start

cause you can bandage the damage

you never really can fix a heart

ohhh ohhh...

ohhh ooooh

oooh ooooh yeah ( x2)

You must be a miracle worker

swearing up and down you can fix

what's been broken yeah

please don't get my hopes up no no

baby tell me how could you be so cruel

It's like you're pouring salt on my cuts

Baby I just ran out of band aids

I don't even know where to start

cause you can bandage the damage

you never really can fix a heart

Baby I just ran out of band aids

I don't even know where to start

cause you can bandage the damage

you never really can fix a heart

oh no no no

you never really can fix a heart

oh no no noo

you never really can fix a heart

oh hoo ohhh

oh hoo yeah ohhh ohh ho oh oh oh

You never really can fix my heart

Can't Remember To Forget You

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Happy 15th birthday to my lil bro! Sad that my family didn't buy any cake for him but well we'll make it up over the weekends. Since dad and mine's birthday are coming and are just one day apart lol. Speaking of which.. I can't believe I'm growing older soon. Sigh. It scares the shit out of me man. It's like… my youth is ticking. And I just want to make it last. Make it count. I don't know if I should look forward or not. But I'll have to face it anyway… I wanna be 18 forever. I wish haha.. I wish…

It's been a stressful week of practical, assignments and presentations. I want this week to be over soooooon. And for those that has been checking up on my blog, I appreciate it so much. :) <3

Love, Eran.

It still hurts. But it's hurting lesser and lesser each day. I can't seem to remember to forget you.

Current Song Mood: Shakira Ft Rihanna - Can't Remember To Forget You

[Shakira]
I left a note on my bedpost
Said not to repeat
Yesterday's mistakes
What I tend to do
When it comes to you
I see only the good
Selective memory
The way he makes me feel, yeah
Gotta hold on me
I've never met someone so different

Oh here we go
He a part of me now
He a part of me
So where you go I follow, follow, follow

Oh, oh, oooh, oh
Oh, oh, oooh, oh
I can't remember to forget you
Oh, oh, oooh, oh
Oh, oh, oooh, oh
I keep forgetting I should let you go
But when you look at me
The only memory is us kissing in the moonlight
Oh, oh, oooh, oh
Oh, oh, oooh, oh
I can't remember to forget you

I can't remember to forget you

[Rihanna]
I go back again
Fall off the train
Land in his bed
Repeat yesterday's mistakes
What I'm trying to say is not to forget
You see only the good, selective memory

The way he makes me feel like
The way he makes me feel
I never seemed to act so stupid
Oh here we go
He a part of me now
He a part of me
So where he goes I follow

[Chorus]
Oh, oh, oooh, oh
Oh, oh, oooh, oh
I can't remember to forget you
Oh, oh, oooh, oh
Oh, oh, oooh, oh
I keep forgetting I should let you go
But when you look at me
The only memory is us kissing in the moonlight
Oh, oh, oooh, oh
Oh, oh, oooh, oh
I can't remember to forget you

I rob and I kill to keep him with me
I do anything for that boy
I'd give my last dime to hold him tonight
I do anything for that boy

I rob and I kill to keep him with me
I do anything for that boy
I'd give my last dime to hold him tonight
I do anything for that boy

Oh, oh, oooh, oh
Oh, oh, oooh, oh
I can't remember to forget you
Oh, oh, oooh, oh
Oh, oh, oooh, oh
I keep forgetting I should let you go
But when you look at me
The only memory is us kissing in the moonlight
Oh, oh, oooh, oh
Oh, oh, oooh, oh
I can't remember to forget you

But when you look at me
The only memory is us kissing in the moonlight
Oh, oh, oooh, oh
Oh, oh, oooh, oh
I can't remember to forget you

Ain't It Fun

Page 35

Happy CNY! Today was a really special day! Went to Changi beach in the afternoon with my relatives and grandma and had a small picnic there! Missed the beach so much! Loved the wind there. But sand got into my eyes ._. FUUUU.

Then in the afternoon, I met my Australian friend, Heidi :) We met on Runescape and have been friends for almost 10 years! It was such a wonderful moment. I was so nervous stepping into the hotel lobby, looking around like a lost hen. Then I saw someone having dinner, who caught my eye and she smiled at me. So I approached her and it turned out to be Granny (Heidi's Mum). And I turned around and saw Heidi and OMG. It was really her hahaha! Gave her a biggg hugg and we sat down and chatted. She insisted on treating me to iced tea and we had such fun conversations. She even brought me some stuffs from Australia which was SOO thoughtful of her! I gave her chocolates which I bought last minute on my way there haha. We then proceeded outside where they smoked (They roll their own cigarettes!) and we took selfies!

Granny then went up to her room because she was feeling tired and I chatted with Heidi who was waiting for a friend to bring her to go for dinner. Turns out that guy broke his promise which made her pissed ._. But hey, I offered to accompany her to Mac where she treated me (again :x) to a lychee fizzy drink *-* We then sat down and chatted more :)

She told me she wouldn't mind me staying at her place in Australia if I ever were to go there! And she said that she would make her son show me around HAHAHA. And also to make sure she doesn't cook pork. So sweet x) Pretty sure I will get along well with her family. :)

It was a nice meet up. She was so genuinely nice and down-to-earth. We then went back to the front of the hotel where we hugged and parted ways. It was nice to finally meet her. I really hope that I do get to travel to Australia one day :')

Love, Eran.

Current Song Mood: Paramore - Aint It Fun

I don't mind

Letting you down easy but just give it time

If you don't hurt now but just wait, just wait a while

You're not the big fish in the pond no more

You are what they're feeding on

So what are you gonna do

When the world don't orbit around you?

So what are you gonna do

When the world don't orbit around you?

Ain't it fun?

Living in the real world

Ain't it good?

Being all alone

Where you're from,

You might be the one who's running things

Where you could ring anybody's bell and get what you want

You see its easy to ignore trouble

When you're living in your bubble

So what are you gonna do

When the world don't orbit around you?

So what are you gonna do

When nobody wants to fool with you?

Ain't it fun?

Living in the real world

Ain't it good?

Being all alone

Ain't it good to be on your own?

Ain't it fun, you can't count on no one

Ain't it good to be on your own?

Ain't it fun, you can't count on no one

Ain't it fun?

Living in the real world

Don't go crying to your mama

Cause you're on your own in the real world

Don't go crying to your mama

Cause you're on your own in the real world

Don't go crying to your mama

Cause you're on your own in the real world

Don't go crying to your mama

Cause you're on your own in the real world

Ain't it fun? Ain't it fun? Baby, now you're one of us

Ain't it fun? Ain't it fun? Ain't it fun?

Ain't it fun?

Living in the real world

Ain't it good? Ain't it good?

Being all alone

Ain't it fun?

Living in the real world (Cause the world don't orbit around you)

Ain't it good? Ain't it good?

Being all alone

Don't go crying to your mama (To your mother)

Cause you're on your own in the real world (Don't go crying)

Don't go crying to your mama (To your mama)

Cause you're on your own in the real world

Don't go crying to your mama

Cause you're on your own in the real world (This is the real world)

Don't go crying to your mama

'Cause you're on your own in the real world (This is the real world, this is the real world)

Don't go crying to your mama (Don't go crying)

'Cause you're on your own in the real world

Don't go crying to your mama

'Cause you're on your own in the real world

Don't go crying (Don't you go, don't you go crying)

Don't go crying (You're on your own)

Don't go crying (Don't go crying to your mother)

Don't go crying

What Is Love?

Page 35

I went for a blood screening yesterday with my friends at SATA. And it HAD to be at Jurong.. Just right beside JCube.. It was the nearest to my school so we had no choice. Sigh. I didn't wanna go there anymore. Or ANY part of Jurong.. The last time I went here was.. that day. Our first meet up. My first 'date'.

After our blood test, we went for lunch at Mac in JCube. As we stepped inside I couldn't help staring blankly at the spot where you once waited for me. The escalators that we went up together to catch our movie. The way you made me feel that night.. It was too painful to recall.

After lunch we went back to the bus interchange. I walked past the spot where the pasar malam once was. Where we had bought food together. The lane that we once walked through. I just.. couldn't help it. I just want to forget everything.

We never got to say goodbye. All I'm left with are these pathetic memories.

Love, Eran.

Sometimes I wish we didn't meet. Or get emotionally attached. So that I don't have to go through all this shit I'm feeling.

Current Song Mood: Lea Michele - What Is Love

Done chasing, why you chasing?

Something else

I can’t take it anymore

Done lying for the truth to…come out of your mouth

When the answers scream loud

You play the role

I play the lead

We strike a pose

I was too blind to see

This ain’t what it seems

What is love?

What is love?

When you don’t know who you’re lying next to, to you anymore

What is love?

What is love?

You don’t know what love is till you love somebody, bad enough

What is love?

What is love?

What is love?

What is love?

What is love? Love…to you

It’s madness, like an earthquake

They chase your soul

Then you’re left with all destruction

You’re frozen and you don’t change

Who’s gonna save us now?

Cause I can’t stay this way for long

You play the role

I play the lead

We strike a pose

I was too blind to see

This ain’t what it seems

What is love?

What is love?

When you don’t know who you’re lying next to, to you anymore

What is love?

What is love?

You don’t know what love is till you love somebody, bad enough

What is love?

What is love?

What is love?

What is love?

What is love? Love…to you

What is love?

What is love?

What is love?

What is love?

What is love? Love…to you

I Don't Wanna Cry

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Back from a really stressful week of school. All I want to do nowadays is sleep sleep sleeeeep. .-.

Sigh. I've been occupying myself to keep my mind off things. I miss being in love. I miss being loved. I miss smiling to myself, reading sweet texts. I miss having someone to talk to every single day. I was really happy. Nowadays I'm just.. lost. Empty. It'll take a while for me to be able to love again.

For now, I'm just gonna concentrate on my dreams. On my passion. Recording. Singing. Making my own music. Gonna take all my emotions and put it in there. Finding the time to do covers every Monday haha. #MusicMondays cheh. One day I'm gonna achieve my dreams...

Love, Eran

Sometimes I wonder if you still think about me. Guess not. Guess I was easily replaced.

Current Song Mood: JoJo Ft Josh Milan - I Don't Wanna Cry

We knew this day was coming,
That's why we were running from it
Like we could out run it
It wasn't like we had planned it
But I understand that
We got to do what we've got to do

I know it'd be painful,
But never this painful
Now I know what heartbreak feels like

And I'm glad you were in my life

But I don't wanna cry
I don't wanna cry
I don't wanna pretend
Like my feelings aren't gonna hurt
And I don't wanna lie,
And look you in the eye
And tell you somehow this is gonna work
You're going away
Here is where I stay
With the memories of what it used to be
The memories of you and me

I don't wanna cry
Wanna cry
Wanna cry
Wanna cry
I don't wanna cry

Now I'm checking a review
Eyes filling with tears
You make it so hard to move on
It's not that I want to
But boy it's impossible
To love you like I want

I don't want to risk it
'Cause I know the distance
Is just bound to drive us apart

And it already breaks my heart

'Cause I don't wanna cry
I don't wanna cry
I don't wanna pretend
Like my feelings aren't gonna hurt
And I don't wanna lie,
And look you in the eye
And tell you somehow this is gonna work
You're going away
Here is where I stay
With the memories of what it used to be
The memories of you and me

I'm not saying that I'm not in love with you
(That I'm not in love with you)
Really I'm just tryna do the right thing for you
(Do the right thing for you)

And I gotta be the strong one
Gotta call it off baby
If you want to put the blame on me
Then that's fine with me
But I don't want to cry

We knew this day was coming

That's why we were running from it

I don't wanna cry
I don't wanna cry
I don't wanna pretend
Like my feelings aren't gonna hurt

And I don't wanna lie,
And look you in the eye
And tell you somehow this is gonna work
You're going away
Here is where I stay
With the memories of what it used to be
The memories of you and me

I don't wanna cry

But I don't wanna cry
I don't wanna cry
I don't wanna pretend
Like my feelings aren't gonna hurt
And I don't wanna lie,
And look you in the eye
And tell you somehow this is gonna work
You're going away
Here is where I stay
With the memories of what it used to be
The memories of you and me

I don't wanna cry
I don't wanna cry