Happy Little Pill

Page 93

Lets start with yesterday.

Had a bad start to the day because I got shooed out of the weights area during Gym. This rude big-sized dude suddenly pointed me out to him. I noticed him staring from behind but I just ignored him.
I was taken aback and speechless because he raised his voice at me.

'Why are you here?'
*speechless*
'Why are you HERE?!
'Eh answer me la!'
Then he went on about how the area was closed off because there was an activity going on. Usually they'd only use half of the area, but I didn't know that they were gonna use the whole place. And the students there were sitting around and chatting. Oh please, they didnt even look interested.

Me being me, I didnt fight back and apologised.

'Sorry'. I turned my back and was gonna put back the weights, and he continued by saying'

'I want you out of here. Go now.'

Haha. Wow. The urge to snap back was real. But I breathed in and out, put back the weights and silently walked out. Had to jog my frustrations out lol. But whatever. With that attitude of his, he won't go very far. I mean, come on. I understand you have every right to chase me away, but in such a disrespectful and rude manner? Smfh.

Was going through some emotional shit the next few hours but I couldn't cry or express it. It was so bad.. But I forced myself to pull through.

Went to change and met up with my EXCOs at Hogs. Decided I was gonna have fun and not let things affect me.

First house was Khan's. Hahaha, borrowed his samping and I didnt know how to tie it. Ended up having his Mum to tie it for me LOL. EMBARRASSING OKAY. But she was kind enough to do it hahaha.

Next we picked up Dan & Shuq from school. All the way during the bus rides, we sang and laughed & laughed. Hahaha.

Next up was Ida's house. Her food was soo good omg. Regret not eating a lot ahaha.

Next was.. Dan's house! Omg 'Adik', his FAAT cat was soo cute and manja. He kept coming to me & sniffing me hahaha. And Dan's nephew came home around evening, and we took photos and stuff. We even took photos on his carpet HAHAHA.

Next house was Ms Suhanah's! She stayed at this awesome condo.. Woah. We were so amazed at her house. It was beautiful!!

Next house was Tomei's. Me and Syahf led the way like as if it was our own house HAHAHA. Tomei's cats were cute and fluffy as usual. :3 Haha. We surprised Shuq (belated bday celebration) before he left. :)

Next was… MY HOUSE!! Lemme tell you guys something; I have NEVER EVER brought any friends home before, so this was my first time HAHAHA. While taking the lift with them, all I was thinking was:
'My friends are in my lift. ._. This is so freaking weird!!'

HAHAHA. They came in and chilled around; my balcony and dining area. Then this Dan and Yx played around with my Mum's fake fruits. ._. HAIYO YOU ALL AH HAHAHA. Then idk who came up with the idea that my Mum's jug looked like a grenade. WTFISH HAHAHAHAH. Freaking funny. Wish they could stay longer! :')

Ps. I found out that Bern kinda bit my Mum's hand.

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WHUT. HAHAHAH.

Last house... Was at Lily's house! :') Omg I swear. I have never seen such a 'vintage' neat and clean house. EVER. ._. Srs laaaaa. Omg. Everything was awesome. Like.. you'd wish your house was at that level!! HAHA.

Took lots of pics, and her Mum was damn cute!! She kept counting wrongly HAHA:

'5..6..4. Eh!!' And then idk if she said 'wait' to Yx in Chinese or was calling his name HAHAHA. But it sure did sound like it! Ended the day by taking the cab home with Tomei. And the cab driver kept asking if she was my gf ._. Annoyinggg.

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Well today, went out with Ida, Lily and Yx to town. I was so underdressed ._. Cause it was last minute and I was from school. But whatever haha, still had fun! Bought 2 shirts for myself, ate nasi ayam penyet, & me and Lily managed to have an interesting conversation *winkwinkz* Hehe.

Oh ya. There's my 'Lava Boy' Drink and Yx's Lava Girl' drink. HAHA!

Well till next timeee! :)

Love, Eran.

I need to get my shit together.

Current Song Mood: Troye Sivan - Happy Little Pill

In the crowd alone

And every second passing

Reminds me I'm not home

Bright lights and city sounds are ringing like a drone

Unknown, unknown

Oh, glazed eyes

Empty hearts

Buyin happy from shopping cards

Nothing but time to kill

Sipping life from bottles

Tight skin, bodyguards

Gucci down on boulevards

Cocaine, dollar bills and

My happy little pill

Take me away

Dry my eyes

Bring colour to my skies

My sweet little pill

Take my hunger

But within

Numb my skin

Like a rock

I flow

Sweat and conversations

Seep into my bone

Four walls are not enough

I'll take a dip into

The unknown, unknown

Oh, glazed eyes

Empty hearts

Buyin happy from shopping cards

Nothing but time to kill

Sipping life from bottles

Tight skin, bodyguards

Gucci down on boulevards

Cocaine, dollar bills and

My happy little pill

Take me away

Dry my eyes

Bring colour to my skies

My sweet little pill

Take my hunger

But within

Numb my skin

Bright lights

Br-br-br-bright lights

Bright lights

Bright lights

Bright lights

Bright lights

Bright lights

Br-br-br-bright lights

Glazed eyes

Empty hearts

Buyin happy from shopping cards

Nothing but time to kill

Sipping life from bottles

Tight skin, bodyguards

Gucci down on boulevards

Cocaine, dollar bills and

My happy little pill

Take me away

Dry my eyes

Bring colour to my skies

My sweet little pill

Take my hunger

But within

Numb my skin

A Year Without Rain

Page 92

Le sigh.

Maybe I overthink too much. Haha. I.. tend to do that. I'm too emotional sometimes. But your actions confuse me. And confused me is confused. Feel me?

Gah just being emotional again. Get yourself together Syah! Haha. I guess just miss you..

Love, Eran.

But idk.. you seem just fine without me. This song's for you.

Current Song Mood: Selena Gomez & The Scene - A Year Without Rain

Ooh ooh ooh

Ooh ooh ooh

Can you feel me

When I think about you?

With every breath I take

Every minute

No matter what I do

My world is an empty place

Like I've been wandering the desert

For a thousand days (oh)

Don't know if it's a mirage

But I always see your face, baby

[Chorus:]

I'm missing you so much

Can't help it, I'm in love

A day without you is like a year without rain

I need you by my side

Don't know how I'll survive

A day without you is like a year without rain (oh, whoa)

Whoa, oh, whoa

The stars are burning

I hear your voice in my mind (voice in my mind)

Can't you hear me calling?

My heart is yearning

Like the ocean that's running dry

Catch me, I'm falling

It's like the ground is crumbling underneath my feet

Won't you save me?

There's gonna be a monsoon when you get back to me, oh, baby

[Chorus]

I'm missing you so much

Can't help it, I'm in love

A day without you is like a year without rain

I need you by my side

Don't know how I'll survive

A day without you is like a year without rain (oh, whoa)

Whoa, oh, whoa

[Chorus]

So let this drought come to an end

And make this desert flower again

I need you here

I can't explain

But a day without you

Is like a year without rain

(oooh)

It's a world of wonder with you in my life

So hurry, baby, don't waste no more time

I need you here, I can't explain

But a day without you is like a year without rain (oh, whoa)

[Chorus]

Ooh ooh ooh

Ooh ooh ooh

Burn The Pages

Page 91

Today went by fast cause there was no lab classes. So I get to go back at 12. Decided to go to Geylang for a while to get some shoes - particularly for Raya. Haha. Usually I wouldn't care much and just wear slippers. LOL. I know I know. But I'm just plain lazy. However I decided that I wanted to look more appropriate for my outings this year =) This Thursday is my Raya outing with the EXCOs & I'm absolutely EXCITED!! =) Love them. Cant waaaaait. :*

Today I met up with some new people! It's always nice to make new friends. But there's a sudden realisation that made me glad & appreciate the people I'm surrounded with today. Your friends shape you into who you are sometimes. Every action you take, you have to think it through. No need for unnecessary drama. Just steer away from all that shit and live life the way it should be. Live it YOUR way. =)

Love, Eran.

Leave the past behind.

Current Song Mood: Sia - Burn The Pages

Take me down 
You’re dark grey like a storm cloud
Swelling up with rain that is desperate to be let out
And I know it’s a heavy load carrying those tears around
Carrying those fears around, worry makes the world go round

You’re twisted up like a slipknot
Tied by a juicehead who just took his t shot, and I know
There’s a hungry dog tugging at your frayed ends
But he’s just playing with you, he just wants to be your friend

So don’t worry, don’t worry I’m here by your side
By your side, by your side
We’re letting go tonight!

Yesterday is gone and you will be OK
Place your past in to a book, burn the pages
Let ‘em cook oh
Yesterday is dead and gone and so today
Place your past in to a book, burn the pages
Let em cook

Eyes stinging from the black smoke, new hope
Loose rope, risen from the undertow
All is well
We welcome the cry, of the dark night sky 
Swallow me peacefully, follow my heart back inside

So don’t worry, don’t worry I’m here by your side
By your side, by your side
We’re letting go tonight!

Yesterday is gone and you will be OK
Place your past in to a book, burn the pages
Let ‘em cook oh
Yesterday is dead and gone and so today
Place your past in to a book, burn the pages
Let em cook

Hold Me Touch Me Love Me

Page 90

Sooo today went by really well. Was really nervous about my practical test. Because if I failed this, it means that I would have had to go for a retest. And if I failed that too, it means I can't go for attachment, which would be such, such a waste. In addition to that, my mentor promised to treat us to ZamZam if we all passed WOOHOO. The pressure was reaaaal. 

Prayed really hard to get ETT (one of the skills) and hey, I got it! My assessor was one of my past lecturers named Ms E. She was pretty lenient I guess because she passed me. But I felt that she could have given me more attention and like.. not look at her phone all the time or give me her damn bored face. ._. In face I was almost certain that I couldn't make it. Cause she went out of the room when I didnt even finish yet, to call the next student. Like.. wtf LOL. 

In my mind I was like:

'Mampos.'

'Die.'

'Kena re-test liao. '

'Byebye Zamzam.' 

Hahaha. But somehow I managed to pass. Woohoo! Was so happy I decided to eat a lot today. ._.

Went to PizzaHut at Lot 1 with my babes and had a nice fattening dinner. Then we went to play Arcade!! There was this horror game that was 3D that me & Ida tried out. And it was so damn fun omg. It was realistic cause there would be gusts of wind, and the sound effect was pretty awesome. Haha. Then played this dancing game (which I really sucked at) but I managed to beat Cougar. HEHEHE.

Oh oh, me & Cougar also played this Silent Hill shooting game. AND. WE. WERE. SO. AWESOME. HAHAHA. We went on and on and defeated like 2 bosses. Played till we were so tired HAHA. Too good already. Hehehe. I swear were a perfect team!! Soo playing it again next time =)

Well that sums up today. Pretty much relaxed now that prac's over. =) Till next time!

Love, Eran

I don't know how to read you. Lol. You're so hard to comprehend sometimes. You're.. so weird. But I'm somehow so into you. :>

I want you to love me.

Current Song Mood: Ginette Claudette - Hold Me Touch Me Love Me

I've been waiting so long
Baby come and feed my soul 
No told no, no 
The only thing you need to know 
Boy I wait you, you 

Show me this is where I belong 
With you, right here with you 
Let me be the one that you'll love 
Give to me you strong , give to me baby never get me hide , wissper to me ear 
Tell me I'm the one ..
I want you to hold me, I want you to hold me 
I want you to touch me and never let me go 
I want you tonight and ever after and none of the ...
I want you to touch me, love me and never let me go 
The time is right now 
Don't you let to ..
Baby I'm down for you 
You got me hanging with the words you said 
What you gonna do, do ?
Show me you're the man that you are 
I falow you, if you wanna take it that far
Give to you..., give it to me back, never get that high
Left me with that
Wisspering in my ear , pushing up my skin 
Tell me I'm the one , will let you win 
I want you to hold me, I want you to hold me 
I want you to touch me and never let me go 
I want you tonight and ever after and none of the ...
I want you to touch me, love me and never let me go 
Uuuh 
Feeling that the time it's so right 
Tell me that you only been mine 
I want you to hold me, I want you to hold me 
I want you to touch me and never let me go 
I want you tonight and ever after and none of the ...
I want you to touch me, love me and never let me go 
I want you to hold me, I want you to hold me