When You're Gone

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Days are getting tougher, with more intense weeks to come.

I wonder how I'll be able to cope.

One week from now..

I'll be in a foreign environment. Tired. Dirty. Probably mentally drained then.

I wont have anyone to depend on.. basically just the people around me.

And especially specially, my Buddy.

This post goes out to you bud.

`Begin with the end in mind.'

We're gonna go through this together. 

Just like we're going through our personal yet similar struggles each day.

Moving on is hard, but holding on is even harder.

This song is dedicated to you.

xx

Love, Eran.

Pieces of my heart are still somehow missing you.

Current Song Mood: Avril Lavigne - When You're Gone

I always needed time on my own
I never thought I'd need you there when I cry
And the days feel like years when I'm alone
And the bed where you lie
Is made up on your side

[Pre-chorus:]
When you walk away I count the steps that you take
Do you see how much I need you right now?

[Chorus:]
When you're gone
The pieces of my heart are missing you
When you're gone
The face I came to know is missing too
When you're gone
The words I need to hear to always get me through the day
And make it OK
I miss you

I've never felt this way before
Everything that I do reminds me of you
And the clothes you left, they lie on the floor
And they smell just like you,
I love the things that you do

[Pre-chorus]
[Chorus]

We were made for each other
Out here forever
I know we were, yeah, yeah
All I ever wanted was for you to know
Everything I do, I give my heart and soul
I can hardly breathe, I need to feel you here with me, yeah

[Chorus:]
When you're gone
The pieces of my heart are missing you
When you're gone
The face I came to know is missing too
When you're gone
The words I need to hear will always get me through the day
And make it OK
I miss you

Hollow

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I guess I have to accept that things won't always go the way you plan it to.

I'm used to it by now.

Yep, very much.

I gotta lower down expectations.. it's better to.

I'm getting used to single life.

Spending the weekends alone is the norm now.

Yet, the disappointment can't be avoided.

I was really looking forward this week.

But I guess I have to wait for the next.

I need to be wrapped in someone's love.

Hold me.

Fill up my empty cup.

Cause right now, I'm just hollow.

Love, Eran.

Cause I'm fragile.

Current Song Mood: Tori Kelly - Hollow 

I don't wanna be the last man standing
I don't wanna be the lonely one
Picking petals when the party's over
No, it's not any fun

Cause I'm fragile
And you know this

So hold me
Wrap me in love, fill up my cup
Empty and only your love can fill up my cup
Cause I'm hollow
Yeah, I'm hollow, oh oh oh
Cause I'm hollow
Yeah, I'm hollow, oh oh oh

I don't wanna be the first one folding
I don't wanna be the joker heart
Tell me, darling, will you understand me?
And not show me your cards?

Cause I'm paper-thin
And you, you make me whole again

So hold me
Wrap me in love, fill up my cup
Empty and only your love can fill up my cup
Cause I'm hollow
Yeah, I'm hollow, oh oh oh
Cause I'm hollow
Yeah, I'm hollow, oh oh oh

I confess (yeah), my weakness
Til you pick up the parts that are broken
Pour out your perfection on me now

And hold me
Wrap me in love, fill up my cup
Empty, cause only your love can fill up my cup
So hold me
Wrap me in love, fill up my cup
Empty and only your love can fill up my cup
Cause I'm hollow
Yeah, I'm hollow, oh oh oh
Cause I'm hollow
Yeah, I'm hollow, oh oh oh
Cause I'm hollow (yeah)
Yeah, I'm hollow, oh oh oh (oh yeah)
Cause I'm hollow (I'm hollow)
Yeah, I'm hollow, oh oh oh

Talk Me Down

Page 413

Feeling a certain way tonight..

Guess some flashbacks were triggered for no reason.

I've learnt to embrace it.

I guess it's the music I'm listening to?

The unexpected turn of events.

Or the fact that I've fallen sick..

I need someone to talk me down.

Sigh.

All I want right now is to be by your side.

I wanna be close to you.

...

Love, Eran.

I wanna see you again.

Current Song Mood: Troye Sivan - Talk Me Down

I wanna sleep next to you
But that's all I wanna do right now
And I wanna come home to you
But home is just a room full of my safest sounds
Cause you know that I can't trust myself with my 3AM shadow
I'd rather fuel a fantasy than deal with this alone

I wanna sleep next to you
But that's all I wanna do right now
So come over now and talk me down

I wanna hold hands with you
But that's all I wanna do right now
And I wanna get close to you
Cause your hands and lips still know their way around
And I know I like to draw at night; it starts to get surreal
But the less time that I spend with you, the less you need to heal

I wanna sleep next to you
But that's all I wanna do right now
So come over now and talk me down
(Talk me down)

So if you don't mind, I'll walk that line
Stuck on the bridge between us
Gray areas and expectations
But I'm not one if we're honest, yeah
But I wanna sleep next to you
And I wanna come home to you
I wanna hold hands with you
I wanna be close to you

But I wanna sleep next to you
And that's all I wanna do right now
And I wanna come home to you
But home is just a room full of my safest sounds
So come over now and talk me down
(Talk me down)

Hello

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This felt like one of the longest week I've had.

Been so tired, and I can barely stay awake as I type this.

My days are filled with sweat, heat & sleepiness.

Gah.. Adele just released her first single called 'Hello.'

It's a good ballad, a little draggy, but still good. 

And it made me recall how my ex used to love her music.

Probably listening to it as well I suppose.

Meh.

Why should I even care. 

I'm on the other side now.

I've given my all.

I've said sorry even when I know I didn't have to.

I've lowered myself many times.

Putting the other first always.

I've done what I could.

I've tried my best.

And what do I get? 

Not even a hello.

Nothing.

Love, Eran

Welcome back bitch.

Current Song Mood: Adele - Hello

Hello, it's me
I was wondering if after all these years
You'd like to meet, to go over everything
They say that time's supposed to heal ya
But I ain't done much healing

Hello, can you hear me?
I'm in California dreaming about who we used to be
When we were younger and free
I've forgotten how it felt before the world fell at our feet

There's such a difference between us
And a million miles

Hello from the other side
I must've called a thousand times to tell you
I'm sorry, for everything that I've done
But when I call you never seem to be home

Hello from the outside
At least I can say that I've tried to tell you
I'm sorry, for breaking your heart
But it don't matter, it clearly doesn't tear you apart anymore

Hello, how are you?
It's so typical of me to talk about myself
I'm sorry, I hope that you're well
Did you ever make it out of that town
Where nothing ever happened?

It's no secret
That the both of us are running out of time

Hello from the other side
I must've called a thousand times to tell you
I'm sorry, for everything that I've done
But when I call you never seem to be home

Hello from the outside
At least I can say that I've tried to tell you
I'm sorry, for breaking your heart
But it don't matter, it clearly doesn't tear you apart anymore

Ooooohh, anymore
Ooooohh, anymore
Ooooohh, anymore
Anymore

Hello from the other side
I must've called a thousand times to tell you
I'm sorry, for everything that I've done
But when I call you never seem to be home

Hello from the outside
At least I can say that I've tried to tell you
I'm sorry, for breaking your heart
But it don't matter, it clearly doesn't tear you apart anymore

Damage Control

Page 411

Running out of ideas. Haha. Guess I'll just go on about my day.

Time seems to be passing slowly each day.

Managed to conquer some obstacles the past few days.

Basically dealing with my fear of heights...

The thought of falling off and breaking something..

Haha. Let's not go there.

#shortboyproblems

Well I figured out the technique today.

'Just go. Breathe, dont think, and just do it.'

And it worked.

Guess I need to start doing that more often.

Workouts are getting more intense each day.

Impressed that my body can handle more than I thought it could. Heh.

I'm gonna turn in early tonight.

& do some damage control.

Goodnight loves. 

xx

Love, Eran.

I'm finally seeing clear.

Current Song Mood: Katharine Mcphee - Damage Control

For once, I’m finally seeing clear
I left my baggage at the station
My hands are empty but I’m here, here
And all I have’s this realization

That all the time I’ve wasted
Thinking that I could replace this
Is just the long way to what I already knew

The things I’ve done, you made it clear
That my mistakes won’t disappear
I’ll make things right from now on, oh
Yeah, I know, I know
I’m on damage control
Damage control

I won’t blur between the lines
What I say is what I mean now
And I got words if you got time
And I just hope that you will see now

That all the time I’ve wasted
Thinking that I could replace this
Is just the long way to what I already knew

The things I’ve done, you made it clear
That my mistakes won’t disappear
I’ll make things right from now on, oh
Yeah, I know, I know
I’m on damage control
Damage control

I can’t erase all the shame that I placed on myself
That I can’t take it away
But I know things will change
So I’ll wait for the day that you’ll give me your faith one more time

Woah, oh

The things I’ve done, you made it clear
That my mistakes won’t disappear
I’ll make things right from now on, oh
Yeah, I know, I know
I’m on damage control
Damage control

Damage control
Damage control

Where Are U Now

Page 410

Well guess i'm gonna do a quick one today.

Been a pretty busy/tiring day. 

Gah. And time seems to be moving slower than usual today.

Maybe I'm just really looking forward to the weekends..

I hope it will be a smooth week.

Sometimes my mind cant help but wonder...

What are you doing?

Who are you with? 

Where Are U Now?

Love, Eran.

Where...

Current Song Mood: Skrillex And Diplo Ft Justin Bieber - Where Are U Now

I need you (the) I need you
I need you (the) I need you
I need you, you, you, you, you, you
I need you (the) I need you
I need you (the) I need you
I need you, you, you, you, you, you
You, you, you
I need you the most

I gave you the key when the door wasn't open, just admit it

Now I’m all alone and my joys to moping
Tell me, where are you now that I need you?
Where are you now?
Where are you now that I need you?
Couldn't find you anywhere
When you broke down I didn't leave you
I was by your side
So where are you now that I need you?
Where are you now that I need you?

Where are you now that I need you?
Where are you now that I need you?
Where are you now that I need you?

I gave you attention when nobody else was paying
I gave you the shirt off my back, what you saying?
To keep you warm
I showed you the game everybody else was playing, that's for sure
And I was on my knees when nobody else was praying, oh Lord

Where are you now that I need you?
Where are you now that I need you?

I need you (the) I need you
I need you (the) I need you
I need you, you, you, you, you, you
Where are you now that I need you?
I need you (the) I need you
I need you (the) I need you
I need you, you, you, you, you, you
I need you the most

Where are you now that I need you?
Where are you now that I need you?
Where are you now that I need you?
I need you the most (I need you the most, I need you the most)

She Wolf

Page 409

It's been a fairly good day.

Had a lot of things to laugh about.

I'm more happier these days.

And I cant help but rethink about moments. The past weekend. The past..

Did my 180 seconds self-intro today hahaha at last!

Nervous but got to express myself by singing hahaha. Hope my sore throat didnt eff it up.

I'm sure there a couple of new readers right now. Eh you all very kepo ahh. 

HAHAHA. Hello and welcome.

Whatever happens in this blog, stays here okay!!

;)

Love, Eran.

You're my she wolf.

Current Song Mood: David Guetta Ft Sia - She Wolf

A shot in the dark
A past lost in space
Where do I start?
The past and the chase
You hunted me down
Like a wolf, a predator
I felt like a deer in love lights

You loved me and I froze in time
Hungry for that flesh of mine
But I can't compete with the she-wolf, who has brought me to my knees
What do you see in those yellow eyes?
'Cause I'm falling to pieces

I'm falling to pieces
I'm falling to pieces
I'm falling to pieces
Falling to pieces

[beat break]

Did she lie in wait?
Was I bait to pull you in?
The thrill of the kill
You feel is a sin
I lay with the wolves
Alone, it seems,
I thought I was part of you

You loved me and I froze in time
Hungry for that flesh of mine
But I can't compete with the she-wolf, who has brought me to my knees
What do you see in those yellow eyes?
'Cause I'm falling to pieces

I'm falling to pieces
I'm falling to pieces
I'm falling to pieces
Falling to pieces

[beat break]

I'm falling to pieces
Falling to pieces
I'm falling to pieces
Falling to pieces