Too Good

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It's been so long..

I observed the same view I was observing a couple months ago.

The sea.

 The island where it all started.

The life-changing event.

I alighted the boat, the sea breeze blowing in my face.

I smiled. As I walked on the wooden platform. Pass the green sea. Everything was different, but familiar. I missed this feeling. Nostalgic.

We set up at the stadium. And I sat down with my homies. It felt so damn weird. That we were treated so differently. Treated fairly. Than the last time I was here. We were free to do as we please. And I still wasnt used to it. It was too good to be true.

Nightfall came. We started our march. 4 click each. 4 rounds. And we were done.

I never thought I'd get to march alongside my Buddy ever again.

How fated was this?

To get posted to this unit.

To get to be there for him.

We talked about the old times.

All those good times.

We came back at 4 am, while the rest continued.

And settled back at the stadium.

I couldnt sleep well, barely did at all.

And when I woke up, almost everyone was gone.

The wait was torturous but everyone managed to get back in one peace by afternoon.

We left soon after, and it made me reminisce the book-out feels.

Good times, Good times.

Love, Eran.

Sometime I think I'm too good for you.

Current Song Mood: Drake Ft Rihanna - Too Good

[Drake:]
I don't know how to talk to you
I don't know how to ask you if you're okay
My friends always feel the need to tell me things
Seems like they're just happier than us these days
Yeah, these days I don't know how to talk to you
I don't know how to be there when you need me
It feels like the only time you see me
Is when you turn your head to the side and look at me differently

Yeah, and last night I think I lost my patience
Last night I got high as the expectations
Last night, I came to a realization
And I hope you can take it
I hope you can take it

I'm too good to you
I'm way too good to you
You take my love for granted
I just don't understand it
No, I'm too good to you
I'm way too good to you
You take my love for granted
I just don't understand it

[Rihanna:]
I don't know how to talk to you
I just know I found myself getting lost with you
Lately you just make me work too hard for you
Got me on flights overseas, and I still can't get across to you

And last night I think I lost my patience
Last night I got high as the expectations
Last night, I came to a realization
And I hope you can take it
I hope you can take it

[Drake & Rihanna:]
I'm too good to you
I'm way too good to you
You take my love for granted
I just don't understand it
No, I'm too good to you
I'm way too good to you
You take my love for granted
I just don't understand it

[Drake:]
Years go by too fast
I can't keep track
How long did we last?
I feel bad for asking
It can't end like this
We gotta take time with this
Cock up yuh bumper, sit down pon it
Let me see if this is something I can fix
You got somebody other than me
Don't play the victim when you're with me
Free time is costing me more than it seems
Sacrificing things
And I wanna tell you my intentions
I wanna do the things that I mention
I wanna benefit from the friendship
I wanna get the late night message from you, from you
I put my hands around you
Gotta get a handle on you
Gotta get a handle on the fact that...

[Drake & Rihanna:]
I'm too good to you
I'm way too good to you
You take my love for granted
I just don't understand it
No, I'm too good to you
I'm way too good to you
You take my love for granted
I just don't understand it

[Popcaan:]
Gyal a you mi waan
Pay fi yuh visa meck yo fly out regular
Baby, cock up yuh bumper, sit down pon it
Gyal yo pum pum good and yuh fit
Mi wi give you everything weh deh in my wallet
And in my pocket
Cock up yuh bumper, sit down pon it
Gyal yo pum pum good and yuh fit
Mi wi give you everything weh deh in my wallet
And in my pocket

Castle

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Been filled with so much angst lately.

Like a soldier prepared for war.

Prepared for the worst.

Fighting... the world.

Sorry Ma.

I'm heading straight for the castle.

And nothing's gonna stand in my way.

Love, Eran.

I don't know how long I can continue.

Current Song Mood: Halsey - Castle

Sick of all these people talking, sick of all this noise
Tired of all these cameras flashing, sick of being poised
Now my neck is open wide, begging for a fist around it
Already choking on my pride, so there's no use crying about it

(Agnus Dei, Agnus Dei, Agnus Dei, Agnus Dei)

I'm headed straight for the castle
They wanna make me their queen
And there's an old man sitting on the throne that's saying that I probably shouldn't be so mean
I'm headed straight for the castle
They've got the kingdom locked up
And there's an old man sitting on the throne that's saying I should probably keep my pretty mouth shut

Straight for the castle

Oh, all of these minutes passing, sick of feeling used
If you wanna break these walls down, you're gonna get bruised
Now my neck is open wide, begging for a fist around it
Already choking on my pride, so there's no use crying about it

(Agnus Dei, Agnus Dei, Agnus Dei, Agnus Dei)

I'm headed straight for the castle
They wanna make me their queen
And there's an old man sitting on the throne that's saying that I probably shouldn't be so mean
I'm headed straight for the castle
They've got the kingdom locked up
And there's an old man sitting on the throne that's saying I should probably keep my pretty mouth shut

Straight for the castle

There's no use crying about it [4x]

I'm headed straight for the castle
They wanna make me their queen
And there's an old man sitting on the throne that's saying that I probably shouldn't be so mean
I'm headed straight for the castle
They've got the kingdom locked up
And there's an old man sitting on the throne that's saying I should probably keep my pretty mouth shut

Straight for the castle
They wanna make me their queen
And there's an old man sitting on the throne that's saying that I probably shouldn't be so mean
I'm headed straight for the castle
They've got the kingdom locked up
And there's an old man sitting on the throne that's saying I should probably keep my pretty mouth shut

Straight for the castle

Like I Would

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My past is catching up to me.

The next week or so will be particularly hard for me.

Have you ever looked back at the past year, and wondered what you were up to on this day?

Well thankful to Facebook for  helping me re-live those moments.

-insert sarcasm-

Don't know if I can do this.

Don't know if I'm strong enough.

But I will.

I will get through this phase.

No one would love you like I would.

Love, Eran.

Hey.. it's been a while.

I know you feel guilty.

But I really don't feel anything anymore.

Current Song Mood: ZAYN - Like I Would

Hey what's up, it's been a while
Talking 'bout it's not my style
Thought I'd see what's up
While I'm lighting up
It's cold-hearted, cold-hearted

Know it's late but I'm so wired
Saw your face and got inspired
Guess you let it go, now you're good to go
It's cold-hearted, cold-hearted

Oh, oh
It's probably gonna sound wrong
Promise it won't last long
Oh, oh
If we can never go back
Thought you'd like to know that

He won't touch you like I do
He won't love you like I would
He don't know your body
He don't do you right
He won't love you like I would
Love you like I would

It's okay to want me, 'cause I want you
Been thinkin' it over, but I'm through
So stop wasting all my time, messing with my mind
It's cold-hearted, cold-hearted

Oh, oh
It's probably gonna sound wrong
Promise it won't last long
Oh, oh
If we can never go back
Thought you'd like to know that

[2x]
He won't touch you like I do
He won't love you like I would
He don't know your body
He don't do you right
He won't love you like I would
Love you like I would, like I would

He can't love you like I would
He can't love you like I could
He don't know your body
He don't know your body

He, won't touch you like I do
He, won't love you like I would
He don't know your body
He don't do you right
He won't love you like I would
Love you like I would
Like I would

He can't touch you like I would
Won't touch you like I do
He can't love you like I could
Won't love you like I would
He don't know your body
He don't do you right
He won't love you like I would
Love you like I would
Like I would

I Wont Break

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Not myself today.

I guess some people can see it.

Days have been shittier than this.

It's fine.

I know I can get back on my feet.

I won't break.

Glad to be back though. 

Missed everyone.

And there were some who missed me too :')

Had enough of breaks tbh.

Good to keep myself busy and occupy my time.

Doing more meaningful stuff than...

Well.

That.

Love, Eran.

Already wasted my time.

I didn't need you anyway

Current Song Mood: Cheryl - I Wont Break

You take your time while you are driving
While the words are speeding circles in your head
And daylight breaks on the horizon
But you won't turn to face the shadows that you left

So be a man about it
See, a woman can be tough

[Chorus:]
I won't break
So say what you gotta say
And I won't fall
I didn't need you anyway
And you won't try
And you won't fight
Already wasted all my time
No, I won't break
So say what you gotta say

Sunset, the sky is full of colors
As the clouds break into couples and escape
I got your message there in black and white
But the truth is in the words you haven't said

Ooh-oh-ooh, don't sugar-coat it
You see, a woman can be tough

[Chorus:]
I won't break
So say what you gotta say
And I won't fall
I didn't need you anyway
And you won't try
And you won't fight
Already wasted all my time
No, I won't break
So say what you gotta say

Say it, say it
Say it, say what you gotta say
Say it, say it
Say it, say it

Let's cut out all the small talk
Tell me what I already know
Don't you dare think I'm not strong enough
You're gonna have to let me go
(Say it, say it, say it, say it)
(Say it, say it, say it, say it)

[Chorus:]
I won't break
So say what you gotta say
And I won't fall
I didn't need you anyway
And you won't try
And you won't fight
Already wasted all my time
No, I won't break
So say what you gotta say

Say it, say it
Say it, say what you gotta say
Say it, just say it
Say it, say what you gotta say

One Dance

Page 536

Guess the feelings got the best of me today.

Again, falling for the same things.

Again, going through the same shit.

Walked home empty today.

But I was used to it.

I need to get my mind of things.

It's like the higher power is taking a hold on me.

Mocking me.

Ridiculing me.

Telling me I can do better.

Maybe I can.

I just need a one dance.

Love, Eran.

I like your style.

Current Song Mood: Drake - One Dance

[Intro - Kyla & Wizkid:]
Baby, I like your style

[Verse 1 - Drake:]
Grips on your waist
Front way, back way
You know that I don't play
Streets not safe
But I never run away
Even when I'm away
Oti, oti, there's never much love when we go, oti
I pray to make it back in one piece
I pray, I pray

[Hook - Drake:]
That's why I need a one dance
Got a Hennessy in my hand
One more time 'fore I go
Higher powers taking a hold on me
I need a one dance
Got a Hennessy in my hand
One more time 'fore I go
Higher powers taking a hold on me

[Bridge - Kyla & Wizkid:]
Baby, I like your style

[Verse 2 - Drake:]
Strength and guidance
All that I'm wishing for my friends
Nobody makes it from my ends
I had to bust up the silence
You know you gotta stick by me
Soon as you see the text, reply me
I don't wanna spend time fighting
We've got no time

[Hook - Drake:]
And that's why I need a one dance
Got a Hennessy in my hand
One more time 'fore I go
Higher powers taking a hold on me
I need a one dance
Got a Hennessy in my hand
One more time 'fore I go
Higher powers taking a hold on me

[Break - Wizkid:]
Got a pretty girl and she love me long time
Wine it, wine it, very long time
Oh, yeah, she steady on grindin'
Back up, back up, back up and wine it
Back up, back up and wine it
Back up, back up, back up and wine it
Oh, yeah, she steady on grindin'
Back up, back up and wine it, girl

[Bridge - Kyla & Wizkid:]
Tell me now, I need to know, where do you wanna go?
'Cause if you're down, I'll take it slow
Make you lose control
Where, where, where
Where, where, where, where
Oh, yeah, she steady on grindin'
Where, where, where
Back up, back up and wine it, girl
Where, where, where, where
'Cause if you're down
Back up, back up and
'Cause if you're down
Back up, back up and
'Cause if you're down
Back up, back up and

[Hook - Drake:]
I need a one dance
Got a Hennessy in my hand
One more time 'fore I go
Higher powers taking a hold on me
I need a one dance
Got a Hennessy in my hand
One more time 'fore I go
Higher powers taking a hold on me

Impossible

Page 535

Revelations after revelations.

Makes me feel good that I'm not alone.

Though, I don't know if that's a good thing.

I don't know if I want anyone I know to be going through what I've went through.

To be hurt repeatedly, over & over again.

That's not the life I want anyone to live.

It's not... ideal.

God knows best I guess.

We're all fighting our own battles.

Let's keep fighting.

Keep living.

Nothing is impossible.

Love, Eran.

Another day, I'm living the impossible.

Current Song Mood: Lacey Sturm - Impossible

I can't fly
But I, I keep finding myself soaring high above this
I have nothing left but I keep on pouring
Out like I am endless
Impossible, (whoa) Impossible!

I don't run too fast but I'm looking back
And miles and miles have passed
I can barely breathe but I'm
Singing out like this is nothing to me
Impossible, whoa! Impossible!

Every morning I see another miracle
I can't believe, I'm living the impossible
We are the sign and we are the wonder
Another day of living the impossible
Impossible, (whoa) Impossible!

I choose to be alive
Especially because the odds say I should die
I wrestle death again I know more of
His moves now and I won't give in
Impossible, whoa! Impossible!

Every morning I see another miracle
I can't believe, I'm living the impossible
We are the sign and we are the wonder
Another day of living the impossible

Every morning I see another miracle
I can't believe, I'm living the impossible
We are the sign and we are the wonder
Another day of living the impossible

When I'm weak I wonder if I'm gonna be alright
But too many times I've seen this all come to life
If I make myself stop and remember

Every morning I see another miracle
I can't believe, I'm living the impossible
We are the sign and we are the wonder
Another day of living the impossible

Every morning I see another miracle
I can't believe, I'm living the impossible
We are the sign and we are the wonder
Another day of living the impossible

I'm living the impossible
We are the sign and we are the wonder
I'm living the impossible
Impossible! Whoa!

Jinx

Page 534

It's May already.

Woah...

Time's flying so fast.

And me.. I'm flying off this month.

Losing hope.

All these messages.

But no one that sticks.

It's tiring.

All these fake people.

All these false hope.

I'm watching my words.

I dont wanna jinx it.

Please let it be a good month.

Please let me find someone.. worthy.

Love, Eran.

Current Song: DNCE - Jinx

Feels like I'm in a cartoon
Lovestruck, shot with a harpoon
Flying high as a balloon
And I ain't coming down
Got no, no chill around you
But I'm trying, trying to play cool
Don't want to rush it on too soon
I'm keeping you around

Superstitiously, I'm watching my words
All of my words
Now
Like a birthday wish
Don't say it out loud
Never out loud

Yeah I want to tell everyone
That you are, you are my only one
Screaming at the top of my lungs
But I'm whispering, I'm whispering, I'm whispering
Cause I don't wanna jinx it

Blue birds fly over my head
Wet dreams swimmin' 'round my bed
Eyes closed, 11:11
Hoping you will stay
Fingers cross when I kiss you
Knocking wood when I miss you
Acting like a teenage fool when you are with me

Superstitiously, I'm watching my words
All of my words
Now
Like a birthday wish
Don't say it out loud
Never out loud

Yeah I want to tell everyone
That you are, you are my only one
Screaming at the top of my lungs
But I'm whispering, I'm whispering, I'm whispering
Cause I don't wanna jinx it

I don't wanna jinx it

Superstitiously
Like a birthday dream
Don't say it out loud [x2]

Yeah I want to tell everyone
That you are, you are my only one
Screaming at the top of my lungs
But I'm whispering, I'm whispering, I'm whispering
Cause I don't wanna jinx it

I don't wanna jinx it [x2]