Make Me

Page 594

Good day out with friends over the borders.

Watched Suicide Squad, window shopped and ate a lot of good food.

And coincidentally bumped into Dan and Shuqri as well on the way back.

Man, what are the odds?? Hahaha.

Funny how life brings people together at unexpected times.

I can only depend on my friends to make me happy and smile.

I need more of this.

Especially since... I'm gonna be away.

Love, Eran.

Current Song Mood: Britney Spears Ft G-Eazy - Make Me

[Britney Spears:]
Friday, I'm dreaming a mile a minute 'bout somebody
This feeling, I wanna go with it, cause there's no way
We're hiding away from this tonight, oh, this tonight
Can tell you want me
By the way I see you starin' 'cross the room, babe
No shame in the game
Just cut the shit, be honest
Yeah, you know what you gotta do tonight, do tonight

I just want you to make me move
Like it ain't a choice for you, like you got a job to do
Just want you to raise my roof
Something sensational (oh yeah)

And make me oooh, oooh, oooh, oooh
And make me oooh, oooh, oooh, oooh

No rules
From the bar to the car, let's take it back to my room
Igniting the heat of the moment; let the sparks fuse
Blowing up to the ceiling, we're burning bright
When we cross the line

Cause you're the flame I can't do without
The fire comes in the sapphire sun
There's no way I'm gonna be fighting this tonight, this tonight

I just want you to make me move
Like it ain't a choice for you, like you got a job to do
Just want you to raise my roof
Something sensational (oh yeah)

And make me oooh, oooh, oooh, oooh
And make me oooh, oooh, oooh, oooh

Baby, cause you're the spark that won't go out
My heart's on fire when you're around
Make me oooh, oooh, oooh, oooh

[G-Eazy:]
(Yeah, Eazy)

I don't care if it's a random person or the biggest star
Out in Vegas or little bars
Really not a difference if it's near or far
Listen, here we are; need you
I've always wondered what was off limits
Staring at you til I'm caught in this
Back and forth like this was all tennis
I'm all jealous, you came with someone
But we could tell that there's changes coming
See I could tell that you're a dangerous woman
That means you're speaking my language, come on
Now follow me, let's go
Like Penelope in "Blow"
Well worth the stealing you, it's a felony, yeah I know
That's why they keep on telling me to let go, yeah

But I need you and I can take you
All the way and I'm able
To give you something sensational, so let's go, yeah
Said I need you and I can take you
All the way and I'm able
So follow me and I can make you

[Britney Spears:]
And make me oooh (move), oooh, oooh (yeah), oooh
And make me oooh, oooh, oooh, oooh

Baby, cause you're the spark that won't go out
My heart's on fire when you're around
Make me oooh, oooh, oooh, oooh
Yeah, you make me oooh

Kicks

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Went window shopping on my own today.

Alone.

Haha, that was just how bored I was.

Scanning for new kicks.

Scanning for Pokemon.

Scanning for hotties.

Trying to kill time.

Trying to get through the weekend.

But then, I lost interest.

And still felt empty.

As I walked past couples and happy people.

I was stuck in my own reality.

What do I do when you're not here?

We're in different places now.

Love, Eran.

Current Song Mood: FKA Twigs - Kicks

When I'm low (Low, low)
I feel for you (You, you)
Time passes by (By, by, by)
Feel it for you

I explore
Stroke my side
Yes, I do
Feel for you

So, I tell myself it's cool for me to wait for you, just for you
I collect my thoughts and breathe
Because I take your lead
Take your lead

Tell me, what do I do when you're not here?
What do I do when you're not here?

Tell me, what do I do when you're not here?
What do I do when you're not here?
I get my kicks like you

When I'm alone (Lone, lone)
I don't need you (You, you)
I love my touch
Know just what to do

So, I tell myself it's cool to get my kicks like you, just like you
I just touch myself and say
"I'll make my own damn way"
Own damn way

Tell me, what do I do when you're not here?
Tell me, what do I do?
Baby, it's clear

Tell me, what do I do when you're not here? (When you're not here)
What do I do when you're not here? (When you're not here)

(When you're not here)

Tell me, what do I do when you're not here? (When you're not here)
What do I do when you're not here? (When you're not here)
I get my kicks like you

(When you're not here)

Tell me, what do I do when you're not here? (When you're not here)
What do I do when you're not here? (When you're not here)

(When you're not here)

Tell me, what do I do when you're not here? (When you're not here)
What do I do when you're not here? (When you're not here)
I get my kicks like you

(When you're not here)

What do I do when you're not here?
I get my kicks like...
I get my kicks like...
I get my kicks like you
Tell me what do I do?
Baby, it's clear

Lights On

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Darkness.

There's something comforting about it.

I love being in the dark.

The cold air around it.

As it surrounds and engulfs you.

It may seem scary.

But really, it makes me feel safe.

If that even makes sense.

I'd rather not keep the lights on.

And float away.

In the dark.

Into nothing.

Love, Eran.

Current Song Mood: FKA Twigs - Lights On

I shy away in my mind
And hope someday I can share this place with you
You'll be the first one defined
The shadows that make the girl you undo
Cause the man that you are is defined
By the way that you act in the light
Break or seize me
If the flame gets blown out in the shine
I will know that you can not be mine
Live or leave me

[Chorus x2:]
When I trust you we can do it with the lights on
When I trust you we can do it with the lights on
When I trust you we'll make love until the morning
Let me tell you all my secrets and I'll whisper 'til the day's done

Break or seize me
Let the things that I tell you survive
In the way that you handle your size
Live or leave me

[Chorus x4]

Figure You Out

Page 591

What an interesting evening encounter today.

A genuine soul who gets intrigued with the smallest things.

Strikes conversations endlessly.

With certain rare innocence.

I was wondering.

When were you gonna stop talking.

And just make out with me.

But I was generally just as intrigued with who you were.

And what was on your mind.

Interesting.

I just can't figure you out.

Love, Eran.

Current Song Mood: Keke Palmer - Figure You Out

[Intro]

Oh

Oh (Hey)

Oh

[Verse 1]

You're like a puzzle, pieces are on the ground

Nothing but trouble, no one to bail me out

If we were flying, you know we be headed south

It's like rocket science cause I'm fighting, tryna work it out

[Pre-Chorus 1]

Woah oh oh oh, oh oh oh

I'm going insane

Woah oh oh oh, oh oh oh

[Chorus]

Oh, this is love/hate

Spinning my world around

I can't even think straight

With or without you now

Baby, for love's sake

Why can't you help me out?

Oh I just can't figure

I just can't figure you out

[Post-Chorus]

I just can't figure you out

I just can't figure

I just can't figure you out

[Verse 2]

You see me bleeding and you cut me for the thrill

I say, "I'm leaving", but my feet are standing still

You're like an angel doing the devil's will

Sometimes I wonder how I wandered underneath your spell

[Pre-Chorus 2]

Woah oh oh oh, oh oh oh

You're wrecking my brain

Woah oh oh oh, oh oh oh

[Chorus]

Oh, this is love/hate

Spinning my world around

I can't even think straight

With or without you now

Baby, for love's sake

Why can't you help me out?

Oh I just can't figure

I just can't figure you out

[Post-Chorus]

I just can't figure you out

I just can't figure

I just can't figure you out

[Outro]

(Woah oh oh oh, oh oh oh, woah oh oh oh, oh oh oh)

Oh oh

(Woah oh oh oh, oh oh oh, woah oh oh oh, oh oh oh)

Oh oh

(Woah oh oh oh, oh oh oh, woah oh oh oh, oh oh oh)

Woah oh oh

I just can't figure

I just can't figure you out

(Woah oh oh oh, oh oh oh, woah oh oh oh, oh oh oh)

Ooh yeah yeah yeah

(Woah oh oh oh, oh oh oh, woah oh oh oh, oh oh oh)

No I can't, no I can't, ooh ooh

(Woah oh oh oh, oh oh oh, woah oh oh oh, oh oh oh)

I just can't

I just can't figure

I just can't figure you out

Gemini Feed

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Saw an old flame today, but I turned away.

Because the past is the past.

I'm in a different place now.

You and me together, we're gemini feed.

All my life I've met people who've tried to make me smaller than I already am.

Using me like a cheap tool.

Cowards.

Passive aggressive souls.

Who use words to put me down.

Well not anymore.

I'm not that little boy anymore.

I'm a man of my own now.

No more bullshit.

One day I'm gonna reveal it all.

In my own way.

Thank you BANKS for giving me the fuel & courage.

Ps.

Look out for this Goddess too.

The Altar. 

30th September.

Love, Eran.

Current Song Mood: BANKS - Gemini Feed

Open up your eyes
There's nothing on my body left to see
I tried a thousand times
I tried to say 'I love you', but you didn't hear me
And you're passive-aggressive
Convinced me other people didn't care about me

And you're passive-aggressive
You're passive-aggressive
You're passive-aggressive

And to think you would get me to the altar
Like I follow you around like a dog that needs water
But admit it that you wanted me smaller
If you would have let me grow
You could have kept my love

Ode to my two thighs
I still want you to kiss 'em cause they're lonely
And why you so surprised?
And when I said I miss, you you never believed me?
And we were so depressive
You and me together we were gemini feed

And we were so depressive
We were so depressive
We were so depressive, hey

And to think you would get me to the altar
Like I follow you around like a dog that needs water
But admit it that you wanted me smaller
If you would have let me grow
You could have kept my love

And to think you would get me to the altar
Like I follow you around like a dog that needs water
But admit it that you wanted me smaller
If you would have let me grow
You could have kept my love

And to think you would get me to the altar
Like I follow you around like a dog that needs water
But admit it that you wanted me smaller
If you would have let me grow
You could have kept my love

Fuck Apologies

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I've been in a very dark mood lately.

Maybe I'm scared of the truth.

Maybe I'm scared for the future.

Maybe I just don't wanna know.

Whatever it is, I'll accept it.

Unapologetically.

I'm not perfect.

I make mistakes.

I've got pride.

This is me.

&

I'm not sorry for being myself.

Fuck Apologies.

Ps.

If you haven't gotten JoJo's newest empowering single, 'Fuck Apologies', you're missing out.

Soon you'll know why I f*ck with her so much.

This woman is gonna blow up again.

14 October.

Mad Love.

Love, Eran.

Current Song Mood: JoJo Ft Wiz Khalifa - Fuck Apologies

[Wiz Khalifa:]
I ain't apologizing for shit
I do what I want, and JoJo does too, uh

[JoJo:]
Saw it in your eyes when you said goodbye
You didn't even try, so this time I don't care

And honestly I was just about to pick up the phone
And then I realized that I didn't do nothing wrong
You would even tell two lies to prove that you were right
Usually I'd go on and take the blame but not this time, not this time

What you want from me?
I would say I'm sorry if I really meant it
Fuck apologies
I would say I'm sorry if I really meant it
I'm not perfect, I got pride
That's not what it is this time
So fuck apologies
I would say I'm sorry if I really meant it
If I, if I, if I really meant it

I can't help that you, feel the way you do
Try not to get confused cause this time I don't care

And honestly I was just about to pick up the phone
And then I realized that I didn't do nothing wrong
Didn't do nothing wrong, ayy

What you want from me?
I would say I'm sorry if I really meant it
Fuck apologies
I would say I'm sorry if I really meant it
I'm not perfect, I got pride
That's not what it is this time
So fuck apologies
I would say I'm sorry if I really meant it
If I, if I, if I really meant it

[Wiz Khalifa:]
Okay, uh, no apologizing
Ain't no way to take the things you did back or disguise it
Always wonder what I'm doing but that's TMI
Don't know what you got until it's gone, now you realize it
When I wasn't playing smart now I'm being wise
Finally I'm moving on and I don't need your lies
And it wasn't even tough cause I can see the signs
Now you're stuck, call an Uber up if you need a ride

[JoJo:]
What you want from me?
I would say I'm sorry if I really meant it
(I don't mean it baby)
Fuck apologies
I would say I'm sorry if I really meant it
(I know)
I'm not perfect, I got pride
That's not what it is this time
So fuck apologies
I would say I'm sorry if I really meant it
What you want from me?
(I'm not sorry)
I would say I'm sorry if I really meant it
Fuck apologies
(Not saying it)
I'm not perfect, I got pride
That's not what it is this time
So fuck apologies
I would say I'm sorry if I really meant it
I would have said sorry a long time ago...
If I, if I, if I really meant it

If I, if I, if I really meant it

Give Up

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Cant even seem to catch a break

And enjoy a day off.

Mind's filled with work.

Its haunting.

This is unhealthy.

F*ck this shit. 

I give up.

On that too.

Finally deleted the apps off my phone.

They weren't doing me good anyway.

This lifestyle isn't for me.

 I'm sorry if I left anyone hanging.

I'm doing this for myself.

If you're still hopeful..

Then just give up on me.

Gonna set shit straight for myself this month.

I'm gonna focus.

I'm gonna change.

Love, Eran.

Its finally August..

Current Song Mood: FKA Twigs - Give Up

I give... Give, give

Tell me why I act this way
Tell me that I'll change someday
I'll be the one that can satisfy you
If I can't rectify the...

I give... Give, give

...Few things that I've got to change and a few things in my way
Okay, so I've said it before and won't imply that
You're not too close to the fact

Just nod your head and get up
I'm not going let you give up, babe
Just nod your head and get up
I'm not going let you give up, babe
I know that sometimes you wished I'd go away, away
Just nod your head and get up
I'm not going let you give up, babe

Don't we get another chance?
Did I make the final stand above the ones that are oh so perfect
'Cause they know how to work it, work it, work it?

I give... Give, give

Looking like I'll keep it now, I made the cut
Okay, so I've done it before and you think it's an act
But I call this time a wrap

Just nod your head and get up
I'm not going let you give up, babe
Just nod your head and get up
I'm not going let you give up, babe
I know that sometimes you wished I'd go away, away
I know that sometimes you wished I'd go away, away
But I'd wished that you would know that I'm here to stay, to stay
Just nod your head and get up
I'm not going let you give up, babe

Tell me what I got to do
Oh no, don't give up
I'll do everything to make it better, babe
I'll do anything
Bite, I'll bite
Do you like it like that? (Do you like it like that?)

Tell me what I've got to do
Oh no, don't give up
'Cause I'll do anything to make you see me, baby
(Give me your attention)
Bite, I'll make you better

I know that sometimes you wished I'd go away, away
I know that sometimes you wished I'd go away, away
But I'd wished that you would know that I'm here to stay, to stay

Just nod your head and get up
I'm not going let you give up, babe
Just nod your head and get up
I'm not going let you give up

I give...