Poltergeist

Page 627

Some people just really love testing my patience.

And that says a lot since I'm VERY patient in nature.

Don't make me start a war.

Against your lame ass excuses and selfish needs.

I'll turn into a freakin' poltergeist.

People like you don't deserve my patience.

I'll do what I can to make your life a living hell.

:)

Just don't mistake all my mistakes for my crooked nature.

Love, Eran.

Current Song Mood: BANKS - Poltergeist

I started all the wars, I started all the wars
I've been getting messages from my deep waters
I'd be a resentful caretaker
Blame me for your false indicators
You mistaking all my mistakes for my crooked nature

Oh my god, I think I saw a ghost
Follow me everywhere I go
Don't even try to get creative
I smell a clown looking goofy, dressed up as a native

Why'd you call me here? You don't even know
Acting like a fool when you mull it over
Make it go away, you won't even know
Baby looking cool smoking on a clover

I started all the wars, I started all the wars
I've been getting messages from my deep waters
I'd be a resentful caretaker
Blame me for your false indicators
You mistaking all my mistakes for my crooked nature

Oh my god, I think I saw a ghost
Why you here walking around on my home street?
Pardon me
Cut your shoulder, you've been affected
I smell the chemicals, I don't see miracles
I'm at the pinnacle, you're so material
Oh did you get your money?
Yeah, yeah, yeah

I started all the wars, I started all the wars
I've been getting messages from my deep waters
I'd be a resentful caretaker
Blame me for your false indicators
You mistaking all my mistakes for my crooked nature

Turning Page

Page 626

Never saw a beauty like her.

Her bubbly persona that resonated through the air.

I could feel a sense of awareness.

As my heart skipped a beat.

As she spoke to me.

And I avoided eye contact.

Tried to play it cool but,

Never have I felt so unsettled.

I hope to see you again.

This is.. a turning page.

Love, Eran.

Current Song Mood: Sleeping At Last - Turning Page

I’ve waited a hundred years
But I’d wait a million more for you
Nothing prepared me for
What the privilege of being yours would do

If I had only felt the warmth within your touch
If I had only seen how you smile when you blush
Or how you curl your lip when you concentrate enough
Well I would have known
What I was living for all along
What I’ve been living for

Your love is my turning page
Where only the sweetest words remain
Every kiss is a cursive line
Every touch is a redefining phrase

I surrender who I’ve been for who you are
For nothing makes me stronger than your fragile heart
If I had only felt how it feels to be yours
Well I would have known
What I’ve been living for all along
What I’ve been living for

Though we’re tethered to the story we must tell
When I saw you, well I knew we’d tell it well
With a whisper we will tame the vicious seas
Like a feather bringing kingdoms to their knees

Hurts So Good

Page 625

So much going on in my mind.

All the signs lead right to you.

And I don't know if you even see it.

No one knows you like I do.

No one knows me like you do.

Your actions cut so deep.

Your love hurts so good.

I guess I wouldn't have it any other way.

Love, Eran.

Current Song Mood: Astrid S - Hurts So Good

You're fighting me off like a firefighter
So tell me why you still get burned
You say you're not, but you're still a liar
Cause I'm the one that you run to first

Every time, yeah, why do you try to deny it
When you show up every night
And tell me that you want me but it's complicated, so complicated

When it hurts, but it hurts so good
Do you take it? Do you break it off
When it hurts, but it hurts so good
Can you say it, can you say it?
Your love is like, na na na na na na na
Your love is like, na na na na na na na
It hurts so good, na na na na na na na
Your love is like, na na na na na na na
It hurts so good

Every time that I swear it's over
It makes you want me even more
You pull away and I come in closer
And all we ever stay is torn

Baby, I don't know why I try to deny it
When you show up every night
I tell you that I want you but it's complicated, so complicated

When it hurts, but it hurts so good
Do you take it? Do you break it off
When it hurts, but it hurts so good
Can you say it, can you say it?
Your love is like, your love is like
It hurts so good, your love is like
It hurts so good

Wide awake through the daylight
Will you hold me like we're running a yellow light?
Reach for you with my hands tied
Are we dancing like we're burning in paradise?

When it hurts, but it hurts so good
Do you take it? Do you break it off
When it hurts, but it hurts so good
Can you say it, can you say it?
Your love is like, your love is like
It hurts so good, your love is like
It hurts so good

Million Reasons

Page 624

What a nostalgic day.

A few old friends/acquaintances came down to my workplace today for an attachment.

It was nice seeing them again after so long, doing well in life.

:)

They were so nice.

Made me wanna be one of them lol.

I'm glad I had that career talk with them.

It really made me hopeful for the future.

I don't know what's gonna unfold.

I really don't.

Even.. with us.

I've got a million reasons to walk away.

But I guess I just need a good one to stay.

Love, Eran.

Current Song Mood: Lady Gaga - Million Reasons

[Verse 1]

You’re giving me a million reasons to let you go

You’re givin’ me a million reasons

Givin’ me a million reasons

About a million reasons

If I had a highway, I would run for the hills

But you’re giving me a million reasons

Givin’ me a million reasons

About a million reasons

[Chorus]

I bow down to pray

Lord, show me the way

To cut through all his worn out leather

But baby, I just need one good one to stay

[Verse 2]

Head stuck in a cycle, I look off and I stare

‘Cause you’re giving me a million reasons

Give me a million reasons

About a million reasons

And if you say something that you might even mean

It’s hard to even fathom which parts I should believe

‘

About a million reasons

[Chorus]

I bow down to pray

To cut through all his worn out leather

I’ve got a hundred million reasons to walk away

But baby, I just need one good one to stay

[Bridge]

Hey, ehh, ehh, eyy

Baby I’m bleedin’, bleedin’

Stay, ehh, ehhy

Can’t you give me what I’m needin’, needin’

Every heartbreak makes it hard to keep the faith

But baby, I just need one good one

Good one, good one, good one, good one, good one

[Chorus]

When I bow down to pray

I try to make the worst seem better

But baby, I just need one good one, good one

Tell me that you’ll be the good one, good one

Baby, I just need one good one to stay

This Is Not About Us

Page 623

I've come across so many shitty people.

Time and time again.

Especially those that makes life difficult for others intentionally.

Did it ever come across your mind that things could have been done differently?

Did it ever come across your mind that a person you flamed has had enough on his plate?

Did it ever come across your mind that that poor boy you charged is turning a year older tomorrow?

Well fuck you.

This is not about me.

This is not about us.

This is about YOU.

Always has.

Always been.

Despicable.

And I'm looking forward to the day that you LEAVE.

For good.

Because we. Don't. Need. You.

Love, Eran.

Let's stay strong together guys.

Current Song Mood: BANKS - This Is Not About Us

This is not about me
I can see you taking it personally
I see you put your pride aside
I'll wait a minute while you try to compensate

No, this is not about me
I see you thinking I'm a missing piece
To the puzzle that you use for life
I'll wait a minute while you try to come for mine

All this distance
Treated all bad
And I've been covered second
Don't want to live a lie
Beaten, battered
And it don't matter
Don't deny I've said too much
Don't ask me why

Mmm, this is not about us
Mmm, this is not about us
Mmm, this is not about us
Mmm, this is not about us
Mmm

This is not about me
Or the way that you could never play it cool
I could see you wanting me to say
That me walking away was a big mistake

No, this is not about me
I see you clinging to your pinch of hope
Trying to get up in my bed
You should be thinking of a way of moving on instead

All this distance
Treated all bad
And I've been covered second
Don't want to live a lie
Beaten, battered
And it don't matter
Don't deny I've said too much
Don't ask me why

Mmm, this is not about us
Mmm, this is not about us
Mmm, this is not about us
Mmm, this is not about us
Mmm, this is not about

What you told me
It never mattered
I never needed it
(This is not about)
That you were tongue-tied
And what you sold me
I never bought it
(This is not about)
How I found out
That you were vacant
You never stood up
(This is not about)
All the times I tried to prove to you

Mmm, this is not about us
Mmm, this is not about us
Mmm, this is not about us
Mmm, this is not about us
Mmm, this is not about us
Mmm, this is not about us
Mmm, this is not about us
Mmm, this is not about us
Mmm, this is not about us

Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah

Lovesick

Page 622

Who knew that'd happen?

Hahaha.

Swear the weirdest most awkward things always happen to me.

It's been a while okay.

I guess I've just been love sick.

Been so busy with work.

So busy alone.

Cant really blame myself for that.

Sorry about it.

Love, Eran.

And I aint even ashamed.

Current Song Mood: BANKS - Lovesick

Please call me ya baby baby baby
Look how long that you have kept me waiting
I'm all in, look at all that I have given
Oh, I know your love before I kissed you
And now your have gone and made me miss you
Come love me, baby come love me

Cause I'm love sick
And I ain't even ashamed
And I'm caught up, for some time in your sheets
Would you been down to spend all your time with me?
Cause I'm love sick
Cause I'm love sick
And I ain't even ashamed
And I'm caught up for some time in your sheets
Would you been down to spend all your time with me?
Cause I'm love sick

Please call me ya baby baby baby
Look how long that you have kept me waiting
I'm all in, look at all that I have given
Oh, I know your love before I kissed you
And now your have gone and made me miss you
Come love me, baby come love me

Cause I'm love sick
And I ain't even ashamed
And I'm caught up, for some time in your sheets
Would you been down to spend all your time with me?
Cause I'm love sick
Cause I'm love sick
And I ain't even ashamed
And I'm caught up for some time in your sheets
Would you been down to spend all your time with me?
Cause I'm love sick

Cause I'm love sick
And I ain't even ashamed
And I'm caught up for some time in your sheets
Would you been down to spend all your time with me?
Cause I'm love sick

Trainwreck

Page 621

Hello October.

Feelings are as messed up as a train wreck.

Funny how people only see your weaknesses rather than your strengths.

They're quick to point out your flaws.

Quick to put you down.

Quick to judge.

No matter how nice you are.

Today got me fuming mad.

But I'm not gonna let it affect me anymore.

Not worth it.

Fuck you and your problems.

I have enough on my plate.

Love, Eran.

I have to get away.

Current Song Mood: BANKS - Trainwreck

Hey, I heard it from the state
They told me you were never gonna let me get away
And if you took me fishing you would never give me bait
I had to get away, I had to get away, ay, ay

Hey, you try to compensate
For thinking with your one brain, I should decapitate
You showed me all your letters that I should've confiscated
Both my eyes were weighted, and I had to get away

Talking to ears that have been deaf
For as long as I can remember
A self-medicated handicap, so I speak to myself
And I try so hard to get his stupid deaf ears to hear
That I've become illiterate, I've become dumb
Ya hate me, ya hate me, ya hate me

When I come through, you were dark blue
And I saved you, from your darker days
Born to, take care of you
Or I thought so, baby, it was just a phase

Hey, I heard it from the state
They told me you were never gonna let me get away
And if you took me fishing you would never give me bait
I had to get away, I had to get away, I had to get away

Hey, you try to compensate
For thinking with your one brain, I should decapitate
You showed me all your letters that I should've confiscated
Both my eyes were weighted, and I had to get away

Shut down by a guy I never wanted to kiss
Not gonna hear the singing of his ringing triumphing
And I'm chugging along in a train
And I'm heading the wrong way, and I'm a trainwreck

And my heart goes beat, beat, beat
To the music of this sad same song
It's quite depressing, there's no fixing to the problem
When you're talking to an idiot

When I come through, you were dark blue
And I saved you, from your darker days
Born to, take care of you
Or I thought so, baby, it was just a phase
Saving, only made me
Just a dreamer, but I soon found out
That the traintracks were behind me
Tried to warn me, oh, but my ears went out

(But then my ears went out, out, out...)

When I come through, you were dark blue
And I saved you, from your darker days
Born to, take care of you
Or I thought so, baby, it was just a phase

Hey, I heard it from the state
They told me you were never gonna let me get away
And if you took me fishing you would never give me bait
I had to get away, I had to get away, I had to get away

Hey, you try to compensate
For thinking with your one brain, I should decapitate
You showed me all your letters that I should've confiscated
Both my eyes were weighted, and I had to get away