Stoop So Low

Page 1039

Sigh.

I hate catfishes.

Why you gotta stoop so low?

I kind of pity your insecure soul.

Oh well, I guess I gave in to the moment.

One thing lead to another.

Regret?

Yeah?

Did I lose anything? 

Nahh..

I can do better.

What happened after was more interesting though.

Didnt expect to bump into an old.. 'friend'.

And we went somewhere to chill and talk.

And I opened up about my eventful night.

And I actually..  really enjoyed it.

The casual conversation.

And all the relatable things we talked about.

Opening up and telling a somewhat-stranger about my shitty life.

Yeap.

Totally made the night worth it.

:) 

Oh well.

Stay safe and have a fun night.

xx

Love, Eran.

Current Song Mood: alextbh - Stoop So Low

Should've known your history

Know you're gonna do this to me

All I wanna do is moving on, but

Goddamn these boys are all the same

You switch boys like you switch lanes

And you don't know how to give brains

I hate the sex and your flex is lame

Don't pay tax but you still claim

My friends, they tried to warn me

But I'm stuck up and I'm desperate

I'll admit that you played me

But I'm wide awake and I'm over it

Why you gotta stoop so low like this, huh?

Abusing my feelings like this, huh?

Why you gotta stoop so low like this, huh?

Abusing my feelings like this, huh?

Why you gotta stoop so low like this, huh?

Abusing my feelings like this, huh?

Why you gotta stoop so low like this, huh?

Abusing my feelings like this, huh?

Talk shit, same tricks, different days

I wonder if it's tiring, if this pays

Shame that we couldn't be a thing

But you just had to do this, yeah you just had to

Switch boys like you switch lanes

And you don't know how to give brains

I hate the sex and your flex is lame

Don't pay tax but you still claim

My friends, they tried to warn me (warn me)

But I'm stuck up and I'm desperate

I'll admit that you played me (huh)

But I'm wide awake and I'm over it

Why you gotta stoop so low like this, huh?

(Why you gotta, why you gotta)

Abusing my feelings like this, huh?

(Feelings like this)

Why you gotta stoop so low like this, huh?

Abusing my feelings like this, huh?

Why you gotta stoop so low like this, huh?

Abusing my feelings like this, huh?

(Abusing my feelings like this)

Why you gotta stoop so low like this, huh?

(Why you gotta stoop so low)

Abusing my feelings like this, huh?

Why you gotta, why you gotta?

lovely

Page 1038

Thought I could hang in there.

But the slow familiar feeling sinked in.

Loneliness.

As I laid in the dark.

Hoping to find someone.

Something.

To numb the feeling.

Isn't it lovely?

This feeling.

That I warmly..

Embrace.

Love, Eran.

Current Song Mood: Billie Ellish Ft Khalid - lovely

Thought I found a way
Thought I found a way, yeah (found)
But you never go away (never go away)
So I guess I gotta stay now

Oh, I hope some day I'll make it out of here
Even if it takes all night or a hundred years
Need a place to hide, but I can't find one near
Wanna feel alive, outside I can fight my fear

Isn't it lovely, all alone
Heart made of glass, my mind of stone
Tear me to pieces, skin and bone
Hello, welcome home

Walkin' out of town
Lookin' for a better place (lookin' for a better place)
Something's on my mind (mind)
Always in my headspace

But I know some day I'll make it out of here
Even if it takes all night or a hundred years
Need a place to hide, but I can't find one near
Wanna feel alive, outside I can fight my fear

Isn't it lovely, all alone
Heart made of glass, my mind of stone
Tear me to pieces, skin and bone
Hello, welcome home

Woah, yeah
Yeah, ah
Woah, woah

Hello, welcome home

OTW

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Cant believe my wish came true.

Seeing you again.

Being in your embrace again.

I've been craving for you.

The lengths I went through just to be with you..

And it was all worth it.

Every second.

Every drop.

I'm so into you.

Just drop me a text.

And i'll be OTW.

Just for you babe.

Love, Eran

Current Song Mood: Khalid Ft 6LACK, Ty Dolla $ign - OTW

[Khalid:]
Na, na, na, na, ooh
Oh, no, oh, ayy

Put it in drive, I'll be outside, I'll be on the way
I'll be on the way
You can meet me in five, I'll be online, I'll be a-all day
I'll be a-all day
Put it in drive, I'll be outside, I'll be on the way
I'll be on the way
You can meet me in five, I'll be online, I'll be a-all day
I'll be a-all day

Yeah, yeah, yeah
This the type of shit that you been waiting all year for
Making sounds for a minute, if you with it (yeah)
Got a lot of time, I just need somewhere to spend it
I just press a button and the top go missing
I kept the slip so you know it's not winning, yeah, oh, oh
What you wanna do?
Worried 'bout your friends, they saw you this afternoon
I been reading your mind
No fair, but you gotta let me know
I'm all ears and I got a lot of room in my whip
If you wanna take it there, I'm on my way

Put it in drive, I'll be outside, I'll be on the way
I'll be on the way
You can meet me in five, I'll be online, I'll be a-all day
I'll be a-all day
Put it in drive, I'll be outside, I'll be on the way
I'll be on the way
You can meet me in five, I'll be online, I'll be a-all day
I'll be a-all day

[Ty Dolla $ign:]
(Dolla $ign, Dolla $ign)
Drop top the Porsche, put that bitch in sport
Out here in the field, oh yeah (yeah)
I'm already here, yeah
Come outside, looking like a snack
Hurry up, get in, hell yeah (yeah)
Come with me on this mission (ooh yeah, ooh yeah)
Riding down the coast (ooh yeah)
I want that for sure (ooh yeah)
You say, "Play Khalid" (ooh yeah)
I say, "Pass the weed" (ooh yeah)
Pull up to the crib, oh
Said you've never been before
Put you in Provocateur
Girl, I made you need it more
You said you left your ex, that dude was always gassy
You said before me, you ain't never been this happy
You took an L with him and winning ever since (ever since)
You hit my phone, I'm on my way, I got some plans, yeah, yeah

[Khalid:]
Put it in drive, I'll be outside, I'll be on the way
I'll be on the way
You can meet me in five, I'll be online, I'll be a-all day
I'll be a-all day
Put it in drive, I'll be outside, I'll be on the way
I'll be on the way
You can meet me in five, I'll be online, I'll be a-all day
I'll be a-all day

[6LACK:]
You tryna make a move, tonight I got the time
Tell me what you wanna do
Call the squad if you wanna rendezvous
They gon' push up on it, on it, I only got room for two
From the 'jects on the set, it's a Porsche, not a 'vent, I confess, I'ma flex
Ayy, show some respect
Get away so we can make sense of your life
You was in park but I just put your shit in drive
Now coast like there's no tomorrow
Moving too fast, I'm hoping to drive slow (yeah)
I don't want you to wonder where I go
Can learn a lot from this and it's something that I know

[Khalid:]
Put it in drive, I'll be outside, I'll be on the way
I'll be on the way
You can meet me in five, I'll be online, I'll be a-all day
I'll be a-all day
Put it in drive, I'll be outside, I'll be on the way
I'll be on the way
You can meet me in five, I'll be online, I'll be a-all day
I'll be a-all day

Guilty

Page 1036

Maybe I deserve it.

Maybe I deserve everything that's coming my way.

Maybe it's a sign from Him.

I don't know.

But I sure as hell know.

That I'm guilty.

The one thing I'm good at is.. messing up somebody else.

And I shouldn't be around anyone.

Never.. anyone.

Love, Eran.

Current Song Mood: Paloma Faith - Guilty

I've been a criminal, I made a mistake
Believed in the fictional
Then let everything slip away
I can't accept my faith
Thought the alternative looked so crystal clear
Drowned in the muddy waters
And I'm living in my worst fears
Begging you back through tears

You had this picture of me
And now I have shattered your dreams
I know the drill and I know the truth
And it kills me

Yeah, I'm guilty
Don't come near me
The one thing I'm good at is messing up somebody else
Baby, I'm guilty
I'm turning sweet love into poison
And I got the scars, if you're talking 'bout hurting yourself
Baby, I'm guilty as hell

I sit here all alone, my defense is down
Wishing I could be home
But I'm locked out and it's my fault
Grazes with added salt
Thought I would be okay without you and I
Now that I realize it was all just an awful lie
Take me back, I might die

You had this picture of me
And now I have shattered your dreams
I know the drill and I know the truth
And it kills me

Yeah, I'm guilty
Don't come near me
The one thing I'm good at is messing up somebody else
Baby, I'm guilty
I'm turning sweet love into poison
And I got the scars, if you're talking 'bout hurting yourself
Baby, I'm guilty as hell

I should've known that I could not go on here without you
Instead of walking away, know that I'll feel terrified
I know I was wrong, now I'm hurting myself, I wish I knew
Please, take me back, I don't wanna believe this goodbye, oh

Yeah, I'm guilty
Don't come near me
One thing I'm good at is messing up somebody else
Baby, I'm guilty as hell

(Yeah, I'm guilty)
Oh, I'm guilty
(Don't come near me)
Don't come near
The one thing I'm good at is messing up somebody else
(Please, forgive me, darling)
Baby, I'm guilty
I'm turning sweet love (I'll turn sweet love) into poison (into poison, oh no)
And I got the scars (oh no), if you're talking 'bout hurting yourself
Baby, I'm guilty as hell

Youth

Page 1035

I believe everything happens for a reason.

The people we meet.

The ones we come across.

The evens that happen.

And impact us.

Whether good or bad.

Or just.. tragic.

They change.. the direction in our lives.

Even though it's ticking...

You can't take my youth away...

As long as I wake up today.

Pain...

I won't let that change me.

Love, Eran.

Current Song Mood: Shawn Mendes Ft Khalid - Youth

Here I am, stuck on this couch
Scrolling through my notes
Heart was broken, still not growing, nah

Waking up to headlines
Filled with devastation again
My heart is broken
But I keep going

Pain, but I won't let it turn into hate
No, I won't let it change me
Never losing sight of the one I keep inside
Now, I know it
Yeah, I know it

You can't take my youth away
This soul of mine will never break
As long as I wake up today
You can't take my youth away

You can't take my youth away
This soul of mine will never break
As long as I wake up today
You can't take my youth away
You can't take my youth away

It's hard to sleep at night
Knowing what's outside
Feeling hopeless
I need focus

You hit me with words I never heard come out your mouth
To be honest
I don't want it, no

Pain, but I won't let it turn into hate
No, I won't let it change me

You can't take my youth away
This soul of mine will never break
As long as I wake up today
You can't take my youth away

You can't take my youth away
This soul of mine will never break
As long as I wake up today
You can't take my youth away
You can't take my youth away
You can't take my youth away

Pain, but I won't let it turn into hate
No, I won't let it change me
Pain, but I won't let it turn into hate
No, I won't let it change me

You can't take my youth away
This soul of mine will never break
As long as I wake up today
You can't take my youth away (youth away)

You can't take my youth away
This soul of mine will never break
As long as I wake up today
You can't take my youth away

You can't take my youth away
This soul of mine will never break
As long as I wake up today
You can't take my youth away

You can't take my youth away
This soul of mine will never break
As long as I wake up today
You can't take my youth away
You can't take my youth away

Let Me

Page 1034

It was nice... finally seeing you again.

:)

Been a while huh.

But we reconnected like old friends.

Laying around.

Laughing.

Teasing.

It felt natural.

It's a shame that there are no strings attached.

If only you'd let me..

So I can love you.

For the rest of my life.

Till next time.

Love, Eran.

Current Song Mood: ZAYN - Let Me

Sweet baby, our sex has meaning
Know this time you'll stay 'til the morning
Duvet days and vanilla ice cream
More than just one night together exclusively

Baby, let me be your man
So I can love you (I can love you)
And if you let me be your man
Then I'll take care of you, you

For the rest of my life, for the rest of yours
For the rest of my life, for the rest of yours
For the rest of ours

We're drinking the finest label
Dirty dancing on top of the table
Long walks on the beach in April
Yeah, I promise, darling, that I'll be faithful

Baby, let me be your man (let me be your man)
So I can love you (I can love you)
And if you let me be your man (let me be your man)
Then I'll take care of you (I can love you)

For the rest of my life, for the rest of yours
For the rest of my life, for the rest of yours
For the rest of ours

Give me your body and let me love you like I do
Come a little closer and let me do those things to you
This feeling will last forever, baby, that's the truth
Let me be your man so I can love you

Baby, let me be your man (let me be your man)
So I can love you (I can love you)
And if you let me be your man (let me be your man)
Then I'll take care of you (I can love you)

For the rest of my life, for the rest of yours
(For the rest of my life, for the rest of yours)
For the rest of my life, for the rest of yours
(For the rest of my life, for the rest of yours)
For the rest of ours (for the rest of ours)

Let It Be

Page 1033

Sober.

And I'm glad.

I've been thinking a lot these days.

How I've been losing myself over and over.

All the risks I've.. taken.

Was it worth it?

Nah.

Now I'm just... 

Letting life flow.

And live.

I believe..

It'll get better.

My mental health.

My body.

It will.

We just gotta.. let it be.

Love, Eran.

Current Song Mood: Hayley Kiyoko - Let It Be

Baby come around cause I need you
Baby calm me down, let me see you
Cause you know you're my operator
Let me show every single layer

Losing all my power just to have you
Hundred miles an hour, thinking 'bout you
Every night gets a little tougher
How can I dream about another, cause

I believe we're the ones who had it all
I believe we just had to learn to fall
I miss ya, I love ya
So it's really hard to see, yeah
We just gotta let it be

Oooh let us see
Be free

Baby come around cause I want ya
Laying on the floor here without ya
Cause you know your my operator
Help me show every single layer

Giving "baby steps" a new meaning
Yeah, I'm making such a mess of my feelings
Won't you just meet me in the middle
Where's the love? Won't you give a little, cause

I believe we're the ones who had it all
I believe we just had to learn to fall
I miss ya, I love ya
So it's really hard to see, yeah
We just gotta let it be

Oooh let us see
Be free

Oooh let us see
Be free

Can't imitate us, it's breaking my bones
Caught up in chaos that keeps me alone
Wasted the beautiful all on my own
I'm making a new home
Washing the sheets cause you're still in my bed
Can't leave the dark cause you're all in my head
All in my head and it's killing me
And it's killing me cause we're at the end

I believe we're the ones who had it all
I believe we just had to learn to fall
I miss ya, I love ya
So it's really hard to see, yeah
We just gotta let it be