Untouchable

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I walked home with my earpiece on.

My peripheral vision picked up as a familiar silhouette came in view.

It was you.

Clad in your formal wear.

Busy looking at your phone.

As you walked past me.

I... could've. Should've. Stopped you.

Acknowledged you.

I wanted to. So bad.

But I guess it's a bad idea.

I watched as slowly passed me.

You're.. untouchable.

And it should be kept that way.

Yeah.

I walked away disheartened.

Knowing I might never see you again.

Sigh.

Love, Eran.

Current Song Mood: Taylor Swift - Untouchable 

Untouchable like a distant diamond sky,
I'm reaching out and I just can't tell you why
I'm caught up in you,
I'm caught up in you

Untouchable, burning brighter than the sun
And when you're close I feel like coming undone

In the middle of the night
When I'm in this dream
It's like a million little stars
Spelling out your name
You gotta come on, come on
Say that we'll be together
Come on, come on
Little taste of Heaven

It's half full, and I won't wait here all day
I know you're saying that you'd be here anyway

But you're untouchable, burning brighter than the sun
And now that you're close I feel like coming undone

In the middle of the night
When I'm in this dream
It's like a million little stars
Spelling out your name
You gotta come on, come on
Say that we'll be together
Come on, come on

Oh, in the middle of the night
Waking from this dream
I wanna feel you by my side
Standing next to me
You gotta come on, come on
Say that we'll be together
Come on, come on
Little taste of Heaven

I'm caught up in you. Oh, oh.

But you're untouchable, burning brighter than the sun
Now that you're close I feel like coming undone

In the middle of the night
When I'm in this dream
It's like a million little stars
Spelling out your name
You gotta come on, come on
Say that we'll be together
Come on, come on, oh, oh

In the middle of the night
When I'm in this dream
It's like a million little stars
Spelling out your name
You gotta come on, come on
Say that we'll be together
Come on, come on, come on

In the middle of the night
Waking from this dream
I wanna feel you by my side
Standing next to me
You gotta come on, come on
Say that we'll be together
Come on, come on
Little taste of Heaven

In the middle of the night
When I'm in this dream
It's like a million little stars
Spelling out your name
You gotta come on, come on
Come on, come on
Come on, come on

Like a million little stars
Spelling out your name
Spelling out your name

Animal

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All around I see happy faces.

When deep inside I feel like a mess.

To be loved.

To be held.

To be.. felt.

I hate this feeling because.

It gets to me.

It just gets so lonely.

And I get so desperate.

And I do things I know won't benefit me.

That I know won't fill up this hole in me.

I am an animal with you.

I want you all to myself...

Is that too much to ask?

Love, Eran.

Current Song Mood: Troye Sivan - Animal

I told you something safe
Something I've never said before
And I, I, I, can't keep my hands off you
While you lie in the wake
Covered all in the night before
I'm high, high, high, no one's got me quite like you

I want you all to myself
Don't leave none for nobody else
I am an animal with you
No angels could beckon me back
And it's hotter than hell where I'm at
I am an animal with you

An ode to the boy I love
Boy I'll die to care for you
You're mine, mine, mine, tell me who do I owe that to
And as the days fly by
We'll be more than getting through, yeah
And in time, time, time, we'll build a home for two

I want you all to myself
Don't leave none for nobody else
I am an animal with you
No angels could beckon me back
It's hotter than hell where I'm at
I am an animal with you

All is right in the meadow
When I'm lying next to my fellow
Baby that's you
Baby that's you
One way trip like an arrow
All laid out like a tarot
Baby that's you
Baby that's you

I want you all to myself
Don't leave none for nobody else
I am an animal with you
No angels could beckon me back
And it's hotter than hell where I'm at
I am an animal with you
...

Insha Allah

Page 1076

The pained look in my Mother's eyes...

As she had to leave all her loved ones behind.

So many people came to send my parents off.

And I'm ever so grateful. Thankful.

The love.. it was felt..

'Forgive me...' she sobbed as she hugged me.

I do Ma. I do.

It's gonna be challenging without my parents for a month.

But hey, we're all grown ups now.

Just.. it gets lonely. Ya know?

To know that there's not gonna be anyone to come home to at times.

Or anyone to cook at home.

Or anyone to send me to work.

Sigh.

I wish them a blessed and fruitful pilgrimage.

I'll pray for you both.

InsyaAllah.

Love, Eran.

Current Song Mood: Maher Zain - Insha Allah

Every time
You feel like you cannot go on
You feel so lost and that you're so alone
All you see is night
And darkness all around
You feel so helpless you can't see which way to go
Don't despair
And never lose hope
'Cause Allah is always by your side

Insha Allah
Insha Allah
Insha Allah
You'll find your way

Insha Allah
Insha Allah
Insha Allah
You'll find your way

Every time
You commit one more mistake
You feel you can't repent and that it's way too late
You're so confused
Wrong decisions you have made
Haunt your mind and your heart is full shame
But don't despair
And never lose hope
'Cause Allah is always by your side

Insha Allah
Insha Allah
Insha Allah
You'll find your way

Insha Allah
Insha Allah
Insha Allah
You'll find your way

Turn to Allah
He's never far away
Put your trust in Him
Raise your hands and pray
Ooh ya Allah
Guide my steps, don't let me go astray
You're the only one who can show me the way
Show me the way
Show me the way
Show me the way

Insha Allah
Insha Allah
Insha Allah
We'll find our way

Insha Allah
Insha Allah
Insha Allah
We'll find our way

Insha Allah
Insha Allah
Insha Allah
We'll find our way

Insha Allah
Insha Allah
Insha Allah
We'll find our way

Insha Allah
Insha Allah
Insha Allah
We'll find our way

Insha Allah
Insha Allah
Insha Allah
We'll find our way

We Are Singapore

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Happy National Day, Singapore. <3

Been so occupied with work and school that I missed the fireworks this year.. sigh.

I've never been one to be patriotic but, I feel like we always take our home for granted.

Thank you for making me feel safe always.

For giving me a chance to live in a comfortable environment.

It's time we strongly claim this land as our own.

And not let it be overrun by 'others'.

We Are Singapore.

And I'm proud to call it my home.

<3

Love, Eran.

Current Song Mood: NDP 2018 - We Are Singapore

Lyrics:
How many times have you heard them say;
“The future is uncertain and everything must change”
Well all of my worries and all of my fears
Begin to lose their weight, when I hold you near

If all that we are is what we believe
Then I know I’ve got to be the change I want to see
How easy we forget that everything takes time
No, nothing's ever perfect, but I still call you mine

This is my country, this is my flag
This is my future, this is my life
This is my family, these are my friends
We are Singapore, Singaporeans

This is my country, this is my flag
This is my future, this is my life
This is my family, these are my friends
We are Singapore, Singaporeans

We, the citizens of Singapore,
pledge ourselves as one united people,
regardless of race, language or religion,
to build a democratic society
based on justice and equality
so as to achieve happiness, prosperity
and progress for our nation.

This is my country, this is my flag
This is my future, this is my life
This is my family, these are my friends
We are Singapore, Singaporeans

We are Singapore, we are Singapore
We will stand together, hear the lion roar
We are Singapore, we are Singapore
We’re a nation strong and free forever more
(This is my country, this is my flag) We are Singapore, we are Singapore
(This is my future, this is my life) We will stand together, hear the lion roar
(This is my family, these are my friends) We are Singapore, we are Singapore
We are Singapore, Singaporeans
We are Singapore, Singaporeans

Beautiful

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Time is just flashing forward so fast.

It gets crazy when you're just.. reminiscing.

About the old times.

Haha.

Wow.

I feel old already.

And I'm only 23.

Feels like I've been a through a heck of a lifetime.

Good vibes.

Good times.

Life is beautiful.

And so are you.

Love, Eran.

Current Song Mood: Bazzi Ft Camila - Beautiful

[Bazzi:]
Hey
Beautiful, beautiful, beautiful, beautiful angel
Love your imperfections, every angle
Tomorrow comes and goes before you know
So I just had to let you know

The way that Gucci look on you, amazing
But nothing can compare to when you're naked
Now a Backwood and some Henny got you faded
You're saying you're the one for me, I need to face it

Started when we were younger
Swear to God that I loved her
Sorry that your mom found out
Guess that we just really had the thunder
Ain't nobody else said I'd be under
Beautiful, beautiful life right now
Beautiful, beautiful night right now
No, no, no

Hey
Beautiful, beautiful, beautiful, beautiful angel
Love your imperfections, every angle
Tomorrow comes and goes before you know
So I just had to let you know

[Camila Cabello:]
Oh my god
Where did the time go?
I wished the hours would go slow
How is it 6 AM?
Your touch is heaven-sent
Beautiful, beautiful sight right now
Beautiful, beautiful life right now
Got the angel saying oh-ah right now like ooh-ah
And you shouldn't worry, you got your touch
Sometimes words are not enough (no)
Tie and lead in your golden kiss
Honey dripping from your lips
I thank God and my lucky stars
Darling, don't you know what you are?
Yeah, baby you are

[Bazzi & Camila Cabello:]
Hey (hey, baby)
Beautiful, beautiful, beautiful, beautiful angel (ooh)
Love your imperfections every angle (baby, baby)
Tomorrow comes and goes before you know (yeah, baby)
So I just had to let you know

The way that Gucci look on you amazing (yeah, yeah)
But nothing can compare to when you're naked (oh)
Tomorrow comes and goes before you know (yeah)
So I just had to let you know (oh-woah yeah)
I just had to let you know
Swear to God you're beautiful (yeah)

I Dont Want To See You Anymore

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I'm used to disappointments.

And people who let me down.

Not even surprised at this point.

Heh. I guess I shouldn't let it bother me anymore.

I'm gonna be doing me from now on.

I'm done with bullshit. Sweet talks. And the lack of action.

I'm tired of putting up with people who don't appreciate me.

Please don't waste my time.

I don't want to see you anymore.

Love, Eran.

Current Song Mood: XYLO - I Don't Want To See You Anymore

I don't wanna know if you're out and you're wasted
I don't wanna know, no it's not complicated
To tell the truth, I'm just tryna stay away from you, from you
And it's hard to shake it off and to forget
When you're friends with every single person I have ever met
To tell the truth, I'm just tryna stay away from you, from you

'Cause I don't wanna see you anymore, anymore
I don't wanna see you anymore, anymore
Every time I see your face it gets me kinda crazy, oh
I don't wanna see you anymore
I don't wanna see you anymore, more

Things will never change till I stop looking for ya
When I see your face it's my personal torture
To tell the truth, I'm just tryna stay away from you, huh, from you
And it's hard to shake it off and to forget
When you're friends with every single person I have ever met
To tell the truth, I'm just tryna stay away from you, from you

'Cause I don't wanna see you anymore, anymore
I don't wanna see you anymore, anymore
Every time I see your face it gets me kinda crazy, oh
I don't wanna see you anymore
I don't wanna see you anymore
I don't wanna see you anymore
I don't wanna see you anymore, more

Woah-oh, aah
I don't wanna see ya
Woah-oh, aah
I don't wanna see ya
Woah-oh, aah
I don't wanna see ya, see ya
Woah-oh, no, no, no, no, no

Every time I see your face it gets me kinda crazy, oh
I don't wanna see you anymore
(Woah-oh, aah)
I don't wanna see you anymore
(Woah-oh, aah)
I don't wanna see you anymore
(Woah-oh, aah)
I don't wanna see you anymore, more
(Woah-oh, aah)
I don't wanna see ya

Rewrite The Stars

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It's been so long since I felt this way.

So mesmerizing...

To just watch life go by.

And realize...

How all the dots are connected.

It struck me deeply today.

As I reconnected with an old friend today.

A heart to heart conversation.

As emotional as the night that fell upon us.

I'm so sorry you had to go through all this...

After all this time..

I finally get to know the truth.

The struggles you went through.

The sacrifices you've made.

All on your own.

You're really... really one of a kind.

An incredibly strong, brave person.

Deep down I wish...

I could just ease the pain away.

And rewrite the stars.

'Don't be sorry for me. Be happy for me.'

The fact that we're here, tonight, discussing about this...

It's all fate.

Everything happens for a reason.

Keep having faith.

You're so special.

And you really, deserve, the best.

Love, Eran.

Current Song Mood: Zac Efron Ft Zendaya - Rewrite The Stars

[Zac Efron:]
You know I want you
It's not a secret I try to hide
I know you want me
So don't keep saying our hands are tied
You claim it's not in the cards
But fate is pulling you miles away
And out of reach from me
But you're here in my heart
So who can stop me if I decide
That you're my destiny?

What if we rewrite the stars?
Say you were made to be mine
Nothing could keep us apart
You'd be the one I was meant to find
It's up to you
And it's up to me
No one can say what we get to be
So why don't we rewrite the stars?
Maybe the world could be ours
Tonight

[Zendaya:]
You think it's easy
You think I don't want to run to you
But there are mountains
And there are doors that we can't walk through
I know you're wondering why
Because we're able to be
Just you and me
Within these walls
But when we go outside
You're gonna wake up and see that it was hopeless after all

No one can rewrite the stars
How can you say you'll be mine
Everything keeps us apart
And I'm not the one you were meant to find
It's not up to you
It's not up to me
When everyone tells us what we can be
How can we rewrite the stars?
Say that the world can be ours
Tonight

[Zac Efron & Zendaya:]
All I want is to fly with you
All I want is to fall with you
So just give me all of you

[Zendaya:]
It feels impossible

[Zac Efron:]
It's not impossible

[Zendaya:]
Is it impossible?

[Both:]
Say that it's possible

[Zac Efron & Zendaya:]
How do we rewrite the stars?
Say you were made to be mine?
Nothing can keep us apart
Cause you are the one I was meant to find
It's up to you
And it's up to me
No one can say what we get to be
Why don't we rewrite the stars?
Changing the world to be ours

[Zendaya:]
You know I want you
It's not a secret I try to hide
But I can't have you
We're bound to break and
My hands are tied