what are you so afraid of

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Do I deserve you?

You've done so much for me.

Sometimes I still feel like I don't.

But I shouldn't be afraid.

Not anymore.

Cause you're not like the rest.

You're so special.

No one treats me like you do.

No one.

You're not past your expiration.

You have me now.

And I have you.

I love you, so so much.

And I would be so lost, if I ever lost you.

Maybe.. that's the only fear I have right now.

Love, Eran.

Current Song Mood: XXXTENTACION - what are you so afraid of

What are you so afraid of?
Is it love or wasting your time?
What are you so afraid of?
Is it love or wasting your time?

Ooh-ooh, ooh-ooh
Ooh-ooh, ooh-ooh
Ooh-ooh, ooh-ooh
Ooh-ooh, ooh-ooh

What are you so afraid of?
Is it love or wasting your time?
What are you so afraid of?
Is it love or wasting your time?

Ooh-ooh, ooh-ooh
Ooh-ooh, ooh-ooh
Ooh-ooh, ooh-ooh
Ooh-ooh, ooh-ooh

Hurricanes

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The sky was so scary today.

Dark & intense.

Perfect for the mind that wanders. 

It's been a while since I've experienced that.

And I guess part of me misses that.

The darkness and melancholy.

Sad but, somehow, calming.

Furious winds and loud booming thunder.

As strong as the hurricanes.

They either disrupt your life, or clear the path for you.

And that's the beauty of it.

The beauty of life.

The beauty in the simplest things.

Love, Eran.

Current Song Mood: Dido - Hurricanes

I wanna wake up
With your weight by my side
And I wanna think that
You look good as you rise
And I wanna turn to you
Turn around by your side
And I wanna think
But not to say

Let me face
The sound and fury
Let me face
Hurricanes

And I wanna see you
As you walk through the door
And time will make us
Some ways less and some ways more
And I wanna talk of nothing
As the world passes by
And I wanna think
But not to say

Let me face
The sound and fury
Let me face
Hurricanes

Let me not turn away
From happiness or pain
Just not to run away
In my heart and in my head
Let me face
Hurricanes

Hurricanes
Hurricanes
Hurricanes
Hurricanes
Hurricanes

Let me face
The sound and fury
Let me face
Hurricanes

Let me face
The sound and fury
Let me face
Hurricanes
Hurricanes
Hurricanes
Hurricanes

All These Years

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After all these years, it was nice to see you again, old friend.

A good catch up it was.

Walking by places we've been through before. 

Reminiscing the old times.

Gossiping about idiots.

And of course, you helping me out with my fashion sense haha.

Things have changed, but I guess we're pretty much the same people.

Driven by our own passions.

You're like that on and off brother figure I needed.

And I hope you find your own happiness, someday.

Love, Eran.

Current Song Mood: Camila Cabello - All These Years

Your hair's grown a little longer
Your arms look a little stronger
Your eyes just as I remember (oh)
Your smile's just a little softer

And I, I never prepared for a moment like that
Yeah, in a second, it all came back, it all came back

'Cause after all these years
I still feel everything when you are near
And it was just a quick "Hello," and you had to go
And you probably will never know
You're still the one I'm after all these years
(Oh yeah)

Couldn't help, but overhear you
Sounds like you're happy with her
But does she kiss you like I kissed you?
Ooh, I wish I loved you like I miss you

And I, I never prepared for a moment like that
Yeah, in a second, it all came back, it all came back

'Cause after all these years
I still feel everything when you are near
And it was just a quick "Hello," and you had to go
And you probably will never know
You're still the one I'm after all these years, oh
'Cause after all these years
I still feel everything when you are near (you are near)
And it was just a quick "Hello," and you had to go (ooh)
And you probably will never know (oh)
You're still the one I'm after all these years

I never told you, I should've told you
I never told you after all these years

I never told you (I never told you)
I never told you
I never told you after all these years

Love Me Insane

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Fruitful day.

Thank you for spending the day with me.

I'm sorry it was short.

But I guess we'll have to make do with what we have.

You're so special.

And I enjoy being with you, every single time. 

:)

Keep loving me insane.

I love it.

& I'm so in love with you.

Love, Eran.

Current Song Mood: Avril Lavigne - Love Me Insane

Yeah yeah, yeah yeah, yeah yeah
Lo-lo-love me insane
Yeah yeah, yeah yeah, yeah yeah

You pick up all of the pieces and put 'em back again
You stitch and sew my heart up all by hand, yeah
I know a good thing when I see one, yeah
And you know I didn’t see this coming

So, baby, let's go insane, insane
Yeah, you make me lose my brain, my brain
From the minute that you asked me what's my name
I know it’s a dangerous game
But love me insane

Yeah yeah, yeah yeah, yeah yeah
Lo-lo-love me insane
Yeah yeah, yeah yeah, yeah yeah
Lo-lo-love me insane

Taking all my clothes off and jumping in, yeah
This time I'm going all out, sink or swim, oh
I know an angel when I see one
I've been stuck with way too many demons, oh

So, baby, let's go insane, insane
Yeah, you make me lose my brain, my brain
From the minute that you asked me what's my name
I know it's a dangerous game
But love me insane

Yeah yeah, yeah yeah, yeah yeah
Lo-lo-love me insane
Yeah yeah, yeah yeah, yeah yeah
Lo-lo-love me insane

And if I fall now, will you catch me?
And if I fall now, will you catch me?
'Cause I can't do this on my own

So, baby, let’s go insane, insane
Yeah, you make me lose my brain, my brain
(Lo-lo-love me insane)
So, baby, let’s go insane, insane
Yeah, you make me lose my brain, my brain
(Lo-lo-love me insane)

Tired

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What a long week its been.

I don't know how I do it.

Juggling everything with the schedule I have.

I feel like time is so short.

But it doesn't stop ticking away.

So I can't stop.

Nope.

Even though Im tired.

Gotta keep working my ass off.

Spending time with my loved ones.

Music. School. Work.

Cause it's all.. gonna be worth it.

:)

Love, Eran.

Current Song Mood: Jasmine Sokko - Tired

[Verse 1]
I'm on my own in the corner
With these people I don't know somehow
It's like a heavy situation
I can't drink my way out of it
Now these ice ain't breaking
So it's melting in my drink
Where the taste is failing
Like your insincerity

[Chorus]
Lately I just feel so tired, not because of my sleep
I don't like nobody and nobody likes me
I'm tired of the peacock speech
I don't like nobody and nobody likes me
I'm tired, not because of my sleep
I don't think I'm ready for the cliché speech
I'm tired, but I can't explain

[Verse 2]
Now people walk in and out
Anytime as if I'm a door
It's like we're making all these strangers
Out of friends and maybe more
Now these ice ain't breaking
So it's melting in my drink

[Chorus]
Lately I just feel so tired, not because of my sleep
I don't like nobody and nobody likes me
I'm tired of the peacock speech
I don't like nobody and nobody likes me
I'm tired, not because of my sleep
I don't think I'm ready for the cliché speech
I'm tired, but I can't explain

[Bridge]
(Oh, I'm not sleepy)
(Oh, I need some space)
Now these ice ain't breaking
So it's melting in my drink
Where the taste is failing
Like your insincerity

[Chorus]
Lately I just feel so tired, not because of my sleep
I don't like nobody and nobody likes me
I'm tired of the peacock speech
I don't like nobody and nobody likes me
I'm tired, not because of my sleep
I don't think I'm ready for the cliché speech
I'm tired, but I can't explain

Now That I Found You

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Is it weird that I miss you, every single time?

Sometimes I still feel like I'm in a dream.

A good one.

It's like we can never be separate for too long.

Now that I found you. :)

Haha.

I've always been needy.

Just didnt know.. that I needed you so much. 

Yesterday was the perfect example.

An impromptu movie date, and I loved it.

It feels good, to just see you again.

Thank you for always putting so much effort in me.

I appreciate you so much, love.

And I can't waaaait to spend time with you again.

:)

Love, Eran.

Current Song Mood: Carly Rae Jepsen - Now That I Found You

Waking up next to you every morning
How did we get this far? It came without a warning
And in the nighttime, you tell me your whole life
You and me get too real but all I feel is alright

My heart's a secret, mmm, I think I'm coming alive, yeah
I think I'm coming alive with you
Tell me you'll keep it, mmm, I think I'm coming alive, yeah
I come alive with you

Don't give it up, don't say it hurts
'Cause there's nothing like this feeling, baby
Now that I found you
I want it all
No, there's nothing like this feeling, baby
Now that I found you
Now that I found you
Now that I found you

Give me the words I want, baby, just say it
You know me way too well to keep it complicated
I don't wanna hide my love
I don't wanna waste it (I don't wanna waste it)
But I can't deny the moment when I taste it

My heart's a secret, mmm, I think I'm coming alive, yeah
I think I'm coming alive with you
Tell me you'll keep it, mmm, I think I'm coming alive, yeah
I come alive with you

Don't give it up (Don't give it up)
Don't say it hurts (Don't say it hurts)
'Cause there's nothing like this feeling, baby
Now that I found you
I want it all (I want it all)
No, there's nothing like this feeling, baby
Now that I found you
Now that I found you
Now that I found you

Thought it was impossible
It's just like a miracle
Say nothing's impossible now
Now that I found, now that I found you
Now that I found, now that I found you

Don't say it hurts (Don't say it hurts)
'Cause there's nothing like this feeling, baby
Now that I found you
I want it all (I want it all)
No, there's nothing like this feeling, baby
Now that I found you (Oh)
Now that I found you
Now that I found you (Oh)
Now that I found you
Now that I found you

7 Rings

Page 1179

Thankful.

Blessed.

A day as valuable as 7 rings. 

With close company, good food, and music to fuel my soul.

Nothing like.. a productive day.

Thank you for the belated celebration.

Here's a good start to March.

Lets get it.

I see it.

I like it.

I want it.

I got it.

Love, Eran.

Current Song Mood: Ariana Grande - 7 Rings

Yeah
Breakfast at Tiffany's and bottles of bubbles
Girls with tattoos who like getting in trouble
Lashes and diamonds, ATM machines
Buy myself all of my favorite things

Yeah
Been through some bad shit, I should be a sad bitch
Who would have thought it'd turn me to a savage?
Rather be tied up with cuffs and not strings
Write my own checks like I write what I sing

My wrist, stop watchin'
My neck is flossin'
Make big deposits
My gloss is poppin'

You like my hair?
Gee, thanks! Just bought it
I see it, I like it
I want it, I got it
Yeah

I want it, I got it
I want it, I got it
I want it, I got it
I want it, I got it

You like my hair?
Gee, thanks! Just bought it
I see it, I like it
I want it, I got it
Yeah

Wearin' a ring but ain't gon' be no "Mrs."
Bought matching diamonds for six of my bitches
I'd rather spoil all my friends with my riches
Think retail therapy my new addiction

Whoever said money can't solve your problems
Must not have had enough money to solve 'em
They say, "Which one?" I say, "Nah, I want all 'em."
Happiness is the same price as "red-bottoms"

My smile is beamin'
My skin is gleamin'
The way it shine
I know you've seen it
You've seen it

I bought a crib
Just for the closet
Both his and hers
I want it, I got it
Yeah

I want it, I got it
I want it, I got it
I want it, I got it
I want it, I got it
Baby

You like my hair?
Gee, thanks! Just bought it
Oh, yeah
I see it, I like it
I want it, I got it
Yep

Yeah, my receipts be lookin' like phone numbers
If it ain't money, then wrong number
Black Card is my business card
The way it be settin' the tone for me

I don't mean to brag
But I be like, "Put it in the bag."
Yeah
When you see them racks
They stacked up like my ass
Yeah

Shoot
Go from the store to the booth
Make it all back in one loop
Gimme the loot
Never mind, I got the juice
Nothin' but net when we shoot

Look at my neck
Look at my jet
Ain't got enough money to pay me respect
Ain't no budget when I'm on the set
If I like it then that's what I get
Yeah

I want it, I got it
I want it, I got it
Yeah
I want it, I got it
I want it, I got it
Oh, yeah, yeah

You like my hair?
Gee, thanks! Just bought it
I see it, I like it
I want it, I got it
Yeah