Skinnydipped

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HEY!!!!

Just a quick update.

Sorry for the wait.

I know I've been missing for a bit.

Just been busy hustling with my part-time.

And taking newer roles and responsibilities at my full-time.

Taking it day by day.

This month is passing by in a blink of an eye.

Well, the last work week for the month has ended for me. 

Time for a 'break.'

Well not exactly, but I'll be going for reservist and clearing some leaves in the coming weeks.

Not exactly excited for reservist cause I didnt quite have a good one 2 years ago (LOLOL).

But anyways, at least there will be familiar faces! Quite excited to catch up hahah.

For now, the weekends are almost here and I'm just gonna relax, unwind and spend time with me partner. :)

Cheerss.

Love, Eran.

Ps. This new BANKS song rocksss.

Current Song Mood: BANKS - Skinnydipped

I'm a little late
Uh-uh, uh-uh
Get your water for the wait
Uh-uh, uh-uh

I dabble in the past, yeah, I said it
I finally admit it
I told you it was over then I skinny-dipped and did it
I shoulda known better but I didn't overthink it
And I probably would've floated but I sank it

Took a dive in the deep and forgot to move
Swam with the fish till my kiss turn blue
I aired out my sheets 'cause they smell like you
I cleaned out the salt in my wounds

And I'm a little late
Uh-uh, uh-uh
Get your water for the wait
Uh-uh, uh-uh
Take you out onto the lake
Uh-uh, uh-uh
Then I'll let you swim away
Uh-uh, uh-uh

I step on every crack, gimme credit
Your ego never fed it
My legs just caught a cold and so I didn't wanna spread it
You told me if I tried to walk away, I would regret it
Maybe if I didn't swim I woulda sweat it

Used to read every story about me and you
Checked out your book, now it's overdue
I tried to return 'cause I'm over you
I cleaned out the salt in my wounds

And I'm a little late
Uh-uh, uh-uh
Get your water for the wait
Uh-uh, uh-uh
Take you out onto the lake
Uh-uh, uh-uh
Then I'll let you swim away
Uh-uh, uh-uh

Acting like you know me
Instead of trying to show me
Say you praise my body
I could love somebody else
Better if I was lonely
Justified to hold me
Maybe if I was the only
Better if I woulda known better

And I'm a little late
Uh-uh, uh-uh
Get your water for the wait
Uh-uh, uh-uh
Take you out onto the lake
Uh-uh, uh-uh
Then I'll let you swim away
Uh-uh, uh-uh

The Devil

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Shucks. 

It has begun.

Gates of hell has opened and the devil lurks in every corner.

Quite an interesting activity going on just now.

The garden outside my workplace probably looks like a graveyard by now.

:D

I for one, particularly don't look forward to this particular month because so many things happened to me last year (my injuries & workplace blowing up etc).

Meh.

Life still goes on.

I on the other hand, am not looking to go back to work after 3 days away.

Where did the time go man????

But then again I did enjoy spending time with my partner. :)

Living & Loving.

In the comfort of our own space.

I'm forever thankful.

🤍

Love, Eran.

Current Song Mood: BANKS - The Devil

I'm the devil and I speed with the pedal on the gas
And I think I like a fast life better now
I'm the devil, did they tell you I'm the devil?
Put your faith in another life past

Someone write my new name down
Someone write my new name down
Someone write my new name down
Someone write my new name down

Way down I go
Got a one-way ticket and the devil waiting
Call from down low
Naïve I know

Pu-pu-pu-pull me back down through the fire
Write my name down for the hire
I hear the bones in the devil retired
So someone write my new name down
Cuz I'm the
DEVIL

I'm the devil and I speed with the pedal on the gas
And I think I like a fast life better now
I'm the devil, did they tell you I'm the devil?
Put your faith in another life past

I'm the devil and I speed with the pedal on the gas
And I think I like a fast life better now
I'm the devil, did they tell you I'm the devil?
Put your faith in another life past

Rectified while feeding me for lying
And it taste so good
Two on my shoulder
One of em right
Black and the white
Certified- I ain't the nice one

Pu-pu-pu-pull em back all the opinions
I ain't really bothered and it taste so good
And you liking me ain't something I desire
So someone write my new name down
Cuz I'm the
DEVIL

I'm the devil and I speed with the pedal on the gas
And I think I like a fast life better now
I'm the devil, did they tell you I'm the devil?
Put your faith in another life past

I'm the devil and I speed with the pedal on the gas
And I think I like a fast life better now
I'm the devil, did they tell you I'm the devil?
Put your faith in another life past

I go
Way down
Cuz I'm the
DEVIL now
I go
Way down
I go
Way down
Cuz I'm the
DEVIL now

Cuz I'm the
DEVIL now

Cuz I'm the
DEVIL now

Happier Than Ever

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Happy August! :)

Have you heard Billie Eilish's new album???

If not, you are trulyyyyy, respectfullyyyy, missing out.

Even though I've told myself I don't want to overplay it.

I did.

Haha.

There's so much nostalgia in this album. With influences from old rnb throwback tracks. And heck, even Avril Lavigne!

It is timeless. And cathartic. And a classic.

And makes me feel things I have not felt in a lot time.

Everyone seems to be embracing their rock/pop-punk roots again.

And as did Billie with the second half of Happier Than Ever.

I remembered listening to it with my partner and we both were just going crazy and rolling on the floor when it went all out maaaaaad. That feeling was just, sooo surreal. Special. & Priceless.

It's why I love music.

Heck, even Ms Hayley Williams herself came back from her hiatus to tweet about her.

Which Billie acknowledge on Insta herself! Hehe.

It's sooo crazy. 

And then there's the music video.

 I had goosebumps watching it. Especially when she was in the rain and being herself. And the ending where she just jumped into the water. And disappeared. 

Damn.

She really outdid herself this era.

And I'm so inspired to see her continue growing. 

:)

Love, Eran.

Current Song Mood: Billie Eilish - Happier Than Ever

When I'm away from you
I'm happier than ever
Wish I could explain it better
I wish it wasn't true

Give me a day or two
To think of something clever
To write myself a letter
To tell me what to do

Do you read my interviews?
Or do you skip my avenue?
When you said you were passing through
Was I even on your way?

I knew when I asked you to
Be cool about what I was telling you
You'd do the opposite of what you said you'd do
And I'd end up more afraid

Don't say it isn't fair
You clearly weren't aware that you
Made me miserable
So if you really wanna know

When I'm away from you
I'm happier than ever
Wish I could explain it better
I wish it wasn't true

You call me again, drunk in your Benz
Driving home under the influence
You scared me to death but I'm wasting my breath
'Cause you only listen to your fucking friends

I don't relate to you
I don't relate to you, no
'Cause I'd never treat me this shitty
You made me hate this city

And I don't talk shit about you on the internet
Never told anyone anything bad
'Cause that shit's embarrassing, you were my everything
And all that you did was make me fucking sad

So don't waste the time I don't have
And don't try to make me feel bad

I could talk about every time that you showed up on time
But I'd have an empty line 'cause you never did
Never paid any mind to my mother or friends so I
Shut 'em all out for you 'cause I was a kid

You ruined everything good
Always said you were misunderstood
Made all my moments your own
Just fucking leave me alone

Such Great Heights

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HELLOOOOO.

Been a while huh.

I've just been getting lazier. 

Literally spent the rest of the day lazing away after work today.

Whatever, it's the weekends.

Caught this movie called 'Garden State' (2004).

It's always been on my watchlist since I watched a video of Frou Frou's song 'Let Go' during my Secondary School Days.

Man, this movie really got to me.

It's about a troubled actor that that came back after a decade to attend his mother's funeral.

He went on this healing journey to sort of 'find himself' throughout the movie and confronted past issues such as his overbearing father. That was.. a lot. All this while battling through his mental health issues.

As dark as it was, it had lighter tones to it as he came across a quirky girl whom he fell in love with. They're moments together were so sweet. 

With them embracing and her asking; ''How are you feeling?'

And he responds 'Safe. When I'm with you, I feel so safe. Like I'm home.' 

This movie gave me a lot of feels for some reason. It was nostalgic, and had a few comedic moments too. Haha. I'm glad I finally got to watch it.

Have a good weekend. x

Love, Eran.

Current Song Mood: Iron & Wine - Such Great Heights

I am thinking it's a sign
That the freckles in our eyes
Are mirror images and when we kiss
They're perfectly aligned

And I have to speculate
That God himself did make us
Into corresponding shapes
Like puzzle pieces from the clay

And true it may seem like a stretch
But it's thoughts like this that catch
My troubled head when you're away
When I am missing you to death

When you are out there on the road
For several weeks of shows
And when you scan the radio
I hope this song will guide you home

They will see us waving from such great heights
Come down now, they'll say
But everything looks perfect from far away
Come down now but we'll stay

I've tried my best to leave
This all on your machine
But the persistent beat
It sounded thin upon listening

And that frankly will not fly
You'll hear the shrillest highs
And lowest lows with the windows down
When this is guiding you home

They will see us waving from such great heights
Come down now, they'll say
But everything looks perfect from far away
Come down now but we'll stay

Come Through

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Not sure how I got through work today.

I wasn't myself and so distracted.

Pondering on whether my feelings were valid.

And just feeling so..

Vulnerable.

Still managed to come through.

For my own sake.

I had to.

I hate working with a heavy heart and a pitting feeling in my gut.

It truly sucks.

Talking it out makes me feel so much better.

When I usually keep this in my head.

I'm so.. used to that.

Ok, no more getting worked up.

It's time for the weekends.

Love, Eran.

Current Song Mood: H.E.R. Ft Chris Brown - Come Through

Almost missed my flight today
I look good even though I feel shitty
I just got back out this way
You already got plans for the city
Call 'em off, could you call 'em off for me?
You're always going on and on
Got it all, ask me why I'll never leave
I don't go out much

But you should come through tonight
I'm chilling on the Westside, boo
Call my homegirl, tell your best friend he could slide too
On the low, a remote location
I don't want them seein' me getting faded
You should come through tonight
I only kick it with a tight crew
They won't tell 'cause they tryna live they best life too
On the low on my own, I'll be wavy
Hit me on my phone, I'll be waiting
Yeah yeah

Looking at you cry, going crazy
If I could, I would take the pain away
I don't see that smile I made
You already made plans that ain't with me
Trying hard, I been trying hard to breathe
Inhale, exhale, you expel what you been doing to me
Fighting it off, you been fighting me off for weeks
Don't leave, 'cause I need ya

But you should come through tonight
I'm chilling on the Westside, boo
Call my homegirl, tell your best friend he could slide too
On the low, a remote location
I don't want them seein' me getting faded
You should come through tonight
I only kick it with a tight crew
They won't tell 'cause they tryna live they best life too
On the low on my own, I'll be wavy
Hit me on my phone, I'll be waiting
Yeah yeah

I ain't really tryna spend no time
In the house, if you ask me how I'm feeling
I said yes to going out tonight
Oh I ain't did that in a minute
Called it off, oh, I called it off for you
You're always going on and on
Ask me why, oh, why I'm not with you
I don't go out much

But you should come through tonight
I'm chilling on the Westside, boo
Call my homegirl, tell your best friend he could slide too
On the low, a remote location
I don't want them seein' me getting faded
You should come through tonight
I only kick it with a tight crew
They won't tell 'cause they tryna live they best life too
On the low on my own, I'll be wavy
Hit me on my phone, I'll be waiting
Yeah yeah

Faded, uh
Hit me on my phone, I'll be waiting, waiting
Yeah yeah yeah, uh
Hit me on my phone, hit me on my phone, yeah
Ooh, I'll be waiting, yeah
Hitting me, alone, oh yeah yeah
Give me a call, oh yeah yeah
Give me a call, yeah

My Own

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Do I have the right?

To be feeling whatever I'm feeling right now?

Am I allowed to? 

Because I feel selfish. I feel wrong. Why do I feel this way?

Because you don't feel good. - You haven't been for some time.

Do I give in? I do right? Because it's the right thing. 

Right?

It's because I've planned it in advanced. 

It's because I hate when things don't work out the way I've planned in my head.

Like how I was looking forward to it the whole day.

Prepared for it.

Because I wanted to do it with you.

Because I can't see you tomorrow.

Took the effort to plan. Friday night instead of Saturday because I know that you're working out Sunday morning.

I drank coffee cause I was prepared to stay up.

These little things yet. I feel like I'm the petty one. Maybe I am.

Why?

Just.

Why is it that I always have to be the bigger person?

To give in and say it's okay.

'It's fine.'

When really, it's not.

I really don't have anyone to talk this out to.

I don't think I want to.

Because it's really not a big deal.

Honest.

But it's the little things that seem to hurt the most.

Or maybe I'm just an emotional wreck right now.

Just.. trying to hold my own.

Love, Eran.

Current Song Mood: H.E.R. - My Own

Said I been away too long
Every time I hear that song
I don't wanna hear it no more
Baby I can't take no more from you
I don't wanna play no more
Don't be going back and forth on me
I be already on call
Even when I know it's wrong for me

Something
Don't know but it's something
I don't wanna work for something knowing it ain't worth it, no
Coming
You knew it was coming
You should know that I don't act like that without a purpose, no

Call me crazy baby, you just bring outta me
I'm tryna do better, but you ain't been helping me
Baby I can't help it, you know how to get to me
I, I...

I been tryna hold my own
My own, my own
Oh baby on my own
My own, my own
Ooh...

Don't mind me, cuz it ain't bout you
We both need space, and that's all so true
Know it's okay, if you can't come through
I'm saving your place, and it's all for you

We been waiting too long
I be tryna keep calm
Either way we both wrong
I been waiting on a call
Ooh I really wanna call you
I been tryna be strong
You're the only I wanna talk to

Ah yeah, you just know me better
And it just gets better
Just let me undress ya
On you, on you...
I just love to feel it
When you go inside it
And I get excited
Ooh...
You...
You...

Baby, you keep showing out
But I just can't slow it down
Cuz I just want you right now
With me now
Don't you keep on holding out
Giving me the run around
Are you just noticing now

I'm on my own
My own, my own
Ooh baby, on my own
My own, my own
I been tryna hold my own
My own, my own
I'm just tryna hold my own
My own, my own
Yeah...

Celebrate

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WHEEEEEW what a fun weekend it's been.

To celebrate life and some time off of work.

Was supposed to be on leave for a week but it was cut short.

But hey, I'll take what I get.

Did a lot with my partner over the weekend.

A staycation (who needs a hotel???), Loads of coffee & foooooood, and movies :)

Seriously, the coffee we had this week has been on point hahaha.

I mean look at that.

So insta-worthy. And it tasted as good as it looked!

The weather has been amazing too. Reminded me of how gloomy Melbourne 2 years ago. We were reminiscing so much.

We finally caught 'A Quiet Place 2'. The movie blew us away as usual. I hope this franchise expands as much as it can. Seriously, not for the faint-hearted. 5/5!!!!

Mini photo sesh haha. Despite the rain.

Haven't had this much fun in a while. :)

So thankful. So grateful.

Until next time. x

Love, Eran.

Current Song Mood: Isaac Dunbar - Celebrate 

Get your head up out of bed and put on your coat
It's easier said than done
If I could do it, you can do it
You'll never know, you're in your head (Here's my love)
You can blame it on the memories that ruin your day
Blame it on your bad luck and stay the same
Or maybe you could break the curse
You never know but I know

Those good days are somethin' you choose
You don't have to fight, fight, you got nothin' to lose
So let go of all the weight
And let's celebrate the pain, yeah

Celebrate with me, today, tomorrow, and yesterday (Yesterday)
Celebrate all your pain to me
Celebrate all your pain to me
Celebrate with me, forever, never and for only a day (Only a day)
Celebrate all your pain to me
Celebrate all your pain to me

On and on and on, the days they blend
I lost myself (I lost my friends)
I marinated in the hate and hated the love
Alone I stayed (Where's my head?)

Those good days are somethin' you choose
You don't have to fight, fight, you got nothin' to lose
So let go of all the weight
And let's celebrate the pain, yeah

Celebrate with me, today, tomorrow, and yesterday (Yesterday)
Celebrate all your pain to me
Celebrate all your pain to me
Celebrate with me, forever, never and for only a day (Only a day)
Celebrate all your pain to me
Celebrate all your pain to me

Accept the love
It's right in front of your face
Oh, what are you waiting for?
It's right in front of your face
Oh, accept the love
It's right in front of your face
Oh, and celebrate all your pain to me
Celebrate all your pain to me

Maybe you need some time
Maybe you need some space
Or maybe you need
To ce-ce-celebarate

Celebrate with me, today, tomorrow, and yesterday (Yesterday)
Celebrate all your pain to me
Celebrate all your pain to me
Celebrate with me, forever, never and for only a day (Only a day)
Celebrate all your pain to me
Celebrate all your pain to me

Accept the love
It's right in front of your face
Oh, what are you waiting for?
It's right in front of your face
Oh, accept the love
It's right in front of your face
Oh, and celebrate all your pain to me
Celebrate all your pain to me