Dawn FM // BED

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WEEEEEEEEEEE.

How was your weekend?

Because mine was absolutely perfect.

Turned 27 recently.

Damn. Time flies. What an odd number.

 I spent last year dreading my birthday...

I spent the start of the year wanting to disappear.

But this year, this weekend, I decided to celebrate.. life.

And that's exactly what happened.

A weekend away @ St Regis Hotel.

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Such a grand lobby! Everything was so posh. We felt so underdressed haha.

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Just look at that. What a beautiful, luxurious space. It was exactly what I wanted. :)

A huge bed and toilet + bathtub? A huge window. Marble designs? Chandeliers? Hell yeah I could stay here forever.

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Views from the gym. Equipments were pretty decent.

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Views from Remede Spa, and its facilities (Jacuzzi, sauna, steam room, out door jacuzzi). I was the only soul around so I had the facilities all to myself. ;)

Massage was good, albeit overpriced than usual, but service was great. They even went out of their way and gave me a small birthday present! 

                                                 

What's a rainy day without hot chocolate? :)

Absolutely loved that I could see the big sky from the couch. Wish I spent more time on it.

Did some music stuff for fun. Heh.

A perfect gift from my partner. I didn't expect that. Thank you so much. :')

The assorted cheese & crackers was definitely.. an interesting experience. Rich people food. xD 

Had the best dinner @ Harry's. The outdoor dining was perfect & romantic. And the food quality for its discounted price??? What are the odds.

Breakfast the next morning was perfectly splendid! Though some dishes were kinda bland, and the waitress forgot some of our orders. It was still a nice & cozy experience. And I was reallyyy full.

Finally got our sausages lmao.

The ambience was really pretty.

Banana fritters on the house from the chef. AKA atas goreng pisang. xD

More stills from the rooms by le partner. :)

Bubble baths are LIFE. I spent everyday soaking and splashing around hahah. 

Everyday's your birthday, right?

Yes.

Last breakfast before check-out. :( 

And of course, a little shoot before we leave.

Hehe.

Overall, that was the best birthday celebration I've ever had. Truly. And a perfect staycation.

A quiet, peaceful get-away from work & family. The Weather had been so perfect throughout too.

It was like all the stars were aligned.

I couldn't ask for anything more.

Thank you to my wonderful partner. And the kind people at St Regis for this experience.

I definitely recommend this hotel for anyone who wants to experience luxury haha. 

And I would definitelyyy come back again. 

Forever grateful. 🤍

Love, Eran.

Current Song Mood#1: The Weeknd - DAWN FM

Current Song Mood #2 - Joel Corry, RAYE, David Guetta - Bed

I got a bed, but I'd rather be in yours, yours

9:05 in the evening
I'm all up in my feelings
I'm calling your phone 'cause I can't get enough
And I got work in the morning
Early, early in the morning
But who needs sleep when we're loving it up

Oh oh why'd I gotta do this the hard way?
My body wants to be in your arms, bae, baby
Something I'll regret in the morning
But I just can't resist when you're calling

I got a bed, but I'd rather be in yours tonight
I got a bed, but I'd rather be in (Yours, yours, yours)
That's what I said when I called you on the phone tonight
I got a bed, but I'd rather be in yours

You know I sleep on the left side
If you sleep on the left side
I'll move to the right, yeah, I'd do it for you, oh oh
And I got work in the morning
Early, early in the morning
But who needs sleep when I'm rockin' with you

Oh oh why'd I gotta do this the hard way?
My body wants to be in your arms, bae, baby
Something I'll regret in the morning
But I just can't resist when you're calling

I got a bed, but I'd rather be in yours tonight
I got a bed, but I'd rather be in (Yours, yours, yours)
That's what I said when I called you on the phone tonight
I got a bed, but I'd rather be in yours

I got a bed, but I'd rather be in yours tonight
I got a bed, but I'd rather be in (Yours, yours, yours)
That's what I said when I called you on the phone tonight
I got a bed, but I'd rather be in yours

Ooh ooh
Know I need your love
Know I need your love
Yeah
Ooh ooh
Know I need your love
Know I need your love

Been way too long on the phone right now
What you saying, wanna roll right now
If you don't wanna be on your own right now
Ring my phone 'cause

I got a bed, but I'd rather be in yours tonight
But I'd rather be in (Yours, yours, yours)
Oh whoa

I got a bed, but I'd rather be in yours tonight
I got a bed, but I'd rather be in (Yours, yours, yours)
That's what I said when I called you on the phone tonight
I got a bed, but I'd rather be in yours

Been way too long on the phone right now
What you saying, wanna roll right now
If you don't wanna be on your own right now
Ring my phone 'cause

I got a bed, but I'd rather be in yours tonight
I got a bed, but I'd rather be in (Yours, yours, yours)

Dont Know Why

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Progress

My partner and colleagues says I’m looking much healthier these days. It’s been a slow but steady progress. But I haven't felt this great in a long time. Keeping it up :)

A new work environment

Received news a couple weeks ago that I will be transferring to the new centre in February. Saying goodbye has always the hardest. I’ve had so much fun working here, despite the certain things that have happened. Bittersweet at best. I will definitely miss everyone. And that’s part of life, change. My wonderful colleagues even cooked for me. Haha, I am truly lucky. 

Nan Gyi Thoke, an amazing Burmese cuisine!

My sweet mentor. I will miss making dirty jokes with her HAHAHA. And also carpool karaoke in her car!

Dont know why, but I have mixed feelings about leaving. But well, I am quite excited as well to be working somewhere nearer to home. And the fact that it is right opposite my old secondary school. Wow. Nostalgic trip. Hahah. It’s like.. life’s coming into full circle. I am excited to see what this next chapter will bring. :) 

Ghostly Kisses Album

Ghostly Kisses - Heaven, Wait

She just released this amazing album, and it's been on repeat for the past few days. Feels like a soft kiss to the cheeks and a layer of soft blanket placed over you. What beautiful music. And I wouldn’t have gotten to know about her if it wasn’t for my partner. :) 

All Of Us Are Dead

Recently started binging on this new Korean zombie Show. You know how great their series usually are right? But wow. Just halfway through the season and I am already blown away by the cinematography and storyline/acting etc. Insane shots!!! This is a HUGEEE production and making horror fans like me and my partner so proud. Hehe. Cant wait to finish it! 

That's all for now. Kinda nervous to start working at my new workplace tomorrow. Wish me luck! And Happy CNY!

Love Eran.

Current Song Mood: Ghostly Kisses - Don't Know Why

Go now, love
Don't wanna talk
Won't forget what we're fighting for
Don't draw new blood
No tug of war
Can't you see I'm tired of it all?

Don't know why
Could never make it alright
Don't know why
Could never make it alright
Cause deep inside
There's nothing but hurt where love's died
Oh no, I
Don't want to make it alright

If somehow
I could have known
What you have in mind that I don't
Silent smoking gun
Wish I could run
Can't you see I'm tired of it all

Don't know why
Could never make it alright
Don't know why
Could never make it alright
Cause deep inside
There's nothing but hurt where love's died
Oh no, I
Don't want to make it alright

Don't want to make it alright
Don't want to make it alright
Don't want to make it alright
Don't want to make it alright
Don't want to make it alright
Don't want to make it alright
Don't want to make it alright

Flower In The Dark

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Hi guys :)

It's currently mid-Jan and I just wanted to post some updates.

My mental health

Been away from soc med for about 2 weeks (on and off) and I've got to say, I've never felt this good in a long time.

It took me back to the days where social media wasn't a thing and I was just living life as a normal little boy.

It's been the best thing I've done for my mental health lately, asides from the diets that I've been putting myself on.

Started having fish and veggies daily and I must say - I've noticed a significant difference in my body. Each day I feel like myself again. It really does work wonders, and I'm gonna keep on doing it :)

Of course, weekends are still for cheat days hehe.

 3 Years Anniversary

Celebrated my anniversary with my partner at Gardens By The Bay.

I suppose the most memorable part was walking through the sky walk (holy shit).

Yeap, definitely confirmed that I'm still scared of heights HAHA.

Here are some really fantastic shots by my partner:

I'm so lucky. Hehe. Such a fun night! And a breathtaking view from the bridge. Also, we had Satay By The Bay. Damn.  The food was amazing. I miss it already. Will definitely come back. 😍

Scream 5 

Ok. SCROLL AWAY IF YOU HAVENT WATCHEDDDDDD

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Hands down, the most brutal Scream movie I've seen.

The fact that they killed of some OG characters like the amazing Dewey???

Oh man. That was heartbreaking.

Officer Judy and Wes (Dylan Minnette) didn't deserve to die the way they did.

I could cry just thinking about it.

NOOOOOOOOOOOO. </3

This movie is different, and paid respects to its legacy.

I'm all here for it.

And to the future sequels.

>_<

Ok that's all.

A big thank you to my partner for keeping me sane.

Take care guys. x

Love, Eran.

Current Song Mood: Fiji Blue - Flower In The Dark

Guess you're gone now (guess you're gone)

When the sun hides at night

Does it fall down (does it fall down)

Or does someone cut its ties?

I've been lonely (I've been lonely)

Every day (every day)

I've been wonderin'

If I should stay

'Cause I've been lonely (I've been lonely)

Every day (every day)

And I wonder why I feel this way

And I don't think I could wait

And there's nothin' you could say

That would keep me from the stars

Yeah, I think I need a place

With somewhere to escape

Like a flower in the dark

I've been lonely (I've been lonely)

Every day (every day)

I've been wonderin'

If I should stay

'Cause I've been lonеly (I've been lonely)

Every day (every day)

And I wonder why I feel this way

Guess you'rе gone now (guess you're gone)

When the sun hides at night

Does it fall down

Or does someone need its light?

I've been lonely (I've been lonely)

Every day (every day)

I've been wonderin'

If I should stay

'Cause I've been lonely

Every day

And I wonder why I feel this way

And I don't think I could wait

And there's nothing you could say

That would keep me from the stars (keep me from)

Yeah, I think I need a place

With somewhere to escape

Like a flower in the dark

I've been lonely (I've been lonely)

Every day (every day)

I've been wonderin'

If I should stay (I should stay)

'Cause I've been lonely

Every day (every day)

And I wonder why I feel this way

I've been lonely

Every day

I've been wonderin'

If I should stay

'Cause I've been lonely

Every day

And I wonder why I feel this way

Zero

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Happy New Year!

I know I haven't been blogging much. 

Sometimes I have a lot of things to say, but I just don't know how to put them into words.

I'm still figuring out what's the best way to express myself.

But I guess this shall do, for now.

2021 has been a rollercoaster of emotions, much like other years.

Highlights of 2021:

-Releasing an acoustic EP. I've always felt that my first EP lacked in terms of its poor mastering. Took some guts, sought out a producer I've always wanted to work with, and created another version of my music that I was really proud of. The fact that I have a few regular listeners just makes me smile. :) Thank you.

- Getting through my wisdom tooth removal. Something very painful I went through, but very much necessary. It was also the period where I finally saw some weight loss, albeit it eventually got gained back. I think it's so important to do a thorough check on your dental, very much a self-care thing that I plan to have every 6 months. You'll feel so much better!

-Gaming made me feel like myself. I got back into gaming the start of the year. It made me feel like I was reclaiming a lost part of myself. Because I used to play RuneScape when I was younger. I've accomplished a lot there, and it's always nice to banter with your online friends. It was definitely a safe space for me to escape. 

-Starting a side job. I've always felt that I wasn't earning enough for myself. Or for my qualifications. Starting a side job, was the start of a hustle. I had slightly more financial freedom. However, I was constantly tired, and it drained the life out of me. It was nice while it lasted. Maybe I'll find some other things to do in 2022? :)

-Lots of Food-Hopping. All thanks to my partner and his close friends. Hahah. I'm really grateful to them for having me around. And I feel like I've visited so many places and experienced new things because of them. I don't have a lot of friends I can do that with, and I also have a hard time coming out of my shell. So I'm very very thankful. 

-Therapeutic music & movies. Last year was an influx of so many amazing tv shows, movies and albums, that I even made a long list. Haha. The best being Marvel movies, which they have really fed us really well last year. The songs released this year have also been very therapeutic. Most notably Hayley Williams, Emmitt Fenn, Lonely The Brave, JoJo etc. There is really too many to list out and digest. But man, they've added so much value to my life. So thankful. 

Sometimes I feel like I have been through a lot, personally.

And sometimes I feel like I haven't changed, that I'm back to square one.

Yeah, I'm talking about my insecurities.

I try to convince myself that I have tried my best. But maybe it wasn't hard enough.

My emotions got the better of me last night, and I even felt...

Well.. 

Lets just say I wasn't in control of my thoughts.

And that was really scary for me.

So I decided I direly needed to work on myself more.

And that shall be my main resolution for this year.

For a start, I decided to temporarily disable all of my social media.

For how long? I'm not sure. I'll give it a week, a month, even a year. To see if it makes any difference.

Why?  Because its not the best place to be for your mental health.

You tend to compare yourself to others. Their accomplishments and happiness.

Anyway.. It's just something I've been wanting to do. If my sis Hayley Williams can do it, why cant I?

I'm just trying to find my own. Which I do have, and am very grateful for (My stable job, my loving partner, a roof over my head etc). I just feel that I'm better off without social media, for now. 

I've learnt to be more private this year. Posted lesser, and lived in the moment more. Of course I should probably take more pictures so that I *can* remember the good times haha.

I've also drifted from a few close *friends* whom, I was really disappointed for not making any effort to catch-up. And I'm okay with that. I wish you all the best. This year, I won't be chasing anyone anymore haha. 

So here's a list of things that I plan for 2022:

-A more healthier lifestyle. I plan to work-out 3-4x a week now, and a better control of my diet. (No more sweet stuff!!!1111) Haha, of course I will have my cheats on weekends. But I hope to be more compliant this time. Today has been a good start and I wish to maintain it. I'm quite determined / positive about it.

-Less consuming, more creating. I haven't been creative at all as of late. I'd like to change that. Starting with music production tutorials maybe? I really want to get back into music man. But the Singapore scene is either too expensive, or completely dead. Enough of excuses, I have to try do this on my own. 

-Less gaming. As much fun as it is, I'm going to try cut down on the gaming. I started by not renewing my membership - as tempted as I was hahah. It just takes too much of my time, And I really want to focus on being more productive with my real life. 

-Finding some kind of peace. Yeah, it's something I feel everyone should strive for. To find that zen that you need. On your own. I need to be happier with myself. I need to find.. some kind of peace. Its still quite a work to reach that state. Maybe I'll start slow; more walks in the park (fresh air is always good), reading a book, meditation. I'll get there.. somehow. Even if it means starting from zero.

To more positive changes in my life. And a happy new year.

I wish you all the best. x

Love, Eran.

Current Song Mood: Olafur Arnalds - Zero