Like that inner child is still in me. My partner knows best hahaha.
Been busy planning out the rest of the year.
And wow, it's hella PACKED. I'm totally booked.
I know for sure imposter's syndrome is gonna kick it.
And for the first time in a while, I'm actually glad?
There's so much to do.
So much to live for.
Live is just too short.
Thankful. Grateful. Blessed.
This is my moment.
Love, Eran.
Current Song Mood: Joesef - Moment
Difference Sitting across from me, I can feel the change in you In how you move Listen Adjusting your tone of voice just to try and change the mood It's nothing new
Now I can smell the burning of your mum's cigarettes I'm staring into your eyes, hope that we can forget The feeling's gone Till I'm on my own
Only for a moment, moment Take me some place where you'll never slip away Only for a moment, moment Take me some place where nothing could ever change
Is this it? Could we fall apart together just like we used to do? All blood and bruises Do you remember Splitting a bag infant of the car? You know it never really mattered what for Did those nights even happen at all?
Doesn't really matter what I did, what you said We're wrapped around each other at the edge of the bed The feeling's gone I'm all alone
Only for a moment, moment Take me some place where you'll never slip away Only for a moment, moment Take me some place where nothing could ever change
You said It's just out of habit that we fall back into old ways There's no shame It's too late The bitterness is killing us, it's something we just can't shake It doesn't matter if it's
Only for a moment, moment Take me some place where you'll never slip away Only for a moment, moment Take me some place where nothing could ever change
(You'll never slip away) (You'll never slip away) (You'll never slip away) (You'll never slip away)
Disappeared from social media (except for Twitter. Tried it for a month and couldnt leave it lmao.)
Changed my workplace. To somewhere closer to home.
Felt like I was too dependent on others. Well now i'm an independent bitch. Hahah. Yet I do find myself missing my old colleagues.
I've been working my ass off in this new place.
Even harder than I did previously.
I dont expect much, but I do hope it will lead to something better this year.
Worked on my own project which I'm so anxious/stoked to release this year.
All I wanted to do was just, keep my head down and keep working. On myself. On everything else.
And make a comeback that slaps. Kidding hehe.
Spent the last few days with my partner away on a quiet location in Singapore.
Dusit Thani Laguna.
It was super beautiful. The view was perfect to end the year.
Watching the airplanes go by. Wishing we were on planes to Melbourne instead. We will. Hahah.
Sadly I fell super sick.
But I still enjoyed it nonetheless. With the right company.
And I wouldn't have it any other way.
Nobody gets me like you. :)
I'm proud to say that I've managed to hit most of my goals this year.
I'm not sure what holds for me. I'm not even sure if I will still be in the same job.
But that's the beauty of it all. The mystery innit?
Everything that's meant to be, will be.
Love, Eran.
Current Song Mood: SZA - Nobody Gets Me
Took a long vacation, no makeup, just Jay Z You were balls deep, now we beefing Had me butt naked at the MGM So wasted, screaming, "Fuck that!" Blurry now, but I meant it then Hurry now, baby, stick it in 'Fore the memories get to kicking in It's too late, I don't want to lose
What's left of you How am I suppose to tell you I don't wanna see you with anyone but me? Nobody gets me like you How am I suppose to let you go? Only like myself when I'm with you Nobody gets me, you do You do Nobody gets me, you do You do Nobody gets me, you do You do Nobody gets me, you do
Took me out to the ballet You proposed, I went on the road You was feeling empty, so you left me Now I'm stuck dealing with a deadbeat If I'm real, I deserve less If I was you, I wouldn't take me back I pretend when I'm with a man it's you And I know that it's too late, I don't want to lose
What's left of you How am I suppose to tell you I don't wanna see you with anyone but me? Nobody gets me like you How am I suppose to let you go? I only like myself when I'm with you Nobody gets me, you do You do Nobody gets me, you do You do Nobody gets me, you do You do Nobody gets me, you do Nobody gets me, you do
Have a lot going on in life, but still hanging in there.
Proud to say that I've just wrapped up the album.
And I'm so happy I finally got to share it with my partner & best friend first.
The look on their faces made me so happy.
How proud they are..
Relieved. Grateful. Blessed.
I had no idea I would end up making an album.
The idea at the start of the year seemed so far.
And here we are.
It's certainly a big accomplishment for myself.
I.. cant wait to share it next year.
x
Love, Eran.
Current Song Mood: SZA - Far
How do I deal with rejection?
I'm dealing with a lot of rejection right now It makes me feel very small Oh, that's great If nobody wants you, you're free
Try to watch all on my silhouette Try to watch all my emotions Need a few brews, need a palm tree I be drinkin' in private, don't call me to party it up Fuck on your nigga for cardio Took a dip and he fell in love right away I put my feelings on layaway (Ah)
Done being used, done playing stupid Done faking cool (I don't want none of that shit, I don't want it) Done being screwed, done feeling clueless That's how you do (I don't want none of that shit, got me runnin' so)
Far, far, like I don't recognize me Far, far 'cause I let you define me I'm far, far 'cause I can't trust nobody Far, stay far, it's so far
Lately, I feel less cool than before (Already under my bed about) (Don't need you around to tell me I'm special) Made you check your bullshit at the door (Got it every time, need to feed my ego) (Nobody wanted to be my hero) Always on my mind, trust is hard to find Everything reminds me of us I just want my sanity back Better than being your enemy (Better than letting go, scared of that, oh)
Done being used, done playing stupid Done being cool (I don't want none of that shit, I ain't goin') Done getting screwed, done playing clueless That's how you do (I don't want none of that shit, got me runnin' so)
Far, far, like I don't recognize me Far, far 'cause I let you define me I'm far, far 'cause I can't trust nobody Far, stay far, it's so far
I remember when you had me upside down Stressed me out and turned me out, it's all back now I remember when I wasn't so burnt out I'd rather that than be your enemy, ready to let it go
Draggin' me far, far, like I don't recognize me Far, far 'cause I let you define me I'm far, far 'cause I can't trust nobody Far, stay far, it's so far
And she was someone so nice. So kind. So approachable.
She was bigger than the whole sky.
Keeping you in my prayers tonight.
Goodbye.
Love, Eran.
Current Song Mood: Taylor Swift - Bigger Than The Whole Sky
No words appear before me in the aftermath Salt streams out my eyes and into my ears Every single thing I touch becomes sick with sadness 'Cause it's all over now, all out to sea
Goodbye, goodbye, goodbye You were bigger than the whole sky You were more than just a short time And I've got a lot to pine about I've got a lot to live without I'm never gonna meet What could've been, would've been What should've been you What could've been, would've been you
Did some bird flap its wings over in Asia? Did some force take you because I didn't pray? Every single thing to come has turned into ashes 'Cause it's all over, it's not meant to be So I'll say words I don't believe
Goodbye, goodbye, goodbye You were bigger than the whole sky You were more than just a short time And I've got a lot to pine about I've got a lot to live without I'm never gonna meet What could've been, would've been What should've been you
What could've been, would've been you What could've been, would've been What should've been you What could've been, would've been you
Goodbye, goodbye, goodbye You were bigger than the whole sky You were more than just a short time And I've got a lot to pine about I've got a lot to live without I'm never gonna meet What could've been, would've been What should've been you
Been spring cleaning, decluttering, organizing, working out, catching up on shows & taking care of myself.
It feels good... to have all this time to myself.
To rejuvenate my dying spirit.
Just want to take things slow this time, spend more time at home.
Also exciting tingzzzz happening. Like finally recording my album hahah.
Initially wanted to use my leaves for travelling this year, but since that's not happening, gotta make use of it yeah? :)
Went to F1 for the first time with my partner last Friday, and boy, it was amazing.
Saw WINGS live and they were absolute rockstars. LEGENDS!!!
We chilled the rest of the evening away, had pretty awesome drinks and food, and waited for Marshmellow, who was the main headline.
I did noooot expect it to be a rave HAHA.
But heck, I enjoyed myself, and so did my partner whom went all out.
Spent the weekends with coffeee and had a patient outing with my company on Sunday.
Took the cable car ride for the first time. Holy heck it just kept going higher and higher. Theres goes my anxiety. Hahaha. But it was definitely fun xD And what a pretty view.
Went home to my partner to catch TWD Finale. The first two episodes wereeeeee. Insaneeeee. Cant believe this series is ending.
I started watching when I was in Secondary School. I remember how intrigued I was. And I was a big fan of zombies. Look how far we've come. Also now I have someone to share that with, I just feel.. blessed. 😂
Time to go make use of my holidays.
Stay safe & hydrated. :)
Love, Eran.
Current Song Mood: Greyson Chance - My Dying Spirit I'm barely on my feet, mama I'm barely holding on by a thread Every night I lose a different friend Thought I had it how I wanted And far away as I could ever dream I don't think California's my speed
All on my own All I know
If I'm high like those other guys you've kissed Maybe I'll find you in my bed again But I'm all alone, living on the edge I'm right at the limit Will I ever heal my dying spirit?
I'm hanging on a needless hunger That keeps the tears out the devil's eyes I don't eat because he tells me that it's fine I'm barely even standing now But goddamn, I need another round I can hear my name out in the crowd, yeah, yeah
If I'm high like those other guys you've kissed Maybe I'll find you in my bed again But I'm all alone, living on the edge I'm right at the limit Will I ever heal my dying spirit?
If I was a hotel lobby, you'd be mighty fucking sorry To be staying at this piece of shit right off Highway 9 I'm on the floor of my kitchen on a vaporizing mission To find a little calm, please ease my mind I'm so sorry Alexa, I won't make her graduation But tell this lonely girl she's the apple of my eye Tell her, take your time, take your time Take your, take your, take your time I get high
Yeah, oh baby, yeah Every night I'm hanging by a thread Yeah, oh baby, yeah
