Crave

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Gosh it takes so much effort to blog these days.

I'm getting OLDERRRR!!!! Lmao.

Being away from most social media, the ones closest to you will take the effort to wish you on your birthday.

That's when you know who to treasure in your life. The real ones.

This year's birthday was so busy, it felt pretty overwhelming?!

Tbh I've never felt that way hahah.

Spent it with the most important people in my life.

And I wouldn't have it any other way.

From my eldest brother surprising us with food and cake.

And treating us to seafood at East Coast Lagoon on Saturday evening.

To earlier in the day where my partner surprised me on our date with my bestie.

I was so shocked and blur HAHAHA.

And my bestie surprising me with a care pack (filled with chocolates) & the sweetest scrapbook of our past.

?!?! 

Oh man. I teared up. Did NOT expect that! So sweet.

We had good food and coffee, over interesting stories from our lives.

We had such a good day out + casual photoshoots 🥹

Treated my family on Sunday and my 2nd bro's GF decided to surprise us with a panCAKE by calling the outlet 💀💀💀

😎

And to top it all off, Paramore released A NEW ALBUUUUUM. (It's been on repeaaaat)!

Best bday gift ever?!

Thank you. I'm so so blessed. And so so thankful.

I even feel like, I didnt deserve it.

:(

Ok back to the DIE-t. Jeezus.

Here's to an exciting 28.

🥹🤍

Love, Eran.

Current Song Mood: Paramore - Crave

I can't wait to memorize this day
Oh, a picture could not contain
The way it feels
You say, "Live in the present."
I'm already dreaming of how it begins
And trying to savor the moment
But I know the feeling will come to an end

So I
Crave
Crave to do it again
All again
Crave
Crave to do it again, I
Just for a second it all felt simple
I'm already missing it
So I
Crave
Crave to do it again
All again

I romanticize even the worst of times
When all it took to make me cry
Was being alive
Look up and see a reflection of someone who never gave way to the pain
What if I told 'em, now that I'm older, there isn't a moment that I'd wanna change

Now I
Crave
Crave to do it again
All again
Crave
Crave to do it again, I
Just for a second it all felt simple
I'm already missing it
So I crave
Crave to do it again
All again

Any second
Feel the present
Future and the past
Connecting

Any second
Feel the present
Future and the past
Connecting

Crave
Crave, to do it again (Do it)
All again
Crave
Crave to do it again, I
Just for a second it all felt simple
I'm already missing it
So I crave
Crave to do it again
All again

KYRH

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Happy Birthday, Dad.

I'm glad you're still here.

🤍

Love, Eran.

Current Song Mood: Hayley Williams - KYRH

Keep you right here
Where the line is
At my fingers
On the surface
Keep you right here
Where the line is
Keep you right here

Keep you right here
Where the line is
At my fingers
On the surface
Keep you right here
Where the line is
Keep you right here

Moment

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HEYYAAAAA!

It's been a while haha.

Here's a photo dump!

Syahidah's face tho HAHAHHAHAHA.

Best steak EVERRRR.

Hai :3

The year has been moving full speed ahead.

It is already February. Can you believe it?????!

I'm turning 28 in 3 days.

Wtf ._.

I still feel like I haven't changed.

Like that inner child is still in me. My partner knows best hahaha.

Been busy planning out the rest of the year.

And wow, it's hella PACKED. I'm totally booked.

I know for sure imposter's syndrome is gonna kick it.

And for the first time in a while, I'm actually glad?

There's so much to do.

So much to live for.

Live is just too short.

Thankful. Grateful. Blessed. 

This is my moment.

Love, Eran.

Current Song Mood: Joesef - Moment

Difference
Sitting across from me, I can feel the change in you
In how you move
Listen
Adjusting your tone of voice just to try and change the mood
It's nothing new

Now I can smell the burning of your mum's cigarettes
I'm staring into your eyes, hope that we can forget
The feeling's gone
Till I'm on my own

Only for a moment, moment
Take me some place where you'll never slip away
Only for a moment, moment
Take me some place where nothing could ever change

Is this it?
Could we fall apart together just like we used to do?
All blood and bruises
Do you remember
Splitting a bag infant of the car?
You know it never really mattered what for
Did those nights even happen at all?

Doesn't really matter what I did, what you said
We're wrapped around each other at the edge of the bed
The feeling's gone
I'm all alone

Only for a moment, moment
Take me some place where you'll never slip away
Only for a moment, moment
Take me some place where nothing could ever change

You said
It's just out of habit that we fall back into old ways
There's no shame
It's too late
The bitterness is killing us, it's something we just can't shake
It doesn't matter if it's

Only for a moment, moment
Take me some place where you'll never slip away
Only for a moment, moment
Take me some place where nothing could ever change

(You'll never slip away)
(You'll never slip away)
(You'll never slip away)
(You'll never slip away)

Nobody Gets Me

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Sweet Jesuuus.

That was a pretty fast year.

Time just sieves through us like sand.

I started the year wanting to disappear...

I guess I was going through some stuff mentally.

I did what I could to stay sane.

Disappeared from social media (except for Twitter. Tried it for a month and couldnt leave it lmao.)

Changed my workplace. To somewhere closer to home.

Felt like I was too dependent on others. Well now i'm an independent bitch. Hahah. Yet I do find myself missing my old colleagues.

I've been working my ass off in this new place.

Even harder than I did previously.

I dont expect much, but I do hope it will lead to something better this year.

Worked on my own project which I'm so anxious/stoked to release this year.

All I wanted to do was just, keep my head down and keep working. On myself. On everything else.

And make a comeback that slaps. Kidding hehe.

Spent the last few days with my partner away on a quiet location in Singapore.

Dusit Thani Laguna.

It was super beautiful. The view was perfect to end the year.

Watching the airplanes go by. Wishing we were on planes to Melbourne instead. We will. Hahah.

Sadly I fell super sick.

But I still enjoyed it nonetheless. With the right company.

And I wouldn't have it any other way.

Nobody gets me like you. :)

I'm proud to say that I've managed to hit most of my goals this year. 

I'm not sure what holds for me. I'm not even sure if I will still be in the same job.

But that's the beauty of it all. The mystery innit?

 

Everything that's meant to be, will be.

Love, Eran.

Current Song Mood: SZA - Nobody Gets Me

Took a long vacation, no makeup, just Jay Z
You were balls deep, now we beefing
Had me butt naked at the MGM
So wasted, screaming, "Fuck that!"
Blurry now, but I meant it then
Hurry now, baby, stick it in
'Fore the memories get to kicking in
It's too late, I don't want to lose

What's left of you
How am I suppose to tell you
I don't wanna see you with anyone but me?
Nobody gets me like you
How am I suppose to let you go?
Only like myself when I'm with you
Nobody gets me, you do
You do
Nobody gets me, you do
You do
Nobody gets me, you do
You do
Nobody gets me, you do

Took me out to the ballet
You proposed, I went on the road
You was feeling empty, so you left me
Now I'm stuck dealing with a deadbeat
If I'm real, I deserve less
If I was you, I wouldn't take me back
I pretend when I'm with a man it's you
And I know that it's too late, I don't want to lose

What's left of you
How am I suppose to tell you
I don't wanna see you with anyone but me?
Nobody gets me like you
How am I suppose to let you go?
I only like myself when I'm with you
Nobody gets me, you do
You do
Nobody gets me, you do
You do
Nobody gets me, you do
You do
Nobody gets me, you do
Nobody gets me, you do

Far

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Hey :)

It's been a while..

Have a lot going on in life, but still hanging in there.

Proud to say that I've just wrapped up the album. 

And I'm so happy I finally got to share it with my partner & best friend first.

The look on their faces made me so happy.

How proud they are..

Relieved. Grateful. Blessed.

I had no idea I would end up making an album.

The idea at the start of the year seemed so far.

And here we are.

It's certainly a big accomplishment for myself.

I.. cant wait to share it next year. 

x

Love, Eran.

Current Song Mood: SZA - Far

How do I deal with rejection?

I'm dealing with a lot of rejection right now
It makes me feel very small
Oh, that's great
If nobody wants you, you're free

Try to watch all on my silhouette
Try to watch all my emotions
Need a few brews, need a palm tree
I be drinkin' in private, don't call me to party it up
Fuck on your nigga for cardio
Took a dip and he fell in love right away
I put my feelings on layaway (Ah)

Done being used, done playing stupid
Done faking cool (I don't want none of that shit, I don't want it)
Done being screwed, done feeling clueless
That's how you do (I don't want none of that shit, got me runnin' so)

Far, far, like I don't recognize me
Far, far 'cause I let you define me
I'm far, far 'cause I can't trust nobody
Far, stay far, it's so far

Lately, I feel less cool than before
(Already under my bed about)
(Don't need you around to tell me I'm special)
Made you check your bullshit at the door
(Got it every time, need to feed my ego)
(Nobody wanted to be my hero)
Always on my mind, trust is hard to find
Everything reminds me of us
I just want my sanity back
Better than being your enemy
(Better than letting go, scared of that, oh)

Done being used, done playing stupid
Done being cool (I don't want none of that shit, I ain't goin')
Done getting screwed, done playing clueless
That's how you do (I don't want none of that shit, got me runnin' so)

Far, far, like I don't recognize me
Far, far 'cause I let you define me
I'm far, far 'cause I can't trust nobody
Far, stay far, it's so far

I remember when you had me upside down
Stressed me out and turned me out, it's all back now
I remember when I wasn't so burnt out
I'd rather that than be your enemy, ready to let it go

Draggin' me far, far, like I don't recognize me
Far, far 'cause I let you define me
I'm far, far 'cause I can't trust nobody
Far, stay far, it's so far