Unsteady

Page 578

We're all lost souls aren't we?

Trying to find ourselves.

What is it that we want?

What is it that we're after?

A love for life?

Or just the feeling of being in love?

The feeling of being wanted, by others.

I've been feeling a little unsteady.

Hold onto me.

Please.

Love, Eran.

Current Song Mood: X Ambassadors - Unsteady

Hold, hold on, hold onto me
'Cause I'm a little unsteady
A little unsteady
Hold, hold on, hold onto me
'Cause I'm a little unsteady
A little unsteady

Mama, come here
Approach, appear
Daddy, I'm alone
'Cause this house don't feel like home

If you love me, don't let go
If you love me, don't let go

Hold, hold on, hold onto me
'Cause I'm a little unsteady
A little unsteady
Hold, hold on, hold onto me
'Cause I'm a little unsteady
A little unsteady

Mother, I know
That you're tired of being alone
Dad, I know you're trying
To fight when you feel like flying

But if you love me, don't let go
If you love me, don't let go

Hold, hold on, hold onto me
'Cause I'm a little unsteady
A little unsteady
Hold, hold on, hold onto me
'Cause I'm a little unsteady
A little unsteady

Hold, hold on, hold onto me
'Cause I'm a little unsteady
A little unsteady

Scars To Your Beautiful

Page 577

It's a superficial world. 

All my life I've been told what I can or cannot do.

And criticised for characteristics of myself.

That I'm too short.

That my teeth aren't perfect.

That I have fats.

That my skin is dark.

That I can't sing.

I usually brush it all off.

But somewhere deep inside, I do pay attention.

I'm a simple person.

Average, really.

I'm an introvert.

I dont do sports.

I'm not materialistic.

I wasnt raised that way.

But the way people make things bigger than they actually are, just makes me cringe.

You are who you are.

Fat Thin Big Small Tall Short.

The colour of your skin.

Whatever man.

You should know you're beautiful just the way you are.

The scars to your beautiful is what makes you who you are.

And THAT's what makes you special.

Love, Eran.

Current Song Mood: Alessia Cara - Scars To Your Beautiful

She just wants to be, beautiful
She goes, unnoticed she knows, no limits
She craves, attention she praises, an image
She prays to be, sculpted by the sculptor
Oh, she don't see, the light that's shining
Deeper than the eyes can find it
Maybe we have made her blind
So she tries to cover up her pain, and cut her woes away
Cause covergirls don't cry, after their face is made

But there's a hope that's waiting for you in the dark
You should know you're beautiful just the way you are
And you don't have to change a thing
The world could change it's heart
No scars to your beautiful, we're stars and we're beautiful
Oh-oh, oh-oh-oh, oh-oh-oh-oh, oh-oh-oh
And you don't have to change a thing
The world could change it's heart
No scars to your beautiful, we're stars and we're beautiful

She has dreams to be an envy, so she's starving
You know, "covergirls eat nothing"
She says "beauty is pain and there's beauty in everything"
"What's a little bit of hunger?"
"I could go a little while longer", she fades away
She don't see her perfect, she don't understand she's worth it
Or that beauty goes deeper than the surface
Ah oh, ah ah oh,
So to all the girls that's hurting
Let me be your mirror, help you see a little bit clearer
The light that shines within

There's a hope that's waiting for you in the dark
You should know you're beautiful just the way you are
And you don't have to change a thing
The world could change it's heart
No scars to your beautiful, we're stars and we're beautiful
Oh-oh-oh, oh-oh-oh-oh, oh-oh-oh, oh-oh-oh-oh
And you don't have to change a thing
The world could change it's heart
No scars to your beautiful, we're stars and we're beautiful

No better you than the you that you are
(No better you than the you that you are)
No better life than the life we're living
(No better life than the life we're living)
No better time for your shine, you're a star
(No better time for your shine, you're a star)
Oh, you're beautiful, oh, you're beautifu-u-u-ul

There's a hope that's waiting for you in the dark
You should know you're beautiful just the way you are
And you don't have to change a thing
The world could change it's heart
No scars to your beautiful, we're stars and we're beautiful
Woah-oh-oh-oh, woah-oh-oh-oh, woah-oh-oh-oh-oh-, oh-oh-oh-oh
And you don't have to change a thing
The world could change it's heart
No scars to your beautiful, we're stars and we're beautiful

Fuck With Myself

Page 576

Motherfucking BANKS is BACK.

This new tune is making me feel certain ways.

Empowerment in a different tone.

It's giving me  the strength & self-boost I've needed all this while.

Used to care about all the wrong things.

Well now I realize.

I fuck with myself more than anybody else.

And it's all love.

Love, Eran.

Current Song Mood: BANKS - Fuck With Myself

I got two diamonds and a feather
Gimme three reasons why we ain’t together
I push my body through the floor like
Cause I fuck with myself more than anybody else

You’re on the corner waiting for my love
I put two walls behind you just to lean on
You’re gonna need em cuz I stood you up
Cause I fuck with myself more than anybody else

Cuz I fuck with myself more than anybody else
It's all love
I used to care what you think about me
It's all love
Cause my love so good
So I fuck with myself more than anybody else

I caught you fishing through the fodder
This whole relationship is under water
You’re facing ages in your third strike
Cause I fuck with myself more than anybody else

Cause I fuck with myself more than anybody else
It's all love
I used to care what you think about me
It's all love
Cause my love so good
So I fuck with myself more than anybody else

I used to have a nickel for what you say, baby
Your words would burn me in the third degree
Now baby look what it’s come to
Cause my love is the one
My love is the one

So I fuck with myself more than anybody else
It's all love
I used to care what you think about me
It's all love
Cause my love so good
So I fuck with myself more than anybody else

Thinking Bout You

Page 575

It's so hard to concentrate on work.

When your mind is so busily occupied.

Came across a picture of someone I used to have feelings for.

And then...

Everything just started crashing down on me.

And the sadness sinks in.

And there's nothing I could do.

I tried to make it through the night.

But I just couldnt.

I've been thinking bout you.

I wonder if you have too..

I actually thought you were.. the one.

The one I could fall for again.

Where your mind is at right now?

Guess I'll never know.

Love, Eran.

But at least I have a memory.

Current Song Mood: Ariana Grande - Thinking Bout You

I've been thinking 'bout you
Yeah, I been missing you
Where the hell are you, oh, when I need you?
I could still hear your voice
I ain't got no choice, cause I'm here all alone
I know I can't wait 'til you get home

Oh, I don't have you here with me
But at least I have the memory
I tried to make it through the night
But I can't control my mind

I'm just thinkin' bout you
I'm thinkin' bout you, I'm thinkin' bout you
I'm just thinkin' bout you
I'm thinkin' bout you, I'm thinkin' bout you

Got these thoughts in my head
Ain't no way to forget
Got me losing my breath
Nobody got me the way that you did
Had my eyes rolling back
Had me arching my back
Now you love me so good
I wish you would hurry up and come back

Oh, I don't have you here with me
But at least I have the memory
I tried to make it through the night
But I can't control my mind

I'm just thinkin' bout you
I'm thinkin' bout you, I'm thinkin' bout you, baby
I'm just thinkin' bout you
I'm thinkin' bout you, I'm thinkin' bout you
I'm just thinkin' bout you
I'm thinkin' bout you, I'm thinkin' bout you

Baby, I don't want no one, no one else
So hurry, cause I need some, need some, need some help
And I'll be waiting patient, patiently
Cause I don't have you here with, here with, here with me
But at least I have the memory

I'm just thinkin' bout you
I'm thinkin' bout you, I'm thinkin' bout you
I'm just thinkin' bout you
I'm thinkin' bout you, I'm thinkin' bout you
I'm just thinkin' bout you
I'm thinkin' bout you, I'm thinkin' bout you

1000x

Page 574

Pics courtesy of Amsyar. <3

Cant remember the last time I had so much fun and laughed so much.

Being busy and such, it's so hard for us to meet.

We're so caught up with life that we often forget those that are part of our lives.

But last night's jalan raya with my EXCOs was a great reminder that I'm not alone.

After going through so much the past year, its been lonely.

I missed everything about them.

Didnt get to do anything last year because of enlistment.

But alhamdullilah, we got to see each other this year.

Things fall in place in such unexpected ways.

But perfectly as well.

Such is life.

There's more to life.

There always is.

Positivity.

Surrounding yourself with loved ones is enough.

Enough for me.

Forever grateful for these people in my life.

I'd do this all over again.

A 1000x.

Love, Eran.

In another lifetime.

Current Song Mood: Jarryd James Ft Broods - 1000x

Even if I'm leaving you at the door
Even when I know that you're never lonely
Harder than imagined
Harder when it's cold
Even when I'm playing in the fire
Even when I'm doing it for all my life
Harder than imagined
Harder when I let it go

Tell me that love is enough
The seas will be parted for us
Tell me that love is, ooh

In another lifetime
I would never change my mind
I would do it again
Ooh, a thousand times
Just to let you in here
Where you make me lose my mind
In another life I'd do it all again a thousand times

Never would I ever let my love escape you
Never keep you from the promises I gave you
Further than imagined
Further than we've ever known

Tell me that love is enough
The seas will be parted for us
Tell me that love is, ooh

In another lifetime
I would never change my mind
I would do it again
Ooh, a thousand times
Just to let you in here
Where you make me lose my mind
In another life I'd do it all again a thousand times

In another life I'd do it all again a thousand times

In another lifetime
I would never change my mind
I would do it again
Ooh, a thousand times
Just to let you in here
Where you make me lose my mind
In another life I'd do it all again a thousand times

Better Days

Page 573

Busy day.

Phew.

Been up and about, cooking. Cleaning. Editing stuff.

With guests coming over.

It's draining man.

So pooped.

But I'm glad it's over.

Some feelings never change.

Some PEOPLE never change.

I guess.

What's with everyone nowadays.

I had good intentions.

Maybe they weren't meant to be.

But that's okay.

I hope.

I pray.

That better days are coming.

I'm motivated to be better person than I am right now.

I want to lead a life that's worth mentioning.

Something worthwhile.

Something to look up to.

Love, Eran.

Miss the days when things were better.

Current Song Mood: Victoria Monet Ft Ariana Grande - Better Days

Baby, there's a war right outside our window, 
Don't you hear the people fighting for their lives? 
Baby, there's a war right outside our window, 
But it's gon' be alright 
Long as I got you and me, 
In your arms I find my shelter, 
Deep in your love I will hide 
Baby, you & me stop the world when we're together 
You find a way to take my heart back to the 
Better days, better days 
Days when things were better 
Better days, better days 
Good old better days 
Back to the better days, better days 
Days when things were better 
Better days, better days 
Good old better days 

I can hear the sirens right outside our window, 
And I can hear the children crying while their mothers cry 
I'm praying for the people right outside our window 
Hoping they find peace at night, just like you and me 
In your arms I find my shelter, 
Deep in your love I will hide 
Baby, you & me stop the world when we're together 
You find a way to take my heart back to the 
Better days, better days 
Days when things were better 
Better days, better days 
Good old better days 
Back to the better days, better days 
Days when things were better 
Better days, better days 
Good old better days 

Hey yeah yeah 
Better days 
Ooh ooh oh 
Yeah yeah yeah 
Better

Killing You

Page 572

Well it's nice to know where I stand in your life.

Disappointing, coming from you.

You're so changed now.

This whole goddamn place, changed you.

It's getting up in your head, admit it.

No matter how much you deny it.

It's killing you, and you know it.

And I hope you find your way back.

Be that person I used to know.

The real you.

Take care.

Love, Eran.

And it's killing me too.

Current Song Mood: Broods - Killing You

You like to call me when I'm alone
Tell me that it's all for me
And I wish that I was home
But we can make up for it on the weekend 
Oh, we can make up for it on the weekend 

[Chorus:]
But it's killing me, and it's killing you
'Cause I wish you were here
And it's killing me, and it's killing you
'Cause I wish you were here
And it's killing me, and it's killing you
'Cause I wish you were here
And it's killing me, that I'm killing you

But we can make up for it on the weekend

I got your picture everywhere I go
Telling all the boys I'm yours
And I know that it's hard to show 
But I can make up for it on the weekend
Oh, I can make up for it on the weekend

Ohh

[Chorus]

But I can make up for it on the weekend

White sheets, three weeks never where you are
Too bad, nomadic is who we are
White sheets, three weeks
Never where you are
Never where you are

[Chorus]

But I can make up for it on the weekend
Oh, I can make up for it on the weekend