Visions Of Gideon

Page 979

I guess I shouldn't deny it.

It's not the same anymore.

I've fallen out of it.

All I see now are,

Visions of Gideon.

Those times where I flew up to your arms.

Those times where I felt safe.

For the last time.

Is it a video?

Replaying over, and over again.

A story that has had its run.

A season that has ended.

I feel the need to move on.

I think it'd do us both good.

What.. do you think?

Love, Eran.

Current Song Mood: Sufjan Stevens - Visions Of Gideon

I have loved you for the last time
Is it a video? Is it a video?
I have touched you for the last time
Is it a video? Is it a video?

For the love, for laughter I feel up to your arms
Is it a video? Is it a video?
For the love, for laughter I feel up to your arms
Is it a video? Is it a video? Is it a video?

I have loved you for the last time
Visions of Gideon, visions of Gideon
And I have kissed you for the last time
Visions of Gideon, visions of Gideon

For the love, for laughter I feel up to your arms
Is it a video? (Is it a video?) Is it a video? (Is it a video?)
For the love, for laughter I feel up to your arms
Is it a video? (Is it a video?) Is it a video? (Is it a video?)
For the love, for laughter I feel up to your arms
Visions of Gideon (visions of Gideon), visions of Gideon (visions of Gideon)
For the love, for laughter I feel up to your arms
Visions of Gideon (visions of Gideon), visions of Gideon (visions of Gideon), visions of Gideon

Visions of Gideon, visions of Gideon, visions of Gideon...
Visions of Gideon (Is it a video?), visions of Gideon (Is it a video?), visions of Gideon...
Is it a video?...

Mystery Of Love

Page 978

Oh, the woe is me..

Life is shifting in a different kind of direction lately.

I recently watched this movie...

Call Me By Your Name.

I thought it was complex.

A little draggy.

But at the end....

The ending just struck me.

The end when his lover.. got engaged.

And this heartbroken boy just stood in the room.

In his own world.

By the fire.

Just... in a daze.

And he just, started breaking down.

I thought.. wow.

This was so realistic.

You can't have a happy ending every time.

And there was beauty in it.

The beauty of sadness.

Of sorrow.

That's real life.

I guess some things are just not meant to be

I guess it's just the mystery of love.

Thank you for this wonderful song.

Love, Eran.

Current Song Mood: Sufjan Stevens - Mystery Of Love

Oh, to see without my eyes
The first time that you kissed me
Boundless by the time I cried
I built your walls around me
White noise, what an awful sound
Fumbling by Rogue River
Feel my feet above the ground
Hand of God, deliver me

Oh, woah woe is me
The first time that you touched me
Oh, will wonders ever cease?
Blessed be the mystery of love

Lord, I no longer believe
Drowned in living waters
Cursed by the love that I received
From my brother's daughter
Like Hephaestion, who died
Alexander's lover
Now my riverbed has dried
Shall I find no other?

Oh, woah woe is me
I'm running like a plover
Now I'm prone to misery
The birthmark on your shoulder reminds me

How much sorrow can I take?
Blackbird on my shoulder
And what difference does it make
When this love is over?
Shall I sleep within your bed
River of unhappiness
Hold your hands upon my head
Till I breathe my last breath

Oh, woah woe is me
The last time that you touched me
Oh, will wonders ever cease?
Blessed be the mystery of love

Strangers

Page 977

It's you.

It's you it's you it's you.

I guess it's stupid to have expectations.

It's been a year... and we made up for it.

It always works out better in my head.

I guess we're nothing more but strangers.

Strangers passing by.

Thanks for making me realise that.

And it ends here as well.

Love, Eran.

Current Song Mood: Seven Lions With Myon and Shane 54 Ft Tove Love - Strangers (Cover)

Nothing more than strangers 
Passing by out on the street
Memories are fading though 
It's only been a week
All the little things are gone 
The things we used to be
Nobody could take us down 
There was only you and me

And without you I can't be
You're the universe to me
You're the air in my lungs
You're the fields where I run
You're the sky where I'm floating

It's you, you, you
It's you, woah

And without you I can't be
You're the universe to me
You're the air in my lungs
You're the fields where I run
You're the sky where I'm floating

It's you, you, you
It's you, woah

Don't want to be a stranger
Want to be the one you need
I can be your world, your life
Your lover, all for free
All the little things come back
The things we used to be
Nobody can take us down there
It's only you and me

And without you I can't be
You're the universe to me
You're the air in my lungs
You're the fields where I run
You're the sky where I'm floating

No Peace

Page 976

Sigh.

This familiar sinking feeling.

I had it when it gets triggered..

But I guess I'm numb to it by now.

Trying to let it not affect me so much.

What's the point, right?

Well, I don't know what I want at this point.

Just so confused. 

With my feelings.

With my mind.

Cant get.. no peace.

Love, Eran.

Current Song Mood: Sam Smith Ft Yebba - No Peace

I see you in the morning
Feel your fingers in my hair
Sometimes I still pretend you're there

It hits me without warning
Your reflection walking by
But I know it's only in my mind

Will you show me the piece of my heart I've been missing?
Won't you give me the part of myself that I can't get back?
Will you show me the piece of my heart I've been missing?
'Cause I'd kill for you
And darling you know that

So I'll light up a cigarette
I'll drink it down 'til there's nothing left
'Cause I sure can't get no sleep
And Lord knows there's no relief
You held my heart in your fingertips
So now I drown in my bitterness
Oh, I can't get no sleep
And I sure won't, I sure won't find no peace
No peace

All that I am asking
Is for a little clarity
That's all that really matters to me

In and out of focus
Tears are in my eyes
We're burning down the bridges this time

Will you show me the piece of my heart I've been missing?
Won't you give me the part of myself that I can't get back?
Will you show me the piece of my heart I've been missing?
'Cause I'd kill for you
And darling you know that

So I'll light up a cigarette
I'll drink it down 'til there's nothing left
'Cause I sure can't get no sleep
And Lord knows there's no relief
You held my heart in your fingertips
So now I drown in my bitterness
Oh, I can't get no sleep
And I sure won't, I sure won't find

I used to find comfort in your arms
Caught up in the wonder of your charms
I'll cry for you, I'll cry for you
I'd lie for you, I'd lie for you
But I don't even know you anymore

So I'll light up a cigarette
I'll drink it down 'til there's nothing left
'Cause I sure can't get no sleep
And Lord knows there's no relief
You held my heart in your fingertips
So now I drown in my bitterness
Oh, I can't get no sleep
And I sure won't, I sure won't find no peace

Sure won't find no peace
Will you give me the piece
Will you give me the piece of my heart?
Will you give me the piece
Will you give me the piece of my heart?

Just Like You

Page 975

Lately I've been thinking about the past.

I know for sure I've moved on from all the bad times.

It's just that... I feel like, a part of those bad traits have rubbed off on me.

I'm not like who I was before.

Young & innocent.

I guess I got that taken away from me early.

Regrets.

I dont wanna be..

Just like you.

But I guess it's too late.

I guess... I'm tainted.

Just like you.

Love, Eran.

Current Song Mood: Fergie - Just Like You

I ain't saying it ain't beautiful, but he used to be
Who is this right here? She don't look like me
I was sleeping with the demon every night in my bedroom
I guess you are who you keep a reflection of me
That I don't wanna be, no

Oops, look what you made me do
I'm crazy just like you, I'm tainted just like you
Table set for two, look what you made me prove
I'm crazy just like you, I'm tainted just like you
Just like you, just like you

I don't know if you remember what you did to me
'Cause I can't forget, I see it in my dreams
I've been living in the nightmare, all the shit you put me through
Tried to break me to pieces, a beast in my life
That I don't really need, no

Oops, look what you made me do
I'm crazy just like you, I'm tainted just like you
Table set for two, look what you made me prove
I'm crazy just like you, I'm tainted just like you
Just like you

Gone girl, I don't ever wanna go back
I thought it was forever, you should know that
Haunted 'till I finally figure out your game, ayy
Take a picture in your mind, that's a throwback
Done twisting up my life, you should roll that
Don't be trippin' on my shadow as I walk away-ay-ay

Oops, look what you made me do
I'm crazy just like you, I'm tainted just like you
Table set for two, look what you made me prove
I'm crazy just like you, I'm tainted just like you
Just like you, just like you

Belly of the beast, now let's have a feast...

Whatever You Want

Page 974

Decisions.

Mistakes.

Regrets.

Adulting is so tough.

Sometimes I don't know why I do what I do.

Whatever you want.

Whatever you need.

Whatever you do.

There's always a risk.

I  just hope I thought it through.

Love, Eran.

Current Song Mood: P!nk - Whatever You Want

Okay
(So)

Running like a dog
Fighting like a bitch too much
And you just can't stand it, baby
Even when I fall
You don't seem to give two shits
'Cause you're just too cool, baby
We could have it all
Neither one of us would budge
'Cause we can't be wrong, baby
Folding up your arms, closing up your heart

I know, I know, I know you think it's me
'Cause I want it all
No I know, I know, I know, I know you see
Do we gotta talk
No you know, you know, you know you must believe
Or fall apart

I feel like our ship's going down tonight
But it's always darkest before the light
And that's enough for me to try
Whatever you want
Whatever you need
Whatever you do, ah-ah-ah
Even if I say that it's over now
Even if we want to move on somehow
And just like that we come alive
Whatever you want
Whatever you need
Whatever you do, ah-ah-ah

Trying to get a breath
Thinkin' 'bout the time you said that I was your heart, baby
Trying to understand how a grown man goes on without a body part, baby
I could walk away
I could always cash my chips and I'd be okay, baby
I would be okay, and you might be okay

Oh, I know, I know, I know you think it's me
'Cause you want it all
I know, I know, I know, I know you see
That we gotta talk
No you know, you know, you know you must believe
You're enough for me

I feel like our ship's going down tonight
But it's always darkest before the light
And that's enough for me to try
Whatever you want
Whatever you need
Whatever you do, ah-ah-ah
Even if I say that it's over now
Even if we want to move on somehow
And just like that we come alive
Whatever you want
Whatever you need
Whatever you do

Whoever said that love was sweet
(Drank a little too much whiskey, baby)
Whoever said that life was easy
(Never lived anywhere near me)
I wouldn't change a thing
'Cause you're the one I wanna sink with

I feel like our ship's going down tonight
But it's always darkest before the light
And that's enough

Even if I say that it's over now
Even if we want to move on somehow
And just like that we come alive
Whatever you want
Whatever you need
Whatever you do, ah-ah-ah
Whatever you want
Whatever you need
Whatever you do, oh-oh-oh
Whatever you want
Whatever you need
Whatever you do, ah-ah-ah
Whatever you want
Whatever you need
Whatever you do, oh-oh-oh

What About Us

 Page 973

Tonight just struck me hard.

I'm caught up in my feelings.

It's overwhelming.

A close friend of mine just got engaged.

I'm so incredibly happy.

And at the same time.. Incredibly nostalgic.

I felt the same way when my cousin got married...

The memories associated with them..

Wow. Time is flying damn fast.

Looking at all these happy souls.

And here I am..

Just .. here.

What about me?

What about.. us?

Things are going to be so different from now on.

I don't know where to move on from here.

My own future is still uncertain.

I just need to..

Let go of certain things.

Love, Eran.

Current Song Mood: P!nk - What About Us

We are searchlights, we can see in the dark
We are rockets, pointed up at the stars
We are billions of beautiful hearts
And you sold us down the river too far

What about us?
What about all the times you said you had the answers?
What about us?
What about all the broken happy ever afters?
What about us?
What about all the plans that ended in disaster?
What about love? What about trust?
What about us?

We are problems that want to be solved
We are children that need to be loved
We were willing, we came when you called
But many fooled us, enough is enough

What about us?
What about all the times you said you had the answers?
What about us?
What about all the broken happy ever afters?
What about us?
What about all the plans that ended in disaster?
What about love? What about trust?
What about us?

What about us?
What about all the plans that ended in disaster?
What about love? What about trust?
What about us?

Sticks and stones they may break these bones
But then I'll be ready, are you ready?
It's the start of us, waking up, come on
Are you ready? I'll be ready
I don't want control, I want to let go
Are you ready? I'll be ready
Cause now it's time to let them know
We are ready

What about...
What about us?
What about all the times you said you had the answers?
So what about us?
What about all the broken happy ever afters?
What about us?
What about all the plans that ended in disaster?
What about love? What about trust?
What about us?

What about us?
What about us?
What about us?

What about us?
What about us?
What about us?