Lies In The Dark

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Almost lost myself today.

Addiction is a tough battle..

But I'm fighting on.

Kinda had the last straw today.

I can't keep losing myself over lust or loneliness.

All the lies in the dark.

I'm not gonna fall for it.

Waste my time and I'll waste yours.

Over, over and again.

Love, Eran.

Current Song mood: Tove Lo - Lies In The Dark

Over, over, and again
Over (aah) and again
Over, over, and again
Over (aah)

People talk, but people don't know
You can't make plans, just live as I go
People talk, they don't understand
Love and pain go hand in hand
Ooh, say what they want, I'm still thinking it's worth it
Ooh, little bit drunk, tell my heart you won't hurt it

I love your lies in the dark
Love tearing up a broken heart
Over, over, and again
I love you, now take me home
Love every way you turn me on
Over, over, and again

Over, over, and again
Over (aah) and again
Over, over, and again
Over (aah) and again
Over, over, and again
Over (aah) and again
Over, over, and again
Over (aah) and again

I can't fake I'm in it for you
Good people do bad things too
Say you changed, don't know if I would (nah)
Wanna be yours for real if I could

I love your lies in the dark
Love tearing up a broken heart
Over, over, and again
I love you, now take me home
Love everywhere you turn me on
Over, over, and again

Over, over, and again
Over (aah) and again
Over, over, and again
Over (aah) and again
Over, over, and again
Over (aah) and again
Over, over, and again
Over (aah) and again

Ooh, say what they want, I'm still thinking it's worth it
Ooh, little bit drunk, tell my heart you won't hurt it

Over, over, and again
Over (aah) and again
Over, over, and again
Over (aah) and again
(Over, over, and again)
Love your lies in the dark
(Over, aah, and again)
Love tearing up a broken heart
(Over, over, and again)
(Over, aah, and again)
I love you, now take me home
(Over, over, and again)
Love every way you turn me on
(Over, aah, and again)

Love your lies in the dark

Real Friends

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Utter bullshit.

Lmao.

I could smell it from afar.

And I didnt buy it.

Honestly, I'm not even surprised.

Today was a perfect reminder, of why I don't f*ck with certain people of the past.

I'm tired of fake people.

Them and their pettiness all over again.

I'm just looking for real friends.

But sadly, I'd rather be a loner at this rate.

Thank you to the 'real people' that have stayed.

Thank you to the people who are matured enough to let go of ridiculous past issues.

You guys are the reason I'm sane and sorted.

Because I don't need those kind of people in my life.

Good riddance.

Love, Eran.

Current Song Mood: Camila Cabella - Real Friends

No, I think I'll stay in tonight
Skip the conversations and the "oh, I'm fine"s
No, I'm no stranger to surprise
This paper town has let me down too many times
Why do I even try? Give me a reason why
I thought that I could trust you, never mind
Why all the switching sides? Where do I draw the line?
I guess I'm too naive to read the signs

I'm just lookin' for some real friends
All they ever do is let me down
Every time I let somebody in
Then I find out what they're all about
I'm just lookin' for some real friends
Wonder where they're all hidin' out
I'm just lookin' for some real friends
Gotta get up out of this town

I stay up, talkin' to the moon
Been feelin' so alone in every crowded room
Can't help but feel like something's wrong, yeah
'Cause the place I'm livin' in just doesn't feel like home

I'm just lookin' for some real friends
All they ever do is let me down
Every time I let somebody in
Then I find out what they're all about
I'm just lookin' for some real friends
Wonder where they're all hidin' out
I'm just lookin' for some real friends
Gotta get up out of this town

(Lookin' for some real friends)

I just wanna talk about nothin'
With somebody that means something
Spell the names of all our dreams and demons
For the times that I don't understand
Tell me what's the point of a moon like this
When I'm alone again
Can I run away to somewhere beautiful
Where nobody knows my name?

I'm just lookin' for some real friends
All they ever do is let me down
Every time I let somebody in
But I find out what they're all about
I'm just lookin' for some real friends
All they ever do is let me down
I'm just lookin' for some real friends
Gotta get up out of this town, yeah

My My My!

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Hahaha.

Dang, what a good day.

I guess today concludes the last of my leave.

And it certainly was a blast.

Got to hang out with my best friend at night.

And made (hopefully) the best move of the year.

And also.. got to meet someone I've been fancying earlier in the day...

Hehe.

It was nice to see you again.

Really, it was.

Oh my my my.

You're one of a kind.

The way you are.

The way you move.

The way I feel around you.

I'm living for your every move.

But it's so sad.

That we can't be more than this.

Oh my.

I guess it's getting at me again.

I fall every time.

I just wanna stop time.

And not run away from us.

Because, you're exactly, my type.

But I guess, this is the best it can get.

Till we meet again.

xx

Love, Eran.

Current Song Mood: Troye Sivan - My My My!

Shine on, diamond
Don't make me wait another day
'Cause passion is passion
You know it just as well as me

Now, let's stop running from love
Running from love
Let's stop, my baby
Let's stop running from us
Running from us
Let's stop, my baby

Oh my, my, my
I die every night with you
Oh my, my, my
Living for your every move

Spark up, buzz cut
I got my tongue between your teeth
Go slow, no, no, go fast
You like it just as much as me

Now, let's stop running from love
Running from love
Let's stop, my baby
Let's stop running from us
Running from us
Let's stop, my baby

Oh my, my, my
I die every night with you
Oh my, my, my
Living for your every move
Oh my, my, my
I die every night with you
Oh my, my, my
Living for your every move
Oh my, my, my

Should be the last night ever
Should be the last night we're apart
Got my name on this treasure
On this treasure

Oh my, my, my
(Oh my, my)
I die every night with you
(I die, I die, I die, I die, yeah, yeah)
Oh my, my, my
(Oh my, my, my
Oh my, my, my)
Living for your every move
(Living for, living for, yeah)
Oh my, my, my
I die every night with you
(Oh my, my, my
Oh my, my, my, oh)
Oh my, my, my
Living for your every move
(Living for your every move)
Oh my, my, my

Your World

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Got to experience something different today..

Thank you for bringing me in.

And letting me experience your world.

The past week has been...

Eye opening.

So many faces.

So many stories.

It was nice. :)

And fun while it lasted.

Not sure how long I plan to keep this going.

But I guess it ends now.

xx

Love, Eran.

Current Song Mood: Kosine Ft JoJo - Your World

[Intro]
Your world, your world
And I'll never know the reasons why

[Verse 1]
I have no control over my body
Soon as you take hold of my body
Even with eyes closed, baby I see
What about my panties? What about my pride?
You're talking all of me

[Chorus]
So baby it's, your world
Yeah baby it's, your time
I feel like a, silly girl
Lost in, your eyes
Oh yeah, you make me burn on ice
And I'll never know the reasons why

[Verse 2]
I am just a slave to your body
I am not sure I want to be free
Shackle my heart too, if you will please
I don't need my panties, I don't need my pride
You're talking all of me

[Chorus]
Your world
Yeah baby it's, your time
I feel like a, silly girl
Oh lost in, your eyes
You make me, you make me burn on ice
Oh, I'll never know the reasons why, why

[Chorus]
So baby it's, your world
Yeah baby it's, your time
I feel like a, silly girl
Oh lost in, your eyes
Oh yeah, you make me burn on ice
And I'll never know the reasons why

Electric

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So many things to be grateful for today.

Thank you thank you thank you.

For making today so special.

For making me feel loved.

For making me comfortable in being myself.

I felt it all today.

The electric waves resounding through our touches.

The warmth.

The passion.

The joy.

The gift.

Thank you so much.

Happy Valentines Day.

Love, Eran.

Current Song Mood: Alina Baraz Ft Khalid - Electric

[Alina Baraz:]
Darker than the ocean, deeper than the sea
You've got everything, you got what I need
Touch me, you're electric, babe
Move me, take me from this place
Movin' to the tempo, show me what it takes
Speeding up my heartbeat, playing in the flames

Kiss me, we're on fire, babe
Love me, take me to outer space
Kiss me, we're on fire, babe
Love me, take me to outer space

[Khalid:]
Covered in your water and I'm feeling like a summer breeze
Submitted under power and you brought me to my knees
Use me, you're electric, babe
Move me, take me all the way
Whisper in my ear, I'm the only one you're loving on
Take advantage of the moment, you're the only one that I want

[Alina Baraz & Khalid:]
Kiss me, we're on fire, babe
Love me, take me to outer space
Kiss me, we're on fire, babe
Love me, take me to outer space

[Alina Baraz:]
Melting like ice on a summer day
Hold me like you mean it, take me far away
Bodies moving in, temperature rising
Take me to the top then watch me fall in

[Alina Baraz & Khalid:]
Kiss me (Kiss me), we're on fire, babe
Love me, take me to outer space
Kiss me, (we're on fire...)

Someone That Loves You

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Had such a gooooood day out today.

With my bestie. And her sis.

Thank you for celebrating my belated bday and treating me so much.

Don't know what I do to deserve you.

To have someone that loves you.

Really.

We can talk about ANYTHING.

I got so high today, couldnt stop laughing hahaha.

Been a while since I smiled so much.

:)

Tummy full.

Thankful.

Grateful.

Goodnight.

xx

Love, Eran.

Current Song Mood: HONNE & Izzy Bizu - Someone That Loves You

Touch me, touch me, touch me
You have someone that loves you

Whoever said it was easy must have had it pretty good
Must have had it pretty good
I want you, boy, just to please me
Don't tell me that you could, don't tell me that you could
It's beautiful in a way, with love
But what's a girl to do when you can't seem to choose?
You're beautiful but your mind's restrained
When your mind is split two ways is when the comedown plays

Don't touch me
Boy I want you
Not allowed to
You have someone that loves you
I'm waiting
And I'm patient
I'm deluded
You have someone that loves you

Touch me, touch me, touch me, touch me
You have someone that loves you

You want me close so I hear you
I thought I made it clear, don't whisper in my ear
My heart, it keeps getting weaker
I know you want me near, but your love is what I fear
It's beautiful the way you move
But what's a boy to do when he can't seem to choose?
Yeah I'm beautiful, but I must explain
My mind's not in a good place, and so the comedown plays

Don't touch me
Boy I want you
Not allowed to
You have someone that loves you
I'm waiting
And I'm patient
I'm deluded
You have someone that loves you
Don't touch me
Boy I want you
Not allowed to
You have someone that loves you
I'm waiting
And I'm patient
I feel stupid
When you have someone that loves you

That loves you
Yeah she loves you too
The way that I do

Don't touch me
Boy I want you
Not allowed to
You have someone that loves you
I'm waiting
And I'm patient
I'm deluded
You have someone that loves you
Don't touch me
Boy I want you
Not allowed to
You have someone that loves you
I'm waiting
And I'm patient
I feel stupid
When you have someone that loves you

That loves you
When you have someone that loves you
That loves you
When you have someone that loves you
That loves you
When you have someone that loves you
That loves you
When you have someone that loves you

20 Something

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Throbbing headache.

So tired lately.

But at least I have some 'me time' this week.

On leave.

Meeting up and catching up a lot.

Cant afford to waste this time.

Is it j just me, or is it always the first time you meet someone that is magical.

And the subsequent meetings become... Meh.

???

I don't know.

Maybe it's just me.

Maybe its just something about being.. 20 something.

Feeling like you deserve more.

Oh well.

Just keep moving forward.

Love, Eran.

Current Song Mood: SZA - 20 Something

How you ain't say you was movin' forward?
Honesty hurts when you're gettin' older
I gotta say I'll miss the way you need me, yeah
Why you ain't say you was gettin' bored?
Why you ain't say I was fallin' short?
How you lead me out so far away?

How could it be?
20 something, all alone still
Not a thing in my name
Ain't got nothin', runnin' from love
Only know fear
That's me, Ms. 20 Something
Ain't got nothin', runnin' from love
Wish you were here, oh

Stuck in them 20 somethings, stuck in them 20 somethings
Good luck on them 20 somethings, good luck on them 20 somethings
But God bless these 20 somethings
(God bless, oh God bless, oh God bless, oh God bless, oh)
Hopin' my 20 somethings won't end
Hopin' to keep the rest of my friends
Prayin' the 20 somethings don't kill me, don't kill me

Weird, took us so long to separate
I feel, it's permanent like a riptide, this time
Waves crashing fast, I try
Think of the past, please stay
How could it be?

How could it be?
20 something, all alone still
Not a phone in my name
Ain't got nothin', runnin' from love
Only know fear
That's me, Ms. 20 Something
Ain't got nothin', runnin' from love
Wish you were here, oh

Stuck in them 20 somethings, stuck in them 20 somethings
Good luck on them 20 somethings, good luck on them 20 somethings
But God bless these 20 somethings
(God bless, oh God bless, oh God bless, oh God bless, oh)
Hopin' my 20 somethings won't end
Hopin' to keep the rest of my friends
Prayin' the 20 somethings don't kill me, kill me

(God bless, oh God bless, oh God bless, oh God bless, oh)
(God bless, oh God bless, oh God bless, oh God bless, oh)
(God bless, oh God bless, oh God bless, oh God bless, oh)
And if it's an illusion, I don't want to wake up. I'm gonna hang on to it. Because the alternative is an abyss, is just a hole, a darkness, a nothingness. Who wants that? You know? So that's what I think about CTRL, and that's my story, and I'm stickin' to it
That was beautiful mommy, that was perfect