Fourth Of July

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My Fourth of July didnt start very well.

Just put yourselves in my shoes for once.

Do you think I'm proud of you guys?

There's so many things I wish I could say but I choose to bite my tongue out of respect.

What a waste of time to be upset over little things.

I don't have the time for that.

We're all gonna die anyway.

It's about what we do with the remaining time left, that matters.

Love, Eran.

Current Song Mood: Sufjan Stevens - Fourth Of July

The evil it spread like a fever ahead
It was night when you died, my firefly
What could I have said to raise you from the dead?
Oh could I be the sky on the Fourth of July?

Well you do enough talk
My little hawk, why do you cry?
Tell me what did you learn from the Tillamook burn?
Or the Fourth of July?
We’re all gonna die

Sitting at the bed with the halo at your head
Was it all a disguise, like Junior High
Where everything was fiction, future, and prediction
Now, where am I? My fading supply

Did you get enough love, my little dove
Why do you cry?
And I’m sorry I left, but it was for the best
Though it never felt right
My little Versailles

The hospital asked should the body be cast
Before I say goodbye, my star in the sky
Such a funny thought to wrap you up in cloth
Do you find it all right, my dragonfly?

Shall we look at the moon, my little loon
Why do you cry?
Make the most of your life, while it is rife
While it is light

Well you do enough talk
My little hawk, why do you cry?
Tell me what did you learn from the Tillamook burn?
Or the Fourth of July?
We’re all gonna die

Beautiful People

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We are definitely the world's most boring couple.

We stay in on the weekends.

And just hide away from the world.

But that's all I've ever wanted.

To have a simple life like that.

And be happy with someone. :)

We have everything we need right behind those four walls.

And that's more than enough.

Thank you for sharing that with me.

We are not beautiful people.

We are very very simple.

And that's what makes our relationship perfect.

:)

Love, Eran.

Current Song Mood: Ed Sheeran Ft Khalid - Beautiful People

(We are, we are, we are)

L.A. on a Saturday night in the summer
Sundown and they all come out
Lamborghinis and their rented Hummers
The party's on, so they're heading downtown
Everybody's looking for a come-up
And they wanna know what you're about
Me in the middle with the one I'm loving
We're just tryna figure everything out

We don't fit in well
'Cause we are just ourselves
I could use some help
Getting out of this conversation, yeah
You look stunning, dear
So don't ask that question here
This is my only fear
That we become

Beautiful people
Drop-top, designer clothes
Front row at fashion shows
"What d'you do?" and "Who d'you know?"
Inside the world of
Beautiful people
Champagne and rolled-up notes
Pre-nups and broken homes
Surrounded, but still alone
Let's leave the party

That's not who we are
(We are, we are, we are)
We are not beautiful
Yeah, that's not who we are
(We are, we are, we are)
We are not beautiful

(L.A., mmm)

Drove for hours last night and we made it nowhere
I see stars in your eyes when we're halfway there (all night)
I'm not fazed by all the lights and flashing cameras
'Cause with my arms around you, there's no need to care

We don't fit in well
We are just ourselves
I could use some help
Getting out of this conversation, yeah
You look stunning, dear
So don't ask that question here
This is my only fear
That we become

Beautiful people
Drop-top, designer clothes
Front row at fashion shows
"What d'you do?" and "Who d'you know?"
Inside the world of
Beautiful people
Champagne and rolled-up notes
Pre-nups and broken homes
Surrounded, but still alone
Let's leave the party

That's not who we are
(We are, we are, we are)
We are not beautiful
Yeah, that's not who we are
(We are, we are, we are)
We are not beautiful

(We are, we are, we are)
We are not beautiful

Body

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Self love is always the hardest.

For anyone.

But you, you taught me to be comfortable with my own body.

Thank you for loving me for who I am.

When no one else would.

You truly are amazing.

Love, Eran.

Current Song Mood: Julia Michaels - Body

Sorry I'm a bitch to you
I know that I'm the reason that you're so insecure
Think that I'd know better
As I get a little older

I'm sorry I'm a bitch to you
I know that I'm the reason you don't smile anymore
Think I'd learn my lesson
'Cause now I'm feelin' empty

And you say, "Why do you talk to yourself like that?"
I say, "I don't know why."
Oh
You say all of these things are just in my mind
Kiss me 'til I'm alright

I just wanna love my body
Like you love my body
I wanna look in the mirror
And tell it that it's beautiful like you do
I wanna love my body
Like you love my body
Wanna make it feel like it's incredible like you do

And I don't see what you see
But I want to, I wanna love...
Love my body like I love your body

I'm sorry I don't let you go out with your friends
Last time I think I said it was a little too short
And you said I harp on you too much
So you put a sweatshirt on 'cause you gave up
Watched TV still in your make-up
And you stayed in it 'til you waked up
You wiped it off when we made up

And you say, "Why do you talk to yourself like that?"
I say, "I don't know why."
Oh
You say all of these things are just in my mind
Kiss me 'til I'm alright

I just wanna love my body
Like you love my body
Wanna look in the mirror
And tell it that it's beautiful like you do
I wanna love my body
Like you love my body
Wanna make it feel like it's incredible like you do

And I don't see what you see
But I want to, I wanna love...
Love my body like I love your body

I just wanna love my body
Like you love my body
I wanna look in the mirror
And tell it that it's beautiful like you do
I wanna love my body
Like you love my body
Wanna make it feel like it's incredible like you do

I Dont Care

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Thank you for always being there for me.

Cheering me up when I'm down.

It's like you can read me.

What we have is special.

And that's all that matters.

I know I shouldn't care what others think about me.

When all I have is you.

:)

I don't care anymore.

Thank you for tonight.

Love, Eran.

Current Song Mood: Ed Sheeran Ft Justin Bieber - I Dont Care

[Ed Sheeran:]
I'm at a party I don't wanna be at
And I don't ever wear a suit and tie, yeah
Wonderin' if I could sneak out the back
Nobody's even lookin' me in my eyes
Can you take my hand?
Finish my drink, say, "Shall we dance?" (Hell, yeah)
You know I love ya, did I ever tell ya?
You make it better like that

Don't think I fit in at this party
Everyone's got so much to say (Yeah)
I always feel like I'm nobody, mmm
Who wants to fit in anyway?

'Cause I don't care when I'm with my baby, yeah
All the bad things disappear
And you're making me feel like maybe I am somebody
I can deal with the bad nights
When I'm with my baby, yeah
Ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh, oooh, ooh
'Cause I don't care as long as you just hold me near
You can take me anywhere
And you're making me feel like I'm loved by somebody
I can deal with the bad nights
When I'm with my baby, yeah
Ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh, oooh, ooh

[Justin Bieber:]
We at a party we don't wanna be at
Tryna talk, but we can't hear ourselves
Press your lips, I'd rather kiss 'em right back
With all these people all around
I'm crippled with anxiety
But I'm told it's where I'm supposed to be
You know what? It's kinda crazy 'cause I really don't mind
When you make it better like that

Don't think we fit in at this party
Everyone's got so much to say, oh yeah, yeah
When we walked in, I said I'm sorry, mmm
But now I think that we should stay

[Ed Sheeran (Justin Bieber):]
'Cause I don't care when I'm with my baby, yeah
All the bad things disappear
Yeah, you're making me feel like maybe I am somebody
I can deal with the bad nights
When I'm with my baby, yeah
Ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh, oooh, ooh (Oh yeah, yeah, yeah)
'Cause I don't care as long as you just hold me near
You can take me anywhere
And you're making me feel like I'm loved by somebody
I can deal with the bad nights
When I'm with my baby, yeah
Ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh, oooh, ooh (No)

[Justin Bieber:]
I don't like nobody but you, it's like you're the only one here
I don't like nobody but you, baby, I don't care

[Ed Sheeran:]
I don't like nobody but you, I hate everyone here
I don't like nobody but you, baby, yeah

[Ed Sheeran (Justin Bieber):]
'Cause I don't care (Don't care)
When I'm with my baby, yeah (Oh yeah)
All the bad things disappear (Disappear)
And you're making me feel like maybe I am somebody (Maybe I'm somebody)
I can deal with the bad nights (With the bad nights)
When I'm with my baby, yeah
Ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh (Oh yeah, yeah, yeah)
'Cause I don't care as long as you just hold me near (Me near)
You can take me anywhere (Anywhere, anywhere)
And you're making me feel like I'm loved by somebody
(I'm loved by somebody, yeah, yeah, yeah)
I can deal with the bad nights
When I'm with my baby, yeah
Ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh

Don't Worry Bout Me

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I've never thought that this would affect me.

Is it such a bad thing to gain weight?

Maybe I overdid it these past few months.

What can I say?

I'm in a happy place. Where I feel like I shouldn't restrict myself. Or care about what anyone thinks about my image.

I don't feel the need to impress anyone, anymore. 

But what happens when you work in a place where people sees you all the time, and notices all the small things about you.

What happens when every single day, there is someone that will comment on the way you look?

It's manageable the first few times. Brushing it off like a joke, with a smile.

But the constant comments, every single day, feels degrading. Insulting, even.

Don't worry bout me.

You should worry about yourself.

I'm trying my best to get back into shape.

And I hope people will notice the effort instead.

Love, Eran.

Current Song Mood: Zara Larsson - Don't Worry About Me

Everything, everything is cool now
I wanted you to know that I
I'm fine tonight
Why do you do that to me?
Unfair how after we done, then you care
It's like you know I
I'm fine
But why don't you remind yourself that?

Don't worry 'bout me
You should worry 'bout you, yeah, yeah
Keep doing what you do best, babe
That's loving only yourself, babe
'Cause I've been sleeping okay (No, no, no, no)
Don't worry 'bout me
You should worry 'bout you (Oh, oh)
Yeah, that's your problem, so fix it
'Cause I ain't none of your business
Now I've been sleeping okay (No, no, no, no)

Now that you hurting like hell
You see things that reminds you of me everywhere
Just know that I
I'm fine tonight
You tryna stay in my life
Ain't got the space or the time
It's too late now, I'm moving on
I'm so unfazed, you ain't what I want, no

Don't worry 'bout me (Don't worry 'bout)
You should worry 'bout you, yeah, yeah
Keep doing what you do best, babe
That's loving only yourself, babe
'Cause I've been sleeping okay (No, no, no, no)
Don't worry 'bout me
You should worry 'bout you (Oh, oh)
Yeah, that's your problem, so fix it
'Cause I ain't none of your business
Now I've been sleeping okay (No, no, no, no)

Don't worry 'bout me
Don't worry 'bout me
You tryna stay in my life
Ain't got the space or the time
It's too late, now I'm moving on
I'm so unfazed, you ain't what I want, no

Don't worry 'bout me (Don't you worry 'bout)
You should worry 'bout you, yeah, yeah
Keep doing what you do best, babe
That's loving only yourself, babe
'Cause I've been sleeping okay (No, no, no, no, yeah)
Don't worry 'bout me (Don't worry 'bout me)
You should worry 'bout you (Oh, oh)
Yeah, that's your problem, so fix it
'Cause I ain't none of your business
Now I've been sleeping okay (No, no, no, no)

Don't worry 'bout me
You should worry 'bout you
Worry 'bout you, worry 'bout you, worry 'bout you
Yeah, you should worry 'bout you

You There

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You there?

If only you could see me right now.

And the broken pieces of my heart around me.

This pain that i'm just too familiar with.

I can't even cry anymore.

Maybe you would've thought it through before you said that.

I'll give you time to sleep this off.

For both of us.

I still.. love you.

💔

Love, Eran.

Current Song Mood: Aquilo - You There

You there, you're better off here
You there, you're better off here
Funny it takes no time to fall back down
Funny it takes the time to get back up

You there, you're better off here
You there, you're better off here
Funny it takes no time to fall back down
Funny it takes the time to get back up

Uncover your eyes
Uncover your eyes
There's no sun, where is your direction?
Uncover your eyes
Uncover your eyes
Ask yourself, where is my reflection?

Uncover your eyes
Uncover your eyes
There's no sun, where is your direction?
Uncover your eyes
Uncover your eyes
Ask yourself, where is my reflection?

Sanctuary

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I guess it's a big milestone for you to step into my house.

I really appreciate it.

:)

Thank you to all my friends that came as well.

Though a lot couldnt make it this  year.

That's fine.

I always feel like, its better with limited people around.

I find that I give off energy easily when there's a lot of people around.

 I'm totally drained at the end of the day.

And that's okay.

Welcome to my sanctuary.

I hope you guys enjoyed today.

Love, Eran.

Current Song Mood: Joji - Sanctuary

Go 'head and park after dark, fallen star, I'm your one call away
Motel halls, neon walls, when night falls I am your escape
When you lay alone, I ache
Something I wanted to feel

If you've been waiting for falling in love
Babe, you don't have to wait on me
'Cause I've been aiming for heaven above
But an angel ain't what I need

Not anyone, you're the one
More than fun, you're the sanctuary
'Cause what you want is what I want, sincerity

Souls that dream alone lie awake
I'll give you something so real

If you've been waiting for falling in love
Babe, you don't have to wait on me
'Cause I've been aiming for heaven above
But an angel ain't what I need

Pull me oh so close, 'cause you never know
Just how long our lives will be

If you've been waiting for falling in love
Babe, you don't have to wait on me
'Cause I've been aiming for heaven above
But an angel ain't what I need