Milk & Honey

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Nothing like cereal, milk & honey to start off the day. 

The weather has been amazing these days. 

It’s always like that at the end of the year.

Almost symbolic. For an unusually hectic year to slow down and unwind.

Gymmed in the morning & got myself mentally prepared for work. 

Being productive and having a routine each day helps. It’s like exercise for the mind.

Because once you stop,

 It feels like you could just spiral down at any moment.

And nobody wants that.

Just keep on keepin' on.

Love, Eran.

Current Song Mood: Billie Marten - Milk & Honey

Honey here we are
Dreaming in the dark
Trouble seems so far
Their thoughts were ours
But now we dream apart
Now we dream apart
Boiling water

But I'm just content with time well spent
Savor the taste of sugar

But all you want is milk
More than you can drink
All you want is honey
You can't take the sting
You live for overkill
But you're ungrateful still
All you want is honey
Well honey I tried
You just want more and now it's all gone

Honey you're so kind
Oh we follow flight
You shook me up inside
You pick up every rumours in sight
But all the roses died
I'd rather keep them alive
Roots grow slowly

But I'd be content with time well spent
Savor the taste of sugar

But all you want is milk
More than you can drink
All you want is honey
You can't take the sting
You live for overkill
But you're ungrateful still
All you want is honey
Well honey I tried
You just want more
You just want more

Honey I tried
To make it work
You're unsatisfied
You make it worse
Honey I'd die

Still all you want is milk
More than you can drink
All you want is honey
You can't take the sting
You live for overkill
But you're ungrateful still
All you want is honey
Well honey I tried
You just want more
You just want more
You just want more
And now it's all gone

Willow

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The view from my bed today.

Managed to capture this as a flock of birds flew past the window.

The weather was so good.

Wanted to lie down the rest of day.

And just sleep. Recover.

Just taking the time to appreciate,

The little things in life.

:)

Love, Eran.

Current Song Mood: Taylor Swift - Willow 

I'm like the water when your ship rolled in that night
Rough on the surface but you cut through like a knife
And if it was an open/shut case
I never would've known from that look on your face
Lost in your current like a priceless wine

The more that you say, the less I know
Wherever you stray, I follow
I'm begging for you to take my hand
Wreck my plans, that's my man

Life was a willow and it bent right to your wind
Head on the pillow, I could feel you sneaking in
As if you were a mythical thing
Like you were a trophy or a champion ring
And there was one prize I'd cheat to win

The more that you say, the less I know
Wherever you stray, I follow
I'm begging for you to take my hand
Wreck my plans, that's my man
You know that my train could take you home
Anywhere else is hollow
I'm begging for you to take my hand
Wreck my plans, that's my man

Life was a willow and it bent right to your wind
They count me out time and time again
Life was a willow and it bent right to your wind
But I come back stronger than a 90's trend

Wait for the signal and I'll meet you after dark
Show me the places where the others gave you scars
Now this is an open/shut case
Guess I should've known from the look on your face
Every bait and switch was a work of art

The more that you say, the less I know
Wherever you stray, I follow
I'm begging for you to take my hand
Wreck my plans, that's my man
You know that my train could take you home
Anywhere else is hollow
I'm begging for you to take my hand
Wreck my plans, that's my man

The more that you say, the less I know
Wherever you stray, I follow
I'm begging for you to take my hand
Wreck my plans, that's my man
You know that my train could take you home
Anywhere else is hollow
I'm begging for you to take my hand
Wreck my plans, that's my man

Hey, that's my man
That's my man
Yeah, that's my man
Every bait and switch was a work of art
That's my man
Hey, that's my man
I'm begging for you to take my hand
Wreck my plans, that's my man

Exile

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We'll be okay.

To better days ahead.

Love, Eran.

Current Song Mood: Taylor Swift Ft Bon Iver - Exile

I can see you standin', honey
With his arms around your body
Laughin' but the joke's not funny at all
And it took you five whole minutes
To pack us up and leave me with it
Holdin' all this love out here in the hall

I think I've seen this film before
And I didn't like the ending
You're not my homeland anymore
So what am I defendin' now?
You were my town
Now I'm in exile seein' you out
I think I've seen this film before

Hoo, hoo-ooh
Hoo, hoo-ooh
Hoo, hoo-ooh

I can see you starin', honey
Like he's just your understudy
Like you'd get your knuckles bloody for me
Second, third, and hundredth chances
Balancin' on breaking branches
Those eyes add insult to injury

I think I've seen this film before
And I didn't like the ending
I'm not your problem anymore
So who am I offending now?
You were my crown
Now I'm in exile seein' you out
I think I've seen this film before
So I'm leavin' out the side door

So step right out
There is no amount
Of cryin' I can do for you

All this time
We always walked a very thin line
You didn't even hear me out (You didn't even hear me out)
You never gave a warning sign (I gave so many signs)

All this time
I never learned to read your mind (Never learned to read my mind)
I couldn't turn things around (You never turned things around)
'Cause you never gave a warning sign (I gave so many signs)
So many signs
So many signs (You didn't even see the signs)

I think I've seen this film before
And I didn't like the ending
You're not my homeland anymore
So what am I defending now?
You were my town
Now I'm in exile seein' you out
I think I've seen this film before
So I'm leaving out the side door

So step right out
There is no amount
Of cryin' I can do for you

All this time
We always walked a very thin line
You didn't even hear me out (You didn't even hear me out)
You never gave a warning sign (I gave so many signs)

All this time
I never learned to read your mind (Never learned to read my mind)
I couldn't turn things around (You never turned things around)
'Cause you never gave a warning sign (I gave so many signs)

All this time (So many times)
I never learned to read your mind (So many signs)
I couldn't turn things around
'Cause you never gave a warning sign (Never gave a warning sign)

Stay Down

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Sunday's finally done & dusted.

It sucked having to go back to work today.

When I could be spending it in my partner's arms.

But such, is life.

Today everybody seemed to be in a good mood.

A lot of thank you's came my way.

I'm just glad I could make a significant impact in other people's life.

Even if it's a tiny bit.

One of my patient even said to me;

That her husband prayed that I'd become a doctor one day.

I laughed it off and said thank you.

It's far fetched but, who knows 🤣.

6 months later, I guess I'm fitting in after all.

I'm just gonna stay down & keep working hard.

😊

Love, Eran.

Current Song Mood: Boygenius - Stay Down

[Julien Baker:]
I wasn't a fighter 'til somebody told me
I had better learn to lean into the punch
So I don't hurt as bad when they leave
There you were, turning your cheek

I look at you and you look at a screen
I'm in the back seat of my body
I'm just steering my life in the video game
Similar accent, a different name
It's a slow down

[Julien Baker, Lucy Dacus, Phoebe Bridgers:]
So would you teach me I'm the villain
Aren't I, aren't I the one?
Constantly repenting for a difficult mind
Push me down into the water like a sinner
Hold me under and I'll never come up again
I'll just stay down

It's a half-life
It's a fallout
It takes so long for me to settle down
And when I finally do there's no one else around
So I stay down
So I stay down
So I stay down
So I stay down
So I stay down

Tolerate It

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Thank God I didn't get activated this weekend.

It's been giving me anxiety the past few weeks.

Will be working tomorrow.

On a Sunday.

Bummed I won't be spending it with my partner.

But at least we managed to spend the whole of today together instead.

Hugs.

I know you're dealing with a lot.

It hurts me to see you like that.

But things will.. work out.

Just tolerate it. For a little bit longer.

There has to a light at the end of it all.

Focus on.. the present.

And not the worries of what's to come.

I just hope that I could make you feel better today.

Even just a little bit.

:)

Love, Eran.

Current Song Mood: Taylor Swift - Tolerate It

I sit and watch you reading with your head low
I wake and watch you breathing with your eyes closed
I sit and watch you, I notice everything you do or don't do
You're so much older and wiser and I

I wait by the door like I'm just a kid
Use my best colors for your portrait
Lay the table with the fancy shit
And watch you tolerate it
If it's all in my head tell me now
Tell me I've got it wrong somehow
I know my love should be celebrated
But you tolerate it

I greet you with a battle hero's welcome
I take your indiscretions all in good fun
I sit and listen, I polish plates until they gleam and glisten
You're so much older and wiser and I

I wait by the door like I'm just a kid
Use my best colors for your portrait
Lay the table with the fancy shit
And watch you tolerate it
If it's all in my head tell me now
Tell me I've got it wrong somehow
I know my love should be celebrated
But you tolerate it

While you were out building other worlds, where was I?
Where's that man who'd throw blankets over my barbed wire?
I made you my temple, my mural, my sky
Now I'm begging for footnotes in the story of your life
Drawing hearts in the byline
Always taking up too much space or time
You assume I'm fine
But what would you do if I

Break free and leave us in ruins
Took this dagger in me and removed it
Gain the weight of you then lose it
Believe me, I could do it
If it's all in my head tell me now
Tell me I've got it wrong somehow
I know my love should be celebrated
But you tolerate it
I sit and watch you

Dream

 Page 1458

Don't know how I made it through today.

Without coffee.

But I feel soooo drained.

At least it was a really productive day.

I just want to get every task done.

I wish there was more time.

It seems to be... running out these days.

Passing by so fast.

I just want to do everything.

My job.

Do music.

Runescape.

Travel the world.

Everything.

A boy can dream.

Love, Eran.

Current Song Mood: Shawn Mendes - Dream

Dream, dream, dream, dream

Hello, hello, hello
Can I hear an echo
Purple red and yellow
I can't wait to get home
Head down on the pillow
Holding you is all I think about

You're asleep in London
I wish you were coming
Back home to me darling
You're too far away
Count back from one hundred
Holding you is all I think about

Oh baby
When I'm apart from you
I just shut my eyes
All I have to do

Is dream, dream, dream, dream
About you
Dream, dream, dream, dream
About you
(About you, about you, about you, about you)

Hello, hello, hello
Walking through a meadow
Full of sunflowers, picking off the petals
I don't wanna wake up without you laying next to me
Yeah
I'm no good at waiting
All the separation
Feeling suffocated
I just need to breathe
And I'm starting to hate it
I can't wait to fall asleep

Oh baby
When I'm apart from you
I just close my eyes
And all I have to do

Is dream, dream, dream, dream
About you
(About you, about you, about you, about you)
Dream, dream, dream, dream
About you
(About you, about you, about you, about you)

Dream, dream, dream, dream
About you
(About you, about you, about you, about you)

Dream, dream, dream, dream
About you
Dream, dream, dream, dream
About you

Never Let Me Go

 Page 1457

Thankful for another weekend with my partner.

Us and our funny antics.

Hehe.

Wish I can be in your arms forever.

I hope you never let me go.

:)

It's gonna be another long week ahead.

But we will always get through this together.

One day at a time.

Absence makes.. the heart grow fonder.

See you soon. x

Love, Eran.

Current Song Mood: Ghostly Kisses - Never Let Me Go

[Verse 1]
Tell me
Where will you go now?
Can I follow you?
Can I follow you?

Tell me what you really want
Show me how to drift where you are
Where no one else has ever been before

Will I ever be the one
Who knows you more than anyone?
Like no one else has ever been before

[Chorus]
Never let me go
I wanna know what lies ahead
Ahead of us
Never let me fall
I wanna live up here
Up here in your arms
Please don't go now
Stay where you are
Please don't go now
Is that all?

[Verse 2]
Tell me
Where do we go now?
I will follow you
I will follow you

Tell me what you really want
Show me how to drift ashore
That inner self no one has seen before

Will you share your secret sun?
Who loves you more than anyone
Like no one else has ever loved before

Hmmm

[Chorus]
Never let me go
I wanna know what lies ahead
Ahead of us
Never let me fall
I wanna live up here
Up here in your arms
Please don't go now
Stay where you are
Please don't go now
Come back home

[Outro]
Will I ever be the one?
Will I ever be the one?
Will I ever be the one?
Will I ever be the one?