Monday, February 1, 2016

Purpose

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It's the 1st of February.
And all I wanna do right now is wrap myself up in a ball and hide under the covers.
I haven't been myself lately.
Somehow I've just been feeling down.
Expected it.

Maybe I'm just better off on my own.
It's always been that way for me.
Gotta focus more on myself this year.
I'm turning older very soon.
The thought of being a full-fledged adult scares the shit out of me.
So many goals.
So many things I wanna achieve.
Will I live long enough to achieve it?
Youth is constantly ticking.
What are YOU doing to make your lifetime worthwhile?
Find YOUR purpose.

Love, ERAN.

I'm still finding mine.

Current Song Mood: Justin Bieber - Purpose

Feeling like I'm breathing my last breath
Feeling like I'm walking my last steps
Look at all of these tears I've wept
Look at all the promises that I've kept

I put my heart into your hands
Here's my soul to keep
I let you in with all that I can
You're not hard to reach
And you bless me with the best gift
That I've ever known
You give me purpose
Yeah, you've given me purpose

Thinking my journey's come to an end
Sending out a farewell to my friends, forever peace
Ask you to forgive me for my sins, oh would you please?
I'm more than grateful for the time we spent, my spirit's at ease

I put my heart into your hands
Learn the lessons you teach
No matter when, wherever I am
You're not hard to reach
And you've given me the best gift
That I've ever known
You give me purpose everyday
You give me purpose in every way

Oh, you are my everything
Oh, you are my everything

[Spoken:]
I don't know if this is wrong because someone else is telling me that it's wrong but I feel this so let me just like, try my best not to let this happen again. We weren't necessarily put in the best position to make the best decisions.

You can't be hard on yourself for these were the cards that you were given so you have to understand that these, like... that's not who you are. You're trying to be the best you can be but that's all you can do. If you don't give it all you got, you're only cheating yourself. Give it all you got, but if it ends up happening, it ends up happening.

That's what it's....that's what's happening with me. It's like God I'm giving it all I got, sometimes I'm weak and I'm gonna do it, and it's like I'm not giving myself grace, I'm just like understanding, that's just how it is.

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