Comfortable

Page 587

Just got back from camp.

Shagballz.

Glad that I could overcome my shyness today.

Finally able to get comfortable with you.

You're actually really dope and nice.

Thanks for all the chats and laughter.

It totally made time pass faster.

And made the wait more bearable.

Things are gonna get hectic this coming month.

I'm gonna have to be at my best mindset.

If only...

Love, Eran.

Current Song Mood: Nick Jonas - Comfortable

Cause my faith in you is very comfortable for me
My faith in you, baby, is very comfortable for me

Never trust a door 'til it's open
Never trust a heart 'til it's a broken
I know you're the one who can break the mold
Iverson was like, told me practice
I don't need a mic cause the fact is
I'm living my life, it's hot and then cold, cold

So who are you catering to?
Who you fucking with when there ain't nobody fucking with you?
I told you I knew you before you even knew that you were you
Yeah I know you better than that, I know you better...

Cause my faith in you is very comfortable for me
My faith in you, baby, is very comfortable for me
I'm blazing through-ough-ough-ough
Until you're comfortable for me
My faith in you is very comfortable for me

Never met a beauty queen I didn't like
It doesn't mean it's alright and you gotta wife
I'm trying not to take my time, cause these ten's got friends
And I'm just tryna kick it with the girl in the back
Who doesn't give a damn
If I'm J from Brooklyn or just in the band
It's all the same, it's all the same in her eyes

Well who are you catering to?
Who you fucking with when there ain't nobody fucking with you?
I told you I knew you before you even knew that you were you
Yeah I know you better than that, I know you better...

Cause my faith in you is very comfortable for me
My faith in you, baby, is very comfortable for me
I'm blazing through-ough-ough-ough
Until you're comfortable for me
My faith in you is very comfortable for me

Not a game; not the game that...talk about, it's easy to sum it up when you just talk about practice...
we're sitting here, I'm supposed to be the franchise player, and we're in here talking about practice.
I mean, listen, we talking about practice. Not a game, not a game, not a game, we talking about practice.
Not a game; not the game that I go out there and die for and play every game like it's my last, not the game,
we're talking about practice, man. I mean, how silly is that? Man we're talking about practice.

I know I'm supposed to be there, I know I'm supposed to lead by example, I know that.
And I'm not shoving it aside like it don't mean anything.
Not the game, not the game, I'm not shoving it aside, you know, like it don't mean anything...

Cause my faith in you is very comfortable for me
My faith in you, baby, is very comfortable for me
I'm blazing through-ough-ough-ough
Until you're comfortable for me
My faith in you is very comfortable for me

Work From Home

Page 586

I'm so tired.

Overworked.

Drained.

Been such a hectic week.

I miss sleeping in my own bed. 

I wish there was a way to work from home.

For once, I'm saying that.

I can't wait to be free from all this.

I don't even have time for myself now.

Work, work, work.

Sigh.

Love, Eran.

 Current Song Mood: Fifth Harmony Ft Ty Dolla $ign - Work From Home

I ain't worried 'bout nothin'
I ain't wearin' na nada
I'm sittin' pretty, impatient, but I know you gotta
Put in them hours, I'mma make it harder
I'm sending pic after picture, I'mma get you fired

I know you're always on the night shift
But I can't stand these nights alone
And I don't need no explanation
'Cause baby, you're the boss at home

You don't gotta go to work, work, work, work, work, work, work
But you gotta put in work, work, work, work, work, work, work
You don't gotta go to work, work, work, work, work, work, work
Let my body do the work, work, work, work, work, work, work, work
We can work from home, oh, oh, oh-oh
We can work from home, oh, oh, oh-oh

Let's put it into motion
I'mma give you a promotion
I'll make it feel like a vacay, turn the bed into an ocean
We don't need nobody, I just need your body
Nothin' but sheets in between us, ain't no getting off early

I know you're always on the night shift
But I can't stand these nights alone
And I don't need no explanation
'Cause baby, you're the boss at home

You don't gotta go to work, work, work, work, work, work, work
But you gotta put in work, work, work, work, work, work, work
You don't gotta go to work, work, work, work, work, work, work
Let my body do the work, work, work, work, work, work, work, work
We can work from home, oh, oh, oh-oh
We can work from home, oh, oh, oh-oh

[Ty Dolla $ign:]
Girl, go to work for me
Can you make it clap, no hands for me?
Take it to the ground, pick it up for me
Look back at it all over me
Put in work like my timesheet
She ride it like a '63
I'mma buy her no Celine
Let her ride in a foreign with me
Oh, she the bae, I'm her boo
And she down to break the rules
Ride or die, she gon' go
I won't judge, she finesse
I pipe up, she take that
Putting overtime on your body

You don't gotta go to work, work, work, work, work, work, work
But you gotta put in work, work, work, work, work, work, work
You don't gotta go to work, work, work, work, work, work, work
Let my body do the work, work, work, work, work, work, work, work
We can work from home, oh, oh, oh-oh
We can work from home, oh, oh, oh-oh

Yeah, we can work from home
Yeah, we can work from home
Yeah

Run To You

Page 585

How fast it's been...

I still remember that day.

Exactly on this day..

Getting that text.

Getting my heart broken in a million pieces.

I was so, so broken.

The next morning, I had the biggest breakdown.

I just kept crying and crying on the bedroom floor.

Non-stop.

I was so alone.

Nobody I could turn to.

I've been in and out of depression since.

I've had my relapses.

Been hesitating to start anew.

I went through all of that alone.

.....

Well look at me now.

:)

It took a lot of courage for me.

To delete that folder.

All the memories in it.

The good. The bad.

I realise now.

It's okay to be alone.

There is strength in vulnerability.

Beauty in sadness.

Comfort in solitude.

Look at how far I've survived.

A whole freakin year.

I'm an introvert, and this is how I've always lived my life.

All these while, I've found the most comfort being on my own.

If I love someone.. I put in a 100%.

My love doesn't stop.

No matter who you are.

I won't judge.

You can me a fool..

But call out my name, and I'll run to you.

Its so hard to put my feelings into words right now.

But everything is poured out into this song.

I'll let the music speak for me.

Love, Eran.

My love won't stop.

Current Song Mood: Lacey Sturm - Run To You

You tell me I'm the one holding you back
And something about how far we're off track
Well all I hear is your heart beat loud and strong
And I just want to wrap you in my arms

But I'll let you go, if that's what you want
But I hope you know my love won't stop
You say it's not true and you call me a fool
But call out my name, I'll run to you

I know you, I know your eyes so well
And I know you're not sure of yourself
But something made you restless years ago
'Til you forgot that I'm part of your soul

But I'll let you go, if that's what you want
But I hope you know my love won't stop
You say it's not true and you call me a fool
But call out my name, I'll run to you

I've always believed in you
You used to believe in me too
Remember the day that you turned away
It killed me to lose you
It killed me to lose you

But I'll let you go, if that's what you want
But I hope you know my love won't stop
You say it's not true and you call me a fool
But call out my name, I'll run to you

I'll run to you, I'll run to you
I've always believed in you
Run to you, I'll run to you
And 'cause I love you
I'll let you go
If that's what you want
But I hope you know
My love won't stop

Nobody

Page 584

I'm full of strong, mixed emotions tonight.

Just... lost.

Looking through old photos that I still keep. 

I know I shouldn't.

And I know I should have deleted them.

A long time ago.

But there's this small tinge of warmness in me.

As I look through those happy times.

Those were really one of the best moments I've had with anyone.

And I actually believed that for the longest time.

Nobody's gonna love me like you did.

What we had was.. special.

My special secret.

Because you showed me the highs and lows of what a relationship can come to.

You showed me the best.

You showed me the worst.

And I understand that now.

I understand that everything had to happen.

For me to experience.

For me to grow.

And I have.

I did.

Love, Eran.

Current Song Mood: Selena Gomez - Nobody

No heart, no hands, no skin, no touch
Can get me there, nowhere enough
To love me like you do, to love me like you do
No kiss, no lips, no feel, no rush
Can keep me high, I swear no one
Can love me like you do, can love me like you do, oh

Nobody's gonna love me like you
Nobody, uh
Nobody, no uh
Nobody's gonna love me like you do
Like you, ooh
Nobody's gonna love me like you
Nobody, uh
Nobody, no uh
Nobody's ever loved me to the truth
Like you, ooh

Nobody's gonna love me like you
Nobody, nobody ooh

No oxygen, could barely breathe
My darkest sin, you've raised release
And it's all because of you, all because of you
I don't know what it is, but you've pulled me in
No one compares, could ever begin
To love me like you do
Hmm I wouldn't want them to
Cause...

Nobody's gonna love me like you
Nobody, uh
Nobody, no uh
Nobody's gonna love me like you do
Like you, ooh
Nobody's gonna love me like you
Nobody, uh
Nobody, no uh
Nobody's ever loved me to the truth
Like you, ooh

Nobody's gonna love me like you
Nobody, uh
Nobody, no uh
Nobody's gonna love me like you do
Like you, ooh
Nobody's gonna love me like you

Nobody, uh
Nobody, no uh
Nobody's ever loved me to the truth
Like you, ooh

I don't want nothing else
Not when I've had the best
I don't want nothing else
Cause you showed me the best

Nobody's gonna love me like you
Nobody, uh
Nobody, no uh
Nobody's gonna love me like you do
Like you, ooh
Nobody's gonna love me like you
Nobody, uh
Nobody, no uh
Nobody's ever loved me to the truth
Like you, ooh

Water Me // Treat You Better

Page 583

I'm so tired.

Of work.

Of everything.

This life is starting to take its toll on me.

I just want to snuggle up somewhere.

With someone.

Close my eyes.

And forget bout all my worries.

Water me.

Watch me grow.

Look at me.

Fall for me.

I promise.

I'll treat you better.

Better than the previous ones.

Love, Eran.

I guess I'm stuck with me.

Current Song Mood#1: FKA twigs - Water Me

He won't make love to me now
Not now, I've set the fee
He said it's too much in pounds
I guess I'm stuck with me

He told me I was so small
I told him "Water me"
I promise I can grow tall
When making love is free

He won't make love to me now
Not now, I've set the fee
He said it's too much in pounds
I guess I'm stuck with me

He told me I was so small
I told him "Water me"

Current Song Mood#2: Shawn Mendes - Treat You Better

I won't lie to you
I know he's just not right for you
And you can tell me if I'm off
But I see it on your face
When you say that he's the one that you want
And you're spending all your time
In this wrong situation
And anytime you want it to stop

I know I can treat you better than he can
And any girl like you deserves a gentleman
Tell me why are we wasting time
On all your wasted crying
When you should be with me instead
I know I can treat you better
Better than he can

I'll stop time for you
The second you say you'd like me too
I just wanna give you the loving that you're missing
Baby, just to wake up with you
Would be everything I need and this could be so different
Tell me what you want to do

'Cause I know I can treat you better than he can
And any girl like you deserves a gentleman
Tell me why are we wasting time
On all your wasted crying
When you should be with me instead
I know I can treat you better
Better than he can

Better than he can

Give me a sign
Take my hand, we'll be fine
Promise I won't let you down
Just know that you don't
Have to do this alone
Promise I'll never let you down

'Cause I know I can treat you better than he can
And any girl like you deserves a gentleman
Tell me why are we wasting time
On all your wasted crying
When you should be with me instead
I know I can treat you better
Better than he can

Better than he can
Better than he can

Fool // Pendulum

Page 582

I'm so frustrated.

How can someone blessed with good looks, be spoiled with such a feeble mind?

That's always the case with the people I show interest in my life.

Ever since...

There's always something lacking.

Or is it I'm too demanding now?

It's just... life's not gonna wait for you.

Dont settle for something lesser than you are man.

I've been in your shoes.

Don't be a fool.

Wake up.

He clearly doesn't treasure you.

You can do better than this.

Time's ticking like a pendulum.

Are you gonna waste yours?

Cause I'm not gonna waste mine.

Love, Eran.

Current Song Mood #1: Naomi Scott - Fool

Come to light, I move ready like a fool

 Find my mind, like I’m lost & found 

They say time, but you don’t kill the silence 

If you want to be mine, to be mine, to be mine, to be mine 

Don’t be a fool, you don’t give me anything 

You don’t give me anything 

Don’t be a fool, not giving me anything 

Giving me anything I need to cool, anything anything 

Don’t be a fool 

No one said you had all of this time 

No one said you had all of this time 

No one said you had all of this time 

No one said you had all of this time 

You feel the same I can see it when I call up baby Y

ou’re the only one I came, babe 

Come take the pay, still not knowing 

If you want to be mine, to be mine, to be mine, to be mine 

Don’t be a fool, you don’t give me anything 

You don’t give me anything 

Don’t be a fool, not giving me anything 

Giving me anything I need to cool, anything anything 

Don’t be a fool 

No one said you had all of this time 

No one said you had all of this time 

No one said you had all of this time 

No one said you had all of this time 

Do you ever wanna love again? 

Do you even wanna make a mance? 

Have my heart on display, 

But I’m the only one in the game 

All I talk about, talk about, talk about is you (x2) 

Don’t be a fool, you don’t give me anything 

You don’t give me anything 

Don’t be a fool, not giving me anything 

Giving me anything I need to cool, anything anything 

Don’t be a fool

So lonely trying to be yours.

Current Song Mood #2: FKA Twigs - Pendulum

I'm a sweet
Little love maker
Finding time
To make my words better (I)

Lately I
Not so present now
Not enough
For your constant fun

I've got time, but you're tired of waiting
You only want me in open spaces
Come fill your gaps with people
I know no one

So lonely trying to be yours
When you're looking for so much more

You forgot
How we fell in love
I'm your sweet
Little love maker

You're younger than I am broken
I dance feelings like they're spoken
So my conversations not enough

So lonely trying to be yours
What a forsaken cause
So lonely trying to be yours
When you're looking for so much more

(So lonely trying)
How does it feel to have me thinking about you?
Wishing that words were enough to consume you
So lonely trying to be yours
How does it feel to have me thinking about you?

So lonely trying to be yours
What a forsaken cause
So lonely trying to be yours
When you're looking for so much more

To be yours
To be yours

Bloodflows

Page 581

Beautiful Sunday.

Chilly weather.

Peace.

Positive vibes.

Relax.

Close your eyes.

Let your thoughts flow.

Let your blood flow.  

Live.

Love, Eran.

Current Song Mood: SOHN - Bloodflows

Shotgun poetry
Crack the whip again, make me see
Sharpen your knives for me
Infiltrate the mind, the body
Body

Contract killer prose
Calmly walks away as blood flows
Open, the wound grows
Melts away the water froze

My love, my love, my love don't love me
My love, my love, my love don't love me
My love, my love, my love don't love me
Cause my love, my love, my love don't love me

Contract killer prose
Calmly walks away as blood flows
Open, the wound grows
Melts away the water froze

My love, my love, my love don't love me
My love, my love, my love don't love me
My love, my love, my love don't love me
Cause my love, my love, my love don't love me

My love, my love, my love don't love me
My love, my love, my love don't love me
My love, my love, my love don't love me
Cause my love, my love, my love don't love me
Cause my love, my love, my love don't love me

Remember The Music

Page 580

HS Homecoming 2016

Another year back in 'school.'

Man, I miss it here.

Kinda awkward walking amongst these students.

Nice to see so many familiar faces tonight.

Was kinda bummed that many didnt turn up, but I really did enjoy myself.

Thanks JY for coming down to support me!

And everyone that showed love <3

Got to perform tonight, and I had a lot of fun indeed.

The committee was really nice and handled everything pretty great, even though there were some unforeseen circumstances.

That's alright. 

Positive vibes.

Always.

:)

I'll remember this night.

I'll remember the music.

Thank you.

Love, Eran.

Remember.

Current Song Mood - Jennifer Hudson - Remember The Music

Follow my hands
I'll teach you how to play
I'll be patient with you
Someone was patient with me

There always be a chance that you could hit the wrong note
Everybody could laugh and make you think you won't grow
You don't ever give up, it's not the end of the world

[Chorus:]
You live and you learn
Even when you think that times get hard
It's temporary hard
All you gotta do is make that call
I'll be there
Don't be scared
You don't got to lose it
Remember the music
Remember the music

In the past it's been hard as hell
You will never know how much pain I felt
But everybody's got a story to tell
Sometimes you got to face the music and play by yourself

But there always be a chance that you could hit the wrong note
Everyone could laugh and they don't wanna hear no more
You don't ever give up, it's not the end of the world

[Chorus:]
You live and you learn
Even when you think times get hard
It's temporary hard
All you gotta do is make that call
I'll be there
Don't be scared
You don't got to lose it
Remember the music

Remember
It's the answer
Don't you ever forget the music
No

[Chorus:]
You live and you learn
Even when you think times get hard
It's temporary hard
All you gotta do is make that call
I'll be there
Don't be scared
You don't got to lose it
Remember the music

Take Me Home

Page 579

The visions in my head.

So perfectly played out.

Still waiting.

For The One to come by.

Will you take me home?

Will you make me a better person?

Will you love me the way I'll love you?

I'll be waiting.

Looking forward and kinda anxious about tomorrow.

Hoping to have a good time.

And reconnect with people.

Love, Eran.

Current Song Mood: Jess Glynne - Take Me Home

Wrapped up, so consumed by all this hurt
If you ask me, don't know where to start
Anger, love, confusion
Roads that go nowhere
I know that somewhere better
'Cause you always take me there

Came to you with a broken faith
Gave me more than a hand to hold
Caught before I hit the ground
Tell me I'm safe, you've got me now

Would you take the wheel
If I lose control?
If I'm lying here
Will you take me home?

Could you take care of a broken soul?
Will you hold me now?
Oh, will you take me home?
Oh, will you take me home?
Oh, will you take me home?
Oh, will you take me home?
Oh, will you take me home?

Hold the gun to my head, count 1, 2, 3
If it helps me walk away then it's what I need
Every minute gets easier
The more you talk to me
You rationalize my darkest thoughts
Yeah, you set them free

Came to you with a broken faith
Gave me more than a hand to hold
Caught before I hit the ground
Tell me I'm safe, you've got me now

Would you take the wheel
If I lose control?
If I'm lying here
Will you take me home?

Could you take care of a broken soul?
Oh, will you hold me now?
Oh, will you take me home?
Oh, will you take me home?
Oh, will you take me home?
Oh, will you take me home?

[3x]
You say space will make it better
And time will make it heal
I won't be lost forever
And soon I wouldn't feel
Like I'm haunted, oh, falling

Would you take the wheel
If I lose control?
If I'm lying here
Will you take me home?

Could you take care of a broken soul?
Oh, will you hold me now?
Oh, will you take me home?
Oh, will you take me home?
Oh, will you take me home?
Oh, will you take me home?
Oh, will you take me home, home?
Oh, will you take me home?
Oh, will you take me home?