Run To You

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-Two days ago- 

It's been a mentally, emotionally and physically week so far..

I first got the message during gym on Sunday afternoon.

'She's in critical condition.'

I froze...

My heart skipped a beat.

Is it time?

I finished my last set and rushed out. 

I ran.

I ran & I ran until I couldnt.

All the way back home.

I panted in the train. Sweating profusely.

We rushed to the hospital.

And there she was.

Nenek.

A little distressed. But still stable.

Getting blood transfusions.

Looking confused.

But more stable... than she was this morning.

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-Today-

It was 5AM.

I woke up for work, and I noticed my Dad was gone.

Strange.. he doesn't get up this early.

I noticed Mum wasnt by my side either.

I got up. And looked around..

They were both gone.

I knew what it meant. 

I got ready for work anyway.

As I left, I received the call I was waiting for.

It was Mum.

Grandma was terminally ill. 

There wasnt much time left.

I made the decision to skip work.

Of course I would. 

I had to see her one last time.

The sky was moody as fuck. Dark. Gloomy.

And so was I.

I reached there, cold. Shivering.

And everyone was there.

I went to see her. 

Tears.

Whispers.

Prayers.

I felt my throat blocked.

And my tears started to flow automatically.

I couldnt take it.

Seeing her in that state...

It just breaks everyone's heart.

My Grandma is critically ill right now.

But she's a fighter. She's still holding on.

We've accepted that she's in her end stages.

So we're trying to make her as comfortable as possible.

I'd appreciate everyone's thoughts and prayers.

Nenek, I love you so much.

I'd run to you.

I'd do anything for you to wake up again.

Love, Eran.

Current Song Mood: Lea Michele - Run To You

The city sky's feeling dark tonight
We're back to back with our heads down
Just look at me, give me more tonight
Just give me more of your love now

Let's set fire to the lonely night
You're beautiful when you look at me
Let's give love another life

Cause you'll be safe in these arms of mine
Just call my name on the edge of the night
And I'll run to you, I'll run to you

I would run to you, if you want me to
Just give me some kind of reason
I'll take the pain, take it all away
Just give it some kind of meaning

Let's let go, let it be the start
You know I'm feeling the same thing
Let's let go of our broken hearts

Cause you'll be safe in these arms of mine
Just call my name on the edge of the night
And I'll run to you, I'll run to you

Even if it's gonna break me, love
Gonna make my way to you
Anyway it's gonna take me, love
I run to you
I run to you
Run, run

Cause you'll be safe in these arms of mine
Just call my name on the edge of the night
And I'll run to you
I'll run to you

Even if it's gonna break me, love
I run to you

Run To You

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How fast it's been...

I still remember that day.

Exactly on this day..

Getting that text.

Getting my heart broken in a million pieces.

I was so, so broken.

The next morning, I had the biggest breakdown.

I just kept crying and crying on the bedroom floor.

Non-stop.

I was so alone.

Nobody I could turn to.

I've been in and out of depression since.

I've had my relapses.

Been hesitating to start anew.

I went through all of that alone.

.....

Well look at me now.

:)

It took a lot of courage for me.

To delete that folder.

All the memories in it.

The good. The bad.

I realise now.

It's okay to be alone.

There is strength in vulnerability.

Beauty in sadness.

Comfort in solitude.

Look at how far I've survived.

A whole freakin year.

I'm an introvert, and this is how I've always lived my life.

All these while, I've found the most comfort being on my own.

If I love someone.. I put in a 100%.

My love doesn't stop.

No matter who you are.

I won't judge.

You can me a fool..

But call out my name, and I'll run to you.

Its so hard to put my feelings into words right now.

But everything is poured out into this song.

I'll let the music speak for me.

Love, Eran.

My love won't stop.

Current Song Mood: Lacey Sturm - Run To You

You tell me I'm the one holding you back
And something about how far we're off track
Well all I hear is your heart beat loud and strong
And I just want to wrap you in my arms

But I'll let you go, if that's what you want
But I hope you know my love won't stop
You say it's not true and you call me a fool
But call out my name, I'll run to you

I know you, I know your eyes so well
And I know you're not sure of yourself
But something made you restless years ago
'Til you forgot that I'm part of your soul

But I'll let you go, if that's what you want
But I hope you know my love won't stop
You say it's not true and you call me a fool
But call out my name, I'll run to you

I've always believed in you
You used to believe in me too
Remember the day that you turned away
It killed me to lose you
It killed me to lose you

But I'll let you go, if that's what you want
But I hope you know my love won't stop
You say it's not true and you call me a fool
But call out my name, I'll run to you

I'll run to you, I'll run to you
I've always believed in you
Run to you, I'll run to you
And 'cause I love you
I'll let you go
If that's what you want
But I hope you know
My love won't stop