Ghosts

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Been in and out of sleep today.

Lazing the day away.

Watched a couple of creepy short films.

Parker Finn is officially our new fave horror director.

Very Ari Aster! And his monsters are creepy.

Hahaha. Sheeesh.

Us and our ghosts.

Feels good to be in your arms again.

:)

A week has gone by so fast..

We're really just taking it, day by day.

But that's okay.

At the end of the day/week, we get to spend time with each other.

Doing what we love the most.

And at least, that is something to look forward to every week.

'What we have is sacred.'

Always.

Thank you for being, you.

Love, Eran.

Current Song Mood: BANNERS - Ghosts

I hear voices, awoken from my sleep
I'm haunted by the thoughts, that creep
If the earthquakes start, buildings fall
I'm pulling pictures off from our walls,
'Til you say

Here, here I am
Oh, and here, here I am
Oh, oh

All the ghosts
That float, float around us
Now they turned all our dreams into dust
We saved your mother,
But, darling, there was no spark left for us,
We won the battle but lost the heart
And now I know that...

Here, here I am
Oh and here, here I am

Oh, hard to believe
It's said and done,
Hard to believe
It's not dead and gone

I want to believe
All is well that ends well,
But I just can't convince myself

Run towards the stars, or make them shine
Fight the tide, until the day we die
Run towards the stars, can't make them shine
But you know I'll try

Run towards the stars, or make them shine
Fight the tide, until the day we die
Run towards the stars, can't make them shine
But you know I'll try
For you I'll try

Stars & Velvet

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It warms my heart sometimes.

To see old couples.

I see that a lot, working in healthcare.

Old and fragile, yet so loving and caring.

Dropping their significant others off at the centre.

Even staying by their side, until their procedures are finished.

It's literally 'Till death do us apart'.

So lovely.

Makes me smile every time.

A love like that, is priceless.

Endless.

Like stars & velvet.

Love, Eran.

Current Song Mood: Zoe Johnston - Stars & Velvet

Well I don't know why it's affecting me now But I'm all stirred up tonight by the memory Of how kind you were to me It's the little things in the 24 hour that make me want to thank you But it's too late now to knock on your door So I drive home and think some more (CHORUS) But in the morning I will be coming for you I need to tell you that I am who I am today because of you Your love covered me in stars & velvet And on that morning when I called you I was crying so hard I could barely say your name Ooh you covered me in stars & velvet Stars & velvet Well it's after midnight but it's warm on this road And there's a feeling of bliss expanding inside of me Going over the memory 'cause you made me feel so safe I wished I could be your baby I was so afraid I wanted somebody to hold me so tightly Tell me everything will be OK The way it is right now on this gorgeous day

Bubble

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Woke up to the most beautiful weather ever.

Gloomy, peaceful, & cold.

My favourite.

It hits the spot as I rolled around in bed.

All snuggled up.

The sores on my body aching. 

From the gym I've been starting again the past few days.

It feels good.

Just wanna be stuck in my own bubble again.

Like how I was back then.

Until.. it pops.

Love, Eran.

Current Song Mood: Rei Brown - Bubble

[Intro]

I'm trapped in a bubble

I'm having trouble

Getting air

It's so unfair

You're over there

'Cause I just wanna hold you tight

And watch the clouds go by

[Chorus]

When I see my friends again, I'll be okay

When we get together next, we'll celebrate

When I see my friends again, I'll be okay

When we get together next, we'll celebrate

[Verse]

How you been?

Staying in, been forever

I'm feeling numb

And all I want; to be together

Getting choked up

Dreamt that we could float up

I got my hopes up

But that was when I woke up

[Bridge]

You know if there was any other way, I'd be over

We would all be laughing at your place

But I'm stuck here at the window while it rains, 'til it's over

Wish that I could make it go away

You know if there was any other way, I'd be over

We would all be laughing at your place

But I'm stuck here at the window while it rains, 'til it's over

Wish that I could make it go away

[Chorus]

When I see my friends again, I'll be okay

When we get together next, we'll celebrate

When I see my friends again, I'll be okay

When we get together next, we'll celebrate

When I see my friends again, I'll be okay

When we get together next, we'll celebrate

[Outro]

I'm trapped in a bubble

I'm having trouble

Getting air

Reverie

Page 1387

Just realised that I forgot to blog yesterday.

Hahah.

Sorry.

Life has been so fast-paced these days.

It's like getting lost in reverie.

Last week was a lot to take in.

Finally completed my competency tests and am finally a confirmed staff. (Yay)

It was quite the work though.

A lot of panic attacks and mental breakdowns.

But it all worked out - somehow.

Phase 2 started right after that.

The crowds are back.

And I'm not liking it one bit.

Hahaha.

Who would've thought? That I would miss circuit breaker.

It was much more... peaceful.

I guess I really just hate people.

Or I'm just claustrophobic.

Ah well.

I hope we can maintain the number of cases in our community.

But from the looks of it...

Let's just not go there.

And finally, the weekends.

I had to work, even on Sunday.

As there was some maintenance works on Monday (today).

But it was a pretty relaxing shift.

Mainly cause the bosses aren't around. Managed to escape off work waaaay earlier. 

(Thankful for the permanent morning team 🤣)

Heh.

And after that, what else? Just been spending time with my partner. ☺️

All cuddled and comfy.

Thank you for pampering me.

We'll always make time for each other - no matter what.

Cause somehow, the stars will always align for us.

:)

Love, Eran.

Current Song Mood: Above & Beyond, Zoe Johnston - Reverie

You used to bring the smell of rain in to my bed

And lie so close to me you could be inside my head

Maybe it's a once in a lifetime kind of thing

To feel kind of magic that your love brings

Some days it's like a haunting

This cool and empty space far above and all around me

When I start to miss your face ?

You live in me

My reverie

Don't ever leave ×5

You live in me

My reverie

Don't ever leave me alone

Hardmode

Page 1386

It feels like a never-ending week.

But I guess I'll take it day by day.

Been reminiscing a lot and reading my old posts.

(Something I rarely do)

Especially from my experience in Brunei back in June 2016.

It was a really life changing experience.

I actually laughed at how I reacted in my old posts.

Damn.

I never want to ever go through that again.

Gonna be having my competency test in my new work place the next few days.

I can already feel the anxiety creeping up to me.

Oh well.

Put my life in hardmode.

Or whatever.

Love, Eran.

Current Song Mood: Stephen Rezza - Hardmode

Grace

Page 1385

Hahaha.

Shit.

Today was.. a lot.

Never have I ever.. lied to a government official before.

I'm just thankful I'm wearing a mask.

UH.

Anyways.

Back to today.

Took a trip down memory lane and read all the posts from my previous blog.

Yeah, the blog I started when I was in secondary school...

Ugh.

The cringe.

Hahaha.

*HMPH*

Anyways, it was nice. To look back at how I was, and at myself in the present.

The growth..

Heh.

I guess some things never changed.

My love for music.

And the love I have for my close friends.

:)

To my special s/o reading this (Yes I know you are 😉)

Thank you for having me over.

You're always pampering me.

And I am the luckiest, to have you.

I have such grace, only because you took the time to notice me.

To love me.

So thank you. 💕

You will do just fine this week.

x

Love, Eran.

Current Song Mood: Higher Places - Grace

You're still the only thing I hear

Traffic outside, the humm from through the walls.

The silence roaring

Only punctuated by your breath

Everytime I disappear 

It takes a moment to materialise

You aren't starin

Watch the colours draining

So make your move

I'll try to

Be better every moment around you

We take turns unraveling

There's a limit to the chances you waste

I'll be standing

If you're still standing

Make your move

I'll try to

Be better every moment around you

Make your move

I'll try to

Be better every moment around you

You were the answer

And I never questioned

If you didn't deserve this

You were the answer

And I never questioned

If you didn't deserve this

You were the answer

And I never questioned

If you didn't deserve this

You were the answer

And I never questioned

If you didn't deserve this

So make your move
Make your move

I'll try to

Be better every moment

Always Forever

Page 1384

Time passes quick when you're having fun

I love being spending the weekends with you.

Just us, and the safe space we have.

Our intimate moments shared.

Embracing in each other's arms.

As you shower me with kisses.

And I blush, wondering how I'd ever get so lucky.

Thank you, for existing in my life.

I love you.

Always, forever.

Love, Eran.

Current Song Mood: Aquilo - Forever 

I drag my hands out the window for you
It's killing me, it's killing you too
Suffering people surround us, it's true
Yet we stay

Well you stand in the headlights confused
Well, it's always forever with you
And my instincts, they act like they knew
We would change

It's always been forever with you
It's always been forever with you

Drop the gear like I do just for you
Well, it's kind of surprising you'd bruise
Complicated but perfectly made
You've changed

Crashed the car like the person you are
Is it always forever with you
And ironically you'll try to prove
You'll get through

It's always been forever with you
It's always been forever with you

It's always been forever with you

It's always been forever with you
It's always been forever with you
It's always been forever with you

Go Back In Time

Page 1383

Reminisced about Melbourne today.

It was because of San Holo.

His uplifting songs always takes us back there.

Man...

I cant wait to go back there.

I really miss it.

The atmosphere.

The friendly Aussies.

The easy-going lifestyle.

The great food.

And just, soaking up everything.

We were so happy there.

And free.

I wish we could go back in time.

And live it all again.

Soon, I hope.

Love, Eran.

Current Song Mood: San Holo - Go Back In Time

You make me feeling someone new
Climbing up to see the view
I can't find another you
You, grab my mind to find 'round you
I was save for something new
I can't find another you

I'll let you change my mind
Let's go back in time
I'll let you change my mind
Let's go back in time
Let's go back in time
Let's go back in time

You, ain't not done with barely new
There's was nothing we could do
I can't find another you
You, you could love without excuse
I was hiding from the truth
I can't find another you

I'll let you change my mind
Let's go back in time
I'll let you change my mind
Let's go back in time
Let's go back in time
Let's go back in time

Brave

Page 1382

Man...

What a day.

Just thankful it was the last working day of the week.

Sometimes you just have to act brave.

And go for it.

Get it over, and done with.

Even though I cried.

Hahaha.

Fuck it man.

Just.. keep it together. 

The only way out.. is through.

Love, Eran.

Current Song Mood: David Archuleta - Brave

I know at some point in the future
I don't wanna be looking back
The things that I didn't go for
Some day'll bite me on the butt

I keep on wasting my time now
Sometimes I'm feeling so lame
I'm letting everything go south
When I should be up on my game

When somebody steps into my life
The world shakes under my feet
I don't wait, I just take flight
When things start getting too deep

I don't know why I keep doing it
I worry bout things I can't change
It's a problem I'll admit
It always ends up the same

I can be brave
For all those days that I'm losing my way
I need a voice inside that's gonna say
Be brave
I can be brave
For all those days that I'm losing my way
I need a voice inside that's gonna say
Be brave
I can be

All of these conversations
I sit down and have with myself
Loaded with information
And that isn't good for my health

Cause it's like a mountain in my head
It's pretty much touching the sky
So I figure why not just stay in bed
Why even bother to try

No one, no one really knows the things I gotta do
How many, how many walls and people that I gotta move

Life ain't waiting for no one
But someone's waiting for me
And holding back is so dumb
Lord, give me clarity

To be brave
For all those days that I'm losing my way
I need a voice inside that's gonna say
Be brave
I can be brave
For all those days that I'm losing my way
I need a voice inside that's gonna say
Be brave
I can be brave

And I'm ready to fight
When shadows come
To hunt me down
And I, I won't give up
No I won't give up
Let the war cry sound

Be brave
I can be brave

For all those days that I'm losing my way
I need a voice inside that's gonna say
Be brave
I can be brave
For all those days that I'm losing my way
I need a voice inside that's gonna say
Be brave
I can be brave

Chromatica III // Sine From Above

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Came across a powerful video today.

Actress & R&B singer Keke Palmer (True Jackson, Scream Queens) was seen talking to the National Guards.

I was expecting the worse.

But I was caught off guard.

She was so passionate.

Preaching about the protest.

Even, inviting them. To march along their side.

Join them. Protect them.

She was so emotional.

And it tugged my heart.

Clearly - the guards looked like they were put in a spot.

I'm sure they're contradicted by orders from above.

And yet, here they were, listening to her.

Nodding at what she says.

Trying to explain the situation.

They had to stand their ground.

But they seemed empathetic.

Keke was exasperated. Tells them to please at least, take a knee.

And they did.

Every single one of them.

Maybe there is hope after all.

A sine from above.

Love, Eran.

Current Song Mood #1: Lady Gaga - Chromatica III

Current Song Mood #2: Lady Gaga, Elton John - Sine From Above

When I was young, I prayed for lightning
My mother said it would come and find me
I found myself without a prayer
I lost my love and no one cared
When I was young, I prayed for lightning

Yeah, I looked
With my face up to the sky, but I saw nothing there
No, no, nothing there
Yeah, I stared
While my eyes filled up with tears, but there was nothing there
No, no, nothing

I heard one sine from above
I heard one sine from above
Then the signal split in two
The sound created stars like me and you
Before there was love, there was silence
I heard one sine
And it healed my heart, heard a sine

Healed my heart, heard a sine
Healed my heart, heard a sine

When I was young, I felt immortal
And not a day went by without a struggle
I lived my days just for the nights
I lost myself under the lights
When I was young, I felt immortal

Yeah, I looked
With my face up to the sky, but I saw nothing there
No, no, nothing there
Yeah, I stared
While my eyes filled up with tears, but there was nothing there
No, no, nothing

I heard one sine from above
I heard one sine from above
Then the signal split in two
The sound created stars like me and you
Before there was love, there was silence
I heard one sine
And it healed my heart, heard a sine

Healed my heart, heard a sine
Healed my heart, heard a sine

Then the signal split in two
The sound created stars like me and you
Before there was love, there was silence
I heard one sine
And it healed my heart, heard a sine

Healed my heart
Healed my-
Heart, heard a-
Sine
Healed my-
Heart, heard a sine

Chromatica II // 911

Page 1380

It felt like everything was normal again.

The Social Distancing stickers have all been removed in public.

Everyone still distanced themselves, commuting quietly.

Yet, on the Twitterverse, it was utter chaos.

It is so, so scary.

That it is in fact - a recurrent problem throughout the whole world.

I can only imagine what people in the US are going through.

To have a President that only cares about himself.

And declaring 'war' on his own people.

Trying to shut them up with violence.

That there are people that ACTUALLY supports him.

That there are people who care more about property damage, and their own skin, instead for those that have been constantly subjected to discrimination all their lives.

That people people have actually gotten injured, or died protesting.

The pain is deeper than you expect.

It is sad to see.

911 is nothing but a number now.

The world is watching.

I chose to blackout everything I was on.

Here for this 💯.

Black Lives Matter.

And if you don't see that,

Maybe you're part of the problem.

Love, Eran.

Current Song Mood #1: Lady Gaga - Chromatica II

Current Song Mood #2: Lady Gaga - 911

Turning up emotional faders
Keep repeating self-hating phrases
I have heard enough of these voices
Almost like I have no choice

This is biological stasis
My mood's shifting to manic places
Wish I laughed and kept the good friendships
Watch life, here I go again

I can't see me cry
Can't see me cry ever again (Ooh)
I can't see me cry
Can't see me cry this is the end (Ooh)

My biggest enemy is me
Pop a 911
My biggest enemy is me
Pop a 911
My biggest enemy is me
Ever since day one
Pop a 911
Then pop another one

Keep my dolls inside diamond boxes
Save them till I know I'm gon' drop this
Front I've built around me oasis
Paradise is in my hand
Holding on so tight to this status
It's not real but I'll try to grab it
Keep myself in beautiful places
Paradise is in my hands

I can't see me cry
Can't see me cry ever again (Ooh)
I can't see me cry
Can't see me cry this is the end (Ooh)

My biggest enemy is me
Pop a 911
My biggest enemy is me
Pop a 911
My biggest enemy is me
Ever since day one
Pop a 911
Then pop another one
(Pop another one)
Pop a 911
Then pop another one

I can't see me cry
Can't see me cry ever again (Ooh)
I can't see me cry
Can't see me cry this is the end (Ooh)

My biggest enemy is me
Pop a 911
My biggest enemy is me
Pop a 911
My biggest enemy is me
Ever since day one
Pop a 911
Then pop another one

Please patch the line
Please patch the line
Need a 911, can you patch the line
Please patch the line
Please patch the line
Need a 911, can you patch the line

Chromatica I // Alice

Page 1379

Hello June.

Man.. half of the year has passed already.

It's been a happening year indeed.

Well, let's talk about Gaga's new album.

She's gone to her old pop ways.

But in a totally new way.

I cant explain it.

But it feels so refreshing.

I don't know how she does it.

I'd never thought I'd find myself liking House music. Or dance pop.

Or whatever you call it.

I just feel all the passion she puts into her songs.

It makes me feel empowered.

And the best part - makes me dance uncontrollably.

I think that's just wonderful.

Thank you Gaga.

For introducing us to the world of Chromatica.

It is not just an album, but an experience.

My name isn't Alice.

But I'll keep searching for my Wonderland.

Love, Eran.

Current Song Mood #1: Lady Gaga - Chromatica |

Current Song Mood #2: Lady Gaga - Alice

My name isn't Alice
But I'll keep looking, I'll keep looking for Wonderland
My name isn't Alice
But I'll keep looking, I'll keep looking for Wonderland, Wonderland

Ah-ah-ah-oh, ah-ah-ah
Set me free
Ah-ah-ah-oh, ah-ah-ah
Set me free

Could you pull me out of this alive?
Ah-ah-ah-oh, ah-ah-ah
Where's my body? I'm stuck in my mind
Ah-ah-ah-oh, ah-ah-ah

Oh ma-ma-ma, oh ma-ma-ma
I'm tired of screaming
Oh ma-ma-ma, oh ma-ma-ma
At the top of my lungs
Oh my mother, oh my mother
I'm in the hole, I'm falling down, down, so down, down

My name isn't Alice
But I'll keep looking, I'll keep looking for Wonderland
My name isn't Alice
But I'll keep looking, I'll keep looking for Wonderland, Wonderland

Take me home
Take me to Wonderland, Wonderland
Take me home
Take me to Wonderland, Wonderland

Sick and tired of waking up
Screaming at the top of my lungs
Think I might have just left myself behind
Maestro, play me your symphony
I will listen to anything
Take me on a trip, DJ, free my mind

My name isn't Alice
But I'll keep looking, I'll keep looking for Wonderland
My name isn't Alice
But I'll keep looking, I'll keep looking for Wonderland, Wonderland

Take me home
Take me to Wonderland, Wonderland
Take me home
Take me to Wonderland, Wonderland

Take me home
Take me to Wonderland, Wonderland
Take me home
Take me to Wonderland, Wonderland

Ah-ah-ah-oh, ah-ah-ah
Set me free
Ah-ah-ah-oh, ah-ah-ah-oh
Set me free