Angels Like You

Page 1454

I get so nostalgic sometimes. With a tinge of sadness.

Looking back at old Facebook memories.

Seeing close friends becoming.. strangers.

It's inevitable huh? That's adulting. Your friends just keep getting lesser and lesser.

Sometimes I come across their insta stories, Social media, Whatever. (I really shouldn't)

And see how well they've moved on with their lives.

Getting married.

Having their own house.

Going out with the ol gang.

Just happy. And living a life.

I am really happy for them.

Really.

Even if I'm not a part of it anymore.

Angels like you guys,

deserve all the happiness.

So I'll just.. Watch from afar.

And cherish whatever memories I have left.

Love, Eran.

Current Song Mood: Miley Cyrus - Angels Like You

Flowers in hand, waiting for me
Every word in poetry
Won't call me by name, only "Baby"
The more that you give the less that I
Need everyone says I look happy
When it feels right

I know that you're wrong for me
Gonna wish we never met on the day I leave
I brought you down to your knees
'Cause they say that misery loves company
It's not your fault I ruin everything
And it's not your fault I can't be what you need
Baby, angels like you can't fly down hell with me
I'm everything they said I would be
La-la-la
I'm everything they said I would be

I'll put you down slow, love you, goodbye
Before you let go, just one more time
Take off your clothes, pretend that it's fine
A little more hurt won't kill you
Tonight my mom says, "You don't look happy"
Close your eyes

I know that you're wrong for me
Gonna wish we never met on the day I leave
I brought you down to your knees
'Cause they say that misery loves company
It's not your fault I ruin everything
And it's not your fault I can't be what you need
Baby, angels like you can't fly down hell with me
I'm everything they said I would be

I know that you're wrong for me
Gonna wish we never met on the day I leave
I brought you down to your knees
'Cause they say that misery loves company
It's not your fault I ruin everything
And it's not your fault I can't be what you need
Baby, angels like you can't fly down hell with me, oh-oh
Angels like you can't fly down hell with me

Forever

 Page 1453

There goes the weekends.

It's taking a lot lately for me to get ready to face the week.

Especially a long week ahead.

I guess it's just anxiety.

But I'm glad I got to spend time with my partner this weekend.

Thank you for always being there for me.

Nothing else matters.

I wish we could stay cuddled up forever.

But let's just face the music, until the next time we meet. 

Love you always. 💕

Love, Eran.

Current Song Mood: Red Brown, Keshi - Forever

[Verse 1: rei brown]

Didn't know that I felt like that

If I told you, would you love me back?

Do you feel we could be like that

And I wish it didn't hurt this bad

Every time we say goodbye

I get lost inside your eyes

Forever, ever, ever, ooh

Ever, ever, ever, no

Think about you all the time, and

I just wanna make you mine

Forever, ever, ever, ooh

Ever, ever, ever, mmh

[Verse 2: keshi]

Why's it hurt so good with you?

(Heart's on fire, baby, that's alright)

When we play, we always lose

(Say you'll love me through the night)

In my heart I always knew

(That's alright)

That I can't escape from you

[Chorus: keshi]

Every time we say goodbye

I get lost inside your eyes

Forever, ever, ever, mm

Ever, ever, ever, no

Think about you all the time

I just wanna make you mine

Forever, ever, ever, mm

Ever, ever, ever, ooh

[Verse 3: rei brown]

And I wanna keep stalling

It had left me so confused

If I'm gonna keep falling

I'll fall for you

(All my life)

[Chorus: keshi, rei brown]

Every time we say goodbye

I get lost inside your eyes

Forever, ever, ever, ooh (Forever, ever, ever)

Ever, ever, ever, noo (Ever, ever, ever) (Say goodbye)

(All my life)

Think about you all the time

I just wanna make you mine

Forever, ever, ever, mmh (Forever, ever, ever)

Ever, ever, ever, ooh (Ever, ever, ever)

[Chorus: keshi, rei brown]

Every time we say goodbye

I get lost inside your eyes

Forever, ever, ever, ooh

Ever, ever, ever, noo

Think about you all the time

I just wanna make you mine

Forever, ever, ever, mmh

Ever, ever, ever, ooh

The Bottom Line

 Page 1452

Saturday passed by so fast.

A long-awaited breakfast date.

Walked around JEM for disappointing Black Friday sales.

A heavy lunch (had fun making it), and a new creepy horror film.

A couple of cries and laughter later,

We put on face masks and laid in bed.

It felt so invigorating.

The Bottom line is,

That each day, I'm trying my personal best.

To keep going.

Just to feel like myself.

And I do.

I'm thankful for everything.

My partner.

My job.

My home.

A simple life.

And that, is enough.

Love, Eran.

Current Song Mood: Olafur, Josin - The Bottom Line

Come on, come up
It's all or nothing
No warning
A one wake up
A one wake up

When you're called back

Open your eyes
Become or be lost
Suck it all up
The one last shot
The one last shot

Covered by rats
That cover your tracks
The one wake up
How to go back?

Come on, come on
Be the water
Be all or nothing
When you sink back
In a vast ocean
Cut it all open inside
Curl yourself up and
Cry your bones dry

This is the bottom line and now you're open
This is the bottom line and now you're open

Prisoner

 Page 1451

Left work today feeling like a prisoner finally breaking free.

It's been a loooong & draining week.

Dodging negativity left and right.

Dragging myself out of bed each morning just to go workout.

Prepping meals to get through the week.

It's been tedious, I must admit.

But I feel more in control of myself.

It's really.. all in the mind.

The progress is slow but- 

It's there.

And I'm just going to..

Keep going.

Time to enjoy the weekends.

x

Love, Eran.

Current Song Mood: Miley Cyrus Ft Dua Lipa - Prisoner

Prisoner, prisoner
Locked up, can't get you off my mind, off my mind
Lord knows I tried a million times, million times, oh whoa
Why can't you, why can't you just let me go?

Strung out on a feeling, my hands are tied
Your face on my ceiling, I fantasize
Oh, I can't control it, I can't control it

I try to replace it with city lights
I'll never escape it, I need the high
Oh, I can't control it, I can't control it

You keep making it harder to stay
But I still can't run away
I gotta know why can't you
Why can't you just let me go?

Prisoner, prisoner
Locked up, can't get you off my mind, off my mind
Lord knows I tried a million times, million times, oh whoa
Why can't you, why can't you just let me go?

Prisoner, prisoner
Locked up, can't get you off my mind, off my mind
Lord knows I tried a million times, million times, oh whoa
Why can't you, why can't you just let me go?

I tasted heaven now I can't live without it
I can't forget you and your love is the loudest
Oh, I can't control it, I can't control it

You keep making it harder to stay
But I still can't run away
I gotta know why can't you, why can't you just let me go?

Prisoner, prisoner
Locked up, can't get you off my mind, off my mind
Lord knows I tried a million times, million times, oh whoa
Why can't you, why can't you just let me go?

Prisoner, prisoner
Locked up, can't get you off my mind, off my mind
Lord knows I tried a million times, million times, oh whoa
Why can't you, why can't you just let me go?

(Prisoner)
Can't get you off my mind
Why can't you just let me go?
Million times
I wanna know why can't you, why can't you?
I wanna know why can't you, why can't you?
I gotta know why can't you, why can't you just let me go?

Cardigan

 Page 1450

Lately I've been timewalking.

All these flashbacks take me back in time.

A year ago, I was having the time of my life in Melbourne.

2 years ago, I was on annual leave and spent nights up, depressed and writing songs.

The times where I felt cold and alone.

 The times where I felt warmth and love.

So many emotions.

I feel like a used cardigan.

Full of memories, good & bad.

It's always.. this period.

The last few months of the year.

Where I go into reflection mode.

I look back in time, not to feel sorry for myself.

 But rather, to see how far I've grown.

And I'm going to just keep doing that.

Just keep being, my personal best.

Love, Eran.

Current Song Mood: Taylor Swift - Cardigan

Vintage tee, brand new phone
High heels on cobblestones
When you are young, they assume you know nothing
Sequin smile, black lipstick
Sensual politics
When you are young, they assume you know nothing

But I knew you
Dancing in your Levi's
Drunk under a streetlight, I
I knew you
Hand under my sweatshirt
Baby kiss it better, right

And when I felt like I was an old cardigan under someone's bed
You put me on and said I was your favorite
A friend to all is a friend to none
Chase two girls, lose the one
When you are young, they assume you know nothing

But I knew you
Playing hide-and-seek and
Giving me your weekends
I, I knew you
Your heartbeat on the High Line
Once in twenty lifetimes, I

And when I felt like I was an old cardigan under someone's bed
You put me on and said I was your favorite

To kiss in cars and downtown bars
Was all we needed
You drew stars around my scars
But now I'm bleeding

'Cause I knew you
Stepping on the last train
Marked me like a bloodstain, I
I knew you
Tried to change the ending
Peter losing Wendy
I, I knew you
Leaving like a father
Running like water, I
When you are young, they assume you know nothing

But I knew you'd linger like a tattoo kiss
I knew you'd haunt all of my what-ifs
The smell of smoke would hang around this long
'Cause I knew everything when I was young
I knew I'd curse you for the longest time
Chasing shadows in the grocery line
I knew you'd miss me once the thrill expired
And you'd be standing in my front porch light
And I knew you'd come back to me
You'd come back to me
And you'd come back to me
And you'd come back

And when I felt like I was an old cardigan under someone's bed
You put me on and said I was your favorite

Us

 Page 1449

It's been such a long & draining week.

But alas, another Sunday has gone by too fast.

The weather today was fitting to the mood.

Gloomy and dark.

But we've made it through.

I'm glad I got to meet my partner today, despite the circumstances.

All we have is just us.

To hide away under the covers, and ignore the rest of the world.

Hugs.

To better days ahead.

Love, Eran.

Current Song Mood: Keshi - Us 

Tell me now
Is that the sound
Of all that we were building
Crashing down
All around us
And we never saw it coming

Maybe we never make it through
Say that you give another you
Well I won't take it
Or maybe I will
'Cause you never know until you do
If I had to guess I think it's you
So if I fake it
Would it be true

Maybe we've been
A little too caught up
In things that don't matter
As much as we thought
Maybe we've been
A little too guarded
From things that have hurt us
A bit more than we thought

Nothing more
Than love and war
But no one knows the difference
All or none
Call to tell me that
I'm not the one you wanted

Maybe we never make it through
Say that you give another you
Well I won't take it
Maybe I will
'Cause you never know until you do
If I had to guess I think it's you
So if I fake it
Would it be true

Maybe we've been
A little too caught up
In things that don't matter
As much as we thought
Maybe we've been
A little too guarded
From things that have hurt us
A bit more than we thought

Ups and downs
Going steady when you're not around
Go figure
Tell me now
Is that the sound of us?

The City Holds My Heart

 Page 1448

Staycation with my partner over the weekends.

It wasn't perfect (because Singapore's really boring + weekend crowds + deadly heat),

But we did all the things we wanted to.

 Got to cook. Ate a lot. Did photoshoots. Watched tonsss of movies. (Till we got sick and ended up watching animal documentaries instead)

And spent quality time together.

Heh.

It was fun.

I'm just grateful that I got to do it all, with you.

It's not the same as Melbourne. 

But at least it's something.

The city holds my heart.

And so do you.

Love, Eran.

Current Song Mood: Ghostly Kisses - The City Holds My Heart

babe

what do you want to know?

we’ve already been over this

a million times

wait

though i told you i would be

there when you needed me

can’t pretend to be

someone else

for you

and i know, i know, i know, i know

there is something missing

something that was always there before

and i know, i know, i know, i know

i’ll still love you

even worlds apart

the city holds my heart

within walls of gl-ss and steel

can’t you see i just can’t go?

these walls are all i know

the city holds my heart

like a sh-ll

i cannot feel surrounds

i want you to go

i’m scared to tell you so

babe, what do you want from me?

we’ve already tried everything

hold me

don’t ask me why i still can’t leave

this is where i feel at home

this is where my heart always belonged

and i know, i know, i know, i know

i’ll still love you

always in my dreams

the city holds my heart

within walls of gl-ss and steel

can’t you see i just can’t go?

these walls are all i know

the city holds my heart

like a sh-ll

i cannot feel surrounds

i want you to go

i’m scared to tell you so

even if you go

you remain a whisper in my dreams

even if you go

you remain a whisper in my dreams

even if you go

you remain a whisper in my dreams

even if you go

you remain a whisper in my dreams

Shut Up

 Page 1447

'Anything that can go wrong, will go wrong.'

'Great.' I muttered.

Remembering Murphy's law.

Things cant get anymore ironic.

My Monday at work started off pretty bumpy.

When things were falling apart and nothing was going as planned.

Issues. One after another.

But I laughed it off.

Each time.

Others that saw me fumble laughed too.

Because what else can you do?

Shit happens.

I spent the rest of the day helping other people.

When I didn't have to.

I was in a daze most of the time.

Just wanting to get things done.

It might look like I'm being taken advantage of.

I didn't mind.

Cause I happened to be free.

But why me?

Why choose me?

Sure I'm responsible. AF.

I get things done.

But I'm human too.

I get tired, too.

Lol.

Ok, I should shut up now.

I'm not complaining.

I like my job.

I'm thankful I have a job.

But sometimes, I feel like I'm meant for something more.

Love, Eran.

Current Song Mood: Ariana Grande - Shut Up

My presence sweet and my aura bright
Diamonds good for my appetite
Guess it fuckin' just clicked one night
All them demons helped me see shit differently
So don't be sad for me

How you been spending your time? (Huh)
How you be using your tongue? (Huh)
You be so worried 'bout mine (Huh)
Can't even get yourself none

You know you sound so dumb (So dumb, so dumb)
You know you sound so dumb (So dumb)

So maybe you should shut up
Hmm, yeah, maybe you should shut up
Said, if only you would shut up
Uh, yeah, that's right, you should shut up

I vibrate high and my circle lit
We ain't really with drugs and shit
Love the game so I never miss
Keep opinions muted for the hell of it
'Cause I like my shit

How you been spending your time? (Huh)
How you be using your tongue? (Huh)
You be so worried 'bout mine (Huh)
Can't even get yourself none

You know you sound so dumb (So dumb, so dumb)
You know you sound so dumb (So dumb)

So maybe you should shut up
Hmm, yeah, maybe you should shut up
Said, if only you would shut up
Uh, yeah, that's right, you should shut up

We Contain Multitudes

 Page 1446

We contain multitudes that no one else can comprehend.

'As we get bigger and bigger, the distance between ourselves and that other outside world becomes smaller and smaller.'

Ever since the start of my relationship, I've always felt a special connection to the times me and my partner share, cuddled up to each other at the end of the day.

Playing Olafur Arnalds.

I cant count the number of times I've cried to his beautiful music.

Or the number of times we just, express ourselves.

Our pain & sorrows.

It moves me. And makes me feel things I've never felt before.

I cant thank you enough for introducing me to this hidden gem of music.

This new album 'some kind of peace' is so transcendent.

It is therapy.

And it has been so helpful in our healing.

This music is what I've been looking for my whole life.

What we have has always been sacred. 

...And I'll hold on to it forever.

🤍

Love, Eran.

Current Song Mood: Olafur - We Contain Multitudes

Positions

 Page 1445

Dropped by the old workplace today.

It was such a weird feeling.

And awkward.

Seeing my old colleagues again. 

Considering we're in different positions in life now.

Everyone was surprised to see me of course.

Caught up a bit. 

Then went off to have lunch with my work sisters.

Hahah they're so fun to be around with.

It was really great to catch-up with each other.

I made so much spontaneous jokes and we laughed a lot.

Sometimes I wish I had sisters instead of brothers. 🤣

Went home after and just, slept the rest of the evening away.

What a day.

Love, Eran.

Current Song Mood: Ariana Grande - Positions

Normal People

 Page 1444

'You may not realise it but, you made such an impact on my life. You taught me patience and.. peace.' 

It made me happy to hear that.

Our intimate conversations with Olafur playing in the background.

It's what makes us special.

Just two normal people.

Constantly in a healing process.

Life is as such; a constant journey.

Nothing else matters in the world.

But having each other.

See you soon. x

Love, Eran.

Current Song Mood: Joji Ft Rei Brown - Normal People

The devil came back, he's dancing in your path
So you're acting like you need me now, hey
So tell me if I'm mad
There's something in your laugh
That makes me fear the way you smile, hey

It's hard to believe sometimes
We can pretend we're normal people
And I can repeat those times
We can pretend we're boring people
And it's hard to believe sometimes
We can pretend we're normal people
And I can repeat those times
And I can repeat those times, yeah

New planet, yeah, we planted
Everything we wanted
Your fragrance, covalence
I'm bound to, I'm bound to you
But the longer that we hide
Everything starts to hit me harder, hit me harder
But we're safe on the inside
Yeah, I know we're fine

The devil came back, he's dancing in your path
So you're acting like you need me now, hey
So tell me if I'm mad
There's something in your laugh
That makes me fear the way you smile, hey

It's hard to believe sometimes
We can pretend we're normal people
And I can repeat those times
We can pretend we're boring people
And it's hard to believe sometimes
We can pretend we're normal people
And I can repeat those times (Those times)
And I can repeat those times, yeah (Those times)