Tuesday, November 24, 2020

Cardigan

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Lately I've been timewalking.

All these flashbacks take me back in time.

A year ago, I was having the time of my life in Melbourne.

2 years ago, I was on annual leave and spent nights up, depressed and writing songs.

The times where I felt cold and alone.

 The times where I felt warmth and love.

So many emotions.

I feel like a used cardigan.

Full of memories, good & bad.

It's always.. this period.

The last few months of the year.

Where I go into reflection mode.

I look back in time, not to feel sorry for myself.

 But rather, to see how far I've grown.

And I'm going to just keep doing that.

Just keep being, my personal best.

Love, Eran.

Current Song Mood: Taylor Swift - Cardigan

Vintage tee, brand new phone
High heels on cobblestones
When you are young, they assume you know nothing
Sequin smile, black lipstick
Sensual politics
When you are young, they assume you know nothing

But I knew you
Dancing in your Levi's
Drunk under a streetlight, I
I knew you
Hand under my sweatshirt
Baby kiss it better, right

And when I felt like I was an old cardigan under someone's bed
You put me on and said I was your favorite
A friend to all is a friend to none
Chase two girls, lose the one
When you are young, they assume you know nothing

But I knew you
Playing hide-and-seek and
Giving me your weekends
I, I knew you
Your heartbeat on the High Line
Once in twenty lifetimes, I

And when I felt like I was an old cardigan under someone's bed
You put me on and said I was your favorite

To kiss in cars and downtown bars
Was all we needed
You drew stars around my scars
But now I'm bleeding

'Cause I knew you
Stepping on the last train
Marked me like a bloodstain, I
I knew you
Tried to change the ending
Peter losing Wendy
I, I knew you
Leaving like a father
Running like water, I
When you are young, they assume you know nothing

But I knew you'd linger like a tattoo kiss
I knew you'd haunt all of my what-ifs
The smell of smoke would hang around this long
'Cause I knew everything when I was young
I knew I'd curse you for the longest time
Chasing shadows in the grocery line
I knew you'd miss me once the thrill expired
And you'd be standing in my front porch light
And I knew you'd come back to me
You'd come back to me
And you'd come back to me
And you'd come back

And when I felt like I was an old cardigan under someone's bed
You put me on and said I was your favorite

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