Breathe

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Sometimes life just gets too toxic.

It suffocates you.

Others will always get in the way.

And try to voice their worthless opinions on how to live your life.

Fuck that.

Life is so short.

Do you, man.

I almost forgot how to breathe today.

Too caught up with my emotions.

Just breathe.

Through it all.

Your mental health is worth more than that.

Thank you UMI for calming down today.

Such a breath of fresh air.

And thank you to my partner for introducing me to amazing music.

(Ghostly Kisses is my new fave therapy).

Love, Eran.

Current Song Mood: UMI - Breathe 

If I give you more of me
Would you give me more of you?
Or will I be someone you knew?
Know you're used to being used
I guess this is suicidal, why you so suicidal?
And is it my fault when you cry, though?
Is it my fault that you hide, though?

'Cause I know you need the drugs to see the light, to feel the life inside your vein
Know you need the drugs to feel alive, to reassure yourself you're sane

So I know
And baby, I know, yeah
That it hurts to breathe, it hurts to breathe it in
And baby, I know, yeah
When it hurts to breathe, I hope you breathe it in

Know you're trying your best to stay afloat, yeah, yeah
I can tell it's harder for you than me, I know, yeah, yeah
And I don't wanna seem so insensitive to you
So I just need to find my way to tell myself

I know you need the drugs to find the meaning in the pain
Know you need the drugs to feel alive to reassure yourself you're sane

So I know
And baby, I know, yeah
That it hurts to breathe, it hurts to breathe it in
And baby, I know, yeah
When it hurts to breathe, I hope you breathe it in

Is it you you're fightin'?
And is the pain subsidin'?
You staring at yourself in the mirror, self in the mirror
Seeing that things don't change

So I know, I know, and I know
And, baby, I know, yeah, I know
That it hurts to breathe, it hurts to breathe it in, and I know
And baby, I know, yeah, I know
When it hurts to breathe, I hope you breathe it in

Oh
Oh, oh
Oh, oh, yeah
Hmm, hmm
Hmm, hmm

Breathe

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Life is full of surprises.

Decisions that could change your life in an instant.

No matter what happens next,

Just breathe.

It will all be okay.

Everybody's journey is different.

Just remember that,

I am here for you.

No matter what.

:)

Love, Eran.

Current Song Mood: Joji & Don Krez - Breathe

You found the best of me inside your feelings
The worst of me was waiting for that evening
It's just me these days, I can't say I'm great
I can't stop seeing your face on all these ceilings
You've saved me for the last time, I'm alright
I'll find somebody else to watch me die
Somebody I can push away and reel back in
Like the bait that I am, I am

So let me know, let me know when we gonna find the time
So let me know, let me know when I get a little bit wise
And if you hear me, get on the phone
Sedate me till I'm normal

Won't you be a darling, feel my rage
Let me feel fantastic, broke my cage
Hold my breath until you call my name again
I can't say what's on your mind but I know we feel the same
(The same)

(So let me know, let me know when we gonna find the time)
(So let me know, let me know when I get a little bit wise)
(And if you hear me, get on the phone)
(Sedate me till I'm normal)

Breathe

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Haven't been blogging lately because I've been busy helping out at my school's Open House! The past 3 days have been fun,  welcoming people and also I got to be in charge of the music which I LOVE. Haha.. so suitable for me. Also got to perform!!! 3 freaking times hahaha. 

First was me and Ida singing 'Made In The USA' again. So awkward at first but then I just let it out. I didn't forget my words this time and Ida said that I controlled my voice better! So happy to hear that :) Belting out feels SO good. Some of my lecturers didn't expect that from me haha.

My second and third performance was on the last day. I first contacted Ryan and told him I wanted to perform with him :) He was cool about it and we did 'Grenade' together along with Raqib! They were SO nice. Such a cool moment but I forgot one line and I don't think my voice is cut out for rock hahaha. But oh well at least I got to do it!

My last performance was with a WHOLE BAND :) This time there was Zaki, Farah and Raqib. And also the Yr 3 girl which I don't know her name haha! Man, she saved my ass! Really thank her because I knew the song but I didn't know all the words and she helped to back me up. :) She was VERY professional and I enjoyed watching her perform! We sang 'Still Into You' which I didn't even get a chance to practice AT ALL. So impromptu hahaha and my hands were shaking while reading the lyrics from my phone. But hey, I had such a fun time and I finally got to do a PARAMORE song!!! :D And I've always wondered what it felt like to sing in a band! Unforgettable moment. I hope I get to do it again sometime, and be more prepared for it. :))

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I had an emotional breakdown today. I have this habit of just running to the toilet when I'm about to cry. And I just let it all out inside there. And nobody will know. I don't know why I'm so negative today. Like God hates me and I'm all alone. Everything is making me upset and everyone is pissing me off. It's just been a bad, bad, horrible day. Sigh.

Love, Eran.

This song means a whole lot to me. I used to play it whenever I had emotional breakdowns during Secondary School.

Current Song Mood: Paramore - Breathe

I climb, I slip, I fall
Reaching for your hands
But I lay here all alone
Sweating all your blood
If I could find out how
To make you listen now
Because I'm starving for you here
With my undying love
And I, I will

Breathe for love tomorrow
Cause there's no hope for today
Breathe for love tomorrow
Cause maybe there's another way

I climb, I slip, I fall
Reaching for your hands
But I lay here all alone
Sweating all your blood

If I could find out how
To make you listen now
Because I'm starving for you here
With my undying love
And I, I will

Breathe for love tomorrow
Cause there's no hope for today
Breathe for love tomorrow
Cause maybe there's another way

Breathe for love tomorrow
Cause there's no hope for today
Breathe for love tomorrow
Cause maybe there's another way

I climb, I slip, I fall
Into your empty hands
But I lay here all alone
Sweating all your blood