I Am

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Doesn't matter does it?

I'll do it if it feels right.

I don't need anyone's validation.

Not gonna put in effort for people who don't appreciate me.

Others know how hard I work.

No matter how hard I'm being shot down.

Whether you care or not.

Doesn't matter.

I'm trying.

I am.

Love, Eran.

Current Song Mood: Jorja Smith - I Am

Try it if it feels right (try it)
Try it if it feels right, yah
When you try
Ohh, ohh

[Jorja Smith:]
I'm trying
I'm just, I'm just
I been out here tryin' to see my homecoming
And of course somebody is always gonna say something
Try and shoot me down for voicing my own opinion
Triggering a part of me that's always been indifferent

And I know that we have asked for change
Don't be scared to put the fears to shame

When you know what you got
Sacrifice ain't that hard
Feel like depending on me
Sometimes we ain't meant to be free
When you know what you got
Sacrifice ain't that hard
Feel like depending on me
Sometimes we ain't meant to be free

Open up this letter, you ain't tryin' to be
You been blind to the subject but not blind to me
And I know that this margin ain't too small to me
Not too real, not too much anymore, not alone

And I know that we have asked for change
Don't be scared to put the fears to shame

When you know what you got
Sacrifice ain't that hard
Feel like depending on me
Sometimes we ain't meant to be free
When you know what you got
Sacrifice ain't that hard
Feel like depending on me
Sometimes we ain't meant to be free

[Jorja Smith (Kendrick Lamar):]
If who I am offends you
Don't feel sorry
Don't feel, don't feel sorry
Don't feel, don't feel sorry
(My loss is worth more than your wins)
(I'm satisfied if it starts to look in)
That is everything, that is everything, that is everything
That is everything
That is everything
I try to make it stop
I do want you want to stop
I try to make it stop
I do want you want to stop
I try to make it stop
I do want you want to stop
I try to make it stop
I do want you want to stop
I try to make it stop
I do want you want to stop

I Am

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I really don't know where to start.

Or what to say.

I'll just leave it to my other social media.

I've been so uneasy the whole day. 

And I will continue to the whole night as I head back camp tonight.

Stay strong please.

Hang in there for us.

I know I'm stronger than this. 

I know I Am.

Love, Eran.

Current Song Mood: JoJo - I Am

Mirror mirror on the wall

You seem to think you know it all

Why do, why do I believe?

You tear me down just to laugh

But if I break your shiny glass

I just see pieces of me

No, no, no don't you dare

Who do you think you are standing there?

I tell you

I am, I am, I am, I am worthy of love

Am I, am I, am I, am I strong enough?

Because it feels like I'm not anything at all

But I am, I am, I am, I am beautiful

Fool me once, shame on you

Fool me twice, that's what you do

It's time to change up the game

Can't be that little girl no more

The one you cut up on the floor

I'm done with all the shame

And no, no, don't you dare

Who do you think you are standing there?

I tell you

I am, I am, I am, I am worthy of love

Am I, am I, am I, am I strong enough?

Because it feels like I'm not anything at all

But I am, I am, I am, I am beautiful

There was a time when I let you in

Feed on the doubt underneath my skin

I think it's time that I see the way

I am, I am, I am, I am worthy of love

Am I, am I, am I, am I strong enough?

Because it feels like I'm not anything at all

But I am, I am, I am, I am beautiful

I Am

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So tired. Met up with 2 of my makchicks today hehe, Ida and Syah. It's been a while... and we're all pretty much the same hehe.

Had supper with Ida at BP then headed to CCK to meet Syah. We lepak-ed at her place and started the heart to heart discussions.

I really let everything out.

It felt damn good.

After all this time. I finally realised.. I had nothing to lose.

I've been wasting precious time with the wrong person all this while.

I feel highly empowered tonight.

I'll care for the people who give an actual fuck about me.

I'll love those who deserve my love.

I'll continue doing what I love.

I'll become who I'm supposed to be.

I'll be somebody greater than him.

I'll be someone greater than he WILL EVER BE.

This is who I'll become.

This is who I AM.

Love, Eran.

And you can't take that away from me.

Current Song Mood: Leona Lewis - I Am

I thought the moment I was leaving
Barely breathing
Fall to pieces, couldn't face this
Why would I be leaving?
I was believing
It's you and me against the world

Not saying I was afraid of you
Won't put the blame on you
But I won't change for you
Just when you thought you dropped me
I gotta drop the news, I'm still existing
I'm still here

I am with or without you
I am breathing without you
I am somebody without you
I am, I am
I am free without you
I am stronger without you
Thought I would never rise again
But I am, I am

First steps that I was making
On this new planet
Never done, found all I wanted
The world was so forgiving
Open-hearted
Warm and loving, amazing

I never once regretted it
And I'll break my bread
I'm revealed again
All of the mistakes that I made
Finally led the way
To a better place

I am with or without you
I am breathing without you
I am somebody without you
I am, I am
I am free without you
I am stronger without you
Thought I would never rise again
But I am, I am

First my remedy, now my poison
Won't get down to love until I'm afraid to live
Oh yeah

I am with or without you
I am stronger without you
Thought I would never rise again
But I am, I am

Ooh yeah
I am me
Ohhhh