Showing posts with label Lonely. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Lonely. Show all posts

Friday, March 19, 2021

Lonely

 Page 1498

Finally!

The weekends at laaast.

Been a while. 

I've had a pretty hectic week.

Been... taking up a part time job.

Yes, even I didn't expect myself to.

But the money's good, so why not?

And it's a good experience.

Sorta like.. giving back to the community.

I like it.

It makes me feel whole. :)

It's always fun working with people you know too.

Met some interesting folks.

Even those teasing me about being a 'recording artist.'

Hahaha.

They even played my song in the hall. 

I- 

Died.

Lmao.

Ya'll are funny.

I just hope I don't push myself too much.

Once or twice a week is fine.

But I feel good about it.

Gonna grab every chance, while it's still there.

Lately being around people can be pretty overwhelming.

People know how I work.

And I have patients that like to approach me to attend to them first.

I am not bragging. But it is honestly tiring.

There is only 1 me. 

I just want to hibernate in a corner somewhere.

Let me be the lonely loner that I am.

Love, Eran.

Current Song Mood: Justin Bieber & Benny Blanco - Lonely

Everybody knows my name now
But something 'bout it still feels strange
Like looking in a mirror, trying to steady yourself
And seeing somebody else

And everything is not the same now
It feels like all our lives have changed
Maybe when I'm older, it'll all calm down
But it's killing me now

What if you had it all
But nobody to call?
Maybe then you'd know me
'Cause I've had everything
But no one's listening
And that's just fucking lonely

I'm so lo-o-o-onely
Lo-o-o-onely

Everybody knows my past now
Like my house was always made of glass
And maybe that's the price you pay
For the money and fame at an early age
And everybody saw me sick
And it felt like no one gave a shit
They criticized the things I did
As an idiot kid

What if you had it all
But nobody to call?
Maybe then you'd know me

'Cause I've had everything
But no one's listening
And that's just fucking lonely

I'm so lo-o-o-onely
Lo-o-o-onely
I'm so lo-o-o-onely
Lo-o-o-onely

Sunday, December 17, 2017

Lonely

Page 944

Somehow today's events seem to have triggered unwanted memories. 

Going through old messages is just.. never a good idea.

I found myself looking through your past messages.

How.. different you were.

You told me all sorts of things.

Things you liked about me.

Things we had in common.

But what about now?

It's like all of that never even happened.

Just a fragment of the past.

Slowly fading away.

All you did was leave me fucking lonely.

And it breaks my heart thinking about it.

Because you don't even care anymore.

But it doesn't matter now.

Life goes on.

Cause.. I've found someone that does.

Love, Eran.

Current Song Mood: Demi Lovato Ft Lil Wayne - Lonely

[Demi Lovato:]
He felt just like you
His arms, his lips
His promises were just as smooth
His grip, it fit though I'll admit that
Only you could make me feel the way you do
Though you know love is blind
And he just caught my eye

You know me, and honestly I'm better without ya
Don't you got me checking on my phone by the hour
Baby, I'm hoping and praying
My knees weak, I'm shaking
'Cause you know that I always needed saving

Now I'm fucking lonely, and you didn't want me
Trying to show me that you didn't own me
But all you do is leave me, fucking lonely
Knees on the concrete, cut up and bleeding
For no Goddamn reason, but all you do is leave me
Fucking lonely
Leave me fucking lonely
Leave me fucking lonely
Leave me fucking lonely

The month was June
The smoky sun, our fatal run
It ended too soon
With tears as proof, 'cause all the carpets stained with juice
Blood on my shoes and you know love is blind
I can see it in your eyes

You know me, and honestly I'm better without ya
Don't you got me checking on my phone by the hour
Baby, I'm hoping and praying
My knees weak, I'm shaking
'Cause you know that I always needed saving

Now I'm fucking lonely, and you didn't want me
Trying to show me that you didn't own me
But all you do is leave me, fucking lonely
Knees on the concrete, cut up and bleeding
For no Goddamn reason, but all you do is leave me
Fucking lonely
Leave me fucking lonely
Leave me fucking lonely
Leave me fucking lonely

[Lil Wayne:]
Bitch can't even say I miss you back over the fuckin' text
Every time you slept over my pad, you over fuckin' slept
Toni Braxton told me to breathe again, don't hold no fuckin' breath
Gave your ass directions to my heart, and your ass busted left
Climbin' up the money tree, the tree without the lover's nest
'Cause lovebirds are some busy bees
You fuck around, you stung again
And you didn't leave in your underwear
'Cause she didn't arrive in no underwear
Look baby, either love is blind or nothing's there because
I can't see the forest from the tree, the water from the sea
And I was starting to believe, but it's a forest full of dreams
I smoke forests full of weed, and call you when I see you
And when you leave, I hope you know you bring
This forest to his leaves, I'm fucking lonely

[Demi Lovato:]
Lonely
Leave me fucking lonely
Leave me fucking lonely
Leave me fucking lonely