Remember Who I was

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Man.

I don't even know where to start.

This year has been transcendent.

Taking this time to remember who I was.

I got into my Medic Course in Dec, Passed out in March.

Got posted to OCS (dream unit), and became the IC in one of the Departments.

One of the most challenging yet fulfilling roles. It was perfect for me.

It's been a WONDERFUL year for music as well.
JoJo made a comeback after 10 friggin years.
BANKS put our her amazing spiritual second album.
They're the major influences in my sound.
And I can't wait to see them live.

Did more photoshoots this year.
White Chocolate Edition
Tunnel Vision Edition.
All of which were taken by my talented friends.

I got to perform at least 3 times live the past year.

That's my biggest achievement yet.

I'm in the process of working on Original content.

Yes, it'll come.

My passion is burning alive.

More than ever.

I've also been focusing on myself this year.
Mainly my health and fitness.
Gymming frequently and also pampering myself
with facial products cause you gotta look good ;)
MOISTURISE.
Lol.

Though hardship was inevitable.

Grandma had a stroke, right on my 21st birthday.

Everything hasn't been the same since. But Grandma is a fighter.

And she's still on the road to recovery even at this moment.

I got into a health scare the second half of the year. It's still ongoing. But I need to have faith that everything will be alright. And I know it will.

Brunei Trip was the peak of the challenge. You can read my June posts. Life-changing. Especially when I saved my own Buddy.

An old flame tried to get my attention again.

I was shookt for a bit, but then, the anger came.

You don't deserve my time.

Not after everything that's happened.
Next.

Fallen in and out of love constantly.
But I'm learning something new everytime.
And becoming more wiser.
Thank you to all the people I've met.
And left.
Making love has never felt more passionate.

I'm in my happy place right now.

Contented with everything.

Perfectly alone, me myself & I.

Life is unpredictable.

Funny how things work out.

I hope it continues to.

Excited for greater things to happen next year.

Bring it On.

Love, Eran.

Current Song Mood: James Arthur - Remember Who I Was

I know I hurt you, I was so unkind
I was ungrateful, I wasted your time
But I was young and lost, so lost
See, you took this poor boy and changed his whole life
Granted his wishes and dreams overnight
And I saw stars, they shot me down
But I deserved it, they knocked me out

I'm just waking up now, in the tears of the one's I love
It's quiet, I'll bet that everybody thinks I'm done
I need to get up now, I've been down here far too long
Two years I've been lost, now I remember who I was
Who I was, who I was

I am the one who beat me black and blue
No one can hurt all your feelings like you
Whoa, I know it, or validate
See, if you're a misfit and feel out of place
Or you don't like how you look, it's okay
'Cause someone will, but you need to love yourself
Don't end up like me, don't end up like me

I'm just waking up now, in the tears of the one's I love
It's quiet, I'll bet that everybody thinks I'm done
I need to get up now, I've been down here for too long
Two years I've been lost, now I remember who I was
Who I was, who I was (I've been down here for too...)
Who I was, who I was

Story Of My Life

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The year is finally coming to an end. 2013 has been such a roller coaster ride. There were ups and downs. I had my best moments, and I also had my lowest moments. But overall, I feel like I've lived it to the fullest. I've experienced and grown so much over the past year.

Some of my worst moments: 

Loving someone who doesn't love you back.
Not being in the same class as someone I liked back then.
My attachment in SGH. The CI drove me nuts and made me feel so demoralised.
Getting worked up over school events as an Exco member.
Getting treated like shit by someone I cared about.
Going through my first heartbreak. The one that makes your heart beat fast and you hyperventilate and so many shit goes through your mind. Didn't feel like doing anything for 2 weeks. Totally wasted my holidays. Damn. Didn't know what heartbreak was until I experienced it.

My best moments: 

Turning 18. It's an important milestone for me. Yes, it's a great big deal and it made me realise: I'm not gonna be young forever. I'm not gonna be 18 forever. So I have to live it to the fullest.

I fell in love again (Told myself I was never going to because of some things that happened in secondary school) with someone unexpected. That was in March haha. Someone whose appearance was different than personality. I fell in love with the personality.

I've went to 2 overseas trip - Philippines in March and China in September.

During Manila, It was my first time taking a plane (Yes believe it or not lol)
My first time in a hotel, living on my own.
My first time taking a jeepney there.
My first time in a swimming pool - I was THROWN inside LOL. Could've died but then I got saved and carried around like a baby xD.
Went on my first shopping spree ;) Shopped till I dropped.
Performed for the FIRST TIME on stage!! It was so impromptu and I was so nervous.

Okay back to Singapore: Went night cycling for the first time during my Exco chalet! Seriously #YOLOed the shit out of that night I swear I escaped death lots of times. ._. At least my cycling has improved.

Getting into the Exco was an unbelievable moment. I've never seen myself as a leader.

I've performed a total 3 times this year!! Like I've mentioned, the first one was in Manila. Sang 'Grenade' and I was so nervous because it was impromptu. My hands literally shook and I couldn't stay still haha. But the experience was priceless. :') It motivated me to be more daring and continue performing.

My second performance was during HS Day! Sang 'Stay' and this time I was more prepared for it. Chose the song because it was easy to sing but I was still unexperienced and rehearsals sucked for me. And also it was during the fasting period, so my voice was dry and I couldn't hit the notes. Really was on the verge of backing out.. But on the day itself, I saw familiar faces in the crowd and I wasn't that scared.. and gave it my all. :) And I did it.

^

My 3rd performance was my best. That was in China. Sang a duet with Ida. 'Made in China (USA)'. Lol! I was more confident this time and it felt amazing on stage. I remembered people coming up to me and shaking my hand and telling me how great I sounded. It motivates me so much. :') What an experience. Had so much fun.

In school, I got… my first counselling form LOL. Me? Counselling? And for what? Only late for one lesson lol. LATE. LOLOL. It's ridiculous.

My close cousin had her wedding in June. It was emotional watching her get all pretty and getting married - knowing how far she has come. So proud of her.

Meeting with wonderful people over Twitter haha. PrismHeaux! Love you all.

Been on a 'date'. And feeling like the luckiest person ever..
Getting my first kiss and.. ;)

Throughout my 2013 I've made lots of friends from overseas trips, Exco, attachments and even through Twitter. I've lived and I've loved and I feel so blessed. I've survived over-stressful situations. I feel like every challenging obstacle I face, I come out stronger at the end of it. Here's to a wonderful new year. I'm ready to start over. Bring it on, 2014. Happy New Year's Eve!

Love, Eran.

Current Song Mood: One Direction - Story Of My Life

Written in these walls are the stories that I can't explain

I leave my heart open but it stays right here empty for days

She told me in the morning she don't feel the same about us in her bones

It seems to me that when I die these words will be written on my stone

And I'll be gone gone tonight

The ground beneath my feet is open wide

The way that I been holdin' on too tight

With nothing in between

The story of my life I take her home

I drive all night to keep her warm and time

Is frozen (the story of, the story of)

The story of my life I give her hope

I spend her love until she's broke inside

The story of my life (the story of, the story of)

Written on these walls are the colors that I can't change

Leave my heart open but it stays right here in its cage

I know that in the morning

I'll see us in the light upon your ear

Although I am broken, my heart is untamed still

And I'll be gone gone tonight

The fire beneath my feet is burning bright

The way that I been holdin' on so tight

With nothing in between

The story of my life I take her home

I drive all night to keep her warm and time

Is frozen (the story of, the story of)

The story of my life I give her hope

I spend her love until she's broke inside

The story of my life (the story of, the story of)

And I've been waiting for this time to come around

But baby running after you is like chasing the clouds

The story of my life I take her home

I drive all night to keep her warm and time

Is frozen

The story of my life I give her hope (give her hope)

I spend her love until she's broke inside (until she's broke inside)

The story of my life (the story of, the story of)

The story of my life

The story of my life (the story of, the story of)

The story is my life